Faye Kellerman - Decker 04 - Day of Atonement

by Day of Atonement

  Shimon said, 'Maybe we should phone the police?'

  Decker made a conscious effort to slow himself down. He explained that if N YPD was anything like LAPD, they wouldn't do anything for children over ten or eleven. It would be at least a twenty-four-hour wait before a missing-persons report would be filed.

  'But he's only a boy,' Shimon protested.

  'He's fourteen, considered a runaway rather than a kidnap victim—'

  'Chas vachalelah,' Shimon blurted out. 'My God, I can't believe this is happening.'

  How many times had Decker heard those words. The sense of unreality. But it was real and they needed a game plan. Decker told himself to speak simply. 'Look. Maybe he'll show in an hour, or maybe he'll show up tonight—'

  'But maybe not,' Jonathan said.

  'Don't say that!' Shimon scolded him.

  'Jonathan's right,' Decker said. 'It's possible that Noam won't show up tonight.' Or ever. But he was knew his negative thinking was an occupational hazard - an igniter to drive him to action. 'Time is important, people. I know you two aren't used to this like I am. But you can do a whole lot more with your neighbors than I can.'

  'We go door to door,' Jonathansaid. 'We ask if anyone has seen Noam. That's all?'

  Decker said, 'Use your eyes. If anyone suddenly turns red, buries his face, stutters, shakes, looks like he's hiding something - remember it and report back to me. There were a couple of kids that looked hinky to me when Ezra and I were out the first time. I'll go back and question them. But first I want to comb the area by car.'

  'Want me to come with you?' Jonathan asked. 'I'll drive so you can look.'

  'You must think it's very serious to break yom tov,' Shimon said to Decker.

  Decker didn't answer. Instead, he told Jonathan that he could look around by himself. He instructed the two brothers to go together. One should do the talking, the other should study the faces.

  'And look at the adults, too,' Decker said. 'Hate to say this but you can't rule out molestation—'

  'Not here,' Shimon said.

  'It's everywhere,' Decker said.

  'No, you don't know Boro Park,' Shimon insisted.

  Decker put his big hand on Shimon's shoulder.'OK. Have it your way. And I hope you're right. Just do me the favor and take a look at the adults.'

  'I'll keep my eyes open,' Jonathan said.

  'Do it that way,' Decker said. 'Shimon, you do the talking - you're more a part of the community. Jonathan, you observe.' He paused to catch his breath. 'Also, I'm very concerned about your mother, brother, and sister-in-law. Shimon, have your wife and sisters stay with Breina. Best thing to do with Ezra might be to send him to shut - keep his mind off of what's going on and make him feel like he's doing something—'

  'Tephila is doing something,' Shimon interrupted. 'Praying to Hashem is the single most

  important thing he could do right now!'

  No one spoke for a moment.

  'You know what he means, Shimmy,' Jonathan said.

  Shimon let out a deep breath. He said, 'Yes, I know, I know... I'm sorry. Go on.'

  Decker threw his arm around his shoulder. 'That's it. Hey, things like this do happen all the time. Kids stay away for a day, drive their parents completely nuts. Then they come sneaking in at two in the morning and wonder why everyone's so upset. Your brother and sister-in-law are the ones who'll need support until this thing is resolved.'

  'These kind of things get resolved?' Jonathan asked.

  'All the time,' Decker said.

  'Eemyirtzah Hashem,' Shimon said.

  'God willing,' Jonathan repeated.

  Eyes swollen and red, Ezra came back clutching a photo, then handed it reluctantly to Decker, as if parting with it was tantamount to the loss of his son. As he did with all missing-persons photographs, Decker studied it as if it were text.

  Noam Levine was a mature-looking boy, posed with a very cocky smile. He had a lean face, square chin made nappy by peach fuzz, strong cheekbones, a petulant mouth with thick lips. He had his father's dark complexion, his mother's bright blue eyes. There was something off about his expression. Decker stared at the photo until it hit him. Noam's mouth was smiling, but his eyes were troubled.

  'How tall is he?' Decker asked Ezra.

  'Big for his age,' Ezra said. 'Five seven or eight. Part of the problem. He always thinks he knows more than anyone else—' He stopped himself. 'What am I saying?'

  Decker weighed the possibilities, leaning toward the theory that Noam's disappearance was a voluntary decision. Big, burly boys usually don't get snatched - too strong, too much struggle. A child molester is an opportunistic beast. Steal the ones that go the quietest. The plus was that runaways were easier to find than kidnaped children. And there was the teenager's arrogant smirk. Boy seemed like a survivor.

  But he was still a child - a sheltered one at that. The streets of New York City could easily turn an impulsive adventure trip into a horror story.

  Decker pocketed the picture. To Ezra, he said, 'I want to talk to your children first.'

  'Why?' Ezra said, 'I told you they don't know anything.'

  'I'm sure you're right,' Decker said. 'It's just the way I was trained—'

  'If they say they don't know anything, they don't know anything.'

