The Long Goodbye pm-6

by Raymond Chandler

  I went over there. She smiled at me and gave me her hand. “This is my husband, Dr. Loring. Mr. Philip Marlowe, Edward.”

  The guy with the goatee gave me a brief look and a still briefer nod. He didn’t move otherwise. He seemed to be saving his energy for better things.

  “Edward is very tired,” Linda Loring said. “Edward is always very tired.”

  “Doctors often are,” I said. “Can I get you a drink, Mrs. Loring? Or you, Doctor?”

  “She’s had enough,” the man said without looking at either of us. “I don’t drink. The more I see of people who do, the more glad I am that I don’t.”

  “Come back, little Sheba,” Mrs. Loring said dreamily.

  He swung around and did a take. I got away from there and made it to the bar. In the company of her husband Linda Loring seemed like a different person. There was an edge to her voice and a sneer in her expression which she hadn’t used on me even when she was angry.

  Candy was behind the bar. He asked me what I would drink.

  “Nothing right now, thanks. Mr. Wade wants to see me.”

  “Es muy occupado, señor. Very busy.”

  I didn’t think I was going to like Candy. When I just looked at him he added: “But I go see. De pronto, señor.”

  He threaded his way delicately through the mob and was back in no time at all. “Okay, chum, let’s go,” he said cheerfully.

  I followed him across the room the long way of the house. He opened a door, I went through, he shut it behind me, and a lot of the noise was dimmed. It was a corner room, big and cool and quiet, with french windows and roses outside and an air-conditioner set in a window to one side. I could see the lake, and I could see Wade lying flat out on a long blond leather couch. A big bleached wood desk had a typewriter on it and there was a pile of yellow paper beside the typewriter.

  “Good of you to come, Marlowe,” he said lazily. “Park yourself. Did you have a drink or two?”

  “Not yet.” I sat down and looked at him. He still looked a bit pale and pinched. “How’s the work going?”

  “Fine, except that I get tired too quick. Pity a four-day drunk is so painful to get over. I often do my best work after one. In my racket it’s so easy to tighten up and get all stiff and wooden. Then the stuff is no good. When it’s good it comes easy. Anything you have read or heard to the contrary is a lot of mishmash?”

  “Depends who the writer is, maybe,” I said. “It didn’t come easy to Flaubert, and his stuff is good.”

  “Okay,” Wade said, sitting up. “So you have read Flaubert, so that makes you an intellectual, a critic, a savant of the literary world.” He rubbed his forehead. “I’m on the wagon and I hate it. I hate everybody with a drink in his hand. I’ve got to go out there and smile at those creeps. Every damn one of them knows I’m an alcoholic. So they wonder what I’m running away from. Some Freudian bastard has made that a commonplace. Every ten-year-old kid knows it by now. If I had a ten-year-old kid, which God forbid, the brat would be asking me, ‘What are you running away from when you get drunk, Daddy?’”

  “The way I got it, all this was rather recent,” I said.

  “It’s got worse, but I was always a hard man with a bottle. When you’re young and in hard condition you can absorb a lot of punishment. When you are pushing forty you don’t snap back the same way.”

  I leaned back and lit a cigarette. “What did you want to see me about?”

  “What do you think I’m running away from, Marlowe?”

  “No idea. I don’t have enough information. Besides, everybody is running away from something.”

  “Not everybody gets drunk. What are you running away from? Your youth or a guilty conscience or the knowledge that you’re a small time operator in a small time business?”

  “I get it,” I said. “You need somebody to insult. Fire away, chum. When it begins to hurt I’ll let you know.”

  He grinned and rumpled his thick curly hair. He speared his chest with a forefinger. “You’re looking right at a small time operator in a small time business, Marlowe. All writers are punks and I am one of the punkest. I’ve written twelve best sellers, and if I ever finish that stack of magoozium on the desk there I may possibly have written thirteen. And not a damn one of them worth the powder to blow it to hell. I have a lovely home in a highly restricted residential neighborhood that belongs to a highly restricted multimillionaire. I have a lovely wife who loves me and a lovely publisher who loves me and I love me the best of all. I’m an egotistical son of a bitch, a literary prostitute or pimp—choose your own word—and an all-round heel. So what can you do for me?”

