The Violet Widow? (Shattered Heart #1)

by K E Osborn

  “Cougar, can you please clean up the broken glass? Last thing I need is for someone to cut themselves.”

  “Sure Boss.”

  I continue to my office and slam the door behind me while my heart starts to race. In the years I’ve been here I’ve never had a direct attack on my business. I’m really getting quite concerned that whatever trouble Papi has gotten himself into with the bikers is going to effect this business, and in all honestly I’m pissed off about it. This place is very successful and for it to be brought down by one person is totally unacceptable.

  I pull out my mobile and search for Papi’s contact details and hit dial. I feel my pulse racing and my blood pressure rising with every beat of my heart. A raging heat is simmering just below the surface ready to explode at any second.

  “Hello?” Papi says.

  “What the fuck have you gotten yourself into Papi?” I reply through gritted teeth.

  “Oh hey, Boss. What do you mean?”

  “A brick was just thrown through the front window of the business and the sound of a bike leaving directly afterward. Would you happen to know anything about that?”

  “What? Is everyone okay?”

  “Yeah, everyone is fine… this time, but my window isn’t. Do you know how much one-way glass costs, Papi? Why the fuck would anyone want to do this to us, huh? What have you done?”

  He exhales. “Look Boss, I don’t think it has anything to do with me. I paid my debt to the bikers and the slate was wiped clean. I have no idea why anyone would brick the business. It doesn’t make sense?”

  “Don’t lie to me, Papi. If you’re in trouble, tell me and I can try to help you.”

  “Thanks Boss, but honestly this can’t be about me. After Star was bashed, I paid them off and they said that they were done with me. This has to be something else.”

  “Okay. Well, hopefully then it was just a kid playing a prank or something, but if anything else happens I’m going to want better answers, Papi. You got me?” I demand.

  “Yeah Boss, I got you.”

  I exhale and close my eyes leaning back into my desk chair. “How’s Star doing?”

  “She’s getting better, slowly. It still hurts when she moves, but she’s able to walk around by herself now which is a fantastic improvement.”

  “Okay, well keep me posted and look after her, okay?”

  “Of course. And Boss?”

  “Yeah?”

  “I’m sorry about the window and I’m sorry I’m not there to help. You know I’d drop everything to be there right now if I could, right?”

  I half-smile. “I know Papi, thanks. Sorry, I yelled at you. Look after my girl and I’ll talk to you soon.”

  “Okay. Try and have a good rest of the day.”

  I chuckle and shake my head. “Yeah right, see ya.” I hang up and lean my head back against the seat’s headrest and close my eyes, taking in a deep breath trying to calm my nerves.

  Beep. My mobile buzzes against my hand letting me know there’s a message. I slowly open my eyes and swipe the screen of my mobile phone. My eyes light up and a flutter runs through my stomach when I see it’s from Hudson.

  Hey firecracker, hope your day is going well. I can’t stop thinking about you and what you said this morning – ‘I feel like getting on my knees and sucking you so hard that your eyes bulge out of your head, and your balls constrict so tight that they want to implode, while you fuck my mouth,’ <----- yeah that. It’s very hard to work because all I can think about is your lips around my cock. Now in no way is this sexting lol I’m just telling you how hard my day has been because of you this morning. I hope you feel bad and I hope you want to make it up to me tonight. lol ;)

  I laugh to myself while I read the message, especially at the part about it not being sexting. I hit reply.

  Well, my day suddenly got a whole lot better because an awesome guy messaged me. I’ll tell him you say hi ;) Anyway someone threw a fucking brick through our window at work. It’s getting fixed, but I’m having a bitch of a day.

  I hit send and huff at the memory of the brick being thrown through the window.

  Holy shit! Was anyone hurt? Are you okay? Do you need me to come over and help you fix it? Did you call the police?

  I smile at his concern, it’s nice to know he cares. I hit reply.

