Stepbrother Billionaire

by Colleen Masters

  “Are you baiting me, Sawyer?” I ask.

  “Is it working, Rowan?” he winks.

  “You’re terrible,” I inform him, relieved that he wasn’t serious about Courtney.

  “It’s true,” he sighs dramatically, “Some things never change.”

  “Besides, there surely isn’t room for Courtney in your harem,” I go on, “With your whole gorgeous bad boy billionaire thing, you’ve probably got a girlfriend for every day of the week.”

  “Nope,” Emerson replies, “But thanks for calling me gorgeous.”

  “Like you don’t know,” I shoot back, “So then, just the one girlfriend for you?”

  “I’m afraid not,” he says.

  “Fiancée?” I ask, with mounting dread, “Wife?”

  “Well, there is Roxie...” he says, “She’s very important to me.”

  “Roxie?” I ask, “You’re with a woman named Roxie? Who the hell—?”

  “She’s my west highland terrier,” he cuts me off with a smirk. “But good to see you’re still protective of me, Ab.”

  “I’m not—I just—” I sputter, “I’m just curious, is all.”

  “That makes two of us,” he replies, “I’m expecting a report on your love life, too.”

  “Or lack thereof, you mean?” I ask drily. “I just finished grad school. That means my most significant romantic relationship at the moment is with my pizza delivery man.”

  “Who is he? I’ll throttle him,” Emerson says, raising his fists like a cartoon leprechaun. But the memory of the beat down he gave Tucker all those years ago is too fresh for that particular joke to be funny.

  For the first time these evening, the silence between us grows tense. Despite our relatively breezy reunion so far, there’s a lot of ugly, buried emotions hanging between us. I’ve spent a good part of the last eight years being furious with Emerson for disappearing on me when I needed him. I’ve been hurt, angry, and more than anything, just terribly sad to have lost him. All that feeling can’t just evaporate because he’s resurfaced with a shit ton of money and nicer biceps than ever before.

  “Tell me what you’re thinking,” he says with quiet firmness, leaning toward me.

  “Honestly?” I reply, “I’m thinking about all the imaginary fights I’ve had with you these past few years. All the things I’d dream of saying to you, if we ever ran into each other again.”

  “Like what?” he asks intently.

  “You don’t want me to tell you,” I mutter, “Your eyebrows might get singed off.”

  “That bad, huh?” he asks.

  “That bad,” I assure him.

  “Well, I had plenty of imaginary conversations with you, too,” he tells me, moving closer by just an inch. “Want to know how most of them went?”

  “I’m not sure—”

  “Usually, they revolved around me apologizing for vanishing into thin air on you,” he cuts me off, “And for leaving you to deal with the fallout on your own. And hey, now that you’re actually sitting here with me, I can tell you—I’m sorry.”

  “I don’t think sorry can begin to fix it,” I whisper, staring down at my drink. “You left, Emerson. Left me alone in that house, with my dad, after the way he treated us. He could have hurt me, if Riley hadn’t shown up to get me. Did you even care?”

  “Of course I cared,” he said fiercely, “But try to imagine being me in that moment. Having my mother bring the whole family crashing down all on her own...it was humiliating. I felt like absolute scum for being my parents’ kid. I couldn’t even look at you, I was so ashamed of who I was. And so furious that I couldn’t do anything to help or protect you.”

  “Is that why you nearly killed Tucker?” I ask softly.

  “I guess it is,” Emerson allows, shaking his head, “I wasn’t really thinking about it much at the time. To be honest, Abby, I don’t lose much sleep over what I did to him. In my mind, that’s what he had coming from the moment he...Anyway. I had to disappear, Ab. I couldn’t stand the idea of you being as ashamed of me as I was.”

  “I was never ashamed of you,” I burst out, “Never once, Emerson. That was just some crazy idea you cooked up in your own damn mind. I never gave a shit about our families’ money and standing. You know that. Or at least you should have known.”

  “You’re right,” Emerson murmurs, reaching for my hand, “I should have. And for that, again, I am truly sorry. But don’t you think for a second that I wouldn’t have come running back if you’d ever needed me.”