  “Well, what?”

  “Why don’t you get sore?”

  “Nothing to get sore about. I’m just listening to you hate yourself. It’s boring but it doesn’t hurt my feelings.”

  He laughed roughly. “I like you,” he said, “Let’s have a drink.”

  “Not in here, chum. Not you and me alone. I don’t care to watch you take the first one. Nobody can stop you and I don’t guess anyone would try. But I don’t have to help.”

  He stood up. “We don’t have to drink in here. Let’s go outside and glance at a choice selection of the sort of people you get to know when you make enough lousy money to live where they live,”

  “Look,” I said. “Shove it. Knock it off. They’re no different from anybody else.”

  “Yeah,” he said tightly, “but they ought to be. If they’re not, what use are they? They’re the class of the county and they’re no better than a bunch of truck drivers full of cheap whiskey. Not as good.”

  “Knock it off,” I said again. “You want to get boiled, get boiled. But don’t take it out on a crowd that can get boiled without having to lie up with Dr. Verringer or get loose in the head and throw their wives down the stairs.”

  “Yeah,” he said, and he was suddenly calm and thoughtful. “You pass the test, chum. How about coming to live here for a while? You could do me a lot of good just being here.”

  “I don’t see how.”

  “But I do. Just by being here. Would a thousand a month interest you? I’m dangerous when I’m drunk. I don’t want to be dangerous and I don’t want to be drunk.”

  “I couldn’t stop you.”

  “Try it for three months. I’d finish the damn book and then go far off for a while. Lie up some place in the Swiss mountains and get clean.”

  “The book, huh? Do you have to have the money?”

  “No. I just have to finish something I started. If I don’t I’m through. I’m asking you as a friend. You did more than that for Lennox.”

  I stood up and walked over close to him and gave him a hard stare. “I got Lennox killed, mister. I got him killed.”

  “Phooey. Don’t go soft on me, Marlowe.” He put the edge of his hand against his throat. “I’m up to here in the soft babies.”

  “Soft?” I asked. “Or just kind?”

  He stepped back and stumbled against the edge of the couch, but didn’t lose his balance.

  “The hell with you,” he said smoothly. “No deal. I don’t blame you, of course. There’s something I want to know, that I have to know. You don’t know what it is and I’m not sure I know myself. All I’m positive of is that there is something, and I have to know it.”

  “About who? Your wife?”

  He moved his lips one ever the other. “I think it’s about me,” he said. “Let’s go get that drink.”

  He walked to the door and threw it open and we went out.

  If he had been trying to make me uncomfortable, he had done a first class job.

  24

  When he opened the door the buzz from the living room exploded into our faces. It seemed louder than before, if possible. About two drinks louder. Wade said hello here and there and people seemed glad to see him. But by that time they would have been glad to see Pittsburgh Phil with his custom-built ice pick. Life was just one great big vaudeville show.

  On the way to the bar
we came face to face with Dr. Loring and his wife. The doctor stood up and stepped forward to face Wade. He had a look on his face that was almost sick with hatred.

  “Nice to see you, Doctor,” Wade said amiably. “Hi, Linda. Where have you been keeping yourself lately? No, I guess that was a stupid question. I—”

  “Mr. Wade,” Loring said in a voice that had a tremor to it, “I have something to say to you. Something very simple, and I hope very conclusive. Stay away from my wife.”

  Wade looked at him curiously. “Doctor, you’re tired. And you don’t have a drink. Let me get you one.”

  “I don’t drink, Mr. Wade. As you very well know. I am here for one purpose and I have expressed that purpose.”

  “Well, I guess I get your point,” Wade said, still amiable. “And since you are a guest in my house, I have nothing to say except that I think you are a little off the beam.”

  There had been a drop in the talk near by. The boys and girls were all ears. Big production. Dr. Loring took a pair of gloves out of his pocket, straightened them, took hold of one by the finger end, and swung it hard against Wade’s face.

  Wade didn’t bat an eye. “Pistols and coffee at dawn?” he asked quietly.

