Mind Games

by Cecilia Tan

  Mind Games

  Copyright © 2009, 2018 Cecilia Tan

  2018 Edition, Published by the author

  Originally released in 2009 by Ravenous Romance

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  This is a work of fiction. Names, places, characters and incidents are either the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to any actual persons, living or dead, organizations, events or locales is entirely coincidental.

  Table of Contents

  Copyright Page

  Mind Games

  PROLOGUE

  ONE

  TWO

  THREE

  FOUR

  FIVE

  SIX

  SEVEN

  EIGHT

  NINE

  TEN

  About the Author

  Acknowledgments

  Cecilia Tan Erotic Romance Sampler!

  Initiates of the Blood

  Magic University Book One: The Siren and the Sword | Prologue

  Slow Surrender

  When your stalker can enter your dreams, there’s nowhere to hide.

  WREN DELACOURT IS A woman with a gift... but she doesn’t know it. Ever since the death of her parents in an accident she foresaw, she has suppressed her latent psychic abilities. Unable to deal with other people’s emotions, Wren leads a placid, somewhat lonely life as a library worker until her quiet is shattered... as much by her sister Abby going missing as by the private investigator Wren hires to find her.

  DEREK CHAPMAN ISN’T what Wren expected in a P.I.; he’s young, handsome, and surprisingly sensitive. Wren is attracted to him immediately, and the feeling seems mutual, but Wren fears that deepening any connection with Derek—whether emotional, spiritual, or sexual—will open the floodgates she has locked in her mind.

  WHO IS THE MAN WHO visits her in her intensely realistic dreams, dealing pain as well as pleasure? Is Wren’s subconscious warning her to stay away from Derek, or longing for him? And what does it mean when Derek’s search for Abby leads him to a secret sex club? Fate is pulling Wren into Derek’s arms, whether she is ready or not.

  PRAISE FOR MIND GAMES:

  “TAN HAS WRITTEN A TRULY engrossing and all out hot story that twists the norm into something totally unexpected... It’s great. You'll be riveted to your seat until you finish the story.”

  —Roxane Rhoads, reviewed in Fangtastic Books (author of Paranormal Pleasures)

  “PREPARE YOURSELF TO be blown away. Reading this book will draw you into a world of telepathy and mental control that will change any prior beliefs you had in such abilities. Wren and Derek are a couple that are aligned in ways that are unheard of. To say they clicked is an understatement. The plot is suspenseful and gripping. The reader is taken along a path with twists and turns and unexpected events that lead to a stunning conclusion. Ms. Tan weaves a wonderful story of love, risk and leaps of faith that are unparalleled in the world of romantic suspense.”

  —You Gotta Read Reviews

  “TAN WRITES WITH HER usual melodic prose combining engaging characters with a deftly plotted treat for the senses.”—Patricia's Vampire Notes

  “MIND GAMES IS BRISK, fast-paced, ironic and completely sexy. The writing is crisp and concise with characters any reader can easily identify with. The point of view never jumps, and the scenes are well described and packed with delicious adjectives. Writing premonitions, visions or even telepathy is a challenge for any author while maintaining the story flow and not confusing the reader. Mind Games pulls this off beautifully. There is never any uncertainty for the reader and I must award the author “TWO THUMBS” way up on a job well done!”

  —Whipped Cream reviews, 5 cherries

  “MS. TAN IS GOING TO blow readers away with Mind Games! Superb from beginning to end, I discovered new faith in the paranormal erotica genre. ... Fans of Ms. Tan’s erotica will rejoice at her venture into the paranormal world. This was such a treat for me... I certainly hope this won’t be Ms. Tan’s only foray into the paranormal world because Mind Games is definitely an all out hit!”

  —Manic Readers Reviews

  “CECILIA TAN BRINGS together love, suspense, and scorching sex in a story well worth reading. I would love to read a sequel to see what more trouble Wren and Derek can get into.”

