Auctioned to Him 4: His Addiction

by Charlotte Byrd

  Our kisses grow stronger and more powerful. I am thrust into a passion the kind of which I have never felt before. I grab her breasts and pull on the straps of her dress.

  “Wyatt,” Brielle whispers.

  “Brielle,” I manage to say. I kiss her neck. The urgency in my kisses intensifies, and I run my fingers up her naked leg.

  “Wyatt,” she pushes on me. I push back on her and continue to kiss her. “Wyatt, stop!” her voice is powerful and needy, but I continue to kiss her. She’s feeling just like I am. She must be!

  “No, no, no, I can’t,” I whisper.

  “Wyatt, stop!” she knees me in the balls. Shooting pain surges through my body, and I drop to the floor.

  “What the hell, Wyatt?”

  “I’m sorry…” I whisper. I can’t say it any louder. I’m laying on my back in the fetal position on the floor. I hear Brielle go into her room and lock the door. After a few minutes, the pain subsides, and I manage to scramble up to my feet.

  I knock on her door. No one answers. I knock again, and for some reason try the door knob.

  “It’s locked, you asshole!” Brielle says.

  “I’m sorry. I’m really, really sorry, Brielle.”

  “Go away!”

  “Please, Brielle. I’m really sorry. You don’t have to let me in…”

  “I know that! I mean, what did you think? You invite me here, get me a pretty dress, wine and dine me, and I’ll just do whatever you want? I’m not a whore, Wyatt.”

  “I know,” I say. “I never meant for it look like that. I just got carried away. I thought we were both feeling something, Brielle. I didn’t mean to take it too far.”

  “Well, you did. And you’re an asshole. When a girl says no, it means no. Keep that in mind for the future.”

  I’m so embarrassed. I can’t believe this happened. I can’t believe I did that.

  “I honestly thought that we were both into it, Brielle. Please. You’ve got to believe me.” My voice cracks a bit at the end.

  “Fuck you!” Brielle says. “Oh yeah, and I’m leaving tomorrow morning.”

  She can’t! I will stop her! She has no right! “You are?” I ask. Please, don’t.

  “I’ve decided that I’m not in debt to you,” she says. “You paid for my Momma’s treatment knowing that full well. And I’m not going to sleep with you. Not for any amount of money. Not even for a quarter of a million dollars.”

  She’s right, of course. I did all that knowing that. I just thought that maybe as a thank you. No, that’s not right. I wanted her to want me. I didn’t want her to just sleep with me once. There’s something about her that makes me want more. It’s like she has some sort of spell on me.

  “Okay,” I finally say. “I understand. I’m leaving now.”

  I walk back to the library. I don’t know where I’m headed. I’m just lost. Distraught. Ashamed. Who was that person back there? Not me, for sure. Brielle’s right. I was an asshole. Am an asshole. She deserves much better than that. Who knows how far I would’ve taken it if she hadn’t kneed me in the balls.

  “Agh, I’m such an idiot!” I say out loud. The words echo across the library chamber.

  I hit my fist on the built-in bookshelves.

  “Dammit!” I say. Now, my hand is hurting, and my heart is pounding even faster than before. I take a deep breath and look up.

  The bookshelves are stacked three high with old books, but only one stands out. Charlotte Brontë’s Jane Eyre. The library is poorly lit, but this book seems to have a spotlight on it. I look out of the window and see the bright yellow moon looming high in the sky.

  She’ll like this, I decide. I pick up the first edition and flip through the pages. She won’t be able to throw this gift away, I decide.

  There’s my grandfather’s old writing desk in the corner. I sit down and open the top. I take a small piece of decorative paper from the top shelf and pick up the old ink pen, which miraculously still writes.

  * * *

  Brielle,

  This is a first edition of Jane Eyre. I hope you like it. I hope you accept this gift as my apology. I’m sorry.

  Love,

  Wyatt

  * * *

  I read the note over. Of course, she will know it’s a first edition. It says so in the front! I ball up the piece of paper and toss it in the trash can.