  “How would you have known if I did?” I ask, exasperated.

  “I followed you,” he says, “Online, I mean. Your social media presence was pretty remarkably unprotected when you were younger. For a while, I scoped you out on Facebook, Myspace, checked in to see how you were doing. But once you got to college, and it seemed like your whole life was just opening up in front of you...I knew you’d be OK. I knew you didn’t need me anymore.”

  “That’s not true,” I whisper, my eyes stinging with unexpected tears. “I did need you, Emerson. So much...”

  “I needed you too,” he replies, rubbing his thumb against my hand, “But we couldn’t be in each others’ lives then. Not with everything that had happened. But look. We seem to have found a way back in again.”

  “So it would seem,” I smile softly.

  “I’ve spent the past eight years wondering what I would say to you, if I ever saw you again,” Emerson murmurs, his voice dipping low. I know that dip, know what it means. Between that and the gleam in his eye, his intentions are pretty clear. And despite every ounce of logic I possess, I can feel myself responding to his lead.

  “What do you want to say, then?” I ask, my own voice soft and husky. My heart feels like a kick drum as Emerson moves closer to me. Our sides brush against each other as he moves his hand up my arm, pulling me in.

  “It turns out, I don’t want to say anything,” he says, his words gravelly and ardent. His lips move ever closer to mine, and I can feel my mouth lifting to his, as if of its own accord. Emerson goes on, his mouth nearly on mine, “I’d rather show you...”

  “Hey Emerson!” someone says from across the room.

  I jerk away from Emerson as a trio of familiar faces make their way across the room. I recognize the two men and woman as some of the young people manning the communal desk at Bastian. My new coworkers, as it were. And they’ve just happened upon me about to suck face with my superior. I stare at Emerson, my mind scrambling to figure out what my heart wants. He just looks back at me with frustrated desire, forcing a smile as his colleagues come over.

  “How’s it going, Bradley?” Emerson asks, as the stylish threesome comes to a stop before us, “Tyler, Emily—Do you guys all know Abby?”

  “You’re the new recruit, right?” the man called Bradley asks. He’s doing the whole trendy-pseudo-rustic look, full beard and all. And from the barely-concealed amusement on his face, I know he’s hip to what was about to happen between me and Emerson. They all are.

  “That’s me,” I say faintly. Looking up at them, then across the table at Emerson, I feel like we’re back in our hometown diner—that night Emerson’s lax bros nearly gave me a heart attack. I feel the panic beginning to rise inside of me at the mere thought of it.

  “You guys mind if we join you?” asks Emily, the chic hipster with bright violet hair.

  “I was actually just going to head out,” I say, grabbing my purse and rising quickly to my feet. “I’ll have to catch a drink with you guys some other time!”

  “Abby,” Emerson says, his smile tightening. “You don’t have to go already—”

  “I really do,” I shoot back firmly.

  “What about your drink?” he presses, as our coworkers drink in the tense drama.

  With my eyes locked on Emerson, I raise my martini glass and knock back the rest, chugging the insanely expensive and delicious liquor just to spite him. He holds my gaze, his expression hardening into that unreadable mask I know so well.

>   “See you guys later,” I say to Emerson and our three flabbergasted coworkers. “You have a lovely evening.”

  Without another word, I turn on my heel and dash out of the bar. I’ve barely made it back onto the busy street before the tears come. I should have known that this—being alone with Emerson—would be too much for me all at once. There’s too much history there, too much pain, for some breezy birthday drinks to be possible. I hurry back toward the subway, cursing myself for being such a damn idiot.

  “I’d love to not make this running-after-you thing a habit,” I hear Emerson’s terse voice say from over my shoulder.

  “There’s an easy fix for that,” I snap back, “Stop running after me.”

  I draw myself up short as Emerson places his staggering, perfect body in my path.

  “I didn’t mean to freak you out,” he tells me, “I shouldn’t have pushed you. It’s just...I can’t pretend that I don’t still want you, Abby. That I don’t still care—”

  “Goddammit Emerson,” I exclaim, wrapping my arms around my waist, “Haven’t you ever heard of subtlety?”