  'Ezra,' Shimon said, 'let him talk to the kids. What could it hurt?'

  'And I'd also like to look at Noam's room,' Decker said.

  'Look at his room?' Ezra said. His voice was full of suspicion. 'Why? What do you think you're going to find?'

  'Ezra,' Shimon said, 'just let him do it.' To Decker, he said, 'Aaron, my oldest nephew, has a key. He'll take you to the house.'

  'I can take him to the house,' Ezra protested.

  Jonathan put his arm around his brother, 'Let's go to shul, Ezra. We'll walk you there. Afterward, we can learn a little.'

  'Learn withyouV Ezra said.

  'Learn with me,' Jonathan said. 'What are you doing now? Masechet Sukkot? It's a masechet I know pretty well.'

  'We'll all learn together,' Shimon said. 'Come, Ezra.' He put his arm around Ezra's waist. 'Come.'

  Decker watched as Shimon and Jonathan gently guided Ezra out the door.

  Three of the same blood.

  Three brothers.

  The children had segregated themselves - the boys in one room, the girls in another. Eleven boys, eight girls - the Levines were a fecund bunch.

  Decker started with the girls. Ranging in age from three to fourteen, they sat in little groups, whispering and giggling. Because the preschoolers were so young and shy, many having just a rudimentary grasp of English, he decided to concentrate on the older ones - three cousins aged seven, eight, and fourteen, and Noam's eleven-year-old sister, Tamar. They were still dressed in their holiday clothing, full of lace and velvet and ornamented with jewelry - pearl earrings, gold chains, thin bracelets or watches. The oldest, Shimon's daughter, wore a string of pearls. She also had on heeled shoes and a touch of lipstick.

  They knew what was going on, their cousin or brother was missing. It was their job to help Decker find him. They seemed nervous and excited, but not unduly scared. It was as if Noam's disappearance was viewed as a tricky math problem waiting to be solved.

  As they talked further, Decker realized that to them, Noam was an enigma - a loner, a strange boy with creepy eyes. Even Noam's sister viewed him with trepidation. A very strange reaction. Most sisters might

  view a brother as an object of hatred or jealousy. But a brother was not usually feared.

  It was clear that the girls had kept their distance from Noam. But that didn't stop them from throwing out suggestions as to where he might be. Most of the proposals were exotic and off the wall - akin to Noam running off and joining the circus.

  Their offerings might have been wonderful projective tests, but Decker didn't feel they gave a clue to the boy's location. He thanked the young ladies for their time.

  The boys were holed up in a guest bedroom that was hot and
stuffy from sweat and hormones. The younger kids were running around, crashing into the twin beds and the walls. Five older ones had taken out a Talmud and were learning in the corner. All wore black hats and had their hair cut Marine-short, which drew Decker's attention to their ears. Some were big, some flat, some had banjo lobes, some stuck out like Alfred E. Newman's. As he approached the group, one of the older boys put down the volume of Talmud and looked up. He had blue eyes, soft skin, also with a hint of peach fuzz. His features were those of Noam Levine, but softer, more rounded. He appeared to be around fifteen.

  'Hi,' Decker said. 'Aaron Levine?'

  The teenager nodded.

  'Your uncle Shimon said you have a key to your house.' Decker said. 'I want to look through Noam's room.'

  Again, Aaron nodded.

  'Does he have his own room?' Decker asked.

  'He shares with me and Boruch.'

  Aaron's eyes fell upon his younger brother. Boruch was around twelve. There was a definite family

  look - smooth skin, blue eyes, good jawline, dark hair. All of them resembling Breina. But Noam, at least from the photograph, projected a huskier build.

  Decker told the brothers to hang on a moment and questioned the cousins first. The boys were polite and cooperative, anxious to help. The oldest one was Shimon's son. He was Aaron's age - almost sixteen - and didn't have much to do with Noam. The other two also kept their distance. They all explained that their cousin was prone to wandering off by himself, but they seemed genuinely puzzled by his disappearance on Rosh Hashanah. That was not like him. After five minutes more of questioning, Decker felt they really didn't know anything and let them go.

  Then he concentrated on Noam's brothers. Both Aaron and Boruch seemed nervous.

  Decker said, 'Any ideas where your brother might be?'

  The boys shrugged ignorance.

  'You must have some thoughts about it,' Decker pressed.

  . 'Noam keeps to himself. He's...' Aaron squirmed. 'Lashon harah.'

  Lashon harah - gossip. Disreputable in any society but a grave sin in Jewish Law. Decker said, 'Aaron, if Noam is missing, I need to know everything about him. Including the incidents that make him look bad.'

  'It's nothing like that,' Aaron said. His voice cracked. A faint blush rose in his cheeks. 'It's just... Noam has a hard time fitting in. And he can be pretty obnoxious about it sometimes. It's like he's either off by himself or bothering me or my friends.' The teenager adjusted his hat. 'Then... out of the blue, he'll be the nicest person

  in the world for about a week. Do all your chores for you, straighten up your clothes, just be real...nice. But it never lasts long. I can't figure him out. Honestly, I've given up trying.'

