Hunting the Hero

by Heather Boyd

  She thrust her hands behind her, toward the flames to warm them, most likely. He’d never met a woman with such cold hands. But the pose also forced her breasts into prominence, revealing nipples swollen to hard points. Unable to maintain a distance, Constantine rose and crossed the room to stand before her, keeping a short space of air between them. The heat from the blazing fire battered his face. He blinked slowly until he grew used to the warmth and then studied the small woman in greater detail. Her eyes were alight with anticipation. She desired him too.

  He’d chosen well. He couldn’t wait to get a bed at her back. “Shall we retire for the night?”

  Her eyes glinted brightly. “As you wish, my lord.”

  The compliant tone was completely false. He doubted Calista was finished turning his world upside down this evening, but he’d prove he was more than willing to keep up. In fact, he might just take the game further than he’d originally intended. What would she do if he held off his release, fought the inevitable end to pleasure as long as he possibly could?

  He didn’t like his chances but he was definitely determined to try, just to keep her on edge.

  Calista smiled, far too pleased with herself, and gestured toward the door. “Please, follow me.”

  Bemused, he trailed behind her like an obedient puppy to the door, opened it, and then strolled after her as her shorter stride practically ran for the staircase. He kept his gaze fixed on her dark, curled hair, then noted the smooth, unblemished skin of her nape, the firm shoulders beneath, and the determined strut to her walk.

  His state of arousal ebbed a little and he breathed a sigh of relief. However, when she looked over her shoulder to ensure he followed up the stairs, his length thickened beyond his power to recall it. Damn those eyes. She’d made him as lusty as an adolescent youth.

  After a few steps along an upper hall, Mrs. Cohen appeared. Her glance flickered over him briefly. “The end room for His Lordship.”

  Bedroom or barn, Constantine couldn’t care less where he spent the night as long as Calista was with him. However, his companion hesitated beside the madam, a scowl replacing her earlier serenity. “You promised not to assign that room to me again.”

  “Yes, well, His Lordship deserves the best the house has to offer. All of it.”

  Calista’s face grew tight with frustration. Eventually, she got herself under control and replaced her frown with an insincere smile that failed to reach her eyes. She gestured ahead and Constantine eagerly went where she sent him.

  He opened the door and allowed Calista to pass by, unmolested for the moment. With rather more relief than necessary, he locked the door to give them the privacy he craved and looked around. Lush red velvet, dulled and slightly aged by the daytime sunlight that would stream through a pair of east-facing tall windows. At night he could see nothing beyond their reflections in the glass, but by morning it should boast a pretty view of the valley beyond.

  He was puzzled by his companion’s dislike for the room. As far as he could see, the bawd was being truthful about the room’s superior appointments. Perhaps Calista had no love for red velvet.

  Noticing the tense set of her shoulders and her hands clutched together as if she was cold again, he strode to the fire and added enough fuel to increase the warmth of the room. He didn’t want her to become even more chilled when he removed her clothes. The idea of her naked and covered with distracting gooseflesh wasn’t at all what he wanted for the night.

  Grasping, sweaty passion would be preferred.

  When the fire had flared to greater heat, he dusted off his hands and faced Calista. Her name meant most beautiful. In his opinion the name didn’t suit her because there was so much more to her appeal than her appearance. The mischief leaping from her eyes had blinded him to all others.

  She drew closer, a teasing smile on her lips. “Thank you.”

  Constantine placed her before the fire. “For what?”

  “For sparing me from embarrassment in front of Linnie earlier.” She rubbed her hands together and held them out to the flames. “You were my hero not to refuse my challenge.”

  A smile tugged at his lips. He was the sorriest of heroes, but if she wanted to view him that way for one night, who was he to stop her? When her hands shifted to caress him instead of the fire’s heat, he motioned to a small settee. “Will you sit and continue our conversation?”

  For a moment he thought she might object and encourage him toward the large bed standing behind her, but she eventually inclined her head. “Hmm. A gentleman through and through.”