  Everyone is fine, just a little annoyed, and thanks for the offer, but I already have someone coming to fix it, it’s all worked out, no need to worry. But thanks for your concern, you know how to make a girl feel good.

  I hit send and rest back into my chair waiting for his reply.

  Well, as long as you’re safe, Vee, that’s my main concern. That, and of course you being able to blow me tonight ;)

  I smile widely and hit reply.

  I’m safe, but I can’t wait to get back to your place and get into my pajamas and snuggle watching a movie on TV. Cuddling sounds like a great plan to me after someone throwing a brick through the window ;)

  I giggle to myself as I know I’m only kidding, but I want to tease him a little. So I press send and watch the phone waiting for his reply message. It comes not long after.

  Are you kidding me?

  I laugh and smile and hit reply.

  No, someone really threw a brick through the window. Arseholes.

  I reply teasing him further. I know he wasn’t talking about the window.

  Seriously Vee?

  I giggle and decide to stop.

  Okay, maybe I can blow you before we cuddle on the lounge and watch TV ;)

  I hit send and smile as I wait for his reply.

  Oh, thank fuck for that. I had a heart attack over here. Spending a night without touching you sexually would do my head in. Not that I’m sex craved or anything. Just you kinda make me horny. What can I say?

  I laugh and shake my head then hit reply.

  Well, Hudson Stone, you make me horny too. So on that note, where’s my naked selfie of you leaning against the bike?

  I hit send.

  Lol guess that might be a hard one to accomplish at work, but when I get home tonight you can take one of me naked on my bike and save it as your screensaver on your phone. I know how much you like to look at me you pervert!

  I smile and hit reply.

  Whatever! You only want me to come over tonight so I can blow you. You only want me for my mouth! So really I think it is you who is the pervert, old man!

  I hit send.

  Hey, I’m not old! I’m only two years older than you, so if I’m old then you are too. And let me just say for an old bag you have a really great set of tits, no sag in them at all ;)

  I scoff, shake my head and hit reply.

  Right, thanks for that! How’s your day going anyway? Better than mine I hope?

  I hit Send.

  Much better now I’ve talked to you. Although the rest of the day has been dragging. I can’t wait to see you tonight – wow that sounded desperate even to me! lol

  I hit reply.

  Awww you’re a sweetie. A desperate sweetie, but a sweetie nonetheless.

  I smile and hit send.

  Mmm, I’m rugged and manly, no sweetness in me at all. I’m all ‘show us ya tits’ and ‘bring me a beer, bitch.’ Yup, that’s me - ain't nothing sweet about that! ;)

  I scoff and purse my lips. I hit reply.

  U-huh, sure thing. You keep telling yourself that mister. I know there’s a sweet side to you. You showed me this morning when you had slow passionate sex with me – do you remember that? Or do you have selective, old age memory?

  I tease as I hit send.

  Fuck woman, yes I remember that. Great, now all I can think about is me thrusting into you from behind while I play with your clit and you massaging your tits. Oh, great now I’m hard. Thanks for that, Vee!

  I open my eyes wide and laugh out loud. I hit reply.

  And then I walked out naked into your kitchen, and you fingered me. Can you taste me still after you sucked on your fingers?

&nbs
p; I can’t help it, I’m a cruel bitch sometimes. I hit send.

  FUCK! Where are you? I’m coming to get you now! If my balls don’t release soon, they might explode and I don’t like hospitals.

  I giggle and hit reply.

  I’m at work, which is where you should be for the next few hours. Don’t worry Hudson you will get your release tonight. But in the meantime go and rub one out in the bathroom. Just make sure you think of me while you blow your load ;)

  I can’t help it as the thought of Hudson jerking off and thinking of me has me a little hot under the collar. I find myself breathing a little heavier at the thought and I know the anticipation of tonight is going to drive him wild because hell, it’s driving me wild.