  I looked at Linda Loring. She was flushed with anger. She stood up slowly and faced the doctor.

  “Dear God, what a ham you are, darling. Stop acting like a damn fool, will you, darling? Or would you rather stick around until somebody slaps your face?”

  Loring swung around to her and raised the gloves. Wade stepped in front of him. “Take it easy, Doc. Around here we only hit our wives in private.”

  “If you are speaking for yourself, I am well aware of it,” Loring sneered, “And I don’t need lessons in manners from you.”

  “I only take promising pupils,” Wade said. “Sorry you have to leave so soon.” He raised his voice. “Candy! Que el Doctor Loring salga de aqui en el acto!” He swung back to Loring. “In case you don’t know Spanish, Doctor, that means the door is over there.” He pointed.

  Loring stared at him without moving. “I have warned you, Mr. Wade,” he said idly. “And a number of people have heard me, I shall not warn you again.”

  “Don’t,” Wade said curtly. “But if you do, make it on neutral territory. Gives me a little more freedom of action. Sorry, Linda. But you married him.” He rubbed his cheek gently where the heavy end of the glove had hit him. Linda Loring was smiling bitterly. She shrugged.

  “We are leaving,” Loring said. “Come, Linda.”

  She sat down again and reached for her glass. She gave her husband a glance of quiet contempt. “You are,” she said, “You have a number of calls to make, remember.”

  “You are leaving with me,” he said furiously.

  She turned her back on him. He reached suddenly and took hold of her arm. Wade took him by the shoulder and spun him around.

  “Take it easy, Doc. You can’t win them all. ”

  “Take your hand off me!”

  “Sure, just relax,” Wade said. “I have a good idea, Doctor. Why don’t you see a good doctor?”

  Somebody laughed loudly. Loring tensed like an animal all set to spring. Wade sensed it and neatly turned his back and moved away. Which left Dr. Loring holding the bag. If he went after Wade, he would look sillier than he looked now. There was nothing for him to do but leave, and he did it. He marched quickly across the room staring straight in front of him to where Candy was holding the door open. He went out, Candy shut the door, wooden-faced, and went back to the bar. I went over there and asked for some Scotch. I didn’t see where Wade went. He just disappeared. I didn’t see Eileen either. I turned my back on the room and let them sizzle while I drank my Scotch.

  A small girl with mud-colored hair and a band around her forehead popped up beside me and put a glass on the bar and bleated, Candy nodded and made her another think.

  The small girl turned to me. “Are you interested in Communism?” she asked me. She was glassy-eyed and she was running a small red tongue along her lips as if looking for a crumb of chocolate. “I think everyone ought to be,” she went on. “But when you ask any of the men here they just want to paw you.”

  I nodded and looked over my glass at her snub nose and sun-coarsened skin.

  “Not that I mind too much if it’s done nicely,” she told me, reaching for the fresh drink. She showed me her molars while she inhaled half of it.

  “Don’t rely on me,” I said.

  “What’s your name?”

  “Marlowe.”

  “With an ‘e’ or not?”

  “With.”

  “Ah, Marlowe,” she intoned. “Such a sad beautiful name.” She put her glass down damn nearly empty and closed her eyes and threw her head back and her arms out, almost hitting me in the eye. Her voice throbbed with emotion, saying: “Was this the face that launch’d a thousand ships and burnt the topless towers of Ilium? Sweet Helen, make me immortal with a kiss.”

  She opened her eyes, grabbed her glass, and winked at me. “You were pretty good in there, chum. Been writing any poetry lately?”

  “Not very much.”

  “You can kiss me if you like,” she said coyly.

  A guy in a shantung jacket and an open neck shirt came up behind her and grinned at me over the top of her head. He had short red hair and a face like a collapsed lung. He was as ugly a guy as I ever saw. He patted the top of the little girl’s head.

  “Come on kitten. Time to go home.”

  She rounded on him furiously. “You mean you got to water those goddamned tuberous begonias again?” she yelled.

  “Aw listen, kitten—”

  “Take your hands off me, you goddamned rapist,” she screamed, and threw the rest of her drink in his face. The rest wasn’t more than a teaspoonful and two lumps of ice.