  He bowed to her, a laugh bubbling up inside him. His thoughts were far from genteel. She made him want to be very, very wild. “I try to be.”

  Acting rather more reserved than her earlier behavior indicated she might once they were alone near a bed meant to be rumpled, Calista perched on the edge of the seat as daintily as any well-mannered lady of society. The prim posture was so utterly perfect for her that he was not surprised to be spellbound again. He’d always enjoyed the company of elegant ladies and Calista was a study of contradictions. Lusty and prim, haughty and laughing. It was almost as if she were many women rolled into one.

  He sat at her side. “Have you been here long?”

  “Almost a year now.” She shrugged. “I never stay long in any one place. You?”

  He couldn’t help but smile. Her pretense that she didn’t know anything about him was unnecessary, but endearing. “This is my first visit, but I have lived in Wiltshire my whole life. Where are you from?”

  She glanced away. “Many places. The details are unimportant.”

  His wife had once complained that he stuck his nose into other people’s private affairs far too often. Like many in society, he enjoyed a good story. It wasn’t his place to ask, but he couldn’t help but be intrigued by the woman he wanted to bed. He offered a wry smile to his companion. “So, you are Calista?”

  “I am this year.” She laughed at the confusion that must have shown on his face. “Do names matter to you?”

  He frowned at the odd answer. The idea that she was someone else completely didn’t sit easily on his conscience. “Yes, names are important.”

  “Then if you don’t care for Calista you should pick another.” She lifted her hand and twisted it in the air. “Names are like hats. They must suit the situation or be exchanged with no regrets or excessive sentimentality. A much-loved, jaunty riding hat has no place in a ballroom, for instance. I’ll answer to any name you care to call me.”

  Constantine sat back in shock. He didn’t believe he could do that easily. “Have you no name at all?”

  She smoothed her gown with dainty fingers. “I’ve had many. None that I’d care to claim.”

  “That’s absurd.”

  Her eyes grew shuttered. “The world is absurd. I didn’t make it that way. I just try to live in it peacefully.”

  How could she be so jaded, so dismissive of sentiment? She hadn’t the experience for such ennui. Or had she? On an impulse that defied good manners, he captured her face in one hand and studied it. Smooth, flawless skin, delicately arched, dark brows, but the brown eyes beneath held a world of weariness no fledgling woman should ever know. She was quite a bit older than he’d first imagined. “You’ve a face that confounds the passage of time. I took you for a young girl, not a mature woman, when I first saw you.”

  Her brow rose, her lips twisted into a smile of amusement. “If you prefer very young girls I am sure Linnie will only be too happy to acquire one for you and provide me with another challenge.”

  He turned her face this way and that. “That is not what I meant and you know it. When I look at your face, I see innocence, but your eyes say otherwise. How old are you?”

  Her smile dropped away in an instant. “Old enough to wish men would not ask for the recounting of my years.”

  A reluctant smile tugged at the corners of his mouth at her answer and he let go her face. Women were often considered on the shelf at nineteen. He j
udged the days of her being a blushing debutante were long gone. “Old enough, then. I shall ask no more about your age.”

  He sat back, seeing her with new eyes. A fine, compact body, firm and supple. A sweet handful of pleasure to be had for one night. However, she was honestly dishonest about the things that mattered most in his society. And still, the idea of bedding her only increased in appeal. She was nothing at all like his wife. He would certainly be exploring new territory.

  The woman leaned back in the settee, a smile playing on her lips. “From what I’ve gleaned of you this evening, I expect you to be very demanding in bed.”

  Constantine started, rather shocked to have a woman come straight out and say she saw through his attempts at moderation and control. But then he deduced Calista meant to keep him on edge, prevent him from settling into any sort of easy comfort with her. What a devilishly crafty bit o’muslin she’d turned out to be. “Does that bother you?”

