Love Accidental (A Romance Compilation)

by Tia Siren

  Thinking back to what my callers had been advising all along, I realized I had to court her, to woo her and show her how much I loved her with gestures. It didn’t have to be expensive; it had to be heartfelt. I could do that.

  “Are you done?” Jaxon asked, pushing open my office door. “That was really rude by the way.”

  He looked shocked to see me on the couch. “Yes, I’m done.”

  “You’re on my couch.”

  “It’s my couch.”

  “You never sit there. You have a chair. Does this mean I get to sit in your chair?”

  “No.”

  He shrugged his shoulders and moved to sit in my chair anyway. “What was that all about?” he asked.

  “I sold my condo,” I said, the words feeling strange as they crossed my lips.

  Jaxon was silent a while. “Wow,” he finally managed to get out.

  I chuckled. “Yeah, wow. I also have a booth. One of the stations out there is going to be leasing the booth to us. Tina is already working on lining up guests based in New York for the show. It all seems to be happening really fast.”

  “It is really fast,” Jaxon agreed. “Why are you moving if she won’t even talk to you?”

  “I’ll make her talk to me. I just have to convince her she wants to marry me.”

  “Have you told her why? Like the real reason you want to marry her?” Jaxon asked.

  I rolled my head to the side so I could look at him sitting behind my desk. “What do you mean the real reason? I already told her we could get married and live happily ever after.”

  He shook his head, rolling his eyes as he did. “You’re an idiot, a real moron.”

  “Why?” I asked, sitting up to look at him.

  “Have you told her you loved her?”

  I scoffed. “What are you talking about? She knows. Why else would I ask her to marry me and move across the country to be with her?”

  He leveled his gaze at me. “Let’s go over the details. As far as I know, you haven’t told her you are moving, right?”

  I shook my head. “Not yet. I wanted to make sure it was going to happen before I brought it up again. When I told her I had tried and failed to get a job and she would have to move to me, she got really pissed—like slept-on-the-couch pissed.”

  He covered his face with his hands. “You told her you wanted to marry her, but did you ask?”

  I looked up at the ceiling as I tried to remember if I had. A feeling of dread washed over me as I realized I had done no such thing. She had found the ring, but it wasn’t like I gave it to her. I had never dropped to my knee and asked her. It was more of a let’s-do-this thing rather than a proposal. I had proposed marriage with the same care I would propose Mexican over Italian for dinner.

  “Shit,” I mumbled under my breath.

  Jaxon was nodding. “I thought so. Explains why she isn’t talking to you again. Flowers aren’t going to cut it, man. You fucked up.”

  “Thanks. So helpful.”

  “You have to say the words. You have to give her your heart, not just your dick,” he said crudely.

  “What makes you an expert in the field of love? Your longest relationship has been about a week, and I know damn well you’ve never loved any of them,” I shot back.

  “I’m not quite as dumb as I act, and I have actually loved before,” he said in a quiet voice.

  I looked up at him to gauge his emotions and see if he was being honest. “You have?”

  He nodded. “Yes. It can’t be that hard to believe.”

  “When? What happened?” I asked, suddenly intrigued by the man’s past. I had known Jaxon about ten years. He had been a womanizer since I’d known him.

  He shrugged a shoulder and pretended nonchalance. “I was young, college. She was too. We were going to get married. I did the whole big proposal thing and spent a small fortune on a ring.”

  “Wow,” I mumbled, surprised to hear he had ever been down that road before. “And?”

  He sighed. “She died. No, not died. She was killed. Drunk driver, wrong way on the freeway. Killed her instantly a month before our wedding.”

  My mouth fell open. I wanted to offer him words of comfort, but I didn’t think that was what he wanted. “I’m sorry. I had no idea.”

  “It’s okay. It was a long time ago. I’m not sad about it. I mean, I am of course, but it isn’t something I dwell on. I just wanted you to know I do know women and I know that a proposal that means something is important to them. You have to get on one knee or do something special for her. Calling her up out of the blue and claiming you want to marry her because of a silly pact is not exactly smooth, my friend. You have to do better than that,” he said with a smile.

  The earlier pall in the room had quickly been erased. I now had a better understanding of Jaxon and why he was the way he was. I could give him my two cents based on my one semester of psychology, but I had a feeling he already knew he was a serial womanizer because of what had happened to him. If this lifestyle made him happy, I was certainly not going to take that away. He’d lost enough.

  “Thanks. You’re right. I did this all wrong. I guess I assumed she was the same girl I knew back when. I jumped in with both feet without thinking about how she would feel about it. It was stupid,” I said, suddenly realizing my mistake.

  He grinned. “I know I’m right. I’m happy to hear you say it though.”

  “Whatever. I need to get ready for the booth. Then I guess I better get some boxes and hire those movers. Holy shit, this is happening fast,” I said, still in a state of disbelief.

  “It is. I’m going to be sorry to see you go. I talked with the owner today. Your little leap to satellite means I get to take a lot more trips around the country on the company’s dime. You better believe I’ll be out in New York to check up on you. You better have a line of women for me.”

