Side Effects of Loving You 2

by Dominique Thomas

“I’m sorry you keep hurting because of me. I’m so fucking sorry baby,” he whispered and hugged me as best as he could. I could tell he was emotional.

  “Could you all give us some privacy?” It was only Sophie and Erin in the room with us, but I wanted some alone time with Aamil. They nodded and stepped away.

  “Aamil, what did the doctor say?” I asked him. He sighed.

  “They said that your PH-levels are good so the chemicals have been washed completely out, but you have to do an eye test and you do have some tearing in your right eye. You might have to wear glasses bae, but your vision should be fine for the most part,” he replied. I nodded.

  “How are my babies?”

  “They’re good. Aamilah was looking for you last night. I found you in your shop on the floor last night and I lost my mind. I thought you were…you know, but you wasn’t. I promise you I have not been seeing her or talking to her. I don’t know why she would do something like this,” he replied.

  “It’s because she’s crazy, but I don’t wanna talk about her right now. I just wanna sit with you and talk about us.” Aamil looked at me worriedly.

  “Look bae I know we been going through it these last few months, but I love you,” he said assuming the worst. I shook my head and touched his face.

  “I know and I love you too. I want us to talk about how we’re going to move past this Aamil. I want us to talk about our future...Mina free because that bitch is as good as dead to me,” I replied and he let out the breath he was holding.

  “Me too….bae me too,” he said and kissed me again.

  Chapter Fifteen

  Olivia

  “Today is a big day for us. We have officially signed with Angel to start rebuilding Downtown Detroit. This is major for us so I wanted to celebrate with the people that mean the most to us. This is to getting some real fucking money!” Ameer yelled and we all started cheering and clapping. I clapped hard; I was happy for them. The only people that was missing was Drew and Aamil. Drew was fresh out of the hospital and recovering at home. Mina was now on the run with us, and the cops after her stupid ass. She left the kids on her best friend’s porch and left a note with them saying that she couldn’t do it anymore and that she was sorry.

  I stood beside Kadar, but we weren’t together no matter how hard he wanted to front in front of Angel’s sexy ass that we was. The ballroom was decorated beautifully and everyone was wearing white. I had on a two-piece white and lace gown that hugged my hips and accentuated my breast. My hair was slightly curled at the ends and I wore red lipstick. All night Angel and Kadar had been staring at me only Angel was more settled with his stares.

  “I know we done been through it y’all. I know this, but I can see a light at the end of the tunnel for us. Enjoy y’all night and drink up this expensive ass champagne Sophie ass done ordered also congratulations are in order for Kasam. He’s the first rapper in five years to go double platinum. Let’s get it nigga!” Ameer yelled and everyone clapped proud of him. Kasam threw his hands up in the air as Erin hung off his side. In his white suit with his black shirt, he looked sexy as always with his ignorant ass.

  “Y’all thought a nigga wouldn’t do numbers? Don’t even try to play me like that,” he said being his normal cocky self and everyone laughed. Someone touched my arm. I turned around expecting Angel, but got Kadar.

  “Hey...” Kadar stroked the bottom of his beard and smiled. He was wearing a white tux with a grey shirt and he looked so damn good.

  “Damn that’s all I get? A dry ass hey,” he asked. I nodded and stepped past him. Now that Bella was better I was good on him. As long as he did for her I was fine.

  “O, come here,” he said and walking up behind me. Angel stood a few feet away with some bitch in his face. He made eye contact with me and quickly looked away. “Let’s go dance,” Kadar whispered in my ear and pulled me away. He pulled us onto the dance floor and Al Green’s “For the love of you” came on. If only Kadar and I could live up to the lyrics of the song.

  “Oh, now this the shit!’ Kasam yelled and started dancing with Erin. Kadar pulled me close to his body and we swayed to the music. He was acting like shit was all good, but I was still very fucking mad at him. I didn’t forget about the way he did me or how he played me. Here he was acting like we were newlyweds when we hadn’t shared a home in months. I was nothing to him other than his daughter’s mother.

