Only a Mistress Will Do

by Jenna Jaxon

  Chapter 3

  Drat. How could this have happened? With a sinking heart, Charlotte allowed Mr. Garrett to lead her onto the dance floor.

  In less than fifteen minutes her triumphal return to society had dissolved into a dish of scandal-broth. Not only had she tripped and fallen into Lord Wrotham, but she had been unable to stop Mr. Garrett from stealing her away from him. To protest would have created another huge scene. She also resisted the urge to turn and took at Lord Wrotham, the partner she had actually chosen. What must he think of her? Well, she could at least give Mr. Garrett the rough side of her tongue.

  “Mr. Garrett, you have taken unfair advantage of the situation.” She dropped his hand and turned to face him. “I recall no conversation that would permit you to believe I had promised you the first dance at this or any other ball.”

  “My dear, Lady Cavendish,” he laughed, making his handsome face even more attractive. “I have built my reputation by taking unfair advantage of women. Did you think yourself immune?”

  “I thought you a gentleman when we met at your aunt’s home. Despite your reputation.”. A hum of voices had set off around the room the instant his lips touched her, singling her out. Lord knew what they would make of his stealing her out of the very hands of Lord Wrotham. The ton forever whispered about such things, especially when one of the parties enjoyed the reputation of a rakehell the likes of Garrett’s.

  He grinned and took her hand again. “Oh, I am a gentleman, my lady. However, being a gentleman attracts fewer women than being a rogue. Don’t you long to be scandalous after a year of mourning?”

  “Certainly not.” Oh, the wretch was bad. How could he know she yearned to do something at least a little wild now that she was her own woman?

  “You may say ‘no,’ but a ‘yes’ lurks in your eyes, my lady.”

  Charlotte gasped and dropped her gaze. Dratted man. Could he read her thoughts?

  Jane had warned her about how wicked the man was. He existed barely within the Pale—Mr. Garrett’s reputation for affairs of the heart and ill-considered wagering of large sums at the worst gaming hells made him the bane of every matchmaking mama and the desire of each one of their daughters. His fine physique—broad at the shoulders, narrow at the waist, hard muscled all over—had caused many a maiden’s desperate sigh.

  Charlotte might have sighed right along with them, for he had made an impression on her in March. He had been gravely respectful of her loss and sweetly attentive—bringing her tea, listening raptly to her banal conversation ranging from the weather to her deceased husband. Yet, when he’d assisted her with her wrap, his fingers had brushed the skin at the back of her neck, lingering just a bit too long. Promising more. And more was what she so desperately wanted.

  Jane’s revelations, however, had acted like a cold bath to her budding longings for Alan Garrett. She’d had enough threat of scandal held over her head; she wouldn’t likely heap more on herself. Now the rake was back, and seemed to have set his sights on her. Well, she would nip that in the bud. One set and she could refuse him the rest of the evening. Hopefully, Lord Wrotham would ask her again.

  “Lady Cavendish.” Mr. Garrett leaned toward her. His blue eyes deepened and flickered with hunger.

  “Yes, Mr. Garrett?” She stepped back, trying to keep a decent distance between them. Was the man trying to compromise her for some perverse reason?

  “Are you afraid of me, my lady?” His laugh, utterly charming, gave him an innocent, boyish air. “I promise if you dance with me, I won’t bite.” He held out his hand.

  A wave of heat rose to her face. “I will hold you to that promise, Mr. Garrett.” Cautiously, she placed her hand in his.

  He leaned toward her slightly, and spoke sotto voce. “Very good. Perhaps we will also talk after our dance.” He squeezed her hand and drew her closer. Scent of his spicy cologne—bergamot and something with a deep musk—tickled her nose.

  Lord, she had to sneeze! Rubbing her nose to prevent the disaster, she stepped back and nodded. “Perhaps we will, Mr. Garrett.” Why did he have to wear so much scent?

  Mr. Garrett straightened and offered his arm. “The musicians are about to commence. Let us take our place in the set.”

  Charlotte slipped her arm through his, aware that they were causing a stir. She glanced around the room and noted several women darting inquisitive looks their way. Their countenances were anything but kind. The threat of incipient gossip about her made her shudder inside. She would never again dance with a rake.