  —Paranormal Romance Reviews

  PROLOGUE

  SOMETIMES, IN THE EARLY morning, after her mind had roamed free all night long, Wren dreamed of sex—of a body rutting against hers, of the warmth and pressure and rhythm—but there was rarely any detail. She'd read a psychology article once that said such dreams were merely vestigial memories of the womb and nothing to do with real desire.

  That didn't explain what was happening now, though. She knew it was a dream because she was in a strange place, a darkened room with no obvious door, and she had only a vague notion of how she'd gotten there.

  “You're here because of desire,” said a man's voice from close behind her. Strong fingers wrapped around her hip bones, pulling her against him, and she realized she was naked.

  I don't remember ever having a dream so realistic before, she thought. This must be what people mean when they talk about lucid dreaming.

  “Lucid, languid, call it whatever you like,” he murmured into her ear, his hand sliding across her bare belly. “You may not be awake, but your senses are.”

  Both hands cupped her breasts then, the thumbs finding her nipples. A cry caught in her throat as his fingers pinched them momentarily, the sudden but fleeting pain a breath-stealing surprise.

  “Too much? Perhaps you'd prefer something gentler, then.” One hand held her chin, keeping her head back against him while the other traced a line down the center of her torso, right to her pubic hair. His fingertips teased at the hair, of-so-gradually making their way closer to the crease of her, easing apart the folds that were starting to ache to be touched more directly.

  “Oh, yes, that's a much better pain,” he whispered. “The pain of wanting. The pain of need.”

  Wren felt the lump in her throat as she swallowed. What a strange, strange dream this was. She wondered what it meant and whether she should write it down in her diary.

  But when she opened her eyes to the light of morning, she didn't remember a thing.

  ONE

  “COME ON, WREN, I KNOW you’re in there!”

  Wren Delacourt hugged the pillow over her ears, but there was no chance that Lawrence was going to go away. She’d told him to come by at noon just last night, and he’d seen her go into her unit in the condo, and if she didn’t get up soon, he was going to start to worry that something terrible had happened to her...

  No. Best not to think about that sort of thing. “I’m coming...” she called, but weakly. No way he’d hear that through her bedroom door and across the kitchen. She had to face facts. She had to sit up, then stand up, then open the door. She felt on the floor for her bathrobe.

  Halfway to the door, she had to stop and put her hands to her eyes. The world seemed too hot today. Not the actual temperature, which was pleasant enough, but it was as if something electrical were pricking at her, about to overheat like a transformer.

  Or maybe it was just a hangover. She pulled open the door and saw Lawrence’s face fall.

  “Oh my God, are you all right?” he blurted.

 
She must have looked a fright; Lawrence was never tactless. She leaned on the doorframe. “Do I have raccoon eyes?” she asked, examining her palms for mascara smudges.

  “You do,” he said, pushing her gently into the apartment, "if a raccoon were run over by a school bus three or four times.” He was carrying a paper bag and a wonderful smell was coming from it. “Go on, now, why don’t you get washed up and I'll squeeze some oranges.”

  Wren did as she was told. Lawrence was a good neighbor and a good friend and she was glad she wasn’t alone just now, even if he didn’t know why she was such a wreck. She went into the bathroom and washed her face, finally giving in and using some cold cream to help get off the eyeliner and mascara. The waterproof kind was more trouble than it was worth, she decided, since it practically refused to come off even with goop. She ran a comb through her hair, still not used to how short it was. The cut was what her hairdresser had called "boyishly chic" and Wren thought it made her look a little like Winona Ryder. At the very least it made her eyes look huge, now that they weren’t hidden under black bangs.

  She slipped back into the bedroom to pull on some sweatpants and a clean shirt, then emerged to find Lawrence, as promised, had squeezed juice for them both and had set out a few fresh-baked pastries. She sat down at the counter and bit into a chocolate croissant, still warm. “Decadence,” she said.