  * * *

  Brielle,

  I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to do any of that this evening. Well, that’s not true. I did mean to kiss you. I loved kissing you. I loved tasting you on my lips – I want to taste your sweet cunt.

  * * *

  I read this note over again and again then crumple it up. This is supposed to be an apology. And like all apologies, it will have to be partly true and partly untrue. I can’t say everything I want to say. Otherwise, she won’t accept it.

  I write another note. My final note. When I’m finished, I wait for the ink to dry before carefully folding it and place it in front of the title page. In the back of the writing desk, I find a small box, which ends up being the perfect fit for the book. Now it really looks like a gift.

  I walk back to Brielle’s room and knock on the door. She doesn’t answer. I don’t know if she can hear me, but I decide to leave the box right outside. After trying one last time, I finally give up and walk away.

  I’ve done all I could. At this point, I have no choice but to accept her decision. Whatever it might be. No matter how much I hate it.

  Chapter 9 - Brielle

  I spent the night crying into my pillow. How dare he do that to me? I sob. My pillow is damp from all the tears I shed. I’m not just crying over what happened. I’m crying over what it means. He was such an asshole, and now I can never trust him again. I had to physically push him off me. Who the hell does that? How far would he have gone if I wasn’t strong enough to push him away? To knee him in his balls?

  Millions of thoughts swirl in my head. I hate him. And I love him. I want to kiss him. And I want to punch him. I want him to knock harder on my door and knock it down. And I want him to go away and leave me alone. My makeup is running down my face, and my eyes burn from all the cheap mascara getting into them. Finally, when they start to burn so much that it becomes unbearable, I force myself to go to the bathroom and wash my face.

  “Why do you have to be such an asshole?” I say to myself in the mirror as if I’m talking to Wyatt. “We had such a great dinner. You were lovely. Polite. I was kind of a mess, but you weren’t. You were…a gentleman. And then that. That happened. How can I forgive that?”

  I shake my head. No, I can’t forgive that, because next time it might be much worse. I sigh.

  I tried. I really tried. I came here. I had dinner. I even kissed him. This is all that he could’ve expected from me. It’s okay if I go now. I’ve tried to repay my debt. It didn’t work out. Because of him. So it’s not my fault, right? Right.

  There’s a knock at the door. Then another. And another. I don’t answer. I’ve said enough. I don’t want to argue anymore. My mind is made up. In the morning, Mr. Whitewater is ordering me a cab or a driver, and I’m getting out of here.

  The following morning, I sleep in late. I’m still in bed at eight a.m. The bed is made of feathers and softness beyond my imagination. I feel like I’ve slept on a cloud, and I’m not looking forward to going home to my thin, uncomfortable mattress at home. I got it for $99 on sale, and it feels like it.

  I pull on the most comfortable pair of jeans I own and my favorite turquoise tank top. Someone once told me that I looked great in turquoise, and I’ve stocked my closet with turquoise tops ever since. I always thought they were right, but this morning, I’m not so sure. I look pale and tired. A big part of me is regretting the fact that I’m leaving, but I’m not sure I have the courage to go back on my word.

  There’s a light knock on the door.

  “Who is it?”

  “Good morning, Ms. Cole,” Mr. Whitewater says after I open the door.

>   “Good morning, Mr. Whitewater,” I say with a yawn.

  He looks like he has been awake for hours. His hair is perfectly groomed and coiffed, and his suit is starched and ironed, or whatever one does to suits to keep them wrinkle-free.

  “Mr. Wild told me that you will be leaving this morning. I’m sorry to hear that.”

  “Yes, me too,” I nod. I am sorry. I wish this weren’t happening.

  He doesn’t say another word, doesn’t make a move either. I stare at him. What’s wrong? Slowly, his eyes tilt down. I follow them to the floor and see a light pink box.

  “Oh, what’s this?” I ask.

  “I’m not sure. But it’s for you,” Mr. Whitewater says. He quickly takes a step back and turns away from me to give me some privacy.

