Love Will Lead You Back

by Tina J.

  “Fight for her Chase if you love her like you say you do.” She kissed my cheek and went to the front.

  “Yolanda, you still swallowing this nigga’s babies after he won’t claim the one you pregnant with?” Tamika said mushing her in the back of the head.

  “Don’t hate because you can’t swallow Chase’s anymore.”

  “Bitch, let’s go.”

  I drove over to the twins’ house after me and Monty left my place. It was after midnight when we got there, and he used his key to get in. I gave mine back when she and I first broke up. I went into her room and watched her sleep. I pulled the covers back, and she was naked. I licked my lips and found my face in between her legs. She popped up and fell back when she saw me.

  “Chase what are you doing here? Fuck, yea.” She was grinding her hips on my face.

  “You want me to get up?”

  “No, make me cum.” I found her g-spot and had her releasing herself on my face over and over. I found her lips and kissed her aggressively.

  “God, I missed you.” She said, sucking on my bottom lip. I separated her legs and pushed myself in her. She was extremely tight, but my dick loved it. Her legs were wrapped around my back as we continued kissing and fucking.

  “Ride me baby.” She went down slow and stopped.

  “What’s wrong?”

  “It’s been a while Chase. I have to get used to you again.”

  “Take your time then. I’m not going anywhere.” I guided her hips slowly. I wanted her to enjoy it as much as I was.

  “Oh God, I’m about to cum, Chase.”

  “Let it go baby. I want to feel your juices on me.” It was like someone spilled water on me. She had so much coming out of her. Her head was on my chest. I flipped her back over and stared at her while I went in and out.

  “I’m about to cum, Spring.” I felt her muscles squeeze tighter around my dick, and before I could pull out, my sperm shot inside of her with authorization.

  “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to cum in you.”

  “Yes, you did.” She grinned.

  “Whatever.”

  “It’s ok, Chase. If I get pregnant, then it was meant to be.”

  “What about your man?”

  “What about him?”

  “I thought you were feeling him.”

  “Chase, my heart is with you. It has been for the last year or so. I tried to give it to him, but it didn’t work.”

  “Good, because I don’t want anyone else to have it.” I made love to her some more, and each time I tried to pull out, she would hold me tight like she didn’t want me to.

  “Do you want to have a baby?” I asked her.

  “I don’t know. I just know when we’re both cumming, I don’t want you to pull out, because you’ll stop me from cumming. Why should I lose out, because you didn’t wear a condom?” I couldn’t do shit but laugh.

  “What now Spring?”

  “I don’t know Chase. You have my heart, but I’m with someone.”

  “So leave him.”

  “Ugh, no. Why would I do that?”

  “Because you just said yourself I have your heart.”

  “You do and always will, but you hurt me when you didn’t believe me. I would never make something like that up. I’m going to try and make it work with Russell.” I started putting my clothes on.

  “Well, since you trying to build with him, I’ll let you in on a secret. He’s trying to get you pregnant, and he’s a woman beater. Oh yea, he’s going to try and get you to launder money for him. But hey, if that’s the type of nigga you want, be my guest.”

  “Who told you that?” I could tell I piqued her interest.

  “It doesn’t matter. Just know I most likely got you pregnant, and you better not tell that nigga he can take care of my seed.”

  “Pregnant. You believe your sperm is that potent Chase? Come on now.”

  “Mark my words. You are and I expect to be at the first doctor’s appointment.” I slammed the door and left.

  Monty

  B had her head on my lap dozing off during the movie we were watching. My phone buzzed on the nightstand with a text from Yolanda saying she had the baby. I put the phone back down and kept watching the movie. That wasn’t my kid, so I don't know what she was telling me for. I picked the phone back up, and it was a few pictures of the baby. She had a son, and in no way did he look like me.

  "Yo, look at this shit B." She sat up.

  "What is it?" I handed her the phone, and she smirked.

  "That ain't my baby."

