I closed my eyes as he worked my cock. I knew in the back of my mind that what we were doing was really wrong but it felt too damned good to stop. It felt like he really loved me and I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that I’d fallen for him.
“Dude,” I breathed, “that feels fucking awesome.”
He nodded, “Fucking awesome,” he agreed, “So? Do you want me to suck you?”
I nodded.
Jodie
His cock was rock hard – just the way I wanted it. “Fuck, you’re amazing.” I murmured as I took his length in my mouth, “And you taste fucking delicious.”
“Why don’t we move around a bit so I can suck you at the same time.” He said, “We can totally do each other.”
I stroked his cock lazily, “Well, I’d kind of planned on sucking you right till you were coming,” I said, “but right now, I’m thinking you’re right and it might be even more fun if we sucked each other.”
River grinned, “I know it will be.” He said, making me wonder just how many times he’d done this with other guys – but I honestly didn’t care. This was different. We weren’t just fucking around – this meant something. I was sure of that. He shuffled around and turned onto his side, opening his legs wide so I had complete access to him. I did the same, proud to show him my body and to feel his hands and his mouth on me. I was in heaven as we continued to find a comfortable position. I’d watched this sort of thing on the internet numerous times but it was still a little awkward in real life. River, to me, was almost a porn star and even he was finding the manoeuvre a little difficult. It gave me confidence that he really didn’t do this every day...
I lowered my face back down. My lips were so close to his cock that it quivered in anticipation with my breath. I smiled to myself. He was totally expecting me to eat his cock. Well, I might have only been with Jake, but I had ideas of my own.... I took a breath and then blew slowly and lightly across his balls. He gasped in ecstasy and then it was my turn to gasp as he showed me that he had ideas of his own too. He took me deeply into his mouth, his hand that had been caressing my balls lightly moving and gripping the base of me tighter than I’d anticipated. He sucked hard and then pulled off me and then took me in again deeply. I groaned. Oh, my God. That felt utterly amazing. I arched into him, trying my best not to thrust as I finally started to suck on him. He stopped taking me in so deeply and was concentrating all of his efforts in sucking the tip of me, dipping the tip of his tongue into my slit and then feathering little licks all around me. Every new move was like a sensation overload. I tried my best to return every single one and was rewarded with the taste of his pre-come on the back of my tongue. Yes, baby, that’s it, I thought, Come for me.
I thought I was going to scream with desire when he pulled off my cock with a bit of slurp and started to lick my balls as his fingers started to explore my hole.
Oh, God, yeah. I tried the same move on him and then had an even better idea. I licked all the way past his balls and fluttering my tongue close to his hole. I was rewarded with a deep groan and his fingers got more insistent until he was probing me and making my dick feel like it was going to explode. “I’m so gonna come all over your face.” I murmured. “Would you like me to do that?”
He murmured something that I took as a yes but he wasn’t letting my cock out of his mouth.
“Gonna come.” I warned him and was rewarded with him slipping a couple of fingers right inside me. “Oh, God.” I shouted, forgetting all about sucking him, “I’m coming, River! I’m fucking coming!”
I spilled everything I’d got. He sucked me down like he’d been born to the job and then slipped off me with a groan. “Oh, God.” He shuffled around, and crawled up my body. Resting his still rock hard cock against my slightly less than hard one he looked into my eyes, “Where the fuck have you been all my life?” he asked, “That was fucking brilliant. I want to do that again tonight before we go to sleep.”
I grinned as his mouth came crashing down on mine and he devoured my mouth with his tongue. I could taste myself on his lips and his tongue and I don’t think I’d ever felt as turned on as I did right then. Jake never did that. He point blank refused to swallow although he didn’t mind fucking my mouth until he came. I can’t deny that I loved it, but I sometimes found it a little selfish of him.
River was so generous with himself. He was giving me as good as he got with everything we’d done.
“Want me to get you off?” I asked him as I came down from my high.
He shrugged, “When you’ve got your breath back.” He said, stroking my face with his finger. “Did you enjoy yourself?”
I nodded, “That was incredible.” I said, “I don’t think I’ve ever come like that.”
He raised an eyebrow, “You’ve been doing it wrong, then.” He said with a wink. “I’ll have you coming again tonight – at least three times.”
I smiled. “Yeah, right.” I scoffed.
His smile alone had my cock back in the game. Maybe he was right... maybe I would.