  “Tried it once. Not a fan,” he shrugs.

  “This isn’t going to work,” I tell him, shaking my head, “We can’t just pick up right where we left off after that night at the beach.”

  “Why not?” he insists, taking my hands in his.

  “Because you took a sledgehammer to my heart, you asshole!” I say, tearing away from his grasp. “I’ve loved you for the better part of a decade, but we’re not kids anymore, Emerson. We can’t just throw caution to the wind, you live in Europe, and—”

  “We’re twenty-five!” he laughs, incredulously, “We can do whatever we like.”

  “You’re twenty-six,” I remind him, “And I’ve spent the last eight years picking up the pieces of my life on my own. I’m not about to let you shatter them again.”

  “Is that what you think I’d do, if you gave me another chance?” he asks, his voice hard.

  “No,” I reply, feeling my bottom lip begin to tremble, “I know it’s what you’d do.”

  His eyes flash with wounded sorrow as I barrel past him. This time, he lets me go. I charge away, back up to my haven on the Upper West Side, struggling to hold it together.

  I manage to make it all the way home before my own grief spills over. By the time I glance at my bedside clock, I see that it’s after midnight. It’s officially my own twenty-sixth birthday. And would you look at that? I’m lying here alone, miserable as ever.

  “See, this is why I hate birthdays,” I mutter to myself, surrendering to sleep at last.

  Chapter Fourteen

  It seems that Emerson has taken the hint. There aren’t a thousand voicemails and texts waiting on my phone in the morning, and he doesn’t appear out of thin air all day during my birthday. Riley, unable to contain herself, wakes me up with a wonderful breakfast spread to start the day off right. One look at my face and she doesn’t press for details about the night before. She’s a saint, that woman. We take our time waking up, head out for a hot yoga class, and take a nice long walk along the Hudson River together. Eventually, I fill her in on what went down at drinks last night. She listens pensively as I give her the scoop.

  “You may not want to hear this,” she begins, glancing at me as we stroll by the water.

  “That probably means I need to hear it though, right?” I sigh, “Go ahead. Shoot.”

  “It sounds like you’re scared by how much you still care about him,” Riley says, laying a hand on my shoulder. “And you’re terrified of history repeating itself.”

  “I do still care about him,” I admit, surprised by the knot in my throat. “I never stopped caring about him.”

  “I know,” Riley smiles sadly, “I’ve been with you these last eight years since he disappeared from your life. But Abby...you have to remember that there’s one huge difference between then and now.”

  “His pecs?” I offer. “You should see them, Ri—”

  “Not what I meant,” she laughs. “I was going to say, you were kids when everything went wrong before. You had to answer to your horrible, selfish parents. Now, you have no one to answer to but yourselves.”

  “Maybe that’s what’s freaking me out,” I say softly, “There’s no one to blame if things go wrong again. If we mess it up this time...it’s because we’re not actually right for each other.”

  “Being a grownup sucks, don’t it?” Riley laughs, shaking her head. “But you know what else sucks? Squandering a wonderful relationship with someone you’re nuts about, just because you’re scared.”

  “How can you always know the right thing to say?” I ask her, amazed.

  “I’m just a genius,” she sighs, as we turn toward home, “NBD.”

  My grandparents are swinging by the apartment to check up on the place and have drinks before we go out to dinner, but that won’t be until early this evening. I have the whole lazy late afternoon to myself. Which would be fine and dandy if I could do anything but lay around thinking about Emerson. I need to check in with him about last night and explain my freak out. But every time I reach for my cell, something stops me.

  “Come on, Miss 26-year-old,” I mutter sternly, staring down at my phone, “Put on your big girl panties and give him a—”

  I let out a very undignified yelp as the phone begins to vibrate in my hands. Dropping the device onto my bed in surprise, I peer down at it and feel my stomach flip. There’s a text on my screen that simply reads:

  Hey Abby, it’s Emerson.