  "I was just thinking the same thing, but you know she's going to say it is."

  "She can keep saying it all she wants; my baby is right here." I rubbed her stomach.

  "Are you going to take a test?"

  "For what? I never fucked her without a condom. The only time she felt me bareback was in her mouth." She busted out laughing.

  "What if she poked holes in it? She's saying it's yours knowing that you always strapped up; maybe she did." I put my head back and thought about what she was saying. I always opened a brand new box, but there was a few times she had some out and ready.

  "Nah, you think she would do that?" She gave me the side eye.

  "You can't put anything past her. Look at what Tamika did trying to keep Chase."

  "FUCK!!!! Get dressed." I told her throwing some clothes on.

  "What am I getting dressed for?"

  "You’re coming with me."

  "Monty, I don't feel like it." She whined and pouted her lips.

  "Come on, B."

  "Fine, but we're stopping to get something to eat on the way there." After we left Taco Bell, we pulled up at the hospital, and Javon was coming out.

  "What up, Javon? What you doing here?"

  "Oh, I came to see my peoples. What you doing here?"

  "Yolanda had her baby, and she claiming I'm the daddy."

  "Word. I didn't know you were fucking her raw."

  "I wasn't, but she still claiming it."

  "I'll see you later, Monty. I have to get back to my girl."

  "Alright, tell her I said what's up." On his way out, I saw him shoulder check B. I ran behind him and caught up to him before he got in the car.

  "Yo, what the fuck was that about?"

  "What was what about?"

  "I saw you bump into my girl on purpose."

  "Oh, that's your girl now?" He had a light chuckle.

  "Javon, you know that's me all day."

  "Yea, a’ight."

  "You got something on your mind, say it."

  "Nah I ain't got shit to say."

  "Well, check it. If you ever do that shit again to her, I'm going to put you on your ass."

  "You checking your boys over some bitch?" The minute the bitch left his mouth, I was stomping him on the ground. Some chick jumped out the car screaming for me to stop.

  "Monty." I heard B calling me.

  "What?" I saw her head and eyes roll at the same time.

  "It's fine; let's go."

  "Yea, listen to her Monty." He said, laughing with blood leaking from his mouth. I hit his ass one more time then went to check out what this dumb bitch Yolanda was talking about. The nurse came out and asked who I was there to see. I told her no one; I was there to request a test on someone who just had a baby.

  "Ok, follow me in the room." She had me sit in a chair and put my arm out.

  "Wow. You're the third guy here getting tested for the same kid." B stood with her arms folded against the wall. After she took the blood, I took her hand and went back to her house. When we pulled up, Chase was coming out the front looking pissed.

  "Well, I guess there back at it." B said reaching for the door.

  "I'll be up in a few. Let me rap with him real quick." She got out, and Chase got in. I told him what happened, and he was ready to go to Javon’s house.

  "Nah, not tonight. Don't worry; that bowling thing is next week. I know he paid for his ticket, so we'll see him there.
You can guarantee he won't be seen until then."

  He told me what went on between him and Spring, and I was shocked that she decided to stay with dude after he told her, but she tried to tell him about Tamika, and he stayed. People have to see shit for themselves before they believe what an ex tells them.

  "Come here." B yelled at me when I came in.

  "What?"

  "Put this ice on your hand and watch who the hell you talking to."

  "I'm not trying to hear that shit right now B."

  "Don't get mad at me. I'm not the one that pissed you off.”

  “Not right now, B. I just beat my dude up over you.”

  “I didn’t ask you to. And you didn’t have to go out there. I know he still in his feelings over what Spring and I did.”

  “Fuck that, B. You’re pregnant, and he know you mine.”

  “Monty, I’m not yours.”

  “What you mean you’re not mine. Don’t start tonight.”

  “Monty, we were doing fine before we left. I get that that was your boy you had to put a beat down on him, but don’t come in here trying to claim what’s not yours. Yes, we’re having a baby, we have great sex, but we are only friends when it’s all said and done.”

