The Baby Clause: A Christmas Romance

by Tara Wylde

  The waves keep on breaking against me, over and over, forcing my whole body to spasm with delight. I can’t catch my breath, and suddenly I fear I might actually somehow come myself into a stupor.

  Finally the ecstasy begins to ebb, slowly, setting off a few aftershocks that make me grip Chance’s shoulders until they pass. My breath huffs in his face, blowing his hair back from his forehead in great, heaving gusts.

  “My God,” I finally gasp. All my strength is gone. “What… what the hell… was that?”

  His chest is heaving underneath me. His effort was so much more than mine; I can’t imagine how he’s still able to speak.

  “I had to feel you,” he pants. “Had to know… you were still here. Not just a dream.”

  I use the last of my strength to cover his mouth with mine and give him a long, deep, wet kiss, until I have to stop to catch my breath.

  “I’m here,” I whisper. “I’m here.”

  “Don’t ever fucking do that again,” he breathes.

  I snuggle against him and lay my head next to his, my grinning lips against his ear.

  “You’re not the boss of me,” I whisper.

  “Are you okay?” Grace asks as Chance and I descend the steps into the pool. “You look a little tired.”

  I bite my tongue to keep from grinning like a fool. Chance gives me a look that says he’s doing the same.

  “It’s been a long day,” I say, dipping below the surface up to my chin.

  “Mommy!” Ava hoots. She’s paddling toward me with her inflatable water wings and splashing up a storm.

  “Is that a fish?” Chance says, scooping her up. “Look! I caught a fish!”

  “No!” she shrieks, but she’s giggling like a maniac. “Imma girl!”

  Tre glides over beside Grace and slides an arm around her.

  “Everything okay?” he asks.

  “Couldn’t be better,” Chance says.

  “Good. We had something we wanted to talk to you about.”

  “Go ahead,” I say, wrapping my arm around Chance’s neck so that he’s flanked by his two girls.

  “We were wondering – ”

  “If you would stand up for us at our wedding!” Grace finishes.

  Chance and I exchange a glance.

  “I don’t know,” he says, frowning. “Do I have to wear a tie?”

  Tre chuckles as Grace and I roll our eyes. “Ah ah ha ha ha,” we mock laugh.

  Ava seems to sense that we’re ganging up on him, so she gives him a peck on the cheek.

  “Daddy,” she says, as if summing up her argument.

  Chance responds with a raspberry against her neck, sending her into a fit of giggles.

  “Of course we will,” I say as Ava splashes off into the pool.

  “You know what this means, right?” Tre says to Chance. “We’re going to be brothers-in-law.”

  Chance sighs. “Well, I guess you can’t choose your family,” Then he brightens. “Oh, wait a minute! Yes, you can!”

  “And you chose well,” I say.

  Grace looks me in the eye. “You have to promise me that you’re not going to pull another stunt like you did today. I don’t want to have to find another matron of honor.”

  “Sorry, sis, I can’t promise that. What I can promise is that I’ll always be careful. Just like Chance.”

  She frowns. “I guess that’s all I can ask for.”

  The sun finally dips below the tower building of the resort, offering us some very welcome shade.

  With the glare gone, I can see Tre and Grace tossing Ava back and forth, to her utter delight.

  “It’s interesting that we saw an elephant family today,” I muse.

  Chance’s arm is around my waist under the water. He pulls me tight and puts his lips next to my ear, prompting a delicious shiver as I flashback to our afternoon delight.

  “Yeah?” he whispers. “Why’s that?”

  “They’re matriarchal animals,” I say. “I read once that all of the females in the herd will help raise the babies and protect them from danger, regardless of blood ties.”

  I turn to face him. “Sound familiar?”

  He smiles and pulls me close. If I didn’t know better, I’d swear I see a tear in the corner of his eye.

  Part IV

  Daddy Wanted

  A Daddy's for life, not just for Christmas...

  Nick:

  I have a daughter. So I know no kid should ever go hungry for the holidays. Especially not Elina's... But she deserves something better than just food. Like the org*sm she's never had. I'll show her I can be the Daddy she needs…

  Elina:

  What kind of billionaire volunteers at a food bank? Nick, apparently. He saved me when I thought I'd lost everything. Gave me hope when I'd lost mine. But he wants too take something, too... My submission.

