Silent Witness

by Collin Wilcox

  “Oh.” The disappointed monosyllable was eloquent.

  “But I haven’t really been at this business very long,” Bernhardt added. “It takes time, you know, to find some guy bad enough to shoot. Years, sometimes.”

  “Oh.” Diffidently, the boy nodded.

  He’d made it worse, then. Not better. Now John was shifting his feet, ready to ride away. “I’ll tell you what, though,” Bernhardt said, “next time I come, I’ll bring my gun. Okay?”

  The boy visibly brightened. “Can I hold it?”

  “We’ll see, John.”

  Just as visibly, the anticipation dimmed. At age seven, John Price had plainly heard “We’ll see” before. He put a scuffed sneaker on a pedal, cast a meaningful glance at Martelli, and pushed off. As the boy pedaled away on a narrow dirt road that led to a cluster of trees bordering the vineyards to the west, the figure of a man appeared on the crest of the rise that separated the winery buildings from the main house. Dressed in running shoes, fashion-faded blue jeans, and a regimental khaki shirt, his blond hair stirring in the light breeze, the man stood motionless, looking down at them. He was medium height and weight, athletically built. He carried himself with the calm arrogance of the privileged class. As the newcomer began walking toward them, the details of his deeply tanned face resolved into their separate parts: clear gray eyes, bleached-blond eyebrows, a mouth that was slightly too tight, and a nose that was slightly too long. It was a lean, aristocratic face, overbred, overindulged. Now in his early forties, the pattern of the man’s facial lines and creases were pleasing to the eye. In later years, Bernhardt suspected, the effect would be less pleasing.

  “If you’re looking for Dennis Price,” Martelli said, sotto voce, “there he is. Handsome devil, isn’t he?”

  A quick glance at Martelli’s sardonic expression clearly revealed that Martelli’s opinion of Dennis Price closely matched Janice Hale’s.

  “Lots of luck,” Martelli murmured. “If I can help, let me know. I’m in the phone book.”

  With his eyes innocuously fixed on Price, Bernhardt whispered, “Thanks. I’m counting on it.” Then, hastily, he took a business card from his pocket, surreptitiously slipped it to Martelli.

  “Gotcha.” Martelli palmed the card, waited until Price had joined them, performed the brief introductions, mentioned a matter at the winery that required his attention, and precipitously walked down the pathway toward the vintage winery building constructed of old stone.

  Leaving Bernhardt once more forced to improvise: “I—ah—was going to knock on your door, Mr. Price.” His smile, he hoped, was disarming.

  “What’s it all about?” Pointedly, Price did not return the smile.

  “I—ah—I’ve been retained to clarify some of the facts surrounding the death of your wife, Mr. Price. Specifically, I—”

  “Retained by who?” It was a truculent question. Price’s clear gray eyes were hostile, his stance had turned aggressive.

  “Sorry—” Diffidently, Bernhardt shook his head. “I’m not at liberty to say. All I need, though, is—”

  “I’ve already talked to the sheriff, and the DA. They’ve got everything they asked for. And it took us a goddamn week to clean up that goddamn black fingerprint powder. So I’d suggest, whatever you’re trying to clarify”—the word was bitingly emphasized—“that you start with the sheriff. Fowler. There’s no reason for you to—”

  “I’ve already talked to Sheriff Fowler.” He allowed his diffident smile to fade. “He’s given me some valuable information.” Covertly watching the other man, he paused. No reaction was visible on Price’s lean, improbably aristocratic face. “But I really feel that I need more.” Another pause. Then, quietly: “And so does my client.”

  “Well—” Price began to turn away. “I’m afraid, Mr. Bernhardt, that you’ll have to—”

  “Actually, it’s not so much your testimony I need. It’s John’s. You see, since—”

  Glowering, Price angrily turned to face him fully. “John?”

  “Yes. You see, since you and John were the only two witnesses to the—”

  “John wasn’t a witness. Neither was I, not to the murder. I found her. But John was downstairs, the whole time. And he—”

  “What I meant to say,” he said, “is that the two of you were both in the house, when it happened. I gather she was killed in the master bedroom, on the second floor. Is that right?”

