The Past and the Punishments
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Fiction from Modern China
This series is intended to showcase new and
exciting works by China’s finest contemporary
novelists in fresh, authoritative translations. It represents innovative recent fiction by some of the boldest new voices in China today as well as classic works of this century by internationally acclaimed novelists. Bringing together writers from several geographical areas and from a range of cultural and political milieus, the series opens new doors to twentieth-century China.
h o w a r d g o l d b l a t t
General Editor
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Yu Hua
Translated from the Chinese
by Andrew F. Jones
General Editor, Howard Goldblatt
University of Hawai‘i Press Honolulu
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Selection and English translation © 1996 University of Hawai‘i Press All rights reserved
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Yü, Hua, 1960–
The past and the punishments / Yu Hua ; translated by Andrew F.
Jones ; general editor, Howard Goldblatt.
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cm. — (Fiction from modern China)
Translation from Chinese.
ISBN 0–8248–1782–6 (cloth : alk. paper). — ISBN 0–8248–1817–2
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I. Jones, Andrew F.
II. Goldblatt, Howard, 1939–
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Contents
On the Road at Eighteen, 3
Classical Love, 12
World Like Mist, 62
The Past and the Punishments, 114
1986, 132
Blood and Plum Blossoms, 181
The Death of a Landlord, 201
Predestination, 253
Translator’s Postscript, 263
Editor’s Note, 275
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On the Road at Eighteen
The asphalt road rolls up and down like it’s pasted on top of ocean waves. Walking down this little highway in the mountains, I’m like a boat. This year, I turned eighteen.
The few brownish whiskers that have sprouted on my chin flutter in the breeze. They’ve only just taken up residence on my chin, so I really treasure them. I’ve spent the whole day walking down the road, and I’ve already seen lots of mountains and lots of clouds. Every one of the mountains and every one of the clouds made me think of people I know. I shouted out each of their nicknames as I walked by.
So even though I’ve walked all day, I’m not tired, not at all.
I walked through the morning, now it’s the tail end of the afternoon, and it won’t be long until I see the tip of dusk.
But I haven’t found an inn.
I’ve encountered quite a few people along the road, but none of them has known where the road goes or whether there’s an inn there. They all tell me: “Keep walking. You’ll see when you get there.” I think what everyone said was just terrific. I really am just seeing when I get there. But I haven’t found an inn. I feel like I should be worried about that.
I think it’s weird that I’ve walked all day and only seen one car. That was around noon, when I’d just begun to think about hitchhiking. But all I was doing was thinking about hitchhiking. I hadn’t started to worry about finding an inn
– I was only thinking about how amazing it would be to get a lift from someone. I stood by the side of the road waving at the car, trying my best to look casual. But the driver hardly even looked at me. The car or the driver. They hardly even looked at me. All they fucking did was drive right by.
So I ran, chasing the car as fast as I could, just for fun, 3
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because I still hadn’t started to worry about finding an inn. I ran until the car had disappeared, and then I laughed at myself, but I discovered that laughing too hard made it difficult to breathe, so I stopped. After that I kept walking, happy and excited, except that I started to regret that I hadn’t picked up a rock before I started waving at the car.
Now I really want a lift, because dusk is about to fall and I can’t get that inn out of my goddamned head. But there haven’t been any cars all afternoon. If a car came now, I think I could make it stop. I’d lie down in the middle of the road, and I’m willing to bet that any car would come to a screeching halt before it got to my head. But I don’t even hear the rumble of an engine, let alone see a car. Now I’m just going to have to keep walking and see when I get there.
Not bad at all: keep walking and see when you get there.
The road rolls up and down from hill to valley, and the hills tempt me every time, because before I charge up to the top, I think I’ll see an inn on the other side. But each time I charge up the slope, all I see is another hill in the distance, with a depressing trough in between. And still I charge up each hill as if my life depended on it. And now I’m charging up another one, but this time I see it. Not an inn, but a truck. The truck is pointed toward me, stalled in the middle of the highway in a gully between two hills. I can see the driver’s ass pointing skyward and, behind it, all the colors of the approaching sunset. I can’t see the driver’s head because it’s stuffed under the hood. The truck’s hood slants up into the air like an upside-down lip. The back of the truck is piled full of big wicker baskets. I’m thinking that they definitely must be packed with some kind of fruit. Of course, bananas would be best of all. There are probably some in the cab, too, so when I hop in, I can eat a few. And I don’t really care if the truck’s going in the opposite direction as me. I need to find an inn, and if there’s no inn, I need a truck.
