Sight Unseen

by Robert Goddard

  ‘Of course not.’

  ‘Maybe you should.’ She gazed ahead for a long, vacant interval, then said, ‘Can I tell you later? I just … don’t want to talk about it right now.’

  ‘OK.’

  ‘But I will talk about it.’ She glanced at him. ‘I promise.’

  They entered St Helier and drove through the Fort Regent tunnel, then followed the main road out to the east until Chantelle pointed out the Hotel Talana ahead of them. Umber pulled into the car park at the rear and Chantelle went in to change her clothes, pack her few belongings and check out.

  While she was gone, Umber fetched the camcorder from the boot and unloaded the cassette. The tape was only part-used, as good a confirmation as he needed that it held the recording of his meeting with Wisby. He dropped the cassette onto the ground and stamped on it several times, smashing the plastic case and the spools inside. He dragged the tape out of the wreckage and shoved it into his pocket for later destruction. At least he did not have to worry about being fitted up as Wisby’s accomplice now, though there was no telling what Wisby would say about him to the police. For that reason if for no other, an early departure from Jersey was essential.

  Back in the car, Umber checked through Waldron’s wallet. It turned out to contain several hundred pounds and a couple of credit cards, one for John E. Walsh, the other for Edward J. Waldron. There was nothing else.

  It was only as he closed the wallet that a thought caught up with Umber relating to Wisby. And a disturbing thought it was.

  Wisby had no way of knowing Umber was not party to the plot against him. He would in fact assume Umber was very much a party to it. His best hope of persuading the police to believe he had been framed was to tell at least some of the truth about his reasons for visiting Jersey and to finger Umber as a treacherous accomplice. As matters stood he could not prove Umber had played any part in blackmailing Jeremy Hall, but he could prove Umber had been working with George Sharp, another self-proclaimed victim of a frame-up. If the police then learned there had been a killing at Jeremy’s flat, they would eventually go to see Sharp’s solicitor. Burnouf would probably be sufficiently alarmed by what had happened, and genuinely concerned for the safety of a client he had heard no more from since the previous week, to give them sight of the statement the client had left with him – a statement in which Umber had made it very clear he was in Jersey to extract information from Jeremy Hall by whatever means he could devise.

  Umber glanced at his watch. It was nearly six o’clock. If it was not already too late for conducting business at Le Templier & Burnouf, it surely would be by the time he got there. So, either he left the statement where it was … or he was not leaving Jersey as soon as he wanted to.

  Another quarter of an hour had passed before Chantelle returned to the car. She must have read Umber’s heightened anxiety in his expression, because the first words she spoke to him were, ‘What’s wrong?’

  Plenty was the answer. But what Umber actually said was, ‘There’s been a change of plan.’

  TWENTY-SEVEN

  ‘I’M NOT GOING alone.’

  It was the third or fourth time Chantelle had said so and Umber had reluctantly concluded that she meant it. They were sitting in Umber’s hire car in a desolate corner of the Airport car park, watching the light fade slowly beyond the terminal building as the last flights of the day came and went. Chantelle’s refusal to leave without him that night would soon become unalterable, because leaving that night would soon become impossible.

  ‘Jem put me on a ferry to St Malo on Thursday and told me he’d join me there the next day. But he was dead by then. I waited for him. But he never came. I don’t want to do that again. I’ve spent too much of the past few years alone, Shadow Man. I can’t do it any more.’

  ‘It’s too risky to stay, Chantelle.’

  ‘You’re staying.’

  ‘Because I’ve got to get that statement out of Burnouf’s office. I have no choice.’

  ‘Fine. Get the statement first thing tomorrow. Then we’ll go.’

  ‘OK,’ said Umber, glumly accepting the reality of her decision. ‘Have it your way.’

  ‘Do you think they’ll have found Eddie’s body yet?’

  ‘Maybe.’

  ‘And do you think they’ll be looking for us?’

  ‘If they’ve found him, for certain.’

  ‘Better not stay here, then, had we?’

  ‘Where do you suggest we go, Chantelle? It’s a small island.’

  ‘But not too small to hide in. Let’s get moving.’