  Boruch was nodding in agreement.

  Decker said, 'That sound about right to you?'

  'Yes, sir,' Boruch said. 'Noam's always the one who remembers the birthdays, more than Abba and Eema do. But most of the time, he either ignores me or beats me up.' He paused, clearly upset. 'Is he in trouble?'

  Decker said, 'I don't know, Boruch.' He smiled reassuringly. It was the best he could offer the boy. 'Does Noam have any hobbies - baseball-card collecting, stamp collecting? Is he into cars or hotrods?'

  The boys shook their heads.

  'Does he spend a lot of time riding his bike, playing sports, skateboarding—'

  The boys laughed.

  'Skateboarding not too big around here?'

  'No,' they said in unison.

  'Does he play a lot of sports?'

  'Not that I know of,' Aaron said.

  'Then if he doesn't play or learn a lot,' Decker said, 'if he doesn't have any hobbies, what does he do with his time?'

  Boruch said, 'He spends lots of time with the computer.'

  'Games?' Decker asked.

  Boruch said, 'We don't own any computer games. We use it for school, for our reports. We have a Gemara program that asks us questions. It's really neat.'

  'Noam use that program?' Decker asked.

  Both shook their heads no. No latency of response.

  'Could you play games on the computer if you wanted to?' Decker asked.

  Aaron said, 'No. It doesn't have a graphics card. Unless Noam's put one in there. I don't think he knows enough about computers to do that. You have to know where to put it. Then you have to reset the dipswitches. Noam can't program. I can't see him tinkering with the hardware.'

  Boruch added, 'He has trouble just using canned software.*

  'Then what does he do with the computer?' Decker asked.

  Aaron said, 'I think he writes stuff. I once tried to look at what he was doing, but he hid the monitor with his arms.'

  'Yeah, he does that to me, too.'

  'Is Noam a good student?' Decker asked.

  'Not really,' Aaron said. 'He's sort of... well, lazy.'

  'You boys have no idea where he wanders off to?'

  Again, they shook their heads.

  Aaron said, 'He has a few friends. They might know better than us.'

  Decker said, 'I'll ask them a little later. First, how about we take a walk over to your house?'

  The boys said sure.

  Nice kids, Decker thought. Breina and Ezra must be doing something right.

  Up until yesterday, the pain had only surfaced on his birthday. Now it was a open wound festering inside Frieda Levine's shattered heart. None of this would ever resolve until she made peace with the one she had abandoned.

  God was giving her a test, using His most precious gifts to her. Though all her grandchildren were special, Noam was her most cherished because he had always been so troubled. In the many hours they had spent together, Noam seldom talked. But oh, how he'd been captivated by her tales, entranced by the criminal cases that had passed over her desk in the years she had worked at the court.

  Hours of talking her throat dry, with him staring with those mystical eyes, drinking in her every word. Communicating without speaking, saying to her: So this is what the goyishe world is like.

  Noam never asked questions, even when they were begging to be asked. Frieda felt he wasn't very bright. But unlike Ezra, who also wasn't bright, Noam never had the determination to overcompensate.

  She and Noam hadn't talked like that in four or five years, yet she remembered those conversations as if they had taken place yesterday.

  Then he had stopped coming to her.

  She thought nothing of it. There is that aching point in every grandparent's life where the grandchildren cease to look at her as fun and simply view her as an old lady. It was normal.

  But it hurt a little more with Noam - his rejection had been so sudden, so complete. As the others grew, they still made periodic stabs at being interested in her, inquiring about her health, pinching her cheek, complimenting her baking skills.

  Your cookies are the best, Bubbe.

  But Noam had withdrawn without looking back.

  Still, she couldn't take it personally. Noam was retreating from everyone. She should have seen it for

  what it was, a sign of deep-seated trouble. But having been accustomed to burying grief, she had looked the other way.

  Now she was encountering both of her mistakes head-on. As she lay in her darkened bedroom, shades tightly drawn, tears skiing down her cheeks, she realized that she could no longer be an ostrich. She must right what had been wronged years ago.

  But first she must wait until Noam was found.

  If he was ever found.

  The thought gave her chills.

  He would do it. tier firstborn - brought to her by God. If it was meant, if it was basheert, it would be he who would save Noam. God had deemed it so. She felt this as surely as she had felt his little feet kicking in her womb. As surely as she had seen his face emerge from her body, a head full of bright orange hair, cheeks sunburn red, his head misshapen and bruised from a long and painful labor.

  The doctors had considered taking him out by cesarean. But her father had remained steadfast that she deliver normally.
A cesarean would have left a scar, a telltale sign to her future husband that he had not been the first.

  At the last minute, he had saved her, had come out on his own. His downy soft body molded with muscle even at birth - long limbs, big barrel chest. Nine pounds, twenty-three inches. But what she had remembered most was his temperament. He never cried - only let out small whimpers to remind everyone that he was a healthy newborn. The doctor even remarked upon it.