Nebula Awards Showcase 2012

by James Patrick Kelly

  “Respected Aunt Naeva?”

  My vision wavered. A shape: muscular biceps, hard thighs, robes of heir's green. It took me a moment to identify Queen Rayneh's eldest daughter, who I had inspired in her brood. At the time of my death, she'd been a flat-chested flitling, still learning how to ride.

  “Tryce?” I asked. A bad thought: “Why are you here? Has the usurper taken the palace? Is the Queen dead?”

  Tryce laughed. “You misunderstand, Respected Aunt. I am the usurper.”

  “You?” I scoffed. “What does a girl want with a woman's throne?”

  “I want what is mine.” Tryce drew herself up. She had her mother's mouth, stern and imperious. “If you don't believe me, look at the body you're wearing.”

  I looked down. My hands were the right size, but they were painted in Rayneh's blue and decked with rings of gold and silver. Strips of tanned human flesh adorned my breasts. I raised my fingertips to my collarbone and felt the raised edges of the brand I knew would be there. Scars formed the triangles that represented the Land of Flowered Hills.

  “One of your mother's private guard,” I murmured. “Which?”

  “Okilanu.”

  I grinned. “I never liked the bitch.”

  “You know I'm telling the truth. A private guard is too valuable for anyone but a usurper to sacrifice. I'm holding this conference with honor, Respected Aunt. I'm meeting you alone, with only one automaton to guard me. My informants tell me that my mother surrounded herself with sorceresses so that she could coerce you. I hold you in more esteem.”

  “What do you want?”

  “Help winning the throne that should be mine.”

  “Why should I betray my lover and my Land for a child with pretensions?”

  “Because you have no reason to be loyal to my mother. Because I want what's best for this Land, and I know how to achieve it. Because those were my automatons you dismantled, and they were good, beautiful souls despite being creatures of spit and mud. Gudrin is the last of them.”

  Tryce held out her hand. The hand that accepted drew into my vision: slender with shapely fingers crafted of mud and tangled with sticks and pieces of nest. It was beautiful enough to send feathers of astonishment through my chest.

  “Great Lady, you must listen to The Creator of Me and Mine,” intoned the creature.

  Its voice was a songbird trill. I grimaced in disgust. “You made male automatons?”

  “Just one,” said Tryce. “It's why he survived your spell.”

  “Yes,” I said, pondering. “It never occurred to me that one would make male creatures.”

  “Will you listen, Respected Aunt?” asked Tryce.

  “You must listen, Great Lady,” echoed the automaton. His voice was as melodious as poetry to a depressed heart. The power of crane's feathers and crow's brains is great.

  “Very well,” I said.

  Tryce raised her palms to show she was telling truth. I saw the shadow of her mother's face lurking in her wide-set eyes and broad, round forehead.

  “Last autumn, when the wind blew red with fallen leaves, my mother expelled me from the castle. She threw my possessions into the river and had my servants beaten and turned out. She told me that I would have to learn to live like the birds migrating from place to place because she had decreed that no one was to give me a home. She said I was no longer her heir, and she would dress Darnisha or Peni in heir's green. Oh, Respected Aunt! How could either of them take a throne?”

  I ignored Tryce's emotional outpouring. It was true that Tryce had always been more responsible than her sisters, but she had been born with an heir's heaviness upon her. I had lived long enough to see fluttering sparrows like Darnisha and Peni become eagles, over time.

  “You omit something important,” I said. “Why did your mother throw you out, Imprudent Child?”

  “Because of this.”

  The automaton's hand held Tryce steady as she mounted a pile of pillows that raised her torso to my eye level. Her belly loomed large, ripe as a frog's inflated throat.

  “You've gotten fat, Tryce.”

  “No,” she said.

  I realized: she had not.

  “You're pregnant? Hosting a child like some brood? What's wrong with you, girl? I never knew you were a pervert. Worse than a pervert! Even the lowest worm-eater knows to chew mushrooms when she pushes with men.”