  Trade was slack at the Prince of Wales, the hotel overlooking the beach at Grève de Lecq on Jersey’s north coast. Postcards for sale at reception depicted the bay in all its kiss-me-quick, bucket-and-spade summer jollity. The story on a windy night at the end of March was rather different. A couple of rooms were readily to be had at a knock-down rate.

  Umber tried to persuade Chantelle to eat something, but she insisted she was not hungry and in truth he had no appetite himself. After booking in, they walked down to the beach and stood among the deserted cafés and souvenir stalls as the sea crashed in, the surf a ghostly grey rim to the blackness of the night-time ocean.

  ‘You saw me that day, didn’t you, Shadow Man? The day my first life ended. The life I don’t even remember. You were at Avebury on the twenty-seventh of July, 1981.’

  ‘Me and a few others, yes.’

  ‘But most of them are dead, aren’t they? My sister. My brother. Your wife. All gone now.’

  ‘What about the day your second life ended, Chantelle? Can you bear to tell me about that?’

  ‘Reckon I’ve got to.’

  ‘It’d be good if you wanted to.’

  ‘I do. But it’s like …’ She looked round at him, her expression indecipherable in the darkness. ‘Jem never thought you’d team up with Wisby. That was a real shock to him, y’know.’

  ‘I didn’t team up with him.’

  ‘No. Guess you didn’t. But it looked like you had. And that tore something out of Jem. He’d thought of you as a … fellow-victim. He didn’t blame you. He only sent the letters to people he blamed … for not getting it right.’

  ‘Why did he send the letters, Chantelle? I mean, really, why?’

  ‘Why didn’t I stop him’s a better question. But that’s starting at the wrong end. I have to tell you about Sally first.’ She shivered. ‘Let’s go inside.’

  There was a trayful of paraphernalia for making tea and coffee in Umber’s room. He turned the radiator up to maximum while the kettle was boiling and went to pull the curtains, but Chantelle asked him to leave them open. He did not argue.

  He sat on the bed and Chantelle took the only chair, which she dragged close to the radiator. Energy was failing her almost visibly now. She looked drained and haunted and, somewhere deep inside, damaged. She sat hunched in the chair, holding her mug of coffee in both hands, sipping from it as she spoke, her voice barely above a whisper.

  * * *

  ‘I suppose I knew from my early teens there was something iffy about the way Da—’ She broke off for a second, then resumed. ‘About the way Roy made a living. And about the people he did business with. I never came out and asked. That wasn’t encouraged. I was spoiled rotten and I liked it. We had it soft in Monte Carlo. Big duplex looking straight out onto the Med. Everything I wanted. Plus loads of things I didn’t even know I wanted. Except … background. There was no family. No grandparents, aunts, uncles and cousins like my friends had. Unless you counted Uncle Eddie, which you can bet I didn’t. Just a blank. Only children of dead only children. That was Roy and Jean’s story. And they were sticking to it.

  ‘It didn’t bother me anyway. I was having too much fun. After I finished school, they wanted me to go to university and I thought, great, that’ll be in England. But no. They didn’t want that. Easy to see why now. At the time, I thought they were just being … over-protective. They were keen on Nice, so I could come home at weekends. M
y French was certainly up to it. We argued. In the end, I went nowhere. That pissed them off. I went with boys they didn’t approve of. That pissed them off some more. Then I met Michel and it was, like, all is forgiven. He was perfect as far as they were concerned. Even when I went to Paris with him.

  ‘Then came the Wimbledon trip. They couldn’t really object after going such a bundle on him. He was a tennis player, after all. And I didn’t know there was any reason why they should object. A fortnight in Paris had been no problem. So, what did they do? They came with us. Michel got them tickets for the tennis, of course. He more or less had to. He’d rented a flat near the club and I stayed with him there. Roy and Jean booked themselves into a plush hotel on Wimbledon Common. I thought – I honestly did – that they were just using my trip as an excuse to visit London. We saw some of the sights together while Michel was busy practising. Everything was OK. I mean, I’d have preferred them not to be there, but it wasn’t so bad. They didn’t crowd me. Though now, when I look back, I see what they really did was … mind me. Keep an eye on me. Make sure that whatever they couldn’t help worrying might happen didn’t happen.

