Tease: A Stepbrother Romance

by Daye, Veronica

  “If you’d let me finish, I was wondering if Chef Lowe is here tonight. I’m an old friend.”

  Her face flushed and she stammered something I couldn’t understand as she ran towards the kitchen. Chef Michael Lowe and I reconnected after I started working for Brayden. And since they were such good friends, I became friends with Michael also. The chef world was a small one.

  Michael stepped out of the kitchen as he wiped his hands on a towel. His serious expression changed into a smile once he saw me, and he rushed over with his arms open wide.

  “Sierra darling, you should’ve called. I would’ve taken the night off,” he said while squeezing me tightly.

  “You’re right, I should have, but honestly this was a last minute idea. I’m here on a blind date, of all things. You know I won’t eat anywhere else.”

  “All the other places serve swill. I got a delivery this morning of some incredible fish. How about I make you and your date something special?”

  “That would be wonderful,” I said.

  “Let me bring you to the VIP table. I have to get back into the kitchen, but I’ll check in on you later.”

  He brought me to a round booth in the center of the restaurant that faced the doorway. As he made his way back to the kitchen, he stopped and whispered something to one of the waiters, who nodded before disappearing. When the waiter came back, he had a bottle of single malt Scotch and three glasses. One had ice in it.

  “Excuse me, Chef, but Chef Lowe said to bring you the Chef’s Special,” the waiter said.

  I laughed and nodded. Every chef I knew had a bottle of some kind of Scotch hidden in their back room. After a stressful night of cooking, it was a nice way to unwind.

  The waiter poured some Scotch into the glass with the ice and placed it down in front of me. I picked up the glass and swirled the liquid around the ice. I should have thought of coming here myself. It was the perfect distraction.

  As I brought the glass up to my lips, a tall man with dark hair entered the restaurant. He stood in place for a moment and as my eyes focused on him, I felt the color drain from my cheeks.

  I blinked several times, trying to clear my vision of my hallucination of Jagger, but it didn’t change. It was really him! But how?

  As I stepped out of the booth, his long stride brought him to me in no time. His arms wrapped around me tightly and I grabbed onto him, afraid he might disappear at any second.

  Was I dreaming? I looked up at Jagger, and his familiar blue eyes looked back at me. His lips crushed mine as he kissed me hungrily. I didn’t want it to end, but I needed answers.

  “Is it really you?” I asked.

  ~ Fifteen ~

  Jagger

  As I gave my key to the valet, I knew Sierra was already inside waiting for me. It was my father’s idea to set this up as a blind date, and I didn’t care as long as I finally got to spend time with her. I wasn’t sure what to expect, but I hoped she still felt the same way I did.

  I spotted her dark red hair as soon as I entered the restaurant. Her face went pale, then color flooded her cheeks. Without thinking, I rushed over to her, held her tight against me, and kissed her deeply as she clung to me. I would have held her forever if she let me, but she stepped back with confusion filling her eyes.

  “Is it really you?” she asked.

  “Yes, it really is me,” I said.

  “But how? How long did Phil know? Why didn’t anyone tell me?”

  “Let’s sit down and I’ll tell you everything. It’s a long story.”

  She slid into the booth and I sat beside her. I weaved my fingers with hers. It was so good to be this close to her after so long, but I had my reasons. I only hoped she could forgive me for not telling her the truth all those years ago. Now it was time she knew.

  Five Years Ago

  The hardest thing about boot camp was being away from the people I loved. I made the time pass by putting my all into everything I did. What I didn’t tell anyone when I enlisted was that my plan was to become a SEAL.

  In my first week, I passed the Physical Screening Test and had been interviewed by a Naval Special Operation Motivator who put in a request for me to enter the Naval Special Warfare training pipeline. I was accepted and scheduled to start BUD/S training once boot camp was over.

  Training lit a fire in me to be the best and do my best. Failure was not an option, and the only thing standing in my way was my desire to be with Sierra. But after how much I hurt her with my leaving, I was afraid if she knew about me joining the SEALs, she would never forgive me.

  After getting so much grief about enlisting, I didn’t want to hear about how difficult SEAL training was or how dangerous it could be. I had caused enough heartache. As graduation approached, I knew it was better to tell my parents in person.

  I was more proud of myself the day of graduation than any other day in my life. And having the people I loved there to support me made it even better.

  After the ceremony, Mom, Dad, and Rachel surrounded me. Mom had tears in her eyes, with the biggest smile I had seen on her face in a long time.

  But even with the three of them there, I couldn’t help but look around. There was one more person I was hoping would come. I turned to my father.

  “Where’s Sierra? I was hoping she would come.”

  “Have you spoken to her?” he asked. “I was under the impression things ended when you left. She was very upset.”

  “We did, but–”

  “Jagger, if you don’t realize by now that women aren’t mind readers, then I’m not sure any advice from me will help.”

  He was right. I should have reached out to her. I should have told her how much I missed her, but there was never any time. Recruits were lucky to get phone privileges and when I did get them, I called my mom.

  “Have you seen her?” I asked.