  Plainly enraged, Price advanced a furious half-step. With an effort, Bernhardt stood his ground. Price’s eyes, he saw, were blazing, a good reason to be careful. But, even though Price’s mouth was angrily clamped shut, the muscles of one cheek were beginning to twitch. And now—yes—Price was beginning to rapidly blink. Did the twitching and the blinking reveal a fear that bluster couldn’t conceal?

  There was only one way to find out: “The reason I ask,” Bernhardt said, “is that, since the murder was committed on the second floor, it’s obvious that the murderer had to’ve gone down to the first floor to escape. And since John was down there, asleep on the couch, as I understand it, then I thought that—”

  “I’m going to the house,” Price said, his voice shaking, “and I’m going to call the sheriff. I’m going to tell him that I ordered you off the property, but you refused to go. And then I’m going to get my shotgun. And then—” With a trembling forefinger, he pointed to Bernhardt’s Toyota. “And then I’m going to start shooting out your tires. Then I’ll start on the windows. Do you understand, you son of a bitch?”

  Hearing a telltale unsteadiness in his own voice, Bernhardt tried to speak calmly, keep the muscles of his face from twitching, keep his eyes steady as he said, “It seems to me, Mr. Price, that you’re off the deep end, concerning John. All I want to do is—”

  With outrage tearing at the ruins of his overprivileged face, Price’s voice rose beyond his control: “We’re talking about doctor’s orders, asshole. Do you understand?” Price’s stiffened forefinger dug into Bernhardt’s shoulder. “John’s been to a psychiatrist. Dr. Wolfe in San Francisco. And the orders are no talking to anyone about how his mother died. No one. Especially not two-for-a-dollar private detectives.”

  With his whole body braced against another finger jab, Bernhardt felt his jaw tighten, his fists clench, the rush of adrenaline. But, the next instant, Price turned away and began stalking toward the house. Bernhardt relaxed his fists, drew a deep breath, and turned toward his car. The time was almost five o’clock. At seven-thirty, Paula was expecting him for dinner at her place: salmon steaks, a gift from a satisfied client.

  5:30 P.M.

  USING BOTH HANDS, BOWING his back and digging his feet into the soft earth, John tugged at the huge wooden door, sagging on its rusty hinges, each hinge as long as his arm. The door was more than twice as tall as he was, and wide enough to take a wagon load of hay, Al had once told him. A horse-drawn wagon, Al had said, in old-fashioned times. Scraping in the dirt, the door came slowly open, just enough for him to squeeze through.

  Inside the barn now he stood still, looking and listening. If he kept quiet enough, if he paid close attention, and just listened, he’d learned that he could always hear something inside the barn. Small sounds, sometimes mysterious sounds. Animals, scurrying. Things tapping, things rustling. Invisible things. Outside, the sun was sinking in the sky, almost gone behind the ridge that bordered the vineyard to the west. Inside the barn, the narrow lines of light that shone through the cracks in the barn’s old boards were turning golden. Bits of dust and tiny winged insects were suspended in the narrow shafts. Hundreds—thousands—of tiny specks, some of them alive, some not. Some of them just floated, some of them flew, circling in the sunlight.

  Everywhere, on the ground and in the air, there were insects. Millions of insects. Flying insects, crawling insects. Some of them buzzed, some stung. Some of them even lit up in the dark: lightning bugs, almost the first miracle he’d experienced.

  There was no floor in the old barn, only dirt. The dirt wasn
’t really dirt, more like the sand and shavings and whatever made the ground of playgrounds, deep and soft, if someone fell into it: dirt that didn’t get you dirty, dirt that felt good.

  Walking in the deep, soft, fragrant earth with its hay and everything else mixed together over so many years, even before he was born, horses with their shoes and their manure, big tall wagon wheels with wooden spokes and narrow iron rims, he let his feet drag, toes digging in. He could feel the earth inside his sneakers, a particular pleasure. The ladder was ahead: wooden rails and crosspieces nailed to a post that showed the ancient marks of ax and saw. He began climbing: cautiously, two feet to each rung, hands gripping the rails hard. He didn’t like to climb. He liked to be high up in the loft above him, or in the tiny attic room in the house, looking out across the vineyards. But he didn’t like to climb. Ladders, trees, even jungle gyms, they were all the same, tests he could hardly pass.

