Love Survives (Love Suicide #2)

by Jennifer Foor

  Kat got down on the floor and wedged herself between my legs. Our eyes met, and she reached up to wipe away a tear that was still lingering on my cheek.

  “I’m so sorry about my mom, Kat. If I would have known-”

  She put her finger up to my lips before I was able to finish what I wanted to tell her. “Shh, don’t talk about it. Just listen to what I have to say.”

  “Do you know that there’s not one single day in my life that I can remember where I didn’t love you?”

  I didn’t know where this was going, but so far it seemed like it was in the right direction. A hint of hope filled me as I listened.

  “Tell me something I don’t know.”

  “I’m tired of fighting with you. I’m sick of all of it.” She paused for a second, and in that amount of time I felt confused again. Her explanation was all over the place. I was going to get whiplash if it continued this way. “What your Mom told us may be unbelievable, but I get why she did it. For the first time, I understand what she’s been trying to get through my hard head. It’s like I’m seeing clearly, finally. Brooks, if you don’t move all of your shit into this house soon, I’m going to go crazy. There’s no reason you’re still going to the base to change. B and I need you here. We can’t be a family unless you’re here with us, all the time. Your mom was right. I can’t change my past, and I shouldn’t ruin my future; our future. If it’s still okay, I’m ready to fall completely into this with you. I’ve been ready my whole life, but I was just too scared of losing you. I’m not afraid anymore, Brooks. I’m not worried of what tomorrow might bring because I know you’re going to be there. I know you’ll protect me and love me like you’ve done our whole lives. God, I’ve wasted so much time. Are you even listening to me? Do you still want this? Say something?”

  I was speechless, unable to move a single inch. Of course I heard her, I just couldn’t begin to express how thankful I was.

  I fell back onto the bed and began to laugh. I have no idea what made me do it. I supposed I was so delighted that I couldn’t control what I was feeling. Tears streamed down my cheeks, not because I was sad. I was elated, flabbergasted, utterly overwhelmed.

  Kat stood up and grabbed me, shaking me as if I’d gone mad.

  “Are you okay? Is it the affair? Do you want to talk about it?” I found it more funny that she assumed something was wrong. Finally everything was right.

  “I can’t be mad about something that we had no control over. I’ve never been one to live in the past, not when I knew you were always my future.”

  “Come again?” It was silly that she needed me to repeat myself since I’d been telling her the same lines our whole lives.

  “I said that you are my future and I’ve always known it, well felt is a better word.”

  When she leaned forward to kiss me, I pulled her against my body. In that moment I didn’t want to let go. Unlike every other time we were together, I could feel her finally giving me all of her. It was as if she’d finally been given a reason to stop fighting the inevitable. Our future was set in stone. Nothing could steer us away, not anymore.

  We kissed like teens making out for the first time without their parents being home. With each slip of her tongue, with every movement of my hands across her skin, I got excited. My palms were sweaty, and even though we were on the bed, I felt dizzy. This wasn’t just a passionate embrace. It was taking everything in me to go slow when all I wanted to do was get her naked.

  This was my Katy, my Kat. Every inch of her belonged to me. She owned my heart, my soul, and everything else I could give her. She wasn’t just the mother of our daughter. She was going to carry all of our children. There wouldn’t be a moment in our future where she would have to worry that I’d leave because it would never happen. Wherever I went, she’d be there at my side. I finally felt something that I’d waited my whole life to experience.

  Secure and stable.

  There was nothing but content pouring into each of our kisses, and I think she felt it as well. Our minds and bodies were in complete sync. It was beautiful, and in no time at all, I was undressing her. She helped me lift the white undershirt over her head. The two last things to go were her panties and bra.

  Then Kat began unbuttoning my dress jacket. One by one the fabric loosened while she teased me with her wet lips. My t-shirt came off next, and as soon as it left my head, I felt her fingernails coursing up my naked chest.

  I cupped her breasts, taking one nipple into my mouth and sucking on it. Kat leaned back, using her hands to unfasten my belt and then my pants. With little effort I shoved my boxers down, eager for what was to come afterwards.

  While Kat removed her panties from her ankles, I directed her back onto the bed. She climbed on top of me, straddling my erection as if she needed no assistance to position it at her entrance.

  I played with her hair, taking a few strands and covering her breasts with it. She looked so damn sexy. I couldn’t help but to ask for a reminder. “Tell me you’re mine.”

  She leaned down and teased me with her sultry lips once again. “I belong to you, I always have and I always will.” She traced my tattoo, looking down as she finished. “And you belong to me.”

  I ran my hands on both sides of her arms and started moving her body into a steady pace. Kat tickled my chest with her nails, crossing over my nipples with the palms. Right away they were stimulated by her touch. She leaned forward licking each of them while leaving a trail of wet saliva when she pulled away.

  I gasped and threw my head back, forcing myself to stay collected. Kat pulled away with an ornery grimace on her face. She knew she was making me crazy, and I didn’t want it to stop.