  ‘But it happened anyway. Despite them. Despite all the precautions they’d taken over the years; all the things they’d ever done to prevent me asking or checking or finding out or wondering or somehow, against the odds, remembering … why there were no photographs of me as a baby, why we had no relatives, why that was the first time I’d ever been to England, why … why … why …’

  ‘Wednesday evening, it was. June twenty-third, 1999. Michel was still at the club, warming down after his second-round match. I’d gone back to the flat. Hadn’t been there more than a few minutes when Sally arrived. She’d followed me from the club, she said, after waiting all afternoon for me to leave. She told me who she was. Then she told me who I was.

  ‘I thought she was mad. Well, what else would I think? Michel thought the same when he arrived. More or less threw her out. Told me to forget about her. She was a crazy woman trying to get to him through me. Typical of him to decide it was all about him. We rowed. I went for a walk to clear my head. I didn’t believe Sally. But I didn’t exactly disbelieve her either, even then. What she’d said made a horrible kind of sense. It slotted into those holes in my life. It wasn’t something I could just ignore, however much I wanted to.

  ‘Sally hadn’t gone far, of course. She was waiting for me at the corner of the street, as I suppose I’d half-hoped she would be. Mad or sane? I didn’t know. But I wanted to hear more.

  ‘It was still light. I walked with her to Southfields Tube station. I listened as she talked. I even … let her hold my hand. I made a deal with her. I’d think about what she’d said. I’d ask my … “parents” … some questions and see what answers I got. I’d meet her on Friday morning, while Michel was with his coach, to talk some more. We agreed the boating lake in Wimbledon Park as a rendezvous. She kissed me and went into the station. There were lots of people about, trickling home from the tennis. I lost sight of her in the crowd. And I never saw her again.

  ‘I never got the chance to put any questions to Roy and Jean either. Michel had called them while I was out and they were at the flat when I got back. They were the ones asking the questions. Why had I let her in? Why had I talked to her? Why had I encouraged her? I was gobsmacked. It was like I’d done something wrong – really wrong. And I had, of course. Just when it ought to have been impossible, too late, way past any danger – I’d learned the truth.

  ‘I didn’t know that then, of course. I only knew their reaction was all wrong. It was so out of proportion if Sally was just a nutter. They were taking me back to Monte Carlo right away, they said. Michel sided with them, said he couldn’t concentrate on his tennis with so much going on. I saw through him that night as well. I didn’t bother to argue. I could tell it was a waste of breath. I said OK, fine, we’ll go. They were happy with that. They believed I meant it. They believed most things I said, actually. Just like I believed most things they said. Until then.

  ‘Roy and Jean went back to their hotel, saying they’d collect me in the morning. I decided there and then I wasn’t going to be collected. I started another row with Michel, knowing he’d react by storming out and driving round London in his sponsored Ferrari. He was a pretty predictable kind of guy. Once he was out of the way, I packed as much as I could into a rucksack – and left.

  ‘I walked all the way into the centre of London. It was a warm night. I remember sitting on the Embankment at dawn thinking you’ve done it now, girl, you really have. I wasn’t short of money, of course. I wasn’t homeless, like other people my age I saw on the streets. I bought breakfast, tried to stop feeling sorry for myself and asked a policeman where I could look up back copies of national newspapers. He said he’d never been asked that one before. But he knew the answer.

  ‘So, I ended up spending most of the day in the Newspaper Library at Colindale. As soon as I saw one of the photographs of Tamsin Hall, I knew. Sally had told me the truth. I read every report there was to read on the case. I stayed there till closing time. I went in as Cherie Hedgecoe. I came out … as someone else.

  ‘I spent that night at a hotel opposite Euston station. Early next morning, I went back to Wimbledon. It was risky, of course. I knew that. But I had to see Sally again. I had to tell her I believed her and ask her … what the fuck I was supposed to do next. I waited for her in the park for hours. Hours and hours. She never turned up, obviously. She was already dead by then. I didn’t find that out till I read it in the paper next morning, though. I was checking through it to see if I’d been reported missing. It looked like I hadn’t. Then I saw Sally’s photograph and the words in the headline: FOUND DEAD.