  “No, she’s been staying up at school, but she’s supposed to come home for Christmas break. Will you get any time off?”

  I shook my head. “I’m starting–”

  I cut myself off from telling him about the training. All I could focus on was how upset Sierra must have been once I was gone. I remembered vividly how unhappy she was the day I left, and I knew she was barely keeping it together. The sad look on her face haunted me. Knowing I was the cause of that sadness hurt more than anything.

  I couldn’t tell my father about the SEALs. The thought of her hearing secondhand that I was training to become part of a special ops team seemed especially harsh. I couldn’t do that to her.

  “What are you starting?” Dad asked.

  “Just some more training,” I said. “Never mind.”

  I couldn’t expect him to keep things from Sierra. And I didn’t want him to lie to her. I wanted to tell him about the SEALs, but I was conflicted. My desire to protect Sierra was greater than sharing a moment of pride with my father.

  While my father and Rachel spoke to some of the officers, I pulled my mother aside.

  “I’m so proud of you,” she said as she wiped away a tear.

  “Thanks, Mom,” I said. “I want to tell you something that I know you’re not going to want to hear.”

  “What is it?” Her smile was replaced with concern.

  “I got into the SEAL program. I’ll be starting Basic Underwater Demolition/SEAL training soon.”

  Her eyes widened, then softened. “I can’t help but worry. You know you’ll always be my baby, but if this is what you want to do, then you do your best at it. I’m proud of you for getting into the program and I know you will do great. But just one thing, if anything ever happens to you, I will find each of your instructors and give them a new definition for Hell Week.” She smiled sweetly.

  “Thanks, Mom. Just one more thing, okay? Don’t say anything about it to Dad. I’m not sure what I’m going to do or if I’m going to tell him.”

  “Why not?”

  “Because I don’t want Sierra to know. I’ve hurt her enough.”

  “Well, it’s
your decision to make, but maybe you should think about it. I think she would want to know.”

  “I can’t, Mom. I know her. She’d worry about me. It would interfere with everything she’s planned, and she deserves to have her dreams come true. I’ll only hold her back.”

  After the families left, I went to my bunk and re-read the letters Sierra had sent me. Like clockwork, I received a new letter every week. I really didn’t need to ask my father if he had seen her, I knew how she was doing. She told me herself.

  Every new letter I got from her was like being with her all over again. I could hear her voice speaking the words. I heard her laugh and how her voice caught when she got sad. The letters were all I had of her, but it was a tease. I wanted much more.

  During my eight weeks away, I tried to write back to her, to put my feelings down on paper. But nothing I wrote to Sierra was good enough. I wanted to tell her I left my heart with her, but everything sounded trite.

  I had one more chance before starting BUD/S to tell her, but nothing sounded right. I once told her love was too weak a word to describe how I felt, but the truth was there weren’t any words that could do it justice. As I stared at the blank sheet of paper, I decided to sacrifice my love for her so she could move on.

  I took one of my dog tags and slipped it into a small white envelope. I collected all of her letters and put them into a manila envelope with the dog tag.

  Dad was right, Sierra wasn’t a mind reader. But I knew it would be enough for her to decide she was better off without me and move on. I couldn’t risk hurting her any more than I already had.

  Present Day

  “So all this time, everyone knew except me,” she said, shaking her head.

  “I’m sorry. I wanted to tell you, but I really thought it was better if I didn’t. After completing all of my training, I had several deployments overseas. They were very impressed with me, but I wanted to come back home and find you. I applied for a training post in San Diego and got it.

  “Before starting my new assignment, I took some leave to spend time with my mother in Arizona,” I said. “I saw something about an event you were catering in Tempe and decided it was fate telling me to go to you. I went that day to tell you everything, but then I saw you kissing another chef.

  “I grabbed someone who was setting up the food, and he told me the two of you were engaged. That was fate’s message to me. I was too late. You had done exactly what I wanted. You moved on, you were happy. You were better off without me.”

  I couldn’t look at her. I poured some Scotch into my glass.

  “Shouldn’t that be my decision to make? I’ve been mourning your death for years now. Didn’t you ever think about that?”

  “I know I was wrong. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t regret it from the moment I sent that dog tag to you. But it made sense to me at the time.”

  “And you had your father keep it from me, too.” She shook her head angrily. “How long has my mother known?”

  “She doesn’t know. My father didn’t know until today, too. I was at the function earlier. I knew you would be there and I needed to just get a glimpse of you. I thought you saw me and like a fool, I left. I drove straight to my dad’s and that’s when I told him everything.”

  “But you lied. For five years, I thought you were dead.”

  “I made a mistake. If I could go back in time and change it, I would. Please, Sierra, can’t we just forget about all of that?”

  “How can I? Whose idea was this date anyway?”

  “Dad’s. I wanted to see you, but I didn’t want to do it with your fiancé around and I didn’t know if you would agree to meet me. I didn’t know if I stood a chance, but I figured if you weren’t married yet, maybe I still had time.”

  “He’s not my fiancé anymore.”