  “That’s how you look at us B?”

  “What other way is there to look at it? You out here fucking all these bitches, and I don’t say shit. You come and go as you please, which is fine, too. I don’t know what you want me to say.”

  “Nothing B. Don’t say shit.” I grabbed my keys and left. Everything she said was 100% true, but I didn’t need her to tell me that. I fuck other chicks, and she let that stripper bitch eat her pussy when she wants. How the fuck am I any different from her. I parked in front of my house and smoked a blunt. My phone vibrated and it was a text from her.

  B: Monty you’re being childish right now. The arrangement we had was perfect and now you seem to be feeling some kind of way about it. If you want to stop messing around and be around strictly for the baby let me know. My love for you will still be here forever but I don’t want you getting into fights over me when we’re not a couple. Call me tomorrow.

  I tossed my phone on the other side of my seat. I didn’t want to hear that shit. I woke up the next day, and B was asleep in my bed. I must’ve been knocked out if I didn’t hear her come in. I checked for my phone and realized I had left it in the car. When I went to get it, I checked the messages, and there were a few from Chase. The other ones were from B asking me if I made it home, and why wasn’t I responding.

  “When you didn’t respond, I had to make sure you were ok.” She walked behind me and wrapped her arms on my neck while I sat on the couch. I felt her stomach on my back and felt my daughter kick.

  “I guess my daughter’s mad too.” She grinned and rubbed her belly.

  “I guess so.”

  Burgundy

  I was now eight-and-a-half months pregnant and ready to get this girl out my stomach. Spring threw me a huge baby shower that turned into more like a block party. It was so many people inside and out. Monty had a lot of family who had kids, boyfriends, girlfriends and so forth. Then, his boys and their mates with their kids and the list goes on and on. We had it at a hall, because I did not want people in my house using my bathroom and tearing shit up.

  “Damn, Ma, my daughter got mad shit.” Monty said putting the crib together in the baby’s room. I wanted the Minnie Mouse theme and had someone come in and paint her on the wall with some other characters. Monty could care less as long as he didn’t have to do it. He was already pissed he couldn’t put the damn crib together and called Chase.

  “B, let me talk to you real quick.” He sat me down in the rocking chair that was in Madison’s room. That’s what he wanted to name her. I was fine with it, because I couldn’t come up with anything, and her name had to start with an M.

  “What’s up?” I rocked the chair back and forth in front of him.

  “We haven’t decided what we’re going to do when Maddy gets here.” Yea, he already nicknamed her, too.

  “What you mean? You have the key to come and go as you please.”

  “I know, but I’m talking about me and you.” Now, I was confused.

  “Monty, tell me what you want.” He ran his hand down his face as he stood in front of the window.

  “I want you as my woman, but I don’t know if I’ll be good to you.”

  “Then, why would you ask me?”

  “B, you know I’m in love with you. You’re everything I want and need in a woman, and you’re the only one to make that dick cum the right way.” He grinned at me when he said it.

  “Monty, I’m in love with you, too, but if you’re not ready, don’t try and rush it thinking I’m going to be with someone else once I deliver.”

  “I’m not trying to rush it. I love being around you, talking to you, and making love to you, but I like fucking other bitches too.”

  “You want me to be your wifey chick while you do whatever.”

  “Something like that, but I would never ask that of you, because you deserve more than that.”

  “Well, what do you want?”

  “I want you to move in with me. I want to come home to you and only you every night.”

  “Ok, now I’m lost. You want me to live with you and then you come home after you finish fucking others and be ready for you to sleep with me too.”

  “Just forget it. We can keep it like it is.” He went back to fixing the crib. I grabbed his hand and took him in my room.

  “Monty, I’m going to keep it real with you. I know you see me as this bitch with a nigga mentality, but it’s just to keep myself from getting hurt. Do you know how much that shit bothered me at first to see you sleeping with me then leaving?” I saw his facial expression change.