  The woman rose, lifted her skirts to kick off her shoes, and then straddled his thighs. The warmth of her limbs penetrated his and he set his hands to her hips to hold her steady. Her fingers toyed with his hair and she pushed it this way and that with a critical eye. “That you are hard to please is a challenge to make our association more pleasant. I do not expect you to be gentle with me if you do not wish to be. I’m not fragile. You cannot hurt me.”

  Guilt returned to sink its claws into Constantine’s soul. A man could easily hurt a woman in ways he never imagined in the beginning. He shifted beneath Calista, doubts crowding his mind. For a small woman she was remarkably hard to ignore. Would he be able to control himself when he had her completely at his mercy? Surely he would not become so addled with lust that he’d neglect to withdraw when he should. He brushed a few strands of hair back from her eyes. “I would not mean to hurt you, but it is possible. You should hold me accountable for my actions if I cause you lasting harm.” He swallowed past the lump in his throat. “If I should get a babe on you, please send word to me. That’s why I want your name.”

  She shrugged and then fiddled with his cravat pin. “As I said, names are unimportant. It is unlikely I will conceive when I never have before.” The matter-of-fact pronouncement of her barren state eased his mind somewhat. If she never conceived his child, then he would be free from further guilt and worry.

  He lifted his chin as Calista removed his cravat. When she leaned forward, brushing her breasts with seeming innocence across his cheek as she stretched to lay the white fabric over the back of the couch, he held back a groan. The woman was an unbelievable tease. When she resettled, she was much closer.

  Constantine slid his hands around her back, holding one exactly on the bumps of her lower spine. He massaged a small circle. “Were you ever married?”

  “Good Lord, no. Why on earth would I want a husband?” Her brow rose and she wagged a finger in his direction. “Oh, you’re still fishing for a last name with which to categorize me. Names are restrictions meant to confine us to one situation. It’s not the same for men. They may behave however they want. A man may have a reputation as a seducer without censure. Far different if you’re a woman and lacking the burden of a husband or even a prior one to add the slimmest veneer of respectability.”

  No name and no prior husbands. Intrigued even further, Constantine slid his fingers lower, taking his time, determined to seduce Calista into revealing more of her inner thoughts without her realizing it. He grasped her bottom firmly. “So you have never been tempted by a man before?”

  Her nails scraped over his skull, causing gooseflesh to cover him again. “Tempted, yes. Many times. But not foolish enough to want to keep one around for long.”

  He moved to stroke her covered thigh, then teased his way beneath her gown, eager for the night to culminate and for Calista to want him as he wanted her. “So who are you? Really?”

  “A woman in need of a handsome man to please her.” She laid her fingers across his lips to silence his next question and then brushed them across the surface until his skin tingled. “Close your eyes, my lord. You’ve all night to prove you’re the one.”

  He obeyed her as a thrill of excitement filled him. Finally, a woman who could challenge his senses and one who might leave him panting for more. They hadn’t even kissed and he was burning. He drew her tightly against him, more aroused than he’d been in all the years since his wife’s death. He pressed his lips to hers, pleased when she responded with a soft moan. Her tongue tangled with his in a slow, seductive dance and when he drew back, he half believed her insinuation that he might not be fully prepared for her. Yet his erection pressed against his trousers, proving at least one part of him was up to her challenge.

  CHAPTER 4

  MEREDITH RUBBED HERSELF against Grayling’s warmth, eager for his touch. His lips skimmed hers softly until she couldn’t bear the slow pace he’d set. She cupped his head and devoured his mouth recklessly. She couldn’t remember the last time she’d been this eager for a lover.

  The rip of fabric brought a chill to the skin of her upper back and she smiled against his deliciously sinful mouth. Unfettered passion was more to her taste. She rather enjoyed an impassioned man who took what he wanted, rather than someone who waited for permission.

  Grayling’s hand skimmed the newly exposed flesh and made her shudder. To be wanted so well, to have the exact same desire created in herself was not in the realm of her experience. Her lovers paid to be desired. Meredith wouldn’t have to fake any part of her response tonight.