  He chuckled. “The fresh fruit is the decadent part for me. In Europe croissants and chocolate grow on trees.”

  She poked him. Lawrence had only a trace of a British accent but liked to act like he was fresh off the Mayflower. “I’ve been to England. They had oranges and orange juice there.”

  “At exorbitant prices. Maybe the conversion to the pound made it not so obvious to you.” He had a cheese Danish himself and ate in silence for a bit, before venturing to ask, "Bad date?”

  “You could say that,” she said in a quiet voice, while she decided what to tell him. “Not that kind, though.” She’d told him plenty of disaster stories about men, before, but this wasn’t one of those times, and she decided Lawrence could handle the truth without turning into a blithering idiot. “It’s the anniversary of when my parents died. I went to visit their gravesite yesterday.” She gave a little shrug, as if to say it was no big deal.

  Lawrence took a sip of his juice. “I didn’t know your parents were dead,” he said without undue emotion.

  “Yeah, when I was a teenager.” Wren shrugged again. “Car accident. My sister was only ten; she took it harder than me.”

  Of course that was all a massive oversimplification, but she really didn’t want to get into it. Lawrence nodded and continued eating without pushing her to say anything more.

  Which was probably why she did. “I usually see her there. At their grave, I mean. We don’t talk much, but... she hasn’t returned my calls for like... four months. Her email bounces, but you know, people change them and stuff. But—” She looked up from her juice to see Lawrence looking at her with a thoughtful expression on his face.

  “You think something might have happened to her?”

  “Yeah, I’m starting to worry. I mean, I wasn’t really that worried, but... she wouldn’t forget this.” Wren looked out the small kitchen window. From here all she could see was a little bit of the Japanese maple tree across the street, and a red minivan almost the same color as the maple’s leaves. “I suppose I could file a missing person report with the police, at least.”

  He finished his Danish and licked his fingertips like a cat washing its paws. “It couldn’t hurt. Even if it does turn out she’s just... making a change or something. From what you’ve told me she’s not exactly the most... constant person?”

  “I know.” It was one of the reasons they didn’t talk much or see each other much. Abby was prone to new fads, new hobbies, new schemes to make money, new boyfriends... so much so that Wren wasn’t even sure she’d recognize her sister from visit to visit. They tended to see each other at Aunt Brenda's for Christmas, have lunch around their birthdays in April, and now it was September, when they either went together to the burial site, or would meet there. Wren never knew if Abby would be blonde, brunette, bisexual, or born-again. “It’s like every few months she tries to become some new person, as if this time she grows up it'll bring our parents back or something.”

  Lawrence shrugged. “Maybe she decided to give up.”

  Wren shrugged back. “I'll call the police later. The more I think about it now, the more I think she’s probably just joined a tree-hugging cult or something and doesn’t know what day it is.”

  A WEEK LATER, WREN had still not called the police and she wasn’t sure why. Just a feeling, one she couldn’t shake. She went to work in the mornings at the university, where she spent her days scanning and transcribing the Rare Books collection, and was home by five-thirty. Then it was forty-five minutes on the treadmill while watching TV, some dinner, and then TV or a book until she fell asleep. The sum total of her excitement was that someone out there seemed to have gotten her cell phone number by mistake, and she kept seeing missed calls from Number Unavailable. At first she’d thought, could it be Abby? But when she finally managed to answer one of the calls, when she wasn’t deep in the library, it had been some guy claiming he was calling as a result of her personal ad and she sounded nice, could they meet for tea? She hung up. Part of her said, hey, he sounded kind of nice, too. What if it was fate that he dialed the wrong number and that was how they met and wouldn’t that make a lovely "how we met" story for later? But, no. She started keeping the phone in silent mode in case the number was actually printed wrong in the paper. Otherwise, it was a boring week of the routine. She’d gotten a note under her door about scheduling some kind of utility inspection, but had ignored it, not wanting to sit home on a Saturday waiting for some guy to show up.