And the truck’s right here in front of me.
Elated, I run down to the truck and say, “Hi!”
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The driver doesn’t seem to have heard me. He’s still fiddling with something under the hood.
“Want a smoke?”
Only now does he pull his head out from under the hood, stretch out a black, grimy hand, and take the cigarette between his fingers. I rush to give him a light, and he sucks several mouthfuls of smoke into his mouth before stuffing his head back under the hood.
I’m satisfied. Since he accepted the smoke, that means he has to give me a lif
t. So I wander around to the back of the truck to investigate what’s in the wicker baskets. But they’re covered, and I can’t see, so I sniff. I smell the fragrance of apples. And I think: Apples aren’t too bad either.
In just a little bit, he’s done repairing the truck, and he jumps down from the hood. I rush over and say, “Hey, I need a ride.” What I don’t expect is that he gives me a hard shove with those grimy hands and barks, “Go away!”
I’m so angry I’m speechless, but he just swings on over to the driver’s side, opens the door, slides into the cab, and starts the engine. I know that if I blow this opportunity, I’ll never get another one. I know I should just give up. So I run over to the other side, open the door, and hop in. I’m ready to fight if necessary. I turn to him and yell: “Then give me back my cigarette!” The truck’s already started to move by now.
He turns to look at me with a big, friendly smile and asks, “Where you headed?”
I’m bewildered by this turnaround. I say, “Doesn’t matter.
Wherever.”
He asks me very nicely, “Want an apple?” He’s still glancing over at me.
“That goes without saying.”
“Go get one from the back.”
How am I supposed to climb out of the cab to the back of the truck when he’s driving so fast? So I say, “Forget it.”
He says, “Go get one.” He’s still looking at me.
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I say, “Stop staring at me. There’s no road on my face.”
With this, he twists his eyes back onto the highway.
The truck’s driving back in the direction I just came from; I’m sitting comfortably in the cab, looking out the window and chatting with the driver. By now, we’re already the best of friends. I’ve found out that he’s a private entre-preneur. It’s his own truck. The apples are his, too. I hear change jingling in his pockets. I ask him, “Where are you going?”
He says, “I just keep driving and see when I get there.”
It sounds just like what everyone else said. That’s so nice.
I feel closer to him. I want everything I see outside the window to be just as close, just as familiar, and soon all those hills and clouds start to bring more friends to mind, so I shout out their nicknames as we drive by.
Now I’m not crying out for an inn anymore. What with the truck, the driver, the seat in the cab, I’m completely at peace. I don’t know where the truck’s going, and neither does he. Anyway, it doesn’t matter, because all we have to do is keep driving, and we’ll see when we get there.
But the truck broke down. By that time, we were as close as friends can be. My arm was draped over his shoulder and his over mine. He was telling me about his love life, and right when he’d got to the part about how it felt the first time he held a woman’s body in his arms, the truck broke down. The truck was climbing up a hill when it broke down. All of a sudden the squeal of the engine went quiet like a pig right after it’s been slaughtered. So he jumped out of the truck, climbed onto the hood, opened up that upside-down lip, and stuffed his head back under it. I couldn’t see his ass. But I could hear the sound of him fiddling with the engine.
After a while, he pulled his head out from under the hood and slammed it shut. His hands were even blacker than before. He wiped them on his pants, wiped again, jumped down, and walked back to the cab.
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“Is it fixed?” I asked.
“It’s shot. There’s no way to fix it.”
I thought that over and finally asked, “Now what do we do?”
“Wait and see,” he said, nonchalantly.
I was sitting in the cab wondering what to do. Then I started to think about finding an inn again. The sun was just falling behind the mountains, and the hazy dusk clouds looked like billows of steam. The notion of an inn stole back into my head and began to swell until my mind was stuffed full of it. By then, I didn’t even have a mind. An inn was growing where my mind used to be.
At that point, the driver started doing the official morning calisthenics that they always play on the radio right there in the middle of the highway. He went from the first exercise to the last without missing a beat. When he was finished, he started to jog circles around the truck. Maybe he had been sitting too long in the driver’s seat and needed some exercise. Watching him moving from my vantage
point inside the truck, I couldn’t sit still either, so I opened the door and jumped out. But I didn’t do calisthenics or jog in place. I was thinking about an inn and an inn and an inn.