  Then, after our lips separated from another tongue-filled kiss, She leaned back, giving me ample space to reach down and feel her slickness. She was prepared and hungry for what was about to fill her. I took ahold of my stiff erection and taunted her there, making sure to spread her juices over her sensitive clit. Her body bucked before I thrust inside of her, filling her with so much more than a hard cock. We’d been struggling, and this was an end to it all. This makeup session was all about getting over the hurdles and giving in to what we knew was right.

  Our connected bodies converged, moving amidst a steady rhythm. I was lost in her, succumbing to the pure fact that this was all finally mine. With every grind, slip, and even halt, I was captivated by her body. Her essence beckoned me, satiating my hunger to have her in every way possible. She was what I’d wished for in my darkest of days. She was the last missing piece to my puzzle. I’d found my forever and knew for certain that she’d never slip away from me again. This pivotal moment in our relationship would stand out amongst the others. This was the night that everything significantly changed for us.

  We made love: beautiful, debauched love, christening our new life and future. Her serious stare only intensified the moment as I filled her with intoxicating passion. Hot sweat rolled down the skin between her breasts as she continued riding me. I held onto her hip and used my other hand to gently rub her clit, guiding her body into a generous orgasm. As her walls tightened around me her release felt so fierce, like it contained years of pent up hostility. Rather than give her time to come down from her lustful high, I flipped us over. Kat began stroking me, making me want to slip right back inside of her. I was on the brink of losing it, desperate to satisfy my salacious appetite. I teased her with my tongue, forcing her to fight to touch it with hers. Her inviting lips begged to be kissed, and I happily obliged.

  “Don’t make me stop, Brooks. We have all night.”

  I corrected her, “No, Kat, we have forever.”

  We flipped around again and I watched Kat sinking down between my legs. The idea of her tasting her own arousal on me sent me into a frenzy. I grabbed her body and pulled her up until her pussy was right in my face. From there I began my decent, licking and sucking until I felt her body spasming over mine.

  After that I knew I was running out of time. I repositione
d us, getting up on my knees to wrap her legs around my waist. There was no need to look down to enter her.

  My pace was unhinged, provoked by my own desire to lose absolute control. I could feel my own rapture as I lost control over my actions, falling down when euphoria left me to explode inside of her.

  Afterwards, I pulled her to lie on top of me. We kissed as she stroked my sensitive skin. I took her hand and kissed it gently. “I’ll move my clothes in tomorrow.”

  Then I saw the smile I loved so much taking over her whole face.

  Right before she started to fall asleep, I began laughing. Getting caught up in something she had said before.

  “What’s so funny?” She asked.

  “I was just thinking how you said I wouldn’t get any action on this bed.”

  She let out an air-filled laugh and reached between my legs. “We’re just getting started.”

  Chapter 59

  September 11th 2013

  “I can’t believe it’s been twelve years,” Kat said as we stood together looking down at her parent’s headstones. B was running around Branch and Melissa with a small bouquet of yellow roses. Since it was also her birthday, she was dressed for the occasion.

  I took Kat’s hand and squeezed it reminding her that she’d never have to do this alone. “They’d be proud of you.”

  “I know they’re watching over us. In my heart, I know they gave us B. Her being born on the same date they left me can’t just be a coincidence.”

  “It’s fate,” We heard my mom say as she and my dad made there way over to us. “It has to be.”

  It took us a couple weeks to get over the shock of what my mother had told us. I still think there is a little animosity between she and Kat, not that they ever let anyone see it.

  It took a call from my dad to help us see that we needed to put it all behind us. If he could forgive her, then so should we. For me, I was just angry she’d kept the truth from Kat, when I knew in the long run it had only helped her.

  We all had skeletons in our closets and it wasn’t right to judge.

  My brother came up behind us and put his hands on both Kat’s and my shoulder.

  “I think it’s time we go back to the house and have sour beef and dumplings. The past two years Mom refused to make them, because you weren’t there, Katy. We had some craptastic chicken instead.”

  “In my defense, it was an award winning recipe,” our mom added.

  I turned my attention back to Kat. Not only was it already a special day for a couple reasons, but I had something else planned that I needed to tend to. It was a special surprise, one that required me to separate from my one and only for a little while. "I need to go get B's cake and pick up a surprise. Are you good riding with Mel back to the house in our car? Branch is going to drive me.”

  My mom had ordered a cake from a fancy treats shop in the heart of the city and they’d decorated the entire back yard in balloons, including some floating in the pool. B hadn’t seen it yet, but Kat and I knew she was going to go crazy over it.

  Since I’d recently been released from duty from the Army, I had been spending a lot of time job searching, amongst other things. Thankfully, I’d managed to get an offer I couldn’t refuse. The only stipulation was that I’d have to relocate. With the help of my father, I’d also been looking at homes in the area, hoping we could move back to where it all began. It was obvious that Kat didn’t want to live in a town where everyone treated her like crap. Personally, I hated it.

  With having time off, it was easy to get caught up with my girls. B was the apple of my eye. I woke up every morning to her bright smile.

  Buying her a ring was never in my plans. Unlike my brother, I knew what Kat wanted most in the world was to wear her mother’s wedding ring. Since it had been stored safely at my parent’s house for years, I knew exactly where to find it when I was ready to pop the question, and boy was I prepared. It was all part of a big surprise I had planned. With the help of my family I was pretty close to pulling it off. All I could hope for was that when I presented it to her, she’d say yes.