  She teased Grayling’s shirt collar from his neck and kissed the corded flesh, surprised to find his skin tanned rather than pale as many Englishmen were beneath their fine clothes. She licked the flesh she’d uncovered and nibbled gently beneath his ear with her teeth. An image of him shirtless, striding in the summer sun toward where she lay beside a brook, filled her with yearning. To make love by day, outside in clean air, with no one grunting nearby as often happened here, had been a fantasy of hers for the longest time. But at her age, she had to admit that candlelight was kinder to the complexion than the brighter light of day.

  One day she would do everything she’d denied herself.

  One day she would just be.

  Grayling caught her hair in his large hand and turned her face back to his. He kissed her—long, searing kisses that tempted her to forget the role she must play. His tongue plundered and took, giving Meredith chills everywhere. There was a rightness to being in his arms that she’d longed for without even knowing what she’d missed. She was safe and warm and tempted beyond reason. Returning to the world she lived would be hard to do on the morrow.

  Another tug and her sheer gown split in two. Poor Linnie would be cross about the repair necessary, but Meredith was not unduly alarmed. She’d taken Grayling’s measure the moment she’d laid eyes on him.

  The bodice gaped, revealing the fine silk chemise and corset binding her. Grayling caught her hands from about his neck and drew them before his chest. He tugged until her sleeves pooled at her wrists and urged them free of the confining material. His grin as he flung her destroyed garment away was wide.

  “Pleased with yourself, my lord?”

  He pressed his head to hers, grin growing wider if that were possible. “It was in the way.”

  As she stared into his eyes, the urge to laugh and wrap herself tightly about him and never let go grew stronger. Meredith didn’t cling. Not even during intimate relations. It was easier to give her body to her clients if she kept part of herself at a distance. The lovers she met with would leave and some never returned to see her again. It was better to accept that from the beginning. However, with Grayling, she was in danger of forgetting her own rules. She would set herself up for disappointment if she expected more than a quick fling with him.

  Chagrinned by her dissatisfaction with that, she lowered her eyes to his wide chest. Grayling chased her gaze, cupping her face and lifting it until she had no choice but to meet his bright green eyes. What she saw stirre
d her fears. Grayling might want more than she was prepared to give—her complete surrender to his lovemaking. Meredith couldn’t give herself over so thoroughly into his hands without losing what was left of herself. She had to keep the upper hand no matter what happened between them.

  ~ * ~

  The moment when desire between them had been completely honest faded. Constantine cursed under his breath at the shuttered, caution-filled eyes staring at him. He wanted her. She wanted him. Everything had been going well between until he’d pushed, until he’d looked deeply into her eyes, searching for the real woman behind the disguise and detecting the doubts and evasions filling them.

  He kissed the woman in his arms, aware that Calista’s responses were measured to please him rather than herself. The woman who had flirted with him shamelessly, the one he’d begun kissing with unrestrained passion, had flickered to life briefly and then hidden herself away. He didn’t understand why she would hold back when he only wished their pleasure to be mutual. Even if he paid for her time, he would not leave her used and discarded. It wasn’t in him to be so selfish.

  He pulled Calista closer against him and struggled to his feet. Her legs, bare of all but her fine silk stockings, wrapped tightly around his waist as she held on to him so she wouldn’t fall. When he secured his grip on her, he smiled. Her compact form made such maneuvers very easy. He kissed her quickly, afraid she’d beg to be set on her own two feet, and began to twirl slowly about the room as if they were dancing in a crowded ballroom. The room didn’t allow too much spinning, but when he hummed, she joined in too.

  He passed the mirror, catching their reflection. Except for his missing cravat, he was still completely dressed. Only the woman in his arms was delectably indecent. The slim legs tightened about his waist; her hands twined in his hair and tugged. He closed his eyes and forgot about everything but the feel of her slim warmth against him.