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  Elina

  Why does shopping have to come with so many bags? You start with a purse, every store adds a bag, and then, somehow, those bags breed more bags, little bag families that fill up both hands and bang against your legs as you walk. And the weight of them! My arms, my feet—if I was the complaining type—

  “Mommy?”

  “Put it back, Joey.”

  “How’d you know I took something?” Uh-oh! There’s a certain note creeping into his voice: the danger note. We’re nearing meltdown territory. Better hurry.... “Mommy? How’d you know I took something?”

  “Eyes in the back of my head.” I squeeze his hand. Half an hour more; half an hour, and we’ll—

  “Mommy!”

  What was I even here for? I’m staring at a rack of insoles and corn pads, and there was something I needed, something essential, but....

  “Mommy!”

  “Okay, Joey....” I go to ruffle his hair—red as mine, but ten times softer—and wind up with a finger up his nose. He giggles.

  Insoles. Corn pads. Ace bandages. Not those, but...foot powder? Pumice bars? What...?

  It’s so bright in here. There’s not an inch of my body that doesn’t boast some ache or pain, but my eyes are raw. It’s like they dial the lights up to eleven in these places, like...like the more you see, the more you’ll be tempted to--

  “Mommy, just look!”

  And now, I can’t—

  “Mommy!”

  It’s a little stuffed rabbit, pink satin, black button eyes. Cute as hell. Total choking hazard. I’d have loved one, at his age.

  “Joey, I’m going to need you to put that back.”

  Nail clippers! That was it: I need nail—

  “Daddy would get it for me.”

  I close my eyes. It’s blissful. Blessedly dark and restful. If I could just—if there was some cosmic pause button I could hit; if I could collect my thoughts, swallow the lump in my throat, before I turn around and soothe my cranky son....

  I count to three, slow as I can.

  I don’t turn around. Can’t let him see the expression on my face. Besides, I don’t need to, to know his lip’s wobbling, to know he’s about five seconds from beaning me with that rabbit.

  “Listen, if you put the rabbit back, we can go by the pet store on the way home. Maybe they’ll let you pet a real one!”

  And...there it is: one tiny stuffed rabbit, bouncing off the back of my head. Kid never misses. Little League’s going to love him.

  I grab the nail clippers and pick up the rabbit. Joey must’ve been carrying it a while: there’s no rack of rabbits, no bottom-shelf hutch, in sight. Probably knew I’d say no. Probably wanted to hold it as long as he could before....

  Maybe just this once.... I’ve been saving everything for Christmas: I need him to have that one day of feeling special, hell, of feeling like a normal kid. Having the childhood he deserves. But that shouldn’t mean every other day has to suck.

  I glance at the price tag: $7.99. I can’t. I just...can’t. For a brief, mad moment, I consider stuffing the thing down my pants. It’s barely worth a dollar. Who’d even car
e?

  “Where’d you get him, sweetie?”

  “No.”

  Oh, great. The no phase. Next up: uncontrollable howling. Got to head that off at the pass.

  “Okay, well, why don’t you pick out a toothbrush, any color you want, while I—“

  “No!” Joey goes splat, flat and boneless on the floor. We’re starting to attract an audience. I’m about to be that mom, begging my shrieking four-year-old to peel himself off the linoleum, while a pack of baby boomers reminisces about how their parents would’ve tanned their hides, if they’d dared. Yeah, I see you, Your Ladyship in the red stretch pants. Grab your Depends; move along.

  I kneel down beside him. The floor smells like Windex. My eyes water. “Joey, listen—Mommy’s tired, and...and if you can wait a few weeks, it’s going to be Christmas, and you’ll have a whole stocking full of toys to play with. Maybe if you’re a good boy, and get up off the floor, Santa’ll even bring you one of those—“

  “You bought stuff for you in every store,” he wails, and it’s over, it’s over, it’s so over. I’m that mom, and I’m not getting those nail clippers; he’s not getting that toothbrush; and, oh God, contact lens solution! I’m totally out, and my tips suck when I wear glasses, and...

  ...and is it just me, or has the background hum turned unfriendly? I can’t make out what anyone’s saying, but I’d swear I hear spiky accents. Angry mutterings.