  “I am no pervert! I am a lover of woman. I am natural as breeze! But I say we must not halve our population by splitting our females into women and broods. The raiders nip at our heels. Yes, it's true, they are barbaric and weak—now. But they grow stronger. Their population increases so quickly that already they can match our numbers. When there are three times as many of them as us, or five times, or eight times, they'll flood us like a wave crashing on a naked beach. It's time for women to make children in ourselves as broods do. We need more daughters.”

  I scoffed. “The raiders keep their women like cows for the same reason we keep cows like cows, to encourage the production of calves. What do you think will happen if our men see great women swelling with young and feeding them from their bodies? They will see us as weak, and they will rebel, and the broods will support them for trinkets and candy.”

  “Broods will not threaten us,” said Tryce. “They do as they are trained. We train them to obey.”

  Tryce stepped down from the pillows and dismissed the automaton into the shadows. I felt a murmur of sadness as the creature left my sight.

  “It is not your place to make policy, Imprudent Child,” I said. “You should have kept your belly flat.”

  “There is no time! Do the raiders wait? Will they chew rinds by the fire while I wait for my mother to die?”

  “This is better? To split our land into factions and war against ourselves?”

  “I have vowed to save the Land of Flowered Hills,” said Tryce, “with my mother or despite her.”

  Tryce came yet closer to me so that I could see the triple scars where the gems that had once sealed her heirship had been carved out of her cheeks. They left angry, red triangles. Tryce's breath was hot; her eyes like oil, shining.

  “Even without my automatons, I have enough resources to overwhelm the palace,” Tryce continued, “except for one thing.”

  I waited.

  “I need you to tell me how to unlock the protections you laid on the palace grounds and my mother's chambers.”

  “We return to the beginning. Why should I help you?”

  Tryce closed her eyes and inhaled deeply. There was shyness in her posture now. She would not direct her gaze at mine.

  She said, “I was young when you died, still young enough to think that our strength was unassailable. The battles after your death shattered my illusions. We barely won, and we lost many lives. I realized that we needed more power, and I thought that I could give us that power by becoming a sorceress to replace you.” She paused. “During my studies, I researched your acts of magic, great and small. Inevitably, I came to the spell you cast before you died, when you sent the raiders’ positions into the summoning pool.”

  It was then that I knew what she would say next. I wish I could say that my heart felt as immobile as a mountain, that I had always known to suspect the love of a Queen. But my heart drummed, and my mouth went dry, and I felt as if I were falling.

  “Some of mother's advisers convinced her that you were plotting against her. They had little evidence to support their accusations, but once the idea rooted into mother's mind, she became obsessed. She violated the sanctity of woman's magic by teaching Kyan how to summon a roc feather enchanted to pierce your heart. She ordered him to wait until you had sent her the vision of the battleground, and then to kill you and punish your treachery by binding your soul so that you would always wander and wake.”

  I wanted to deny it, but what point would there be? Now that Tryce forced me to examine my death with a watcher's eye, I saw the coincidences that proved her truth. How else could I have been shot by a
n arrow not just shaped by woman's magic, but made from one of the Queen's roc feathers? Why else would a worm like Kyan have happened to have in his possession a piece of leucite more powerful than any I'd seen?

  I clenched Okilanu's fists. “I never plotted against Rayneh.”

  “Of course not. She realized it herself, in time, and executed the women who had whispered against you. But she had your magic, and your restless spirit bound to her, and she believed that was all she needed.”

  For long moments, my grief battled my anger. When it was done, my resolve was hardened like a spear tempered by fire.

  I lifted my palms in the gesture of truth telling. “To remove the protections on the palace grounds, you must lay yourself flat against the soil with your cheek against the dirt, so that it knows you. To it, you must say, ‘The Lady Who Plucked Red Flowers beneath the Queen's Window loves the Queen from instant to eternity, from desire to regret.’ And then you must kiss the soil as if it is the hem of your lover's robe. Wait until you feel the earth move beneath you and then the protections will be gone.”

  Tryce inclined her head. “I will do this.”

  I continued, “When you are done, you must flay off a strip of your skin and grind it into a fine powder. Bury it in an envelope of wind-silk beneath the Queen's window. Bury it quickly. If a single grain escapes, the protections on her chamber will hold.”