  “For Chrissake, baby, I’m your husband,” he yelled back, grabbing for a handkerchief and mopping his face. “Get it? Your husband.”

  She sobbed violently and threw herself into his arms. I stepped around them and got out of there. Every cocktail party is the same, even the dialogue.

  The house was leaking guests out into the evening air now. Voices were fading, cars were starting, goodbyes were bouncing around like rubber balls. I went to the french windows and out onto a flagged terrace. The ground sloped towards the lake which was as motionless as a sleeping cat. There was a short wooden pier down there with a rowboat tied to it by a white painter. Towards the far shore, which wasn’t very far, a black water-hen was doing lazy curves, like a skater. They didn’t seem to cause as much as a shallow ripple.

  I stretched out on a padded aluminum chaise and lit a pipe and smoked peacefully and wondered what the hell I was doing there, Roger Wade seemed to have enough control to handle himself if he really wanted to. He had done all right with Loring. I wouldn’t have been too surprised if he had hung one on Loring’s sharp little chin. He would have been out of line by the rules, but Loring was much farther out of line.

  If the rules mean anything at all any more, they mean that you don’t pick a roomful of people as the spot to threaten a man and hit him across the face with a glove when your wife is standing right beside you and you are practically accusing her of a little double time. For a man still shaky from a hard bout with the hard stuff Wade had done all right. He had done more than all right. Of course I hadn’t seen him drunk. I didn’t know what he would be like drunk. I didn’t even know that he was an alcoholic. There’s a big difference. A man who drinks too much on occasion is still the same man as he was sober. An alcoholic, a real alcoholic is not the same man at all. You can’t predict anything about him for sure except that he will be someone you never met before.

  Light steps sounded behind me and Eileen Wade came across the terrace and sat down beside me on the edge of a chaise.

  “Well, what did you think?” she asked quietly. “About the gentleman with the loose gloves?”

  “Oh no.”

  She frowned. Then she laughed.
“I hate people who make stagy scenes like that. Not that he isn’t a fine doctor. He has played that scene with half the men in the valley. Linda Loring is no tramp. She doesn’t look like one, talk like one, or behave like one. I don’t know what makes Dr. Loring behave as if she was.”

  “Maybe he’s a reformed drunk,” I said. “A lot of them grow pretty puritanical. ”

  “It’s possible,” she said, and looked towards the lake. “This is a very peaceful place. One would think a writer would be happy here—if a writer is ever happy anywhere.” She turned to look at me. “So you won’t be persuaded to do what Roger asked.”

  “There’s no point in it, Mrs. Wade. Nothing I could do. I’ve said all this before. I couldn’t be sure of being around at the right time. I’d have to be around all the time. That’s impossible, even if I had nothing else to do. If he went wild, for example, it would happen in a flash. And I haven’t seen any indications that he does get wild. He seems pretty solid to me.”

  She looked down at her hands. “If he could finish his book, I think things would be much better.”

  “I can’t help him do that.”

  She looked up and put her hands on the edge of the chaise beside her. She leaned forward a little. “You can if he thinks you can. That’s the whole point. Is it that you would find it distasteful to be a guest in our house and be paid for it?”

  “He needs a psychiatrist, Mrs. Wade. If you know one that isn’t a quack,”

  She looked startled “A psychiatrist? Why?”

  I knocked the ashes out of my pipe and sat holding it, waiting for the bowl to get cooler before I put it away,

  “You want an amateur opinion, here it is. He thinks he has a secret buried in his mind and he can’t get at it. It may be a guilty secret about himself, it may be about someone else. He thinks that’s what makes him drink, because be can’t get at this thing. He probably thinks that whatever happened, happened while he was drunk and he ought to find it wherever people go when they’re drunk—really bad drunk, the way he gets. That’s a job for a psychiatrist. So far, so good. If that is wrong, then he gets drunk because he wants to or can’t help it, and the idea about the secret is just his excuse. He can’t write his book, or anyway can’t finish it. Because he gets drunk. That is, the assumption seems to be that he can’t finish his book because he knocks himself out by thinking. It could be the other way around.”