  This ladder, though, was only eight rungs. And even if he fell the ground below was so deep, so soft, it would be all right.

  He stepped from the ladder onto the floor of the hayloft. It was here that the feeling of things began to change, in this one special place. He could sense it in the rough-cut wood, and the pegs that secured the beams and planks and the crisscrossed braces that angled high overhead. He could see it in the narrow shafts of sunlight between the boards that fell across the floor, magic from the sun. He could hear it in the buzz of the insects, and the sound of the wind, like a soft sigh from far away. And he could smell it in the air, heavy with time and place and ancient memory.

  The barn hadn’t been used for years, Al had once told him, maybe twenty years. So the hay, that vast, fragrant mound that tumbled together with him when he jumped and rolled and wallowed, was older than he was. The barn and the hay and the smells, everything he saw or touched, had been there before he was born.

  As he began to climb the mound of hay he sank almost knee deep, the hay prickling the bare skin on his legs. If he’d known he was coming, he would have worn jeans. And a shirt, too. Farmers always wore jeans and shirts and hats, even when the weather was hot. And now he knew why.

  At the top of the mound, his own secret mountain, he raised his arms wide, threw back his head, and let himself fall forward—falling free, sinking, tumbling, hearing himself laughing as he rolled down the other side, cradled in the hay. He rose to his knees, shook his head, brushed the hay from his hair, stood up, stepped close to the edge of the hayloft, where he gripped the ladder to steady himself. Overhead, among the beams and rafters, birds flew busily, darting and swooping and then disappearing, returning to the sky while other birds swooped in through the gaps where boards were missing. Many gaps, many birds. Barn swallows, Al had called them.

  Down below, he saw the rusted farm machinery, all tumbled together along the wall to make room for the truck. Except for the loft and the secret room behind it, the truck was his favorite place to play. Sitting on the split-open black leather seat with its springs showing through, gripping the big wood-rimmed steering wheel, just touching the pedals with his feet, he could almost hear the roar of the engine, feel the wheels thumping on the road as he traveled far, far away.

  But now, so late, he had only time enough to check the secret room, make sure nothing had been disturbed.

  Three paces took him to the wall of the secret room. The door to the room was padlocked: a huge, rusted lock that would never be opened. A narrow flight of stairs led up from the sagging wooden loading platform below the door of the secret room. But the stairs were rotted. No one would ever climb those stairs again. For as long as the world went on, no one would ever climb those stairs. So only he could enter the secret room. John Price, Explorer. John Price, Special Agent.

  Yes, Special Agent …

  Everyone—the good guys and the bad guys—they’d all searched for this place, all tried to find out what was inside. Because long ago, enemy agents had been here, planning how to blow up the whole country, one big mushroom cloud, everything turned to cinders. But they’d been killed by the FBI, somewhere else. So nobody knew what they’d hidden here, the plans to blow up the whole world.

  Nobody but him.

  So it was all up to him.

  Only he could save the country. As if the spies had somehow returned, not really dead at all, he thought he heard a noise—a scurrying, a scuffling. Holding his breath, he stood perfectly still. Was someone down there, down below? If they were, they’d never see him, not as long as he stayed behind the great mound of hay, higher than his head. He could stand up, even, and no one could see him.

  As he listened, he realized his mouth was open.

  “Your mouth is open, John,” his mother sometimes said, smiling, teasing him. “Do you know you open your mouth, when you listen very hard?” Smiling. Still smiling.

  With the memory of his mother, everything changed: a shifting of sight and sound as the possibility of danger from below faded.

  Then, as it always did, the memory of his mother faded.

  Leaving him alone.

  Once more, alone.

  Aware that his legs had grown heavy, his arms listless, he moved to the secret board, known only to him. The board was loose at the bottom. When he’d discovered it was loose, nails rusty in the rotting wood, he’d found an old piece of rusted iron, and pried the board free at the top. With the board laid aside, he’d been able to squeeze through the opening, to find himself in the secret room. The room had once been used to hang bridles and harnesses, for horses. There were racks for saddles, and bits of broken equipment. There was even a saddle hanging on one of the racks, with only the stirrups missing.