  “I will do this, too,” said Tryce. She began to speak more, but I raised one of my ringed, blue fingers to silence her.

  “There's another set of protections you don't know about. One cast on your mother. It can only be broken by the fresh life-blood of something you love. Throw the blood onto the Queen while saying, ‘The Lady Who Plucked Red Flowers beneath Your Window has betrayed you.”

  “Life-blood? You mean, I need to kill—”

  “Perhaps the automaton.”

  Tryce's expression clouded with distress. “Gudrin is the last one! Maybe the baby. I could conceive again—”

  “If you can suggest the baby, you don't love it enough. It must be Gudrin.”

  Tryce closed her mouth. “Then it will be Gudrin,” she agreed, but her eyes would not meet mine.

  I folded my arms across Okilanu's flat bosom. “I've given you what you wanted. Now grant me a favor, Imprudent Child Who Would Be Queen. When you kill Rayneh, I want to be there.”

  Tryce lifted her head like the Queen she wanted to be. “I will summon you when it's time, Respected Aunt.” She turned toward Gudrin in the shadows. “Disassemble the binding shapes,” she ordered.

  For the first time, I beheld Gudrin in his entirety. The creature was tree-tall and stick-slender, and yet he moved with astonishing grace. “Thank you on behalf of the Creator of Me and My Kind,” he trilled in his beautiful voice, and I considered how unfortunate it was that the next time I saw him, he would be dead.

  I smelled the iron-and-wet tang of blood. My view of the world skewed low, as if I'd been cut off at the knees. Women's bodies slumped across lush carpets. Red ran deep into the silk, bloodying woven leaves and flowers. I'd been in this chamber far too often to mistake it, even dead. It was Rayneh's.

  It came to me then: my perspective was not like that of a woman forced to kneel. It was like a child's. Or a dwarf's.

  I reached down and felt hairy knees and fringed ankle bracelets. “Ah, Kyan…”

  “I thought you might like that.” Tryce's voice. These were probably her legs before me, wrapped in loose green silk trousers that were tied above the calf with chains of copper beads. “A touch of irony for your pleasure. He bound your soul to restlessness. Now you'll chase his away.”

  I reached into his back-slung sheath and drew out the most functional of his ceremonial blades. It would feel good to flay his treacherous flesh.

  “I wouldn't do that,” said Tryce. “You'll be the one who feels the pain.”

  I sheathed the blade. “You took the castle?”

  “Effortlessly.” She paused. “I lie. Not effortlessly.” She unknotted her right trouser leg and rolled up the silk. Blood stained the bandages on a carefully wrapped wound. “Your protections were strong.”

  “Yes. They were.”

  She re-tied her trouser leg and continued. “The Lady with Lichen Hair tried to block our way into the chamber.” She kicked one of the corpses by my feet. “We killed her.”

  “Did you.”

  “Don't you care? She was your friend.”

  “Did she care when I died?”

  Tryce shifted her weight, a kind of lower-body shrug. “I brought you another present.” She dropped a severed head onto the floor. It rolled toward me, tongue lolling in its bloody face. It took me a moment to identify the high cheekbones and narrow eyes.

  “The death whisperer? Why did you kill Lakitri?”

  “You liked the blood of Jada and Okilanu, didn't you?”

  “The only blood I care about now is your mother's. Where is she?”

  “Bring my mother!” ordered Tryce.

  One of Tryce's servants—her hands marked with the green dye of loyalty to the heir—dragged Rayneh into the chamber. The Queen's torn, bloody robe concealed the worst of her wounds, but couldn't hide the black and purple bruises blossoming on her arms and legs. Her eyes found mine, and despite her condition, a trace of her regal smile glossed her lips.

  Her voice sounded thin. “That's you? Lady Who Plucked Red Flowers beneath My Window?”

  “It's me.”

  She raised one bloody, shaking hand to the locket around her throat and pried it open. Dried petals scattered onto the carpets, the remnants of the red flowers I'd once gathered for her protection. While the spell lasted, they'd remained whole and fresh. Now they were dry and crumbling like what had passed for love between us.

