Grace Burrowes - [Windham Sisters 05]

by Lady Jenny's Christmas Portrait

  ***

  Elijah watched as pleasure suffused Genevieve Windham’s features, watched as she shifted from beautiful to transfigured. Her body clutched at him, wrung every ounce of self-restraint from him, to the point that he had to close his eyes or lose control.

  And that he could not do, not when she was so close to realizing her dream, and he was… a gentleman.

  As Jenny subsided onto his chest, Elijah wrapped his arms around her and revised his word choice. No gentleman would take a lady other than his wife to bed, though he might take other women to bed under certain conditions.

  And Elijah had, from time to time, but he could not recall their names, their faces, their scents, anything about them.

  “Hold me, Elijah.”

  Always. He kissed her hair and snugged his arms more closely around her. “You’re all right?”

  “Mmm.” Not even a word, but it conveyed profound contentment.

  The moment was tender, dear, and for Elijah, not content at all. His cock throbbed with wanting, and while he could not recall his previous partners, he would not be able to forget Genevieve. He could follow her to Paris, of course, and she’d probably bestow more of such moments on him.

  More crumbs for him, more risks to her safety, her reputation, and her dreams.

  “I want more, sir.” His sleepy, sweet tempest began to move.

  “Then you shall have it.”

  He’d never intended to spend. He’d intended to let her have her pleasure of him, to stretch out this joining as long as he could, to make as many memories with her as she could bear to share with him.

  A man in love treasures even the pain of his affliction, after all.

  Jenny ambushed him, though, moving on him with increasing power and speed, her arms lashed around his shoulders, and then, without warning, she pitched off to the side, dragging him over her.

  Exactly where he longed to be.

  “Genevieve…”

  She silenced his warning with kisses, with her body determined to shower pleasure upon them both, with her hand gripping his hair, and with—a curious, fierce sensation—her fingernails gripping his buttocks. “Don’t beg, Elijah. Never beg. Love me. Love me now.”

  He could not refuse his lady’s command. He loved her, and he made love with her, and when she slept in his arms, sated and sweet, her hair in complete disarray, he only loved her more.

  ***

  Jenny watched as Elijah tugged on his boots then paused while he examined his footwear. “If there’s a baby—”

  She cut him off with a look and a nod. “Of course. I wouldn’t visit illegitimacy on my child. Our child.”

  The words, even the very words, our child, weakened her knees to the point that she had to sit on the bed. She might have just conceived a future Marquess of Flint. The notion was upsetting, for any number of reasons.

  Paris had loomed like an artistic haven, of course, and like a sanctuary from her family’s well-intended, smothering attentions. Paris was the antidote to everything stupid and backward about the present version of English chivalry too, and to all of Polite Society’s idiot notions about a true lady being a useless, decorative, porcelain figurine.

  Paris was where she could keep her promise to Victor and put her entire focus on her art.

  At what point had Paris also acquired the lure of a coward’s way out?

  Elijah took the place on the bed beside her and extracted the brush from her limp fingers. “I’ll do that.”

  He tended to her hair, just as he’d assisted her to dress, with brisk competence that suggested regret for what had passed between them.

  “Elijah, are you angry?”

  He tucked the last pin into her hair and drew her back against his chest. “If I am angry, I am angry for you and with myself, not with you. We’d best be going.”

  Not an answer she could comprehend, not with her body that of a sexually sated stranger, her mind in a complete muddle, and her heart…

  Her heart breaking.

  She let Elijah lead her through the house, sensing darkness gathering even earlier than usual.

  “The snow has picked up,” Elijah said as they donned coats, gloves, and scarves. “You will take my hand, Genevieve, damn the appearances, until we’ve reached a cleared path on Morelands property.”

  That he’d understand she needed some lingering connection with him was a relief. That he’d do her the further courtesy of making it a command was a blessing.

  “I don’t need to hold your hand to make my way through a few inches of snow.”