  I abandon my basket, scoop up my limp, tear-streaked son, and start walking. The bus stop’s way at the other end of the mall. Joey’s bawling his grievances right in my ear. He’s hitting this high, piercing note, like a policeman’s whistle. It’s making my eardrum flutter. Making me dizzy.

  Can a human voice rupture an eardrum?

  I’m so thirsty. Think I’m dehydrated. When’d I last sit down? What I’d do for a strawberry milkshake!

  And now he’s pulling my hair. And my earring—ouch! Ouch! Not the earring! Didn’t I already pass that Bed, Bath, and Beyond?

  Somewhere between the Body Shop and the juice bar, he pees on me. I choose to believe it’s an accident.

  By the time we step out into the fresh air, my left shoe’s squelching, but Joey’s screams have dwindled to whimpers. I buy a Times I can’t afford from the paper box, so he won’t leave a pee-print on the bus. Joke ends up on me: it’s standing room only. I point his wet butt at the man giving us the dirtiest look.

  By the end of the ride, the bus smells like an outhouse. I think I’ve reached my threshold for embarrassment: all I can feel is a dull all-over ache that starts at my lower back and threads its way through every fiber of my body. Even my toenails hurt. Or my toes hurt, where my unclipped nails are digging into them. Whatever.

  Fortunately, the bus stops right in front of my building. I tuck my bags out of sight, under the stairs, so I can hold Joey in both arms on my way up. He’s gone all snuffly-sleepy. Stinky, but cute.

  He rubs his snotty nose on my neck when I try to set him down at the door.

  “Mommy?”

  “We’re home, sweetie! Don’t you want a nice, hot bath?”

  “No.”

  I jiggle him on my hip. “C’mon, tiger. Mommy’s got to open the door.”

  Now he’s wiping his whole face on my neck. “I’m sorry I was bad.” He sounds like he’s about to cry again. I hug him as tight as I can, turn my head to whisper in his ear. “I’ll tell you a little secret: everyone hates shopping. Everyone.”

  “Even rich people?”

  He pulls away to look at me, and I finally manage to put him down. “Especially rich people. Rich people hate it so much they hire poor people to do it for them.”

  “That’s gonna be my job, when I grow up.”

  I laugh, but I’m distracted. Something’s not in my pocket that ought to be. “Sweetie, have you seen my keys?”

  Joey cocks his head. “You told me to hold onto them at the Rite-Aid. They kept smacking into your leg.”

  My heart sinks. “And did you?”

  He shakes his head.

  “Joey? Sweetheart? What have you done with my keys?” I crouch down to his level, but he won’t meet my eyes.

  “I traded them for the bunny.”

  What the...? I never let go of his hand, let alone lost sight of him. How could he have—who could he have.... “Traded them? To whom?”

  “The Elf on the Shelf.”

  “The—“ Oh, my God! Gales of laughter tear through me. I’m shaking, snorting, can’t help myself. This! This, right here! This is one of those stories you tell and tell, and it never gets old. If we don’t freeze to death on the stoop like the Little Match Girl, I’m going to be embarrassing him with this one till he’s forty.

  “It’s okay, Mommy.”

  “I—I know, Joey! I’m sorry; it’s just—“ I bite my lip, but another guffaw breaks loose anyway.

  “No, I mean, the door’s open.”

  “Oh, well, that’s—“ My blood runs cold.

  The door is open. Not unlocked, but open, just a crack, barely noticeable in the dark.

  “Get behind me, Joey.”

  “Mommy?”

  “It’s—it’s all right. Just...just stand behind me, real quiet, huh?”

  He wraps himself around my leg. I push the door open, tense as a greyhound, ready to bolt at the first sign of danger. But there’s nothing there—nothing there. Not even the stuff that’s supposed to be; not even—

  I hear a horrible, guttural moan, and I’ve already snatched Joey into my arms before I realize it came from me. The high cabinet, the one above the fridge, the one with the Christmas presents, the ornaments, everything Christmas... It’s open. Empty. And every other cabinet, every drawer—

  “Mommy? Where’s—?”

  “It’s...it’s....” What to say...what to say? “Ah....”

  “Did we go in the wrong door?”

  “Uh...ah....” Say something! “It’s...it’s....” A nightmare. “A game, sweetie! We, uh...it’s a... It’s like hide-and-seek, but, uh...my friends from work? They’ve hidden my things all over town, and—and if I find them, I get...better things. Everything brand new!” Smooth, Lina.