  I examine the box carefully in my hand. The cardboard looks old and smells a bit like cake. I carefully open the flap and peek in. It’s a book! A book?

  I pull out the book and let the box drop to the ground. Oh, my God. My heart starts to pound. Is this really what I think it is?

  A first edition of Jane Eyre!?!?

  The book is rather small and weathered, but otherwise it’s in excellent condition. I open it and run my hand along the smooth spine. I flip through the pages until I get some resistance at the very front. The pages are thicker here. Carefully, I flip the pages one at a time until I get to the title page and discover a note. It’s written on perfumed paper, the kind that you see in expensive paper stores. There’s a delicate floral design gracing each of the ends.

  I open the note.

  It’s from Wyatt. I see his name written in beautiful, careful script on the bottom. The W is elongated and flowery, the y is elegant and the two sets of t’s are defiant and proud.

  * * *

  Dear Brielle,

  I’m sorry. For everything.

  You deserve a lot better than me, of course. But please give me another chance.

  * * *

  Yours,

  Wyatt

  * * *

  Yours. I like the sound of that. I’ve never had anyone who was mine, in that way. My heart skips a beat again. And then another.

  Mr. Whitewater clears his throat, and I remember that he’s still here.

  “I think I need a moment, Mr. Whitewater,” I finally manage to utter. I go back into my room and close the door.

  “Oh my God,” I whisper. “A first edition of Jane Eyre!”

  I press the hardback book to my breasts and inhale its beautiful musty smell. This book has been around for hundreds of years, and now it’s mine. It belongs to me.

  But can I accept it if I decide not to stay here? I want to. He owes me an apology, and this was a marvelous apology.

  My thoughts drift back to Wyatt. Suddenly, I remember the softness of his lips and how they danced with mine to a tune that only we heard. I remember how hot I felt in between my legs and how much I wanted him to push up my taffeta skirt and let me wrap my legs around his strong, powerful torso.

  He wasn’t alone in feeling what he was feeling. I was there right along with him. We shared a chemical and electric connection. I was drawn to him as if he were a magnet, and I had trouble pulling away as well. I loved how hard his cock felt pushing into me, pressing me to the wall. I wanted to rip off his clothes. I wanted him to rip off mine. And then it was just too much. In a split second, it was suddenly too much.

  I don’t know what I should do. I want to stay, but I also want to go. I want to stay to get to know Wyatt more. And I want to run away from this place and its games.

  The sound of a startled horse scares me, and I walk over to the window. I lift the window and open the shutters. I didn’t notice it last night, but there are stables to the right of me. The horse makes another piercing cry, sending shivers over my body.

  “It’s okay, Sebastian. It’s okay, guy,” Wyatt says. I can’t see him, but his voice is firm and commanding, and I really believe that it’s going to be okay.

  Suddenly, they emerge. Wyatt is dressed in jeans, a pair of brown boots, and a simple white t-shirt. He’s tan, and his sweaty body glistens in the sun. His hair looks wet, either from sweat or water. He’s riding a tall black horse with a thick black mane that flies up with each gallop. They are moving as one. I look closer, and I see that the horse is not wearing a saddle. Wyatt is riding bareback!

  The horse and the rider dance together for a few moments in a circle. The horse kicks up swirls of dust, which in the sunlight look like periwinkle. Then suddenly, the horse shifts his weight and raises his front legs in the air.

  “Oh wow,” I whisper in awe. Wyatt remains in place on his back holding on by nothing but his powerful thighs. It looks like the horse is going to land on his front legs and morph into a trot, but he doesn’t. Instead, he lands hard on his front hooves and lifts his back hooves up high in the air. Then he does it all again.

  My smile fades quickly after I realize that something’s going wrong.

  “Oh my God,” I whisper and bring my hands to my face. “No, no, no…”

  But it’s too late. The horse bucks one last time, and this time, Wyatt doesn’t hold on. I see him flying through the air. He misses the chain-link fence by less than a foot and lands flat on his back.

  “Oh my God!” I scream. My voice echoes around the room, but Wyatt doesn’t get up.

