Damnation Street wab-3

by Andrew Klavan

  McNair was as I remembered him-including drunk. Those eyes set in their nest of deep-cut wrinkles had a serpentine dullness, a film of whiskey and pure meanness that made the ball in my throat grow larger, heavier. If I had harbored any hopes that goodwill would somehow transform the discomfort of the situation and put our common errors to some happy use, those hopes sank bubbling to the bottom of my heart as I approached the desk.

  Likewise any hopes I had of pity. The bruises I had sustained outside the House of Dreams were healing by then, but they looked even worse than they had when they were in their bruise prime. My cheeks were swollen, purple and yellow; the flesh around my eyes was puffed and livid; my lips looked as if they'd been attacked by an insane plastic surgeon with a syringe full of collagen-which was not to mention the fact that I was bent and limping from all the kicks I'd taken to my ribs and legs.

  McNair didn't even mention it. He simply stood behind the desk and waited. He didn't even offer my poor broken body a seat.

  "Well?" he said.

  Well-I won't tell all of it. He was furious. He swore he would have me fired. When I told him I'd already quit, he actually shook his fist at me, too enraged for words. Then he found the words and railed against my dishonesty and stupidity for going on half an hour. I weathered it. There was nothing else for me to do. Finally he subsided, sinking into his chair, muttering dark imprecations into his sleeve.

  "The question is do you want to tell her or should I?" I said.

  "Oh, there's no question at all. You'll tell her. You'll tell her. It's your mess, you imbecilic bastard."

  "All right. Well, sir… I hope this will be the beginning of a beautiful friendship."

  "Get out."

  I did-and with no small feeling of relief, let me tell you. But even better than that, I left in the understanding I had been given a great gift. To wit, I was not the man I was. I was not afraid as I had been. All the time McNair was yelling at me, I stood before his desk-I felt his hot, alcoholic breath washing over me; I felt the flecks of his spit pattering against my face-and I was immovable. What could he do to me, after all? He was not an old man, though he seemed like one to me then. He was in his prime, really. I suppose if he had charged at me, I would have had a fight on my hands. But, as I say, I was not afraid. Perhaps I could have handled him in a fight, perhaps not, but that didn't matter.

  What did matter-and what has mattered ever since-was that if the worse came to the worst, I knew I could take a punch.

  When I was done there, I phoned Emma. Rather coolly, she agreed to meet me on the university campus. She chose Sproul Plaza just within Sather Gate. That was the arch of bronze framed by concrete pillars through which students passed to enter and leave the university. It was so crowded, we were guaranteed not to have a moment alone. Which I guess was the point.

  "Oh my God, my God, oh my God!" I believe were her exact words when I presented myself. She gaped at me with gratifying concern. "What happened to you?"

  "I got beat up outside a whorehouse," I told her.

  "Oh… damn! That's no good. What the hell were you doing in a whorehouse, now?"

  "I wasn't in a whorehouse-I was outside a whorehouse."

  "Well, what were you doing outside a whorehouse?"

  "I was getting beaten up-I told you."

  Then I did tell her, not about the whorehouse, not right away. First I told her that it was over between me and Sissy. I thought I saw her fight down a smile at that.

  "Well, that's something, I guess," she said coldly.

  Then I told her about her father and the Agency and why I'd followed her to her secret church.

  Emma let out a low moan. She leaned against one of the gate's bronze uprights. The students flooded past us, into the campus, onto the street.

  "I suppose that's my fault as much as anyone's," she said. "I should've had the courage to come out with it."

  "It was just an amazing coincidence. I mean, that he came to the Agency-and that I was the only one there to deal with it."

  She cocked her head. This time the smile showed. "Not so amazing."

  I had forgotten she believed in God.

  "All right," she said. "So what about the whorehouse? That's new."

  So I told her about that, about Weiss and the Shadow-man and Bishop and pretty much the whole story. For the sake of brevity, I left out the parts about how I was trying to make myself admirable to her, and it's possible I added a few bits for dramatic intensity, narrative style, and to make myself admirable to her.

  She covered her mouth with her hand. When she finished laughing, she said, "Well, I guess that was actually kind of heroic in a sleazy sort of way."

  I laughed too-which felt as if a Republican had gripped one side of my face with a wrench and a Democrat had gripped the other, and each was attempting to twist it into the shape he deemed correct.