  Not that she went anywhere, though perhaps she should have. On the weekend she had more quiet time, and the feeling nagged her as she watered her plants and vacuumed the rug in a vain attempt to stay busy. Call the police? Don’t call the police? Why should it be such a big deal?

  But each time she convinced herself to just call, by the time she got her cell phone out of her bag, something in her had decided she wouldn’t.

  Just a feeling. But despite what everyone had said, despite all evidence to the contrary, Wren still listened to her feelings.

  It was one of the things she and Abby had fought about. When they were kids, Wren used to tell her things that were going to happen. Sometimes wonderful things, like when the first snow was going to fall, or where to find a lost kitten in the woods. Sometimes awful things, like Uncle Herbert 's heart attack, or when City Hall was going to catch fire.

  She’d stopped telling her parents about her feelings after the fearful and pained looks they'd tried to hide, and after they'd brought her to a child psychologist when she was five. She managed to get out of having to go back to the psychologist, but only by not speaking about those things again. But after a few years, Abby was old enough to talk to, and her sister had been the one to hear all of Wren’s predictions, sometimes with delight, sometimes with dread, sometimes claiming she didn’t want to know, other times asking her to answer questions for her. Would nine-year-old Bobby Calandra say yes if she asked him to go to the County Fair with her? Would Mrs. Peabody find out if she cheated on her math test? Would Daddy say yes if she asked him to get another cat?

  Wren couldn’t always answer, and Abby would accuse her of faking the whole thing if she didn’t answer or if she didn’t like the answer she got.

  The worst came when Wren didn’t predict what would happen to their parents. She’d been thirteen, just starting her last year of middle school, when disaster had struck. She hadn’t seen it coming, but then she didn’t predict everything, didn’t know what was going to happen to every person every minute of the day. And even if she’d had a premonition of some kind, what would she have done? Begged and pleaded with her parents not to get in the car? Landing hers
elf in the nuthouse is all that would have done. And then there would have been no one to take care of Abby.

  Not that Abby saw it that way.

  Just thinking about it made Wren feel tired. But when Wren had a feeling, she trusted it. She wiped out the inside of the microwave, thinking it over.

  If she really trusted her intuition, and her intuition said not to call the police, then could it help her find Abby somehow?

  Stupid idea. Crazy idea. She hadn’t actively tried to ask for the answer to a question since she was eleven or so. At the time she’d made a game out of it, convincing her sister to sneak her a piece of chocolate out of her mother's stash above the refrigerator, and to steal a sip of schnapps out of the liquor cabinet in the Dixie cup.

  Come to think of it, that was the time she’d predicted Uncle Herbert’s heart attack. Abby had wanted to know what he was getting her for Christmas, and Wren still remembered the sick feeling she’d had in her stomach as she knew with all certainty that he wasn’t going to live that long.

  Some things, she had learned then, she really didn’t want to know.

  On the other hand, hiding from what had happened to Abby, if anything, wasn’t going to help, was it? Some things were scary not to know.

  “Oh, screw it,” she said, and went to change her clothes. It was only three in the afternoon, but Wren didn’t feel she had to wait until sundown. The booze and chocolate probably weren’t even necessary, but if she wanted to try to repeat what she’d done as a child, there was always the stash of gourmet chocolate bars in the kitchen for "emergencies,” like really bad PMS. She got out a bar of dark chocolate and broke off a piece. Her kitchen table was a counter-height table for two that did double duty as a cutting board stand when she cooked anything elaborate. She set the piece of chocolate on a napkin on the table, and then dug in the cabinet. Last week, after the visit to her parents, she’d finished the half bottle of wine that had been sitting there for months, since that Italian meal Lawrence had cooked. What else did she have? Hm, there was a bottle of dry sherry she used sometimes for cooking, an unopened bottle of coconut rum she had gotten as a door prize and didn’t think she’d like, and a small bottle of port. She didn’t even remember the port, but it was opened, then she recalled she had bought it to make a sauce with.