J.M. Redmann - Micky Knight Mystery 7 - I'll Will
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He was there so soon after I’d found Reginald Banks I didn’t consider there could be a link. Instead I assumed Prejean had sent him.
Grant had carefully involved Brandon with Dudley, introducing him at a backyard cookout. At least in Dudley’s telling of the tale, Grant had been the leader, with Brandon willingly following along. Poor Dudley was just an addled meth addict trapped in their clutches.
Grant had picked Brandon as the one who would be left behind, with a pile of debt and a pile of bodies that couldn’t easily be explained away as a robbery.
But he hadn’t gotten away, and the police found everything they needed to tie him to fraud, extortion. And murder.
Brandon Kellogg was dead.
I told Cordelia that he had killed himself and she had nodded agreement. But I could tell she vehemently wished it hadn’t been her finger on the trigger.
I was sitting in another dull green room, waiting for her as they did a CT scan to see if the treatment was working this time. She had given up trying to work full-time; now her life was lived in the walls of doctors’ offices, medical tests, and drugs that left her exhausted, at times too weak to make it to the bathroom to vomit. She had good days, but they couldn’t be counted on to last. The next chemo treatment left her too sick to do much. The nausea wore off only to be replaced with fatigue.
Those five minutes had cost her a lot. She claimed not, but a haunted look had crept into her eyes as if she had seen too much and for too long how brutal the world can be—a place where the only choice is who will die. Maybe it made her want to fight less hard. Or maybe it was just fate and a disease.
Spring, as it often does in New Orleans, had fled, turning to a searing summer.
Maybe it was hard to want to live when the sun burned so brightly.
The first time she went into the hospital, Torbin had come over, didn’t even say anything, just held me. Far longer than five minutes.
Alex had come down from Baton Rouge. She and Joanne had officially broken up. Unofficially they were still enmeshed, still owned the house here together, in a limbo of which way to go. On the good days, I hoped they said they had broken up just to ease the expectations and avoid the explanations. On the bad days, it felt like everything was changing and changing more than I could bear.
Danny and Elly insisted on being there when I couldn’t be there. Joanne came by when I wasn’t there; we passed once in the halls. Alex came by as often as her schedule allowed, at times talking her way around the visiting hours rules when she came in late.
The medical practice had voted to keep Cordelia, but place her on leave. Brandon had been the one who voted against her; with him gone, the tie had been broken. That allowed her to retain her insurance. She had to pay for it, but at their group rate. Abrasive Ron turned out to be her champion. He told me, “I’m not a people person; I’m a lab guy and a numbers guy. But I’m a good doctor. She’s a good doctor. It could happen to any of us.”
Now she just needed to live.
“Michele Knight?” A nurse beckoned me.
I followed her down a long hallway. They all seemed long; they all seemed some pale shade of blue or green as if color was too much of a taunt to the sick and dying.
She ushered me into a doctor’s office.
Cordelia was already there, dressing in the clothes that now hung on her. Her hair was gone, only a few stark white tufts remaining. She had taken to wearing a baseball cap backward like the teenaged boys do, but now she was bareheaded. The people in this building had seen too much to need to avert their eyes.
Jennifer Godwin, her doctor, entered. “Good news or bad news?” she said.
“Start with the bad,” Cordelia answered.
“Your cancer is being stubborn. I know the side effects are hell for you. I’d like to try the bone marrow transplant and add that to R-CHOP.”
Cordelia looked pensive. “When do you throw in the kitchen sink?” she asked sardonically. “Bone marrow and monoclonal antibodies? Jennifer, I’m tired, I don’t know if…” She trailed off as if she no longer had the energy for words.
I took her hand, then knelt in front of her. “You have to. You just have to. Don’t leave me, don’t give up any chance.” Her eyes were still the blue they had been when I first saw her.
A light that had been gone came back into them. Then she smiled at me, as if she suddenly wanted to be in a world where love was possible.
“Okay,” she said. “Okay, we try everything.”
About the Author
J.M. Redmann is the author of a mystery series featuring New Orleans private detective Michele “Micky” Knight. Her last book, Water Mark, won an Over the Rainbow award from the Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual and Transgendered Roundtable of the American Library Association and a ForeWord Gold First Place mystery award and was shortlisted for a Lambda Literary Award. Two of her earlier books, The Intersection Of Law & Desire and Death Of A Daying Man, have won Lambda Literary Awards; all but her first book have been nominated. Law & Desire was an Editor’s Choice of the San Francisco Chronicle and a recommended holiday book by Maureen Corrigan of NPR’s Fresh Air. Law & Desire and Lost Daughters were originally published by W.W. Norton. Redmann was a 2010 recipient of the Alice B. Readers Appreciation Award, gave the keynote address at the Golden Crown Literary Society Conference in 2009, in 2006 was inducted as a Literary Saint into the Saints and Sinners Hall of Fame, and in 2011 was an invited speaker to Vassar’s 150th anniversary LGBTQ conference, Smashing History. Her books have been translated into Spanish, German, Dutch, Norwegian, and Hebrew, and one short story even made it into Korean. Her most recent project was co-editing with Greg Herren two anthologies, Women of the Mean Streets: Lesbian Noir and Men of the Mean Streets: Gay Noir. Redmann lives in an historic neighborhood in New Orleans, at the edge of the area that flooded.
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Table of Contents
Synopsis
By the Author
Acknowledgments
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-one
Chapter Twenty-two
Chapter Twenty-three
Chapter Twenty-four
Chapter Twenty-five
Chapter Twenty-six
Chapter Twenty-seven
Chapter Twenty-eight
Chapter Twenty-nine
Chapter Thirty
About the Author
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