  You’re so in for it tonight and don’t worry I’ll think of you when I come, because baby the only time I’m going to come is inside you. Now whether that’s your mouth or that tight pussy of yours I don’t mind, you can decide what one goes first ;)

  I lick my lips inadvertently and swallow hard. I can’t wait to get back to his house and it’s only three p.m. I have another ten hours to go. It’s going to be a long night!

  I can’t wait! And as for what comes first, I’ll leave you guessing. I want it to be a surprise. Anyway don’t you have work to do?

  I grin and hit send.

  I do, unfortunately. I’d rather be at home with you though. Any way I can have you will be fine by me. On the bed, on the sofa cuddling, or just cooking a meal together – Shit, WTF you’re turning me into a pansy! I’m going before I lose any more of my masculine dignity today ;) Have a good day little firecracker. I hope the rest of the day isn’t as eventful as it has been. No more bricks would be a good thing. I’ll catch you tonight beautiful. xoxo

  I smile and nod my head even though he can’t see me. A wave of butterflies surge through me at the thought of seeing him tonight. Honestly, I can’t wait and I think I might even leave early seeing as he will be home at two-thirty a.m. I’ll try and arrive the same time he does.

  Have a good day. Don’t work too hard. I know the life of a biker is never easy. Try not to rob too many banks today, or steal too many old grandma’s handbags. lol I’ll see you in a few hours, you pansy. I can’t wait. xoxo

  I hit send and bring the phone up to my chest and close my eyes just revelling in the emotions I’m feeling right now. Happiness, lust, a surge of giddiness and not to mention the endless wonder of the possibilities that could happen to my life. Hudson is an unknown, a mystery and I like it. I like that he’s taking me to new places. I like that we can tease each other and get away with it. I like our witty banter and also our sexual banter. I like everything about him, and even though this is brand new, it’s exciting and in a way I’m happy to be moving on from Danny. Don’t get me wrong I love him, I always will, nothing will ever change that. Danny was and always will be the love of my life, but just because he’s gone doesn’t mean I can’t be happy again, right? I thought for so long that being a widow meant being alone and miserable. And I was alone for five long and terribly miserable years.

  I was definitely alone, and I was definitely miserable.

  Living the life I’ve chosen, while at the start was a means to an end. It’s now more like a hindrance, but it’s what I know. It’s a part of me and unfortunately I just hope that with some more time and with a hell of a lot of understanding, Hudson will see past this job and like me for me. The woman who he likes now. I’m still me! Being a madam doesn’t change who I am. It is just what I do, and anyway how is running an escort agency worse than being in a biker gang? So really, I’m probably just worrying for no reason, but I can’t take the risk of him knowing just yet. I need to know I’m in his soul before I can tell him what I do. If I’m firmly entrenched into his life then he will have a harder time letting me go because that’s something I don’t want.

  For him to let me go.

  The thought of that will be the end of me.

  Hudson messaged a few more times throughout the day, which helped me feel that close connection we seem to have developed. The glazier cost a small fortune which made my anger surface again. I feel sorry for my employees when I get in a bad mood because I know I take it out on them. I can’t help it. They all know me well enough now to leave me alone when I get in these moods. It seems the angrier I get, the more I start to wallow and think about how shit my life is. But then there’s that little tiny ray of light, and that light comes in the form of a multi-colour eyed, muscular, tattooed gorgeous man who’s going to be waiting for me at his house. I honestly can’t wait to see him and for him to help me unwind a little. I know I shouldn’t get so worked up, it was only a window and no one was hurt, but I can’t help but get annoyed at the fact that I have no idea who it was or why they did it?

  Was it a grudge against someone here? Is it because it is an escort agency?

  I have no idea!

  I know the people around the business don’t like that their shops are so close to a known ‘whore house’ as they call it, but we keep quiet and to ourselves. We never annoy anyone or make noise or purposely try to upset our neighbours. So I have no idea why anyone would hold a grudge. Anyway I’m going to try and forget all about it and spend all night with Hudson inside of me. That’s how I want my night to end.