  “Get up! Please get up,” I scream, but he doesn’t.

  For a brief second, I consider running to the back of the room, down the long hallway, down the winding staircase, out of the front door, and around the entire 10,000 square foot house, but then I see a simpler way down.

  “What are you doing?” Mr. Whitewater enters my room.

  I’m already hanging out of the window, half of my body is on the roof of the patio.

  “Wyatt is hurt, call 911!”

  I climb down the post of the patio, jump into the orange grove below and run toward Wyatt.

  I finally reach him. His face is so pale that it’s the color of those white Mexican plates from dinner. All blood has drained from his face, and his lips are blue.

  “Wyatt? Wyatt?” I scream. I want to shake him and bring him back to life. But I’m afraid he has broken something in his body, and that will make it worse.

  “Wyatt? Wyatt? Please wake up. Please, please, please,” I shout cradling my arms around him.

  Mr. Whitewater runs over.

  “How is he? Oh my God. He’s unconscious.”

  I nod. I don’t know what else to do.

  “I just called 911, but they won’t be here for some time.”

  “What, why?” I demand to know.

  “Twenty minutes at the earliest,” he says and puts the receiver back to his ear. “They say that we shouldn’t move him until they get here. He might’ve broken his back.”

  The world fades to black with those words. ‘He might’ve broken his back’ is all I hear in my head over and over again. The paramedics arrive sometime later. They have to scream at me to get out of the way. I don’t move. I don’t even know if I can move. Someone pushes me out of the way, and they take Wyatt away. They strap him onto a gurney and roll him to the ambulance.

  I can’t go along. No one can. They tell me and Mr. Whitewater that we can follow along behind the ambulance if we want.

  I’m in a daze. I don’t know what to do. I follow Mr. Whitewater to his car.

  “Are you sure you want to come? I thought you wanted to leave this morning? You still can, if you want to.”

  I stare at him. All thoughts of leaving have all but dissipated. I don’t even know what he’s talking about. All I know is that I can’t leave now. I don’t know what’s wrong with him, and I can’t leave until I find out. What if he needs my help?

  Twelve hours later.

  I’ve spent the last twelve hours in the hospital looking at magazines and mindlessly reading books that I did not understand on my phone. I read the words, but they don’t make any sense. I don’t know who wrote them or for what reason. Th
e only thing that makes sense to me is the pictures. I leaf through the celebrity magazines and pay close attention to which movie stars have lost and gained weight. Which ones were pregnant. Which ones got engaged and which ones got divorced. It’s all things that I used to find interesting, but now none of it makes any sense.

  This hospital reminds me of the one back home, where I waited for hours for my mom to get out of her various surgeries. Time stands still here. It’s as if the waiting room is some secret time travel chamber in which I can go into and not age for hours and days and months. I age, of course. I noticed it whenever I went into to the bathroom and looked at the horror that was my face, but I never felt time passing. Not even one second.

  Breathe, I say to myself. Breathe.

  I take a deep breath. And then another. And another. I feel a little better, but as soon as I look around, all of my thoughts and concerns and regrets creep back in.

  A doctor who is in charge of Wyatt and his condition comes out from behind the double doors with a smile on his face.

  “Wyatt’s awake now,” he tells Mr. Whitewater. “He’s one lucky young man. Even though both of his legs are broken.”

  Broken legs. I sigh. He is lucky.

  “Wait here,” Mr. Whitewater tells me. I have no right to go see Wyatt. I’m not really anybody to him. Barely an employee. Still, I hope that I can go in to see him.

  “And he doesn’t have any brain damage?” Mr. Whitewater asks the doctor.

  “No, not that I can tell. But it’s too soon to know for sure.”

  I wait for what seems like a century for Mr. Whitewater to come back. Now time is positively moving backward. I wonder if it’s 1993. Finally, he comes out.

  “He’d like to see you,” Mr. Whitewater says.

  “How is he?”

  “Fine. Definitely all there.”

  I smile. A wave of relief sweeps over me.