  “I am so in love with you, and if you wanted your daughter and I to live with you because you wanted a relationship, I would tell you to put the crib together at your house and move in today, but you and I both know you can’t stay faithful, and that’s ok, because I accepted you for the type of person you are. There’s nothing I wouldn’t do for you, and I think you know that, but forcing myself to be somewhere with you just because I had your daughter is not the route to take.”

  “B, you never told me it bothered you.”

  “It doesn’t matter now. Why do you think I act the way I do? I’m not about to allow you to break my heart. No matter how much in love I am with you, it doesn’t stop me from falling deeper when we’re together.”

  “B, I’m in love with you, too. Why you think I make it here just about every night. I need you next to me when I go to bed. I want to feel your leg on top of mine or the way you lay on my chest. I don’t want to make it official and take you through unnecessary shit. Believe it or not, you are my heart and I can’t see myself without you, but I’m not good for you either.”

  “Monty, let’s just leave things the way they are for now, and see where it takes us. I’m not allowing another man or woman in my heart. That spot is reserved for you.”

  “I love the hell out of you girl.” He grabbed me by the waist, lifted my long pajama shirt up, and pushed his way inside me.

  “Shitttt, Monty. You could’ve given me a warning.”

  “Nah, you like it when I take it without asking.”

  “You’re, right. Fuck me hard, baby. I need to cum all over my dick.”

  “Let it go, then, baby. Your dick wants to feel you cover him with all that good stuff you got in between your legs.”

  “Ahhh, Monty, I love you.” I came quickly.

  “I love you too. Come make me say your name.” He loved when I rode him because he could see my face better. He and I finished getting Madison’s room together later and went downstairs. Chase was sitting in the living room watching TV.

  “What are you doing here?”

  “Spring sent me a message and asked me if I could stop by. She was at the store and told me she left the key for me.

 
“What y’all up to tonight?” He asked, rubbing on my belly. I usually don’t allow people to, but since it was him, I allowed it.

  “We were just about to watch a movie, you can stay if you want.” I went and put popcorn in the microwave, and Monty had a fit.

  “B, come on, you know better. Get your ass from in front of the microwave before you give my baby radiation.” He pushed me out the kitchen and told me to sit down. Spring came in when we started the movie and ran in her room with a bag.

  “Give me a minute, Chase.”

  “Burgundy, can you come here for a minute?” She yelled from upstairs. I hated when she did that knowing I was big as hell. I got upstairs, and she was coming out the bathroom with a damn pregnancy stick. I covered my mouth and snatched it out her hand.

  “Bitch, whose is it?” She fell face first on the bed.

  “You ok, Spring?” Chase came in the room, and I hid the test behind my back. I pretended I needed the bathroom to clean the stuff up she left on the counter. I put it in the back under her sink, because her trash was out in the open. I wasn’t sure who the baby daddy was, and until I did, I wasn’t saying shit.

  “I just wanted to see you Chase.” I heard her say on the way out. I went back downstairs with Monty and finished the movie.

  “What did she want?” He rubbed my feet for me.

  “Nothing; something about work. Give me a kiss with your sexy ass?” He leaned down and pecked my lips. I was so in love with this man, but we weren’t good for each other, because we were just alike, and that’s not a good combination.

  Spring

  I’ve been sleeping with Chase just about every day since the last time he came over. I was still with Russell, but with Chase back around, sexually, Russell wasn’t doing it for me. I was about to go home from work when Russell called asking me to come over. I was tired and didn’t feel like being bothered, but he made me feel bad, talking about he hadn’t seen me in a week. I locked the office up and made it to his house in fifteen minutes. He was lying on the bed in just his boxers and a wife beater when the chick that was mad at the BBQ came out the bathroom. He jumped up when he saw me. I smiled and walked out with him running behind me. I was actually happy, because I didn’t know how to end it.