  ‘They’d killed her. I was certain of that. Not Roy and Jean. But whoever they’d told about her. Whoever was behind the whole crazy fucking thing. They’d ordered her death like they’d ordered Tamsin’s abduction – my abduction. Eddie Waldron might have carried out the order. If not him, then someone like him. But who actually did it doesn’t matter. What matters is who gave the order. And why.

  ‘I still don’t know the answer. And back then I didn’t even want to find out. I was so frightened. So alone and so frightened. There was no-one I could trust. Sally had said my real parents had been suspiciously eager to believe Radd’s confession and that’s how it looked to me too. Like they might be in on it as well, whatever it was. I couldn’t fit all the possibilities inside my head. I was just … running scared.

  ‘So that’s what I did … I ran. For a long time. For years. India. Hawaii. South America. All over. I went wherever I wouldn’t be known. A guy I met in Nepal fixed me up with a fake French passport and I became Chantelle Fontanet. I’ll always be Chantelle now, Shadow Man. Never Cherie. Never even Tamsin. Chantelle is them added together. Them transcended.

  ‘But not forgotten. You can only run for so long. Sooner or later, pretending you don’t care what the truth is about your life doesn’t cut it any more. Last summer, or winter where I was, in Brazil, I came face to face with the realization that I couldn’t leave the mystery alone any longer. That I had to try … to find the real me … and the answers to all those questions.

  ‘Sally had told me Oliver and Jane were divorced. She’d also told me Jeremy was living with his father here in Jersey. Whatever was behind my abduction, however much my real parents knew, I felt sure Jeremy had to be innocent. He was only ten years old at the time, after all. I reckoned he was the one member of the family I might be able to trust. Might. I had to check him out first. I came to Jersey and tracked him down to St Aubin. I watched him going out with his sailing classes. I spied on him at the flat. I hung around, trying to work up the courage to approach him.

  ‘As it turned out, I didn’t have to. He approached me. He’d noticed the attention I was paying him and one day he surprised me on the steps up to Market Hill. Demanded to know what I was up to. I ummed and ahhed a bit. And then … then he said he recognized me. W
hat would you call it? Sibling instinct? I don’t know. But it was true. I saw it in his eyes. Just as he saw something in mine. “It’s you, isn’t it?” he said. “You’ve come back.” And I had.

  ‘Jem was on pretty poor terms with Oliver by then. He didn’t quite trust him any more. Or Marilyn. Things had never been the same since Radd’s confession, he said. There was no good reason to believe Radd was telling the truth. But they did. That left Jem out in the cold. The way he saw it, my turning up was his reward for keeping the faith. He was … exultant. High on the joy of it. So was I. Those first few months, last summer and autumn … were the best. Just the absolute best.

  ‘We rented a flat in St Malo. It seemed safer to spend most of our time together in France. Once the sailing season was over, Jem was hardly ever here. I had him all to myself. We were careful. I dyed my hair. And we never used mobiles. Too easy to trace, Jem said. He came up with the idea of coloured contact lenses as well. And he taught me to stop doing that thing with my lower lip that had caught Sally’s eye in Hello! People must have taken us for boyfriend and girlfriend. I suppose that’s how it felt to us too, in a way. It was a kind of romance. A voyage of rediscovery, Jem called it.

  ‘But there were still those questions, niggling away at us, itching to be asked … and answered. It seemed worse for Jem than for me. Our parents were two people I’d never known. But he’d loved and trusted them implicitly. He needed to know the truth more than I did. He couldn’t let it go.

  ‘It was Marilyn he was most suspicious of. She was spending more and more time in London. Oliver and her were virtually separated. When I described Eddie Waldron to Jem, he thought it sounded like a man he’d once seen Marilyn with, at the marina in St Helier. She came over for Christmas. Jem was expected to spend the holiday at Eden Holt and it would have looked odd if he’d refused, so off he went. He got into a row with them about Radd, he told me afterwards. And he asked Marilyn a lot of pointed questions about how she and Oliver had met.