  “If you ever find rest, the world-lizard will crack your soul in its jaws for murdering your Queen,” she said.

  “I didn't kill you.”

  “You instigated my death.”

  “I was only repaying your favor.”

  The hint of her smile again. She smelled of wood smoke, rich and dark. I wanted to see her more clearly, but my poor vision blurred the red of her wounds into the sienna of her skin until the whole of her looked like raw, churned earth.

  “I suppose our souls will freeze together.” She paused. “That might be pleasant.”

  Somewhere in front of us, lost in the shadows, I heard Tryce and her women ransacking the Queen's chamber. Footsteps, sharp voices, cracking wood.

  “I used to enjoy cold mornings,” Rayneh said. “When we were girls. I liked lying in bed with you and opening the curtains to watch the snow fall.”

  “And sending servants out into the cold to fetch and carry.”

  “And then! When my brood let slip it was warmer to lie together naked under the sheets? Do you remember that?” She laughed aloud, and then paused. When she spoke again, her voice was quieter. “It's strange to remember lying together in the cold, and then to look up, and see you in that body. Oh, my beautiful Naeva, twisted into a worm. I deserve what you've done to me. How could I have sent a worm to kill my life's best love?”

  She turned her face away, as if she could speak no more. Such a show of intimate, unroyal emotion. I could remember times when she'd been able to manipulate me by trusting me with a wince of pain or a supposedly accidental tear. As I grew more cynical, I realized that her royal pretense wasn't vanishing when she gave me a melancholy, regretful glance. Such things were calculated vulnerabilities, intended to bind me closer to her by suggesting intimacy and trust. She used them with many ladies at court, the ones who loved her.

  This was far from the first time she'd tried to bind me to her by displaying weakness, but it was the first time she'd ever done so when I had no love to enthrall me.

  Rayneh continued, her voice a whisper. “I regret it, Naeva. When Kyan came back, and I saw your body, cold and lifeless—I understood immediately that I'd been mistaken. I wept for days. I'm weeping still, inside my heart
. But listen—” her voice hardened “—we can't let this be about you and me. Our Land is at stake. Do you know what Tryce is going to do? She'll destroy us all. You have to help me stop her—”

  “Tryce!” I shouted. “I'm ready to see her bleed.”

  Footsteps thudded across silk carpets. Tryce drew a bone-handled knife and knelt over her mother like a farmer preparing to slaughter a pig. “Gudrin!” she called. “Throw open the doors. Let everyone see us.”

  Narrow, muddy legs strode past us. The twigs woven through the automaton's skin had lain fallow when I saw him in the winter. Now they blazed in a glory of emerald leaves and scarlet blossoms.

  “You dunce!” I shouted at Tryce. “What have you done? You left him alive.”

  Tryce's gaze held fast on her mother's throat. “I sacrificed the baby.”

  Voices and footsteps gathered in the room as Tryce's soldiers escorted Rayneh's courtiers inside.

  “You sacrificed the baby,” I repeated. “What do you think ruling is? Do you think Queens always get what they want? You can't dictate to magic, Imprudent Child.”

  “Be silent.” Tryce's voice thinned with anger. “I'm grateful for your help, Great Lady, but you must not speak this way to your Queen.”

  I shook my head. Let the foolish child do what she might. I braced myself for the inevitable backlash of the spell.

  Tryce raised her knife in the air. “Let everyone gathered here behold that this is Queen Rayneh, the Queen Who Would Dictate to a Daughter. I am her heir, Tryce of the Bold Stride. Hear me. I do this for the Land of Flowered Hills, for our honor and our strength. Yet I also do it with regret. Mother, I hope you will be free in your death. May your spirit wing across sweet breezes with the great bird of the sun.”

  The knife slashed downward. Crimson poured across Rayneh's body, across the rugs, across Tryce's feet. For a moment, I thought I'd been wrong about Tryce's baby—perhaps she had loved it enough for the counter-spell to work—but as the blood poured over the dried petals Rayneh had scattered on the floor, a bright light flared through the room. Tryce flailed backward as if struck.