  “I missed you,” he said and massaged my ass. I thought about all that he had done over in my head as his cologne washed over me and especially when his hands slowly slid over my body. I had to be strong. “So much,” he whispered and gave me a wet juicy kiss. I didn’t wanna kiss him back fuck I didn’t, but I couldn’t deny his lips. His tongue slid into my mouth and slowly slid across mine. I moaned and my pussy got soaked at the thought of what could be. I got lost into Kadar’s kiss until he suddenly pulled away from me. He let me go and walked off like he hadn’t been just five seconds away from fucking me on the dance floor. I felt stupid and mad as fuck that his ass was playing games with me. I glanced around for Angel and spotted him in the back leaving out with the brown skinned bitch that was all in his fucking face. I looked for Kadar and found him near the bar with Hayward laughing and sipping on a drink. A tall slim chick walked by him. She was one of Sophie’s dentist assistant’s. Kadar grabbed her arm and pulled her over to him. Whispered something in her ear and she blushed.

  “Please let him go,” Sariel said walking up to me. I looked at her ready to fuck some shit up.

  “I’m tired of playing this game with him ma,” I replied on the verge of tears. Sariel had found a way to even become my surrogate mother. It was just this good feeling you got from being around her. I felt like she genuinely wanted nothing but the best for everyone.

  “I know and he’s too fucking stupid to see it, so let his black ass go. You’re too beautiful to be dealing with that shit. Kadar basically rubbed all up on you because Angel was watching and the minute he walked off he stopped kissing you. I can’t believe he’s being like this after all you sacrificed for him,” she said looking as angry as I felt.

  Erin walked over to us with Quinn behind her. They both gave me that look and I knew what they were thinking. Erin and I would never be best friends, but we somehow had this truce going on where we at least got along and I knew that if it ever came down to it, she would have my back if I needed her.

  “Fuck that girl, let’s go fuck him up,” Quinn suggested pulling off her gold hoops. Sariel looked at all of us and smiled.

  “I actually like that idea, but this isn’t the place for that. The best way to deal with Kadar is to be happy without him. The more you smile without his help the more he’s going to start wondering who put that smile on your face. Fuck him! His ass will be back and when he do it will be up to you to decide if he’s even worth your time,” she said and smiled at me. Sariel gave me a hug and as I hugged her back my eyes connected with Kadar’s. He watched me with the dentist assistant damn near in his lap. In his eyes, I could see him battling with his emotions. He looked like he did miss me, but his actions were telling me something different. I had to take Sariel’s advice and start really taking care of myself. I couldn’t play this game with Kadar’s ass any longer.

  ****

  “Thank you for helping me set my stuff up,” I said to Sophie. Sophie sat up my computer and smiled at me. It was two days after the celebration ball and I was still upset with the way Kadar had once again played me, but I was praying for my mind to get right so I could let him go.

  “It’s nothing really. I feel so bad for having Teon all over him. I checked her little ass and wrote her up. She always staring at Ameer and shit when he comes by my office, so I should have known she was going to be in there on her worst behavior.” I looked around my space that was now really a party planning office impressed. I had a whole floor with Quinn in her own office along with our cousin that used to help us with our other company. We had a seating area and a conference room to go
over party plans. I walked over to my desk and started organizing my files.

  “She wasn’t the problem it’s him, Sophie. He’s punishing me for calling him Angel while we was fucking and I don’t think he’s ever going to forgive me when I forgave him for cheating on me with Drew.” Sophie looked at me with her beautiful chubby face and smiled. Today her hair was curly and pulled into a high bun at the top and down at the bottom. She was wearing this glow that only a woman in love could sport.

  “Men. I know all about problems, Olivia. Ameer and I done been through all kinds of shit. The only advice I can give you is that if you want your family to be whole you find a way to make it work, but don’t be his damn doormat either. It took me staying away from him for six months for him to get his mind right. I swear those niggas can be so damn dumb when they wanna be.”

  “But how are y’all doing now? Was it worth the pain and sleepless nights?” I asked feeling way too damn soft. Love had definitely made me weak again and I didn’t like being so vulnerable, but I couldn’t help it. Kadar had my heart in a chokehold and was not letting my shit go.