  I laughed. “I’ll get right on that. I’m sure Mia won’t mind me scouting the territory for you and scoring some numbers. Should go over real well,” I said with sarcasm.

  He chuckled. “I was only trying to save time. I guess I’ll have to do my own legwork. Your taste in women is not the same as mine anyway.”

  “Oh, by taste do you mean legal and of at least drinking age?” I quipped.

  That made him grin even bigger. “That’s a ridiculous standard, and you are seriously limiting yourself if you exclude those coeds, but I guess none of that matters to you now.”

  “Nope. It doesn’t. I’ve got a woman.”

  “You hope,” he shot back before racing out of my office.

  I did hope. I had some serious work to do to get back in her good graces after screwing things up so badly.

  Chapter Thirty-Four

  Mia

  If I was going to make this “working from home while raising a baby” thing work, I was going to need a bigger place. I was currently regretting my decision to cut the second bedroom in half. The room was barely big enough for a small office, let alone a nursery. For now I was going to be working from the kitchen table. I needed to go shopping for a desk next week. My mother had already volunteered to go with me.

  The woman loved to shop, as did I. It would be fun and help take my mind off other things I wasn’t quite ready to think about, namely Brad. He’d been texting pretty regularly, but I hadn’t responded. I didn’t know what to say. I couldn’t tell him what I needed him to say. He needed to figure that out on his own.

  For now, I had other things to get done. I had to finish my article and then get ready for my weekend trip to Vegas. It wasn’t going to be what I had originally thought it would be when I booked the trip last month. There would be no drinks while gambling. It was going to be a laid-back trip, which was just fine with me.

  First, work. I took a deep breath and focused on what I needed to do first. I rushed through the final paragraph and sent it off to a proofreader. I didn’t get up from my spot at the table. Instead of starting the packing process, I browsed apartments. I needed
at least two bedrooms but would prefer three. I didn’t have a lot of baby experience, but I was pretty sure they needed a lot of stuff. The baby would have a room of its own, but I had a feeling the amount of stuff my baby would have would be spilling into other rooms.

  I couldn’t help but click on some of the houses. It was a dream of mine. I would love a house in the suburbs, but the cost and the commute could be rough. Of course, if I was working from home, I could offset some of that cost. Just for kicks, I looked at pictures of houses and imagined how I would decorate each room.

  “Stop it. You’re supposed to be packing,” I scolded myself. This path of dreams was not going to get me packed and ready for my trip.

  I closed the laptop and headed to my room to start packing. It took some time to plan each outfit. Once I was finished, I checked the time and realized I had better get a move on it or I was going to be late for dinner with my mom.

  Time management was definitely something I was going to have to work on if I was going to make working from home successful. I found myself easily distracted. I was definitely going to need a home office or a place dedicated to work alone. I rolled my eyes. Finding a two-bedroom condo was hard enough. Finding a three-bedroom I could afford was going to be even harder.

  I breezed into the restaurant and immediately spotted my mom. She was hard to miss considering she was standing and waving her arms.

  “Mia!”

  “I see you, Mom,” I said quietly, trying to sneak in and take my seat without too much attention.

  She laughed. “You look radiant!”

  I shook my head. “You’re crazy. I’m not radiating quite yet.”

  “Oh, yes, you are. You’re glowing.”

  I giggled. “Fine. Whatever you say. I think it’s because I was running late and didn’t have time to powder my nose.”

  “You’re beautiful. You don’t need makeup, and don’t you dare try to powder away that natural glow,” she said with a proud smile.

  “Thank you, Mom. That’s very sweet, and I appreciate it. I’m probably going to need those compliments when I’m feeling as big as a house.”

  She giggled. “Yes, you will. I have a feeling your baby daddy will shower you with compliments if you let him, though.”

  I rolled my eyes. “I doubt that. He told me one of the reasons he wants to marry me is my body. I don’t know if he’ll feel the same way when I’m big and pregnant.”

  “With his child, the child he is desperate for,” she reminded me. “And I doubt that’s the only reason he wants to marry you.”

  “I know he wants it, and before you ask, no, I haven’t told him. I’ll tell him when I get back from my business trip,” I promised. I purposely ignored her last comment. I didn’t want to discuss how Brad had never told me he loved me.

  “Good. I’m going to keep bugging you about it until you do.”

  I scoffed. “I know. Trust me.”

  We ordered our meals and chatted about the baby and all the things I needed to buy. She advised me to start now so it wasn’t such a huge hit to the bank account when I realized I needed so much. I agreed with her.

  “Want to walk over to Macy’s and do a little window shopping?” I asked when we were done eating.

  She lit up. “Of course! I thought you’d never ask.”

  I laughed. “Well, I’m kind of afraid to actually buy anything. I have known women who rushed out and bought stuff and then miscarried. I don’t think I could deal with that.”

  “Think positive. You’re healthy and you are not so old, my dear. Women your age have babies all the time.”

  I nodded. “I know. I’m just afraid to get too attached.”

  “Let’s go shopping. Even if the worst happens, you can try again,” she said in a soft voice.

  I groaned. “I don’t know about that.”

  “Stop. Let’s go.”