  “Earth to Kat.” She finally looked up from the gravesite to see me waving my hand in front of her. “Do I get a kiss goodbye, or are you going to stand there in your weird trance?”

  She raised her brows and leaned in. “Sorry.”

  When a little peck wasn’t enough, I held the back of her head, shoving my tongue in her mouth for added result.

  Branch started making gagging sounds. “Can we go before I puke?”

  Kat pulled away and wiped off her face while B came running in my direction. “Daddy, I go.”

  “Daddy’s got to get you a surprise. Go home with Mama and I’ll see you there. Okay?”

  B stuck out her bottom lip. “No. I go with Daddy.”

  I kissed my little girl on the forehead and turned to Kat for some assistance at getting away. Ever since the first night I moved in she’d made it impossible to go anywhere without her.

  Once I was in the car with my brother, I took a deep breath before pulling away from the parking spot. “I’m nervous.”

  “What for? You’ve been married to Katy in your mind since we were kids.”

  “What if she’s not ready?”

  “It’s not like you’re asking her to marry you today, Brooks. I’d be more worried about the other part of the surprise. I mean, you really went all out.”

  I smirked thinking about how hard my parents and the contractors I hired had worked to get the house next door ready for the big reveal. As soon as I saw that it was up for sale, I knew she was meant to have it. Luckily I managed to get a good deal on it, plus we’d have built in babysitters at our disposal one house over.

  I think the biggest part of the surprise was going to be our daughter’s room, which happened to be Kat’s. I needed every detail to be perfect, but still wondered if I’d gone a little overboard. I mean, who buys a house to propose in?

  “Don’t fret. I’m sure she’ll say yes. Apparently you’re the man of her dreams.”

  I chuckled to myself after what he said. Branch and I had been getting along better in the past month or so. I think it helped that Melissa and Kat had buried the hatchet. They spoke almost daily. Little B really loved them, and I wasn’t the type of brother to keep my family away from my daughter. She deserved to be loved by all of them.

  Nearly twenty minutes after we left the cemetery, we pulled back up in front of the house. I carried the cake in, praying to God that all this wasn’t going to blow up in face and be a disaster. The last thing I needed was to make Kat upset in any way though I was nervous how she would handle being back in that house again after so long.

  “Katy, Katy, Katy. You’re about to shit your shorts.” Branch taunted Kat, purposely to get to me. I flipped him my middle finger.

  My mom tossed a dish rag in his direction. “Cut it out. You aren’t kids anymore. Let your brother have his moment for once.”

  When I walked up to Kat and extended my hand, it was obvious she knew something major was about to happen. “Come with me,” I requested.

  “Where are we going?” She asked.

  “Close your eyes.”

  Just to make sure she didn’t peek, I tied a handkerchief over her eyes to prevent her from seeing anything. “Seriously, what are you doing? Why can’t you show me inside?”

  I kept pulling her along, walking her out of the house. “I have some surprises for you. The first one is that I wanted to tell you that I got a job. It’s a good one, Kat. I won’t ever have to travel and I’ll be home for dinner every night.”

  We came to a stop as we were facing the front of her childhood home. “The next surprise you may not like, but I want you to hear me out before you say anything. I’ve spent a lot of time and money on it, but if you don’t like it, for any reason, I won’t get angry. Branch said he’d take it off of our hands.”

  “Is it a car? Did you buy me a new car?”

  I kept walking her toward the hous
e, spinning her a few times to confuse her. Once we were standing at the threshold, I loosened the fabric from her eyes.

  It only took Kat a few seconds to realize where we were. We walked inside, noticing right away how empty it was.

  I didn’t give her time to look around since I was already leading her up the stairs. “Where are we going? Did you ask the realtor if you could see this place? I don’t understand.”

  “We’re almost there. Keep walking.”

  When we reached her old bedroom, I put my body in front of her before opening the door. I’d had a painter come in and put butterflies on the walls and added Brooklyn’s name in wooden blocks. We’d purchased furniture and rugs, matching the décor on the walls. To make the room suitable for our little princess, I’d gone all out and bought her a royal bed.

  While she was taking it all in, I placed my hands on her shoulders.

  “Kat, my job is here and so is our family. You don’t have to run anymore, so I thought if it’s okay with you, our daughter could grow up in the house that your parents built to raise you in. We can take old memories and make new ones with our own children. I know I took a huge leap, but I know you and I-”

  She shoved her mouth against mine, preventing me from finishing. After a few minutes, I backed away. “So, it’s okay that I already bought it?”

  She nodded. “Yes, it’s very okay. It’s the most beautiful present, aside from B, of course.”

  I agreed. “Of course.”

  Kat walked up to the pink four-poster bed. “It’s beautiful.”

  “This room was all Mom and Dad. They hired someone to come in and make it perfect. Do you think she’ll like it?”

  “She won’t want to ever go home.”

  I could tell it had finally sunk in that we were going to have to move. Her other house would go for sale. “We can talk about it later.”