  They had almost reached their places on the dance floor when she caught sight of Jane talking to a young man Charlotte had seen several times at functions her late husband had taken her to. Her cousin stared at her and raised her chin, a summons Charlotte knew all too well.

  “Oh, a moment, please Mr. Garrett. I must see my cousin.” She steered him around a group of young women and between two sets of young men who seemed to be gathering up the courage to ask them to dance.

  Finally, they reached Jane and, as Charlotte feared, her frown and firm lips spoke of her displeasure. What on earth had happened now?

  “Lady John, I am sure you remember Mr. Alan Garrett?” Charlotte smiled bravely, although Jane’s glare did not waver. What had she done? Certainly Jane could see she had no choice but to dance with the wretch. “As you may remember, we all met at Lady Burrows’ house, Mr. Garrett’s aunt.”

  Squeals from instruments being tuned attested the orchestra would be ready shortly. Perhaps they would miss the dance. Of course, the perverse Mr. Garrett would likely try to claim the next one as a forfeit. She might not be able to get rid of him until supper.

  “I remember you quite well, Mr. Garrett.” Jane said, with icy civility. “How lovely to meet you again.”

  Lord, judging from that tone, her cousin was in rare form tonight. Jane had the unfortunate habit of causing scenes in public places when trying to protect someone. The embarrassing incident during Charlotte’s come-out always came to mind. Lord Reardon had ever after pointedly avoided speaking to her after experiencing Jane’s scathing set-down in the middle of the hall. Just because he tried to claim a third dance.

  “You are kind, Lady John. To be remembered by you is to gain immortality.”

  Jane chuckled.

  The false tinkle told Charlotte her partner was in for it indeed.

  “You have a silver tongue, Mr. Garrett. I trust you will not allow it to tarnish my cousin?”

  “Lady Charlotte is in no danger from me, my lady.” He patted Charlotte’s hand. “Although the reverse may certainly prove true. She could well prove my downfall.”

  Charlotte cut her eyes toward Jane. What in the world did the man mean by that?

  Jane gave her head a slight shake, then fingered her necklace of perfectly matched pearls. “Charlotte, allow me to present a dear friend of mine, Mr. George Abernathy. Mr. Abernathy was friends with Stephen once upon a time. He is also, quite suddenly, the heir to Lord Romney.”

  Jane’s gaze took the man in from head to toe, slow and sensual, all but undressing him as she spoke.

  “Jane!” Charlotte whispered, scandalized at her cousin’s behavior. She’d never have thought she would do such a thing in public.

  “Mr. Abernathy, this is my cousin, Lady Cavendish and Mr. Alan Garrett, with whom I think you are already acquainted?”

  George smiled at her, a rather lopsided though charming sight. “My lady. I am so pleased to meet you at last.” He then turned and inclined his head almost imperceptibly. “Garrett.” The single word did not disguise the animosity in his tone.

  “Abernathy. It has been too long.” Mr. Garrett seemed amused at the other man’s enmity. Charlotte glanced from one to the other, wondering what lay between them.

  The music changed, signaling the dance would commence soon. Mr. Garrett took her arm. “If you will excuse us, Lady John?”

  They turned to go to the floor. By all means let them get th
is dance over with.

  “Charlotte.”

  Good Lord. They would never make this dance. “Yes?”

  Jane glanced from Charlotte’s face to Mr. Garrett’s, settling on the latter with a determined stare. “Please return Lady Cavendish to me directly after the dance, Mr. Garrett. Lord Wrotham would like to have her for the second set, if I’m not mistaken.” And with a sharp look at Charlotte, “You know he had particularly asked for that introduction, my dear.”

  Memory of the man’s intense eyes, dark and fathomless, coupled with his blatantly sensual mouth caused Charlotte to swallow hard. She recalled vividly being pressed close against him, breathing a clean citrusy scent when her face lay against his jacket front. A riot of butterflies stirred in her stomach. And his voice. There had been something in his voice when he had argued with Mr. Garrett. Something familiar.