  “Yes it was. I love Ameer. Even when he pisses me off and starts to get on his controlling bullshit I still love him. We have problems like everyone else, but I wouldn’t change what happened with us. Ameer knows that I will leave him if he fucks up. It took me a minute to get to that point and that only made him do extra dumb shit because he felt that he could, but once he saw that I would dip out, he started acting like a completely different man. Show Kadar that you can make it without him. You’re very independent, O, but Kadar has changed you in a lot of ways. Whether you want to admit it or not, he’s softened you up. I’m not saying go back to being a bitch, but show him the woman he fell for. Start doing you and look good as fuck doing it. Trust that nigga will be begging you to come home,” she said smiling. All I had been hearing was how in time he would be back, but shit I didn’t even want that now. I just wanted a peace of mind. I wanted to be able to make it through the day without thinking about him.

  “But what if I don’t want him back?” Sophie smirked at me.

  “Then all I can say is he really missed out on a good one. One man’s trash is another man’s treasure. Go find a man that deserves you,” she replied and someone knocked on the door. We both looked up and I was shocked as hell to see Angel. He looked even better than he did the last time I saw him in his navy suit with his white shirt that was unbuttoned at the top. He smiled at us and stepped into the room. Our space was instantly filled with his cologne. Sophie stood up and grabbed her bag.

  “Well, it’s about that time for me to go. Angel, take care of her she has a lot of people that love her,” Sophie said while giving me a quick hug.

  “Shit he’s fine as hell and you know I love a man in a suit,” Sophie whispered in my ear and we both laughed. She let me go and Angel looked at her.

  “You know I will and you didn’t see me here,” he said to Sophie. Sophie looked at him and winked.

  “Hell nah I didn’t. I don’t want that fight on my hands, but you two are grown and Olivia is not married, so I’m minding my own fucking business. You two be safe,” she said and walked out of the room. I smiled as I watched her leave then looked at Angel. I had this nervous energy filling my body. I wasn’t sure why he was here, but I knew that neither one of us should be this close to each other and alone in a space that we could fuck in.

  “Angel, how are you?” Angel walked over to me and grabbed my face. I looked up into his sexy eyes and licked my lips.

  “I’m all fucked up because I can’t stop thinking about you,” he said and kissed me hard on the lips. I matched his enthusiasm and kissed him as hard as I could back. I slid my tongue into his mouth and damn that weed and mint flavor sent me over the edge. I wrapped my legs around his waist and we kissed for what seemed like forever while staring into each other’s eyes. Angel pulled back and loosened his tie.

  “Damn, O, we gotta stop before I eat you out on your desk,” he said and I creamed in my thongs.

  “Angel…” I shook my head and touched my swollen lips. “What do you want from me? I’m all fucked up right now too and you know that.” Angel looked down at me.

  “Yeah, I know and that’s why I’m here. If that nigga wanna play games with you then it’s his loss. I wanna make you smile. Can I do that?” he asked and I perked up.

  “You do?” He looked at me like I was crazy.

  “Hell yeah, I do. Can you follow me to my house? I’m cooking for my kids tonight?”

  I nodded then remembered I had to pick Bella up from Kadar.

  “Um yeah, but I have to get my daughter first. You shouldn’t be there so just text me your address,” I replied and Angel said, “okay”. He kissed me again and I gave him my new cellphone number. Angel said goodbye and left while I closed down my office. It took me half an hour to make it to Kadar. He was chilling at one of Aamil’s barbershops with the guys. I stepped in and they all stopped talking. Ameer, Aamil, and Kasam gave me their usual head nod while Kadar just stared at me. He picked up my sleeping baby as she rested on a nearby sofa and carried her over to me.

  “You looking good in them jeans, O,” Kasam said smiling at me. Kadar shot him a glare and Kasam laughed. “Nigga I’m just saying you got a winner on your hands that’s all,” he said and went back to talking with his brothers.

  “Nigga just worry about Erin and her mean ass,” Kadar snapped at him smiling.

  “Mean? Olivia is definitely the meanest one between the two,” he said and everyone agreed with him even Kadar’s ass. I laughed because he was probably right about that and I grabbed my baby.

