The Rediscovery of Man - The Complete Short Science Fiction of Cordwainer Smith - Illustrated
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“I’ll talk,” said the doctor, gravely.
“Okay,” said the patient. “Tell me.”
“What in particular?”
“Don’t be a fool, doc! Tell me the straight stuff. Tell me about my friends first, and then tell me what has happened to me.”
“Concerning your friends,” said the doctor, measuring his words carefully, “I am in a position to tell you there has been no adverse change in the status of any of the persons you mentioned.”
“All right, then, doc, if it wasn’t them, it’s me. Tell me. What’s happened to me, doc? Something stinking awful must have happened or you wouldn’t be standing there with a face like a constipated horse!”
The doctor smiled wryly, bleakly, briefly at the weird compliment. “I won’t try to explain my own face, young fellow. I was born with it. But you are in a serious condition and we are trying to get you well. I will tell you the whole truth.”
“Then do it, doc! Right away. Did somebody jump me at the port? Was I hurt badly? Was it an accident? Start talking, man!”
The nurse stirred behind the doctor. He looked around at her. She looked in the direction of the hypodermic on the tray. The doctor gave her a brief negative shake of his head. The patient saw the whole interplay and understood it correctly.
“That’s right, doc. Don’t let her dope me. I don’t need sleep. I need the truth. If my gang’s all right, why aren’t they here? Is Milly out in the corridor? Milly, that was her name, the little curlyhead. Where’s Jock? Why isn’t Ralph here?”
“I’m going to tell you everything, young man. It may be tough but I’m counting on you to take it like a man. But it would help if you told me first.”
“Told you what? Don’t you know who I am? Didn’t you read about my gang and me? Didn’t you hear about Larry? What a navigator! We wouldn’t be here except for Larry.”
The late-morning light poured in through the open window; a soft spring breeze touched the young ravaged face of the patient. There was mercy and more in the doctor’s voice.
“I’m just a medical doctor. I don’t keep up with the news. I know your name, age, and medical history. But I don’t know the details of your cruise. Tell me about it.”
“Doc, you’re kidding. It’d take a book. We’re famous, I bet Went’s out there right now, making a fortune out of the pictures he took.”
“Don’t tell me the whole thing, young man. Suppose you just tell me about the last couple of days before you landed, and how you got into port.”
The young man smiled guiltily; there was pleasure and fond memory in his face. “I guess I can tell you, because you’re a doctor and keep things confidential.”
The doctor nodded, very earnest and still kind. “Do you want,” said he softly, “the nurse to leave?”
“Oh, no,” cried the patient. “She’s a good scout. It’s not as though you were going to turn it loose on the tapes.”
The doctor nodded. The nurse nodded and smiled, too. She was afraid that there were tears forming at the corners of her eyes, but she dared not wipe them away. This was an extraordinarily observant patient. He might notice it. It would ruin his story.
The patient almost babbled in his eagerness to tell the story. “You know the ship, doc. It’s a big one: twelve cabins, a common room, simulated gravity, lockers, plenty of room.”
The doctor’s eyes flickered at this but he did nothing, except to watch the patient in an attentive sympathetic way.
“When we knew we just had two days to Earth, doc, and we knew everything was all right, we had a ball. Jock found the beer in one of the lockers. Ralph helped him get it out. Betty was an old pal of mine, but I started trying to make time with Milly. Boy, did I make it! Yum.” He looked at the nurse and blushed all the way down to his neck. “I’ll skip the details. We had a party, doc. We were high. Drunk. Happy. Boy, did we have fun! I don’t think anybody ever had more fun than we did, me and that old gang of mine. We docked all right. That Larry, he’s a navigator. He was drunk as an owl and he had Betty on his lap but he put that ship in like the old lady putting a coin in the collection plate. Everything came out exactly right. I guess I should have been ashamed of landing a ship with the whole crew drunk and happy, but it was the best trip and the best gang and the best fun that anybody ever had. And we had succeeded in our mission, doc. We wouldn’t have cut loose at the end of the mission if we hadn’t known everything was hunky-dory. So we came in and landed, doc. And then everything went black, and here I am. Now you tell me your side of it, but be sure to tell me when Larry and Jock and Went are going to come in and see me. They’re characters, doc. That little nurse of yours, she’s going to have to watch them. They might bring me a bottle that I shouldn’t have. Okay, doc. Shoot.”
“Do you trust me?” said the doctor.
“Sure. I guess so. Why not?”
“Do you think I would tell you the truth?”
“It’s something mean, doc. Real mean. Okay, shoot anyhow.”
“I want you to have the shot first,” said the doctor, straining to keep kindness and authority in his voice.
The patient looked bewildered. He glanced at the nurse, the tray, the hypodermic. Then he smiled at the doctor, but it was a smile in which fright lurked.
“All right, doctor. You’re the boss.”
The nurse helped him roll back his sleeves. She started to reach for the needle.
The doctor stopped her. He looked her straight in the face, his eyes focused right on hers. “No, intravenous. I’ll do it. Do you understand?”
She was a quick girl.
From the tray she took a short length of rubber tubing, twisted it quickly around the upper arm, just below the elbow.
The doctor watched, very quiet.
He took the arm, ran his thumb up and down the skin as he felt the vein.
“Now,” said he.
She handed him the needle.
Patient, nurse, and doctor all watched as the hypodermic emptied itself directly into the little ridge of the vein on the inside of the elbow.
The doctor took out the needle. He himself seemed relieved. Said he: “Feel anything?”
“Not yet, doc. Can you tell me now, doc? I can’t make trouble with this stuff in me. Where’s Larry? Where’s Jock?”
“You weren’t on a ship, young man. You were alone on a one-man craft. You didn’t have a party for two days. You had it for twenty years. Larry didn’t bring your ship in. The Earth authorities brought it in with telemetry. You were starved, dehydrated, and nine-tenths dead. The boat had a freeze unit and you were fed by the emergency kit. You had the narrowest escape in the whole history of space travel. The boat had one of the new hypo kits. You must have had a second or two to slap it to your face before the boat took over. You didn’t have any friends with you. They came out of your own mind.”
“That’s all right, doc. I’ll be all right. Don’t worry about me.”
“There wasn’t any Jock or Larry or Ralph or Milly. That was just the hypo kit.”
“I get you, doc. It’s all right. This dope you gave me, it’s good stuff. I feel happy and dreamy. You can go away now and let me sleep. You can explain it all to me in the morning. But be sure to let Ralph and Jock in, when visiting hours open up.” He turned on his side away from them.
The nurse pulled the cover up over his shoulders.
Then she and the doctor started to leave the room. At the last moment, she ran past the doctor and out of the room ahead of him. She did not want him to see her cry.
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Cordwainer Smith
was a pseudonym for Dr. Paul Linebarger. Linebarger was born in Milwaukee in 1913 but grew up in Japan, China, France, and Germany. He was the godson of Sun Yat-sen. He earned his Ph.D. in political science from Johns Hopkins when he was 23.
His first professional science fiction story, “Scanners Live in Vain,” was published in Fantasy Book in 1950. It wasn’t until the mid-fifties, though, that Frederik Pohl encouraged “Smith” to write more. Most of his science fiction was written between 1955 and 1966. He died in 1966.
In addition to the stories included in this book, Linebarger wrote one SF novel, Norstrilia, and (under other pen names) three mainstream novels—Ria, Corola, and Atomsk. He was also the author of Psychological Warfare, which is still regarded as the authoritative book in its field.