  He tucked the ends of his scarf under her chin. “Perhaps I need to hold yours.”

  She held his hand until they’d reached the very steps of the Morelands back terrace.

  ***

  “Lovely. Lovely, lovely, lovely.”

  Jenny watched while His Grace the Duke of Moreland gushed—that was the word—gushed about the portraits on display, and the duchess quietly beamed her satisfaction with the duke’s praise.

  Also with His Grace’s portrait, which, now that Jenny considered the image dispassionately, emphasized not only the man’s ducal consequence but also his regard for his duchess. Percival Windham as rendered in oil on canvas was a man capable of humor and sternness, of loving his country fiercely and his duchess gently.

  Elijah had caught that heart, and caught it wonderfully. He might also have caught a sudden case of lung fever, because the entire family had assembled in anticipation of the open house, while the artist in residence had yet to come downstairs.

  “Both portraits are quite good,” Her Grace said. “I am particularly pleased with how my surprise turned out.”

  Her surprise being the portrait of her, done for His Grace’s holiday present.

  When Elijah dared to venture down the steps, Jenny was going to ask him some pointed questions about that portrait, but for now, her siblings and their spouses were adding their choruses of appreciation for the art they beheld.

  “I do think that portrait of Her Grace is better even than the one he did of the children,” Sophie allowed. “Sindal, would you agree?”

  Everybody agreed, and in the middle of all this smiling and agreeing, Louisa sidled up to Jenny, bringing a hint of cinnamon and clove with her. “Have you told them yet?”

  “You are like the bad fairy, Louisa, insisting on difficult tidings when they’ll easily keep for a day or two. I don’t intend to leave until after the New Year. There’s time yet.”

  Louisa’s mouth flattened, but she kept her voice down. “You cannot hare off as if you’re eloping with a disgraceful choice, Jenny. That’s not fair to you. It’s even less fair to Their Graces. They’ll need time to adjust, to strike terms.”

  “I am going to move to Paris,” Jenny said, just as firmly. “I do not expect you to understand, Lou, but I do expect you to keep my confidences, within reason.”

  Louisa opened her mouth to say something, likely something articulate, insightful, and painful—though not mean—when her expression shifted. “It’s a bit late for that.”

  Jenny glanced over her shoulder to find both of her parents hovering only three feet away, the good cheer of the season apparent in the eyes of neither.

  ***

  Elijah hustled as far as the first landing, then paused, took a deep breath, and came down the last set of stairs at a pace that befit a gentleman and a guest in a ducal household.

  Though Jenny would likely skewer him for leaving her in the grand parlor alone amid the milling, smiling herd of her family, all decked out in their holiday finery, all blessedly ignorant that Lady Jenny had trysted away an hour of her afternoon.

  With him.

  As they’d left Lavender Corner, she’d seemed right enough, seemed composed, for all she’d gripped Elijah’s hand the entire distance back to Morelands. And yet, he
hadn’t wanted to leave her, not when her undisclosed travel plans hung like the holiday equivalent of the sword of Damocles over the entire family gathering.

  He came through the doorway at a pace halfway between dignity and panic—an enthusiastic pace, perhaps. A holiday pace adopted when a man needed a clear shot at the punch bowl—only to stop short.

  His Grace was glowering mightily at Jenny, who was resplendent in red velvet and white lace. Beside the duke, Her Grace looked concerned, and Jenny looked… determined. Mulishly determined.

  “What is this tripe about moving to Paris?” His Grace asked.

  God help them and their chances for a happy Christmas. Elijah sidled through a crowd of Windham lords and ladies, the women’s expressions mirroring concern for their sister, the men’s eyes guarded and their arms around their wives’ waists.

  “Mama, Papa, I’m moving to Paris to study art. I trust you’ll wish me well.”

  She hadn’t asked; she hadn’t begged or prettied up a request with pleases and perhapses. Elijah had never been more proud of his Genevieve.