  My heart soared hearing her words but just as quickly sank when I noticed the diamond on her ring finger.

  “You’re still wearing his ring.”

  “I was confused. I’ve been confused since I had to come back here. I don't know what I’m thinking or doing anymore. I saw you. I saw you earlier today at the function and I thought I had finally snapped. I thought I was going crazy!”

  “Keep your voice down, Sierra.”

  “Don’t tell me what to do. Do you have any idea what I’ve been through the past five years? Do you know what your death did to me?”

  “I did what I had to do. I did what I thought was best for you.”

  She stared at me as anger flashed in her eyes. I couldn’t blame her for being angry or irrational.

  “For me? Who do you think you are? You have no right to make decisions for me.”

  “That's not what I meant.”

  “Just forget about it. Forget about us.” She took a quick gulp of her drink and then she glared at me. “You can’t do this. You can’t just reappear when you feel like it and expect everything to be the same.”

  “That’s not what I’m doing.”

  “Just stop it. Shut up. I don’t want to hear any more.”

  She got up from the table and stormed outside. I followed her. She looked around, frustrated, with tears falling down her cheeks.

  “I don’t know what I can do or say to fix this, but I will do whatever it takes to make things right again,” I said.

  She stared at me with the same anger she had all those years ago as a child. Then her hand flew up and she slapped me. I didn’t budge. I didn’t even wince.

  “I deserved that,” I said. “I’ll take any abuse you can dish out.”

  Her hand came up again but stopped just before meeting my cheek.

  "Time out,” she said.

  “What?”

  “You heard me. Time out.”

  Her fingers softly stroked my cheek that still burned from her slap. I took her hand and pressed my lips to her palm then pulled her against me.

  “I’m never leaving you again,” I said as I looked into her eyes. “I promise.”

  As I stroked her hair, a cab pulled up to the valet. He waved to Sierra and she nodded.

  “I don’t know, Jagger. I just don’t know. I need time to think.”

  Before I could say anything, she stepped away from me, got into the cab, and left.

  ~ Sixteen ~

  Sierra

  I felt dizzy as the taxi pulled away, leaving Jagger behind. I didn’t know what to think. I didn’t know what to do. Everything I thought for the past five years had been a lie. If only I had known the truth.

  My phone chimed and I pulled it out of my purse. Jagger’s name was on the screen, and I stared blankly at it for a moment as my heart beat wildly in my chest.

  So many things had happened in the past five years. So much had changed, but even more had stayed the same. How I felt about Jagger was one of those things.

  I swiped the screen to view the message. There weren’t any words, just a photo of him unbuttoning the blue shirt he was wearing. I wanted to see more, but I didn’t want it to sway me.

  Sierra: A striptease is not going to cut it.

  Jagger: What about a new video?

  Sierra: I need time. Please. That’s all I’m asking.

  Jagger: Just answer one thing for me.

  Sierra: What?

  Jagger: Do you still feel the same way?

  Sierra: Yes, I still hate you.

  Without any other place to go, I had the taxi take me back home to my parents’ house. As I stepped into the house, my mom ran in from the family room.

  “Phil told me everything,” she said. “What happened? Where is he? Wait, why are you home so soon?”

  “Please, Mom. Not now. I just need to think.” I started to climb the stairs, then turned to her. “I know this will be hard for you, but can you do me a favor? Don’t let Jagger in.”

  “But—”

  “Please, that’s all I’m asking. I really don’t want to talk about it.”

  I went up to my old bedroom and fell onto the bed. The room was already dark
so I closed my eyes to try to sleep, but I couldn’t. This time, instead of obsessing about Jagger like I had done for so long, I was berating myself for pushing him away.

  What was I thinking?

  Looking back on our history, I remembered how stubborn I had been when he came to stay for the wedding. I wouldn’t give him a chance despite how many times he proved he wasn’t the guy I thought he was. I was being stubborn now.

  The thought of spending another day without him, knowing he was alive, was worse than thinking he was dead all this time. I was angry with him for letting me believe he was gone, but I knew I could get over that. He knew what he did was wrong, and I loved him too much to stay angry forever.

  I gave up on sleep, went to the loft, and turned on the TV. Woody Allen spoke to me from the screen.

  “No, I am not watching this movie,” I muttered.

  I changed the channel, and Annie Hall appeared on the screen again.

  What the hell?

  I pulled up the guide and scrolled, but every single channel said it was playing Annie Hall. I changed the channel to the Food Network, knowing they never played movies. Annie Hall was on. Next to me, my phone lit up with a text from Jagger.

  Jagger: I told you, it’ll always be on when we make up.

  Sierra: But we haven’t made up.

  Jagger: The movie just started, there’s plenty of time.

  I watched the movie for a few minutes and then picked up my phone again.

  Sierra: Where are you?

  Jagger: Where do you want me to be?

  Sierra: Here. With me.

  Jagger: Does that mean you changed your mind?

  Sierra: No, I still hate you.

  Jagger entered the house and climbed the stairs two at a time. He knelt in front of the couch where I was sitting and held my hands in his.