  “Can I play?”

  “Yeah, definitely, but...but tomorrow, okay? It’s dark now, so, uh.... We’ll start tomorrow. After playgroup. In the park. But for now, ah, I’ve got to... I’m going to take you next door, and you can play with the cats, and I bet Mrs. Thing’ll give you a gingersnap, if you say ‘please’.”

  “Mrs. Thing!”

  I’m going to owe Mrs. Dzhokharova the biggest fruit basket I can afford. Which will probably amount to a single banana and a Fruit Roll-Up, at this rate. Brownies, then. Or...or I’ll clean her bathroom. Anything, just....

  I’m freaking out.

  Okay, calm down.

  I must be in shock. Can’t think straight. Need to move, need to....

  “Okay. Okay.” I go to take Joey by the hand, but he’s—

  —where the fuck, ohmygod where’s he—

  —he’s already run ahead, down the hall. The light’s spilling out, under Mrs. Thing’s door. He must’ve snuck off, and knocked, and been let in, while I was...staring into space? Wringing my hands? What was I just doing?

  I don’t have time to go to pieces. My sweaty fingers slide on my skin when I go to pinch myself. Forcing myself into action feels like wading through cold molasses. I trail after Joe in a fog, and I must manage to say something to Mrs. Thing, because she fusses, and the cats crowd my ankles, and Joey ends up in her grandson’s PJs. Someone calls the police, and a locksmith, and I’m dimly aware I can’t afford a locksmith, but what choice do I have?

  I blink, and I’m back in my doorway, alone. I don’t want to turn on the light. There are lumps on the floor, unfamiliar shapes, shards and clumps and broken things that crunch underfoot. Whoever was here, they didn’t just rip me off. In the dim glow of the hall light, I can see where they tore up the carpet, tagged the walls, cut the curtains to shreds.

 
I take two steps into the kitchen, needing a glass of water. Something squelches under my heel: Joey’s goldfish, dead in a spray of glass and aquarium pebbles. I scream. My legs give out and I go down hard. There’s something digging into my knees and the tops of my feet—Cheerios; they dumped out a week’s worth of breakfast, for what? For what? Spite?

  I drop my forehead to the floor, mouth open wide. I can’t cry like I want to. Can’t, can’t, cannot. I blink hard. Two huge tears break free, roll down my cheeks, and drip off my chin. I breathe deep till my eyes stop stinging.

  Can’t even afford a proper cry.

  The cops are coming; there’s that to deal with.

  Get up.

  I stand at attention. Brush Cheerio crumbs off my pants, which are still wet, and starting to chafe.

  Get changed?

  My bedroom’s a war zone in its own right. The nightstand’s in pieces, and it looks like someone’s run a lawnmower over the bed. Feathers and fabric scraps are everywhere, chunks of mattress foam too. Every lamp’s been shattered. And my clothes...my clothes are on the floor, covered in—yep. Yep. That’d be piss. I fight back another round of hysterical laughter. I came in here so I wouldn’t smell like I wet my pants, and...and...it’s funny, right? Like, in someone else’s life, or on a sitcom, it’d be a scream.

  The closet’s a forest of empty hangers...empty hangers, and my gym bag, still stuffed with my sweaty old workout gear. So...do I want to reek of pee or BO when the cops get here?

  Not fair. Not fair, not fair, not fair.

  Joey’s laughing, two doors down. Mrs. Thing must’ve got out the laser pointer again. Joey loves it more than the cats do. I find myself smiling in spite of myself. He doesn’t know. He doesn’t know. Right now, this has only happened to me. All I need to do is keep it that way.

  My smile grows as a plan forms. We will hunt for our stuff. It’ll be like...a new adventure every day. We’ll ride the subways. Find Pizza Rat. Hit up a museum or two. Pretend to spot our furniture in showroom windows and other people’s living rooms. It’ll be educational, kinda. Even a little magical. And I’ll work a few extra shifts, and in a couple of weeks, we’ll do a Dollarama run. We’ll get fun stuff—plastic tables with toes on their feet, lamps shaped like clowns, whatever’s silly. Joey’ll love it. And Christmas...Christmas....