  "Stop laughing," said Emma, "you'll kill yourself."

  "Listen," I told her. "That's it; I'm done. Are you gonna kiss me or not?"

  "I might."

  "Come here."

  I grabbed her around the waist and pulled her to me. It was without exception, as I remember to this very day, the single most painful kiss I have ever experienced in my life.

  They got better, though, after that.

  "So now…," said Weiss. He smiled at me across the island of lamplight. The roar of a bus rose up to us from the loud city streets. The cold wind swept down Market, and the arched windows rattled.

  I sipped my scotch. I stole a glance at his face. The heavy, baggy cheeks, the deep eyes, that small smile: I thought he looked sad. But he always looked sad.

  "Yeah," I said.

  "You're gone."

  "I am."

  "You're history."

  "Now I belong to the ages."

  He turned his sad smile into his glass, waggled the glass a little in his hand. "It's too bad," he said. "I liked having you around, kid."

  "Yeah," I said. "It's been great, Weiss. Thanks."

  "You're gonna become a book writer, huh."

  "I'm gonna try. To write novels."

  "Detective stories," he said.

  I shrugged, embarrassed. Laughed.

  "Well, let me tell you something," Weiss said.

  Then he did. For the next three hours or so, he told me a lot of things. Other times we had sat here together and he'd gone over cases or given me some exciting anecdotes from his life as a cop. And there was some of that tonight too. But there was also other stuff. The real stuff.

  He sat swiveling slightly back and forth in his chair. He held his whiskey glass on his belly with his two hands. He told me about Bishop and how they'd met. He told me about the nights he had prostitutes come to his place because he had no way with women. He told me about the nights he'd spent alone, sitting here in his office, looking at his photograph of Julie Wyant and watching the ten-second loop of video he had of her. Finally, he told me about the Shadow-man and about the last meeting between them in the little house in the middle of nowhere at midnight.

  I don't know what moved him to tell me those things. It pleased me, because I knew he wouldn't tell them to just anyone, but I don't know why he told them to me. I wonder about it sometimes, even now. I had no plans to write anything but fiction then. I never imagined I would tell these stories, the true stories about the Agency, Dynamite Road and Shotgun Alley and now finally this. But I wonder sometimes if Weiss knew, if he knew already. He might have. He knew a hell of a lot, did Weiss, in his Weissian way.

  I listened to him as if in a sort of dream. I could see everything, every person, every incident he described as if I were there. Then-all at once it seemed to me-he was done. He drained the last of his scotch and set his glass down with a thunk on the desktop.

  "All right?" he said.

  I blinked. I came back to myself. "Yeah," I said. "All right. Yeah."

  He folded his hands on his belt buckle. He swiveled back and forth. He smiled with one corner of his mouth.
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  I sat for another moment with nothing to say. Then I stood. I wanted to get out of there before I got choked up, but I paused a moment to take one last look around the place.

  It was all so large, larger than life. The vast office and the wall of soaring windows and the soaring city against the night. The enormous desk with the enormous chairs in front of it and the even more enormous swivel chair behind it and Weiss sitting there, enormous too.

  "Well," I said. I cleared my throat. "It was fun."

  "Hey," said Weiss. "Life's a comedy."

  "Is it?"

  "Sure," he said. He smiled. "And I'm the king of Romania."

  When I was gone, Weiss poured himself another drink. He brooded over it. He swiveled back and forth in his chair. He listened to the traffic noise and the noise of the wind against the windows. He felt the city out there, beyond the light that fell over him, and beyond the shadows that covered the rest of the room.

  After a while he swung around to his computer. He called up the image of Julie Wyant on the monitor, that little ten-second loop of video he had. It was from an Internet advertisement. It showed her leaning forward in a white blouse, crooking her finger at him, beckoning. It played over and over. He watched it for a long time. He didn't know how long.

  Then, finally, he sensed something-someone-a presence in the room with him. Startled, he looked up.

  There she was. Right there, right in front him. Julie Wyant. She was standing in the doorway, leaning against the frame. She was watching him. She was smiling. The shadows of the room fell over her, but he could make her out in the glow of the desk lamp. She was wearing an overcoat belted at the waist. Her red-gold hair hung down loose. Her eyes were deep and dreamy. She had the face of an angel.

  Weiss sat still and gazed at her. For a long moment, he wasn't sure whether he was awake or dreaming…

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