  Charlotte surreptitiously scanned the area, but no tall, dark man of his description appeared. She hoped he would return at the end of the first dance and ask her for the second.

  “It will be as you wish, Lady John, however, we must go now or miss the set.” Mr. Garrett peered inquiringly at her. She nodded, and he finally led her onto the ballroom floor. All eyes seemed to fasten on them, though she tried to ignore them and smile.

  He grasped her hand as they assumed their places in line. Heat baked her palm and she almost snatched her hand back. This would be the most agonizing set she had ever danced in her life.

  “Shall we see if we can be scandalous enough to be banned from the ballroom?” Mr. Garrett spoke lightly, with a twinkle of amusement in his eyes, as the music began.

  Good Lord. Was the man mad? Did all rakes act like this? Well, she’d have to brazen it out until the end of the dance. Likely he was all bluster anyway.

  “I am certain much more scandalous behavior has occurred within these halls than we could display in this one dance, Mr. Garrett.”

  He hissed as he tugged her into the correct position for a Scottish reel. “So you wish to play the game with me, Lady Cavendish?”

  “And what game would that be, sir?”

  “Bait the tiger, my lady. Shall I see just how much scandal it would take for the Ball and Fete committee to demand our removal?” He drew himself up, his spine even straighter than before, his eyes glittering and hard.

  He wasn’t bluffing. He would destroy both their reputations in the face of such a challenge and think it a great lark. Charlotte’s pulse quickened. For the briefest of seconds she imagined herself looking him in the eye and saying, “Do your worst.” Then sanity returned. Rash behavior on her part could jeopardize more than her just own reputation merely in the name of exercising her freedom. Besides, she’d already made enough of a spectacle of herself tonight.

  “As I have just emerged from a different form of exclusion, perhaps it is best we not undertake that particular experiment.” She grasped his hand and stole a glance at him as they marched down an aisle formed by the other dancers.

  A knowing smile played about his lips. “As you wish, my lady. However, if you ever care to pursue that particular avenue, please let me know.”

  When hell freezes over, Mr. Garrett.

  “Did you know I would be here tonight?” Had he made inquiries about her? Such attention from him would bode ill indeed.

  They spun in a cogwheel, their eyes locked until the pattern of the dance reversed.

  “I wasn’t sure. But I hoped.”

  Those words, in his deliciously deep voice, sent chills trickling down her spine. They joined both hands and turned.

  “Although you gave me to believe that your obligation to your deceased husband would be strictly observed, I trusted you would return to society as soon as you fulfilled your duty.”

  He chuckled and they moved into the grand chain.

  “I am actually out of mourning a day early,” she confessed when they finally met again, staring straight into his sinful blue eyes. “Scandalous, don’t you think?” She couldn’t help but smile at this, her first rebellion. “My husband did not receive word of his son’s death until June 19th then was taken in a fit of apoplexy and so died the day after the battle.”

  “Then this is a grave breach of protocol, Lady Cavendish.” He tried to look scandalized, but the playful twinkles in his eyes said otherwise.

  “My marriage was arranged. While he lived, I did my duty to my husband. After his death, I mourned appropriately, as is expected of a devoted wife.” She pursed her lips and shuddered. “Now, my life is now my own.” And by God she would at last live it as she pleased. “I thought it fitting that I rejoin Polite Society at this ball in particular. If that shocks everyone, so be it.”

  “I see you wish to become a rebel.” Mr. Garrett laughed as Charlotte went into the center for her turn.

  She tossed her head as she set and turned first with her partner, then with the other gentlemen in the circle. Much as she hated to admit it, she was enjoying her dance with this rogue. Did that make her wicked? When she finally regained her position next to Mr. Garrett, he resumed their conversation.

  “A rather difficult role for a woman, although for a widow it may be more possible. I would certainly wish to be part of your rebellion, my lady. Given my many activities over the years, I am certainly not afraid of public censure. Are you willing to risk your reputation to seize the prize for which you lust?”

  His voice deepened on the final word, sending a wave of fear throughout her.

  She stopped in the middle of the last ladies’ cogwheel, her gaze riveted on his face. Dear God was he about to shock the ton with some public display? Her heart thudded. Had she baited this tiger unknowingly?