  “Percival, talk to your daughter.” That from Her Grace, whose tone conveyed bewilderment. “The strain of holiday entertaining has taken a toll on her.”

  “You, Genevieve, are distressing your mother,” His Grace began. “I know not what wild start you’re positing, but no daughter of mine is going to waste her youth and beauty getting her fingers dirty in some frozen French garret, when her proper place is here, among the family who loves her. A husband and children—”

  “I beg Your Grace’s pardon,” Elijah cut in.

  “Elijah,” Jenny muttered. “Keep quiet.”

  Oh, of course. She must be a martyr in this too. “I cannot keep quiet, my lady. You will say things you regret to people who love you, but I can speak reason to them.”

  Artistic heathen though they might be.

  He could wallop them over the head with reason if necessary, or with truth, or with any other blunt object heavy enough to dent the legendary Windham pride, but he would not let Jenny rain down her frustration and ire on her own parents.

  That way lay ten years of estrangement, and they would be long, cold years too.

  “You are interfering, Bernward,” His Grace spat. “I have no doubt you’ve abetted this rebellion in a girl who used to be the example I held up to her sisters of all that is admirable in a lady.”

  “Jenny is no longer a girl.” Her Grace’s soft observation suggested Jenny’s mother was coming to this realization only as the words left her lips. Perhaps some feminine sympathy informed the duchess’s thinking, or maternal prescience.

  “Lady Genevieve has artistic talent beyond anything possessed by a mere girl,” Elijah said. “The evidence lies right before your eyes.”

  He gestured to the portraits, sitting side by side in temporary frames on their easels. On canvas, the duke and duchess sat facing each other at a quarter angle, each work complete in itself, and yet the two together formed a greater composition. His Grace held a volume of Shakespeare sonnets, as if reading to his wife—which he had been for much of their sittings.

  Her Grace worked a bit of embroidery, a peacock and a unicorn full of colors and soft textures.

  “Which is the better work?” Elijah asked.

  Her Grace’s eyebrows rose, suggesting more of her intuition already grasped the problem.

  “The portrait of Her Grace,” said the duke without hesitation. “The subject is more pleasing, of course, but—from the perspective of one who knows nothing of art—the execution is flawless, Her Grace to the very teeth. You’ve outdone yourself, Bernward, and I am most pleased with the result, even if you’ve been fomenting insurrection while you paint.” The portraits dismissed, the duke turned a blue-eyed glower on Jenny. “I am not at all pleased with a daughter who exhibits crackbrained notions about dabbling away her looks and youth when she ought to be about the business of finding a husband and setting up her nursery. What can possibly—?”

  Elijah felt Jenny draw herself up, and he let her be the one to wield the only relevant truth.

  “I painted that portrait of Her Grace, Papa. I did. Not the much-lauded associate to the Royal Academy, not the artistic heir apparent to Sir Thomas, not the man with years of training and experience. I did that painting of Mama, and it is beautiful.”

  She’d spent her ammunition, fired off powder she’d been keeping dry for years, and her eyes were painfully bright as a result. Elijah twined his arm through hers, slipped her his handkerchief, and took up her cutlass for her.

  “Lady Genevieve outpainted a much-vaunted professional portraitist, and she did it easily, without support from her family, without much training, without anything approximating true encouragement. She kept up with me when I worked hour after hour, then she turned around and endured more hours of hoodman-blind and whist, when all she wanted was to be back up in the studio, creating more beauty. She deserves to go to Paris, and I very much doubt you could stop her, in any case.”

  Which was a damned shame, because she needed to be stopped.

  Someone cursed, someone else muttered a refrain about prophets and honor. The duke stood glowering for a moment then winged his arm at his duchess. “Genevieve, you will attend your mother and me in her private parlor at once. You, Bernward, come along too.”

  The duchess took her husband’s arm. “Percival, the guests will start arriving any moment.”