  With a rock, he’d been able to bend the nails that held the board so that he could always remove the board, as he was doing now. Allowing him to squeeze through, as he was doing now. When he left, he would replace the board so that the bent nails held it firmly in place, the secret entrance to his secret place.

  The floor was littered with cans and bottles and buckles and bits of metal the first time he’d come. But he’d found a broom in one corner, and he’d used the broom to clean up, especially the cobwebs. There’d been boxes, too: three large boxes, with hinged tops and rope handles. How clearly he remembered the moment he’d pried the hasp free on one of the boxes, and lifted the lid. Would he find a treasure: sparkling jewels and bags of golden coins? And guns, maybe. Like Treasure Island?

  There’d been no treasure, no guns. But there were tools, and strangely shaped pieces of metal, all rusty.

  And then he’d found the knife: a big old sheath knife, in its leather sheath.

  His knife, now, kept in the chest.

  His secret. His weapon.

  He could still remember the feeling in his stomach when he’d pulled the blade of the knife from its sheath. He’d felt like he’d become another person. In that instant, he’d known how it must feel to be a man.

  Cowboys carried knives on the same belt with their guns. The real cowboys, the ones in the books his mother read him, they always carried knives. Just in case.

  Brushing cobwebs aside, he went to the small window. He climbed up on a chest, and looked out. He was careful to keep his head back, so no one could see him from the ground. He scanned the clearing far below, and the line of trees that bordered the clearing. Nothing stirred. Not even a squirrel, or a jackrabbit.

  He stepped down, opened the chest he’d been standing on, took out the knife. He’d found an old oil can on the shelf, with some thick, gummy oil in it. He’d oiled the blade of the knife, and with some steel wool he’d gotten from Al, he’d worked on the oiled blade until it shone. There’d been a whetstone on the shelf, too, and he’d tried to sharpen the knife, the way he’d seen Al do it.

  Closing the lid of the chest, holding the sheathed knife, he sat down with his back to the wall, his bare shoulders resting against the rough wood.

  The time, he knew, must be almost six o’clock. Yesterday he’d lost his watch, somewhere in his room, he thought. It
was because he was so messy, his father had said, that he’d lost his watch. And Maria, their cook, had agreed: “You make a mess, you lie in it,” Maria had said, “like a pig.” And she’d frowned: a dark, hard frown. Sometimes, when she talked, Maria spat. When he’d asked Al why Maria spat, Al had smiled. “It’s because she has false teeth,” Al had said. “And they don’t fit very well.” Maria was Mexican. After Maria had lived with them for a while, cooking and cleaning, he’d decided he didn’t like Mexicans.

  He held the sheath with his left hand, and drew out the knife with his right. The handle of the knife was wood and felt smooth and powerful to his hand. He knew he would always have this knife.

  From overhead, he heard the sound of a jet airplane: a faint, woolly, rolling sound, like thunder faraway.

  How long had it been, that he and his father had gone to the airport, and made their way through the crowds in the terminal, and walked through that last long tunnel to the door of the airplane, and sat strapped into their seats, waiting for the airplane to take off? He’d never before been in an airplane, never heard the engine screaming, never felt himself pressed back in his seat as the airplane hurtled down the runway, then lifted into the clear blue sky. He’d gone to Santa Barbara many times with his mother, but always by car.

  His Aunt Janice had met them at the airport in Santa Barbara. When she met him, she’d smiled: a small, sad smile. Then she’d hugged him, hard. While she held him, he’d felt her sob.

  That night, the night before the funeral, when his aunt tucked him into bed and then kissed him on the forehead, he’d felt her sob again. She’d whispered to him, very softly: “You’ll always have me, John. Always.”

  Then she’d said good night, and left him in the dark room with the door half open. From the hallway, on its wooden floor, he heard two pairs of footsteps, going toward the stairs. His father had been out there in the hallway, listening.

  He’d lain in the darkness a long time, eyes open, staring up at the ceiling. He’d never known when his eyes had closed, and he’d finally fallen asleep.