  I pick up my bag and head out of my office to the foyer where Angel is yawning and resting her head in her hands on the desk.

  “You okay, hun?” I ask as I walk past her.

  She looks up at me and nods. “I’m okay, Boss. Just tired today. I think the stress has taken its toll. That brick came so close to hitting me, but I’m grateful that it didn’t though. That’s why Thor was holding me, he was making sure I was all right.”

  I open my eyes wide. “Shit, why didn’t you tell me it nearly hit you?”

  She shrugs. “Didn’t seem important at the time. Plus, you had your angry face on and I didn’t want to make it worse for you.”

  “Okay! Well, I’m glad you’re fine and sorry for making you think you couldn’t talk to me. You know you can, anytime, right? Doesn’t matter if I’m angry or not, I want you to always come to me for anything.”

  “Thanks Boss. Sorry, and I will from now on. Have a good night. Are you going to see your rock?”

  I smile and giggle a little like a fucking schoolgirl. “Yeah, I am, and thanks. I plan on having a really good night to make up for today,” I say and raise my eyebrows insinuatingly.

  She laughs and nods her head. “Well, have a great time and don’t even think about this place at all. I got it all under control. Just go and have a good time. You should take a day off with your Rock, just spend some time away and relax a little. You haven’t had a break in so long. It would do you good.”

  “Yeah, that would be nice. We’ll see, maybe in a few days, but for now I have to get going. Take it easy and call me if anything happens, okay? No matter the time.”

  “Sure Boss. Now get out of here,” she says standing up and pushing me toward the door. I laugh and walk out of the building to my Stingray. I get in and drive as fast as I can to Hudson’s. The anticipation building inside of me is making me excited to see him. My pulse is racing and my palms are sweating. I notice I’m breathing faster and I’m definitely on autopilot as the images of his rock hard chest come into my mind. That ink down his arm and over his right pec, not to mention the tribal marks on his left ribs is making my panties wet and that’s only just my imagination. I can only begin to imagine what it’ll be like when he opens the door and I see him. I know it’s literally only been a few hours since I last saw him, but he has some kind of effect on me. I really am like a horny school kid around him, but I don’t care.

  I haven’t felt actual pleasure since Danny. All the times I had sex since he left me, I was doing it because I had to. It was my job. I had to get the guy off and that was it. It was never about me or my enjoyment. And believe me, I never enjoyed it. In fact, it made me numb. I couldn’t feel anything during the act itself b
ecause I switched off my emotions. It was the only way to get through it, and each time made me feel less and less emotional about it all and in the end I didn’t even realise I was having sex. I would be working, but while the fat hairy slovenly man was thrusting his miniature sized cock in me all I could think about was were the bills paid on time, or what did I have to get from the grocery store etc. Mundane, everyday things to keep my mind away from the actual act of sex. I would run humdrum routine things through my mind until he was done, and then I would do it all over again with the next fat, hairy, small-dicked business man. That’s just how it was.

  But with Hudson I don’t feel that way at all. He brings all my attention into the moment. He makes me feel every single touch and it’s so nice to kiss someone. I can’t believe how much I missed the simple act of kissing. But I’m glad I waited and that the only two men in my life that I’ve kissed passionately are Danny and Hudson. That, in my books makes Hudson special, and I really think he is. There’s something about him that blows my mind every time. Yes, I may not know him that well, but what I do know - I like… a lot. And let’s be honest, he really is easy to look at, so that helps too. Not that looks are all that matters, but it does help when he looks as fit and bloody ridiculously gorgeous as he does. Just thinking about his amazing freaky eyes makes my mouth dry up, but my panties wet. He turns me on. There’s no doubt about that, and I’m just so glad I turn him on too. Whether he likes me back the way I like him, I guess time will tell, but for now I need to get to his house as soon as possible.