  “You good?” Kadar asked me. I nodded and kissed my baby on her forehead. Kadar sniffed the air and frowned at me. “Who the fuck was you around that was wearing Guilty cologne?” he asked. I took a step back finding it very funny that he felt he could even check me about some shit.

  “Well, Kadar, you got your friends and I got mines,” I replied and spun around. I walked off to him talking all kinds of shit. I went out to my car and strapped my baby in her seat. I turned around and Kadar’s ass was all up on me with his nostrils flaring. He was looking sexy as hell in his black HBA hoodie with his black jeans and New York snapback on.

  “Olivia, you think I’m fucking playing with you?” he asked and I laughed.

  “Yes, actually I do. All you’ve been doing since you moved out is fucking playing with me. I’m tired of your shit, Kadar, and I’m not dealing with it anymore. You want some honesty well here it goes. I’m lonely and I’m horny. I refuse to fuck you, but I will be fucking somebody very soon and I’ll tell them to call and thank you for that nut they about to get,” I replied trying to piss him off. The twitch in his eye let me know I had maybe gone too far. Kadar walked up on me and grabbed my face. Quite like Angel had done, but his grip was tighter and he was looking at me like he was ready to kill my ass.

  “O, if you think I’ma let you be with someone else then you really is crazy. Just because we’re on a break doesn’t give you the right to fuck somebody. You are the mother of my only kid. I can’t have niggas walking around here talking about they fucked you,” he said through gritted teeth. I pushed him back and rubbed the bottom of my face that I’m sure was red.

  “We’re not on a break, it’s over, Kadar.” I looked him in the eyes while saying it so he could know I was serious and I walked away. Kadar rested his hands on top of my car while I opened my car door.

  “You think it’s that easy to stop fucking with me?” I looked at him and smiled.

  “Yep, have a good night,” I replied and hopped in my car. I pulled out of the lot and headed to Angel’s house. Probably the last place I should have been going, but I was feeling rebellious. I got lost in my thoughts as I let GPS guide me to his secluded mansion. It wasn’t overly big, but it was a nice size and it was gated. I drove down his long driveway and parked in front of his six-car garage.

  Angel stood outside with his dau
ghter Pia and two sons Amari and August. They watched me get out of my car and they all walked over to me. This felt a little too heavy considering we weren’t even supposed to be seeing each other, but I shrugged it off and kept a smile on my face. Kadar wanted to play games and Angel just wanted to make me happy. There wasn’t really a question on what I should be doing.

  “Hey let my boys get her bag,” Angel said walking up behind me. He grabbed Bella’s car seat and gave me a kiss on the cheek. “You okay?” he asked looking me in my eyes. I nodded and he narrowed his eyes at me. “Yeah okay, let’s go eat,” he said and we all walked away.

  “Wow…this is really, really nice,” I said looking around Angel’s home. Pia followed behind me while Angel made our plates.

  “Yeah my daddy let my mommy decorate,” she said and I looked down at her.

  “Oh, he did?”

  Pia nodded smiling up at me with her beautiful oval shaped face.

  “So, where is Ahmad? I wanted to see if he was okay?” She asked nonchalantly and I laughed. I could see she was already falling for my bad ass nephew.

  “Last I checked he was good. Why did you ask?” I asked her as we walked back down the stairs.

  “We were at the park by his house and he told me that I was ugly as hell to him and that he liked girls with big butts, so I started crying. I went to sit down on the bench and this boy asked me if I was okay. Ahmad started arguing with him and punched him in his nose. His momma Sophie asked him what happened and he said a bad word. That only made it worse. She pulled off her house shoe and whooped him in-front of all us then made him apologize to the boy and his family,” Pia replied and I burst out laughing. Ahmad was Ameer’s, son but he acted like he belonged to Kasam’s ignorant ass. If Pia planned on being his future girlfriend then I wished her luck.

  “Baby, Ahmad is a handful. You focus on books and what to wear to school. Boys will be there after you’ve taken care of your business.” Pia smiled probably not listening to shit I had said and ran off after her puppy.