  I grab up the phone and text back before I lose my nerve.

  Me: Hey, I was just about to call you. I want to talk.

  Him: So do I. How do you feel about doing it in person?

  Me: Oh, I don’t think I have time to come all the way back downtown before my plans tonight.

  Him: You don’t have to come downtown.

  Me: No?

  I jump a foot in the air as my apartment buzzer rings. Another text arrives in its wake:

  Him: Nope.

  “Are you expecting a package?” Riley calls from the living room.

  “No, Ri, it’s him!” I gasp, yanking open my bedroom door.

  “Emerson is here? At our apartment?!” she breathes excitedly, “Well, what are you waiting for? Buzz him up!”

  “But. I. What if—” I stammer, biting my lip.

  “Oh, for Christ’s sake,” Riley groans. She marches across the room and pushes the “door” button on the buzzer, granting Emerson access to our building. “You’re welcome,” she grins, marching toward her room, “I’ll be in my boudoir. Call if you need any further intervention, yeah?”

  “Thanks,” I say weakly, paralyzed as I stare at the front door.

  At least I made an effort to look presentable today. I’ve got my favorite pair of skinny jeans on, a slouchy white tee with a charcoal cardigan, and some eclectic pieces of jewelry I’ve picked up at the Brooklyn flea market. My blonde hair hangs in loose, easy waves, and my favorite red matte lipstick finishes off the look. Still, even knowing that I look my millennial-chic best, my heart nearly bursts out of my chest as I hear a knock on the door.

  He’s here.

  “Answer it or I will!” Riley trills from the other room.

  “Ugh. Fine,” I mutter, going to the door. “Quit crackin’ the whip, would you?”

  “What’s that about whips?” Emerson grins, as I swing the door open.

  “Oh,” I stammer, taken aback by his perfect appearance yet again.

  He’s wearing a black v-neck and gray jeans, and the smattering of stubble on his jaw is as sexy as ever. The glasses are nowhere to be seen, which means his vibrant blue eyes are on full, gorgeous display. The tee shirt cuts off just above his bulging, perfect biceps. I spot a few new tattoos on his arms, too. Guess there’s still a bad boy mixed in with that tech billionaire.

  “No literal whips on hand, sorry to disappoint you,” I laugh, moving aside to let him in.

  “Wh
at a shame,” he sighs, taking a look around the apartment. I’m suddenly self-conscious of the ornate, elegant decor. I know Emerson has money now and everything, but the decadence of my grandparents’ apartment still has me feeling very uncool.

  “I know, this place is a bit much,” I say nervously, watching his blue eyes rove around the space. “But, you know, it’s my grandparents’. They’re not exactly hip to the whole minimalism, eco-friendly movement. Actually, they’re stopping by soon for a little birthday celebration.”

  “Frank and Jillian?” Emerson asks, laying on a parody of his most proper, upper-class voice. “What a delight!”

  “Yeah. Not my idea of a good time, but they’re family. And they’ve also been supporting me my entire life. So I can handle a bit of WASPy tension once in a while,” I reply.

  “I’ll be sure to get out of here before they show up,” Emerson says, “Wouldn’t want anyone to have a heart attack on your birthday.”

  “I’m sure they’d be happy to see you,” I offer.

  We look at each other for a moment before busting out laughing. Emerson is the last person on the planet my grandparents would want to run into, billionaire or no.

  “I doubt they’d be impressed by something as gauche as ‘new money’,” Emerson chortles, settling down on the couch.

  “Yes, how dare you be successful in this economy, young man,” I reply, doing my best Frank Rowan impression as I settle down beside Emerson.

  We sit next to each other and lapse into silence. I guess this is the moment where we’re supposed to address what went down last night, but it’s always hard to start.

  “I hope you don’t mind my swinging by,” Emerson begins, “I know it’s an uninvited visit, but I wanted to talk to you before we got back into the office on Monday.”

  “Right,” I laugh, “Yeah, that might have been awkward.”

  “I also didn’t want to let the day pass without wishing you a happy birthday,” he goes on, training those gorgeous eyes on me.