  “Hang the guests. Our children can exert themselves to be charming to the neighbors while we sort through Jenny’s contretemps.”

  Her Grace looked like she’d say more, but processed from the room with a dignity that reminded Elijah of his mother.

  “You don’t have to do this, Elijah,” Jenny said as he moved her toward the door. “But I love what you did.”

  Her love, given in his direction in any sense, was reward enough.

  “Blame the cat,” he murmured as her brothers and sisters parted to let them leave the room. “Timothy rolled a paint brush off the mantel—one I’d not collected at the end of a session—and a dab of green splashed into the middle of the fire on my version of Her Grace’s portrait. I could either display a wet canvas of my own or take the wiser course suggested by Providence.”

  “Jenny!” Westhaven was the last obstacle Elijah and his lady had to face before gaining the door. The earl stood looking much like his father, until his lips quirked, and his smile showed a resemblance to the duchess. “Well damned done, Sister!”

  He slowly clapped his hands together, his countess joined in, and a cascade of sibling applause filled the room.

  “Hear, hear,” Sophie echoed as the din died away. Brothers, sisters, and in-laws raised their glasses, the good wishes ringing back and forth now that Their Graces had left the room.

  “Don’t back down,” St. Just advised. “Not if painting is what you need to be happy.”

  Lord Valentine winked at his sister, looking… proud, unless Elijah missed his guess. “Windhams sometimes have to make their own way, and Ellen’s been after me to take her to Paris.”

  “We’ll all visit you,” Lady Maggie added.

  Lady Eve was positively beaming. “You won’t be able to stop us. Nothing will stop us from making nuisances of ourselves on your doorstep.”

  Elijah wanted to ask where all this great good cheer had been previously, when Jenny had been so lonely for encouragement she had taken stupid risks and made even worse compromises, but he kept his silence and escorted her from the room.

  They would visit her in Paris, the lot of them, and bring their children and stay for weeks. They wouldn’t wait ten years to send a few letters, and leave the rest up to her.

  Seventeen

  Jenny felt as if she were dwelling a short distance from her body, as if a weight had been lifted from her shoulders and from her heart. Even Papa saw the quality of her
art, and Elijah…

  “You aren’t subject to ducal decrees, Elijah. I can manage Mama and Papa.”

  He paused where two hallways intersected, one leading to the public rooms, one to the family chambers. “That’s not just a mama and a papa you’re facing, Genevieve, it’s also a duke and duchess. They’re used to ruling by divine right, and quelling insurrection merely by raising an eyebrow. I daresay their daughters don’t defy them, though their sons likely have.”

  Jenny went up on her toes and kissed him—the happiness in her compelled it, as did the sadness. “You must not worry, Elijah. Papa himself admitted that I paint as well as you.”

  Better than Elijah—and that had been so, so sweet, though one painting did not an impressive body of works create.

  “Admitting you paint well will not get you to Paris.” He took her hand and led her down the hallway, his grip firm, his stride determined.

  Foreboding edged happiness away. “What are you about, Elijah? Papa himself vouched for my talent.”

  Elijah stopped outside the parlor door and dropped her hand. “If you get to Paris, it will be because your family loves you, and only because they love you. I’m counting on it.”

  He left her no time to argue or refine on his point—of course her family loved her—before he planted a swift, no-nonsense kiss on her lips, then opened the parlor door and ushered her through.

  “Your Grace, if I might have a word with you privately?”

  At Elijah’s question, the duke stopped pacing and aimed a glacial stare at his guest. “A word? With you? Most assuredly.” He bowed to his wife and left the room with Elijah, while Jenny regarded her mother.

  “A medicinal tot is in order,” the duchess declared. “For both of us, and, Jenny, you must not let your papa’s temper dismay you. He’s… he blames himself when I’m upset, and he’s surprised.”

  Which was exactly what Louisa had warned Jenny against.