  I reluctantly went, but the moment we walked into the baby section, I was beyond excited.

  “What do you think—a boy or a girl?” she asked.

  “I have no idea, Mom.”

  “What theme will the nursery be?” she said, picking up a blanket with a Noah’s Ark theme.

  I shook my head. “I don’t know. I haven’t even thought about it.”

  She smiled. “There’s a lot to think about. This is why it would be nice if Brad was in the picture. He could help you make these decisions.”

  “That’s what I have you for. You raised me on your own. I can do it, too—with your help of course.”

  “Oh, sweetie, of course you can, but it is difficult. Please don’t think it was easy. There are going to be days you want to quit and hide in a closet and cry. I did. Several times. You were a good baby, but sometimes it was overwhelming,” she said, looking thoughtful.

  “I’ll be okay. I want this. I do know it will be hard, but I’m ready.” I paused and burst into laughter. “Well, I think I’m ready, but then I can’t even decide on a nursery theme.”

  My mom hugged me and laughed. “Trust me, this is the least of your worries. It isn’t like the baby is going to remember if there were animals or fire trucks on the walls.”

  I nodded, feeling a little reassured yet overwhelmed as I took in all the different gadgets that went along with having a baby in the house. I was going to need a big fat loan to buy it all. In the back of my mind, I knew Brad would spoil the child if I let him. He would be a good dad.

  “Look at this!” my mom squealed, holding up a little dress. “Is this not adorable?”

  I smiled. “It is. It looks like something a woman would wear, only much, much smaller.”

  She nodded. “I know! And look at this one!”

  I looked at the rack of infant dresses and was amazed. “They’re so fashionable!” I exclaimed.

  She vigorously nodded. “If you have a girl, I’m buying this dress,” she declared.

  I couldn’t help but laugh at her enthusiasm. “Maybe I’ll write about baby fashion in a future article. I can’t believe how cute these dresses are. I mean, I’ve seen pretty and all that, but these are like mini replicas of dresses the mommies would wear. How have I never known about this before?”

  She shrugged. “I don’t know, but I really want to buy this dress. Are you sure you have no inkling? I knew you were a girl,” she said proudly.

  I rolled my eyes. “No, you didn’t. You guessed. You had a fifty-fifty chance of being right.”

  She put a hand on her hip. “Don’t try to deny my mother’s intuition.”

  I nodded to placate her, and we got back to making a list of all the things we were going to buy the baby. It was an extensive list. We left the store without buying anything, although it had been close.

  It was after nine when I finally got home. I was exhausted. My mother told me it was the pregnancy and to expect to be tired a lot during the first trimester.

  Brad called at eleven on the dot. It wasn’t a text, which kind of surprised me, so I answered it.

  “You answered,” he said right off the bat.

  I laughed. “I did.”

  “I’m sorry. I’m a complete asshole.”

  “It’s fine, really. I was just oversensitive.”

  He breathed a sigh of relief. “We’re good then?” he asked hopefully.

  “As good as we can get.”

  I was desperate to tell him about the baby, but I held back. I couldn’t, not yet. Instead, I blurted out the other matter that had been on my mind. “I miss you.”

  “I miss you, too, baby. I can’t wait to see you again. When can I see you?”

  “I leave for Las Vegas tomorrow for a business trip. I’ll be back on Sunday and can take a look at my schedule then. Brad, I’m not sure I can make it out there for a while,” I said, not wanting to say too much.

  “I understand. It’s fine. We’ll figure something out.”

  We talked a little more about our jobs and current events. I left off the part about me working from home. He would wonder why or assume
I had done it to spend time with him in California. I didn’t want to get his hopes up. I felt like he was holding back as well.

  “I should go,” I murmured, fighting back a yawn. “I’ve got an early day tomorrow and flying always wears me out.”

  “You can’t call me when you’re gone?” he asked. “I’m going to be texting you.”

  “I can try, but I’ll be busy. I don’t want to say I will and then not do it.”

  “Okay,” he replied, his voice unusually subdued.

  I had an overwhelming urge to tell him I loved him but stopped myself. “I’ll be thinking about you,” I said in a soft voice.

  “I think about you nonstop,” he whispered.

  We both hung up. It was the first time we had ended a conversation like that. It was like we were a real couple missing each other like crazy. He had actually sounded a little down. I wanted to be there to hug him and tell him it would all be okay. It broke my heart to keep things from him. I missed him terribly. I could tell he missed me as well. It sucked that we were so far apart.

  I had no idea how I was going to get through the next year or two years or ten years. Life didn’t look nearly as enjoyable without him in it.

  Chapter Thirty-Five

  Brad

  My mind had replayed our conversation at least a hundred times. I had thought she was going to tell me she loved me before she hung up. She didn’t. I had had held my breath, waiting to hear the words. That warm and fuzzy feeling I tended to get when I was with her had spread over my body as I listened to her breathe on the other end of the phone.

  Instead of telling me what I was desperate to hear, she left me hanging. She may not have said it, but I was convinced she felt it. I had to make her feel confident enough to tell me she loved me. The only way that would happen was if I bared my heart first.