Just then, I noticed five people rolling down the hill on bicycles. Each bike had a carrying pole fastened to the back with two big baskets on either end. I thought they were probably local peasants on their way back from selling vegetables at market. I was delighted to see people riding by, so I welcomed them with a big “Hi!” They rode up beside me and dismounted. Excited, I greeted them and asked, “Is there an inn around here?”
Instead of responding they asked me, “What’s in the truck?”
I said, “Apples.”
All five of them pushed their bikes over to the side of the truck. Two of them climbed onto the back, picked up about ten baskets full of apples, and passed them upside down to On the Road at Eighteen 7
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the ones below, who proceeded to tear open the plastic covering the top of the wicker and pour the apples into their own baskets. I was dumbstruck. When I finally realized exactly what was going on, I made for them and asked, “Just what do you think you’re doing?”
None of them paid the slightest bit of attention to me. They continued to pour the apples. I tried to grab hold of someone’s arm and screamed, “They’re stealing all the apples!” A fist came crashing into my nose, and I landed several feet away. I staggered up, rubbed my nose. It felt soft and sticky, like it wasn’t stuck to my face anymore but only dangling from it. Blood was flowing like tears from a broken heart. When I looked up to see which of them had hit me, they were already astride their bikes, riding away.
The driver was taking a walk, lips curling out as he sucked in deep draughts of air. He had probably lost his breath running. He didn’t seem to be at all aware of what had just happened. I yelled toward him, “They stole your apples!” But he kept on walking without paying any attention to what I had yelled. I really wanted to run over and punch him so hard that his nose would be left dangling, too.
I ran over and screamed into his ear, “They stole your apples.” Only then did he turn to look at me, and I realized that his face was getting happier and happier the longer he looked at my nose.
At that point, yet another group of bicycles descended down the slope. Each bike had two big baskets fastened to the back. There were even a few children among the riders.
They swarmed by me and surrounded the truck. A lot of people climbed onto the back, and the wicker baskets flew faster than I could count them. Apples poured out of broken baskets like blood out of my nose. They stuffed apples into their own baskets as if they were possessed. In just a few seconds, all the apples in the truck had been lowered to the ground. Then a few motorized tractor carts chugged down 8 yu hua
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the hill and stopped next to the truck. A few big men dismounted and started to stuff apples into the carts. One by one, the empty wicker baskets were tossed to the side. The ground was covered with rolling apples, and the peasants scrabbled on their hands and knees like ants to pick them all up.
It was at that point that I rushed into their midst, risking life and limb, and cursed them, “Thieves!” I started swinging. My attack was met with countless fists and feet. It seemed like every part of my body got hit at the same time.
I climbed back up off the ground. A few children began to hurl apples at me. The apples broke a
part on my head, but my head didn’t break. Just as I was about to rush the kids, a foot came crashing into my waist. I wanted to cry, but when I opened my mouth, nothing came out. There was nothing to do but fall to the ground and watch them steal the apples. I started to look around for the driver. He was standing a good distance away, looking right at me, and laughing as hard as he could. Just so I knew that I looked even better now than I had with a bloody nose.
I didn’t even have the strength for anger. All I could do was gaze out at everything that was making me so angry.
And what made me the angriest of all was the driver.
Another wave of bicycles and tractors rolled down the hill and threw themselves into the disaster area. There were fewer and fewer apples rolling on the ground. A few people left. A few more arrived. The ones who had arrived too late for apples began to busy themselves with the truck. I saw them remove the window glass, strip the tires, pry away the planks that covered the truck bed. Without its tires, the truck obviously felt really low, because it sank to the ground.
A few children began to gather the wicker baskets that had been tossed to the side a moment before. As the road got cleaner and cleaner, there were fewer and fewer people. But all I could do was watch, because I didn’t even have the On the Road at Eighteen 9
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strength for anger. I sat on the ground without moving, letting my eyes wander back and forth between the driver and the thieves.
Now, there’s nothing left but a single tractor parked beside the sunken truck. Someone’s looking around to see if there’s anything left to take. He looks for a while and then hops on his tractor and starts the engine.
The truck driver hops onto the back of the tractor and looks back toward me, laughing. He’s holding my red backpack in his hand. He’s stealing my backpack. My clothes and my money are in the backpack. And food and books.
But he’s stealing my backpack.
I’m watching the tractor climb back up the slope. It disappears over the crest. I can still hear the rumble of its engine, but soon I can’t even hear that. All of a sudden, everything’s quiet, and the sky starts to get really dark. I’m still sitting on the ground. I’m hungry, and I’m cold, but there’s nothing left.