  He pressed her onward, however, moving into the last grand chain and bowing to her with a flourish when the music stopped.

  Relief swept through her, and she valiantly curtsied, then took his arm as he led her from the floor. She actually leaned on him, for that last fright had turned her legs weak. Thank goodness that dance was over, although she must admit Mr. Garrett had proved a good dancer and a very exciting partner. She closed her eyes and breathed a sigh of relief. Jane would no doubt scold her anew for dancing with Mr. Garrett, but she thought she had managed to scotch any scandal brewing.

  A shadow crossed her face and Charlotte opened her eyes to find they had entered a dim stairwell, with a flight of dusty stairs leading to the attics. Her mouth dried as though she’d eaten sand.

  Before her eyes could adjust, he wrapped his arms around her, squeezing her against his granite hard chest. When his hot mouth found hers, she gasped. Oh, drat. She should have known he would try something like this.

  He darted his tongue through her open lips, and she squealed, then quieted. The last thing she wanted was for someone to find them so engaged. His hands cradled her head as he explored every inch of her mouth with a gentle thoroughness she had not known for years. Had anyone ever kissed her thus? With an intensity designed to kindle flames in her soul? Perhaps Edward. But that had been so long ago she’d forgotten how good it felt, except…

  That blasted cologne of his. Pressed right up against him, Charlotte couldn’t help but breathe in the overpowering scent of bergamot. Lord, don’t let me sneeze.

  That thought broke the spell. She pushed Mr. Garrett away from her.

  He panted as if he had run a race. “Devil take it. Are you trying to get us thrown out, Charlotte?”

  “Me?” Her voice rose and she stopped and lowered it. “You’re the one trying to ruin my reputation. And do not call me Charlotte. I haven’t given you permission.”

  “After that little interlude, I don’t need permission.” He grinned at her in the faulty light. “You can’t deny you enjoyed that.”

  “I can and do deny it.” She pressed her hand to her chest, where he heart still hammered. She hadn’t enjoyed it. Not really. But it had been exciting. More exciting than anything in her life for the past six years. Pray God he couldn’t se
e her face. It must be the color of ripe cherries.

  “Me thinks the lady doth protest too much. May I call upon you tomorrow?” He grabbed her hand and placed his lips on the palm. The kiss burned even through the glove.

  “I don’t think that would be wise for either of us.” She must hold on to what little sanity was left to her.

  His eyes darkened, and he ran his finger over her swollen lips. “Allow me to be the judge of what is wise, my dear. Come, I will escort you to Lady John before we are lost entirely.” He took her hand, stuck his head around the doorframe then pulled her quickly into the room.

  Blinking in the suddenly bright lights, she stumbled after him as he made his way toward her cousin.

  “Here you are, my dear. Safe and sound again.” Mr. Garrett bowed, his eyebrows arched in innocence. “Lady John.”

  Charlotte finally focused on her surrounding enough to find Jane staring at her darkly, through lowered brows. Oh, dear. What on earth must she look like after such an encounter?

  Dumbfounded, she stood before them, quite at a loss for words or actions. Dazed by the overwhelming pulse that still throbbed throughout her, she could only glance from one to the other of them, praying one would be her savior.

  “I will look forward anxiously to our next meeting, Charlotte.” He kissed her fingers, the warmth of his lips like a banked fire. With a final flourished bow, he turned and strode into the crowd.

  Stunned, Charlotte simply stood still, the chatter of the ballroom subsiding into one sound—the pounding of blood in her ears.

  “Charlotte,” her cousin said, grasping her arm until it hurt “we must remove at once to the retiring room.”

  Distantly thankful that someone had taken charge of her, Charlotte followed docilely as Jane towed her back the way they had come. They descended on an empty corner and her cousin pushed her into a chair.

  “Sit there. I must find a footman”

  “Whatever for?”

  “To send for some lemonade from the refreshment table. I’ll go wet my handkerchief to repair your face and see if I can do something with your hair.” Jane fired off the strategy as efficiently as any general, then picked up her skirts and hurried away.