“Is this okay?” he asked, rubbing his cock against mine, “Not too sensitive?”
I shook my head, “I’m good.”
He nodded, “I’m gonna wrap my hand around the two of us, okay?”
I nodded again, and watched him curl his hand around both of our cocks and start pumping them together. I’d never seen – or felt – anything so fucking good.
I grabbed a handful of his hair as he continued to stroke his hand up and down and I noticed that he twisted his wrist slightly to increase the friction a little. It was amazing how good he was at this.
I closed my eyes as his mouth found mine and he started to explore my mouth with his tongue again, licking and tangling his tongue with mine in some sort of erotic dance. I just wanted to stay in this moment, frozen in time forever. It was utterly incredible. River was incredible.
I pulled away from the kiss and stared into his face. He was close, “Oh, God,” he gasped and I realised that he was going to come. That was such a fucking turn on, and his clever hand was doing things to me that no one had ever done before and there was nothing I could do to stop him from taking me over the edge with him. “I’m gonna…” His lips crashed against mine again as we both came simultaneously, our mouths fused together as our cocks both spurted hot streams of come, covering our bellies before he collapsed on top of me, taking deep breaths of air back in. “Awesome.” He murmured, “Just awesome.”
We lay there, together, panting as we both came down from our high. With the hot sticky mess between us rapidly cooling, I whispered, “Do you have any tissues?”
*
With the moment of frenzied sex over with, the magic had kind of disappeared as we looked at each other.
“You okay?” I whispered.
He stroked my softening cock and murmured a response that let me know he was just fine.
“Kiss me,” I murmured.
He smiled before he leaned in and kissed me long and hard.
“You are so beautiful.’ I murmured, “Thank you so much.”
He pulled away from me in confusion, “What for?” he asked.
“For tonight.” I said, “It was magical.”
He smiled sadly, “Oh, right.” He said. “I’d almost forgot it was only for tonight.”
“It’s the way it has to be.” I whispered.
He nodded, “I know.” He said, “I get it.”
Chapter 20 – The Letter…
River
I woke up with a bit of a start. I was alone, which wasn’t really a surprise but for some reason it did surprise me. In the foggy recesses of my hung-over mind, I could have sworn I’d been with someone last night. Someone that mattered, someone I really liked and wished they were still with me. I reached out across my bed and found it was still warm. That someone had only just left. I sat up. Holy fuck! I was naked. What the hell did I do last night?
I slipped out of bed with my head absolutely banging and made my way to the
bathroom. It all got a little too much for me as I was trying to brush my teeth and I threw up. “Oh, God.” I murmured as I wiped my mouth, “Seriously... What the actual fuck?”
Flashbacks from the night before began to whizz through my brain randomly. Dancing – with Jodie in the club. Slow dancing... In front of Seth and Buzz. Oh, shit. They were going to give me such a hard time over that... and then we came home.... and... Ohhhh shit. I stared at myself in the bathroom mirror. We slept together. Not like that – but we sure as hell did enough to call it cheating...
I ran back to my room and grabbed a pair of sweatpants. Dragging a tee shirt over my head I ran down the stairs to see if he was anywhere around.
He was sat on the sofa, hugging a cushion to his chest and looking as sick as I felt.
“Jodie?”
He looked up at me, his expression one of anguish. “I feel like shit.” He said, “Mostly because of the drink – don’t let me do that again – but River.” He hung his head, “We cheated on Jake.”
*
I paced up and down as Jodie continued to stare into space, looking green.
“It wasn’t really cheating, Jodie.” I said, “We were just drunk and horny and things got a little out of hand – we can put this behind us and forget about it. I’ll never tell him, I promise you.”
He nodded, “Yeah, okay,” He said a little shakily, “Neither will I – but we can’t do that again.”
I shook my head, “No,” I agreed. It might have been the best night of my life ever – but we couldn’t do that again. Not while he was still Jake’s boyfriend anyway...
“I guess I should go and get dressed.” Jodie pulled a face, “I feel really bad, River.”
I nodded, “Maybe we should go back to bed for a couple of hours.”
He nodded, “Separately.” He muttered.
I sighed and nodded. I never wanted to be separated from him again... “Yeah, course.” I agreed.
*
I stumbled back up the stairs to my room and sat down on the edge of my bed.
Dragging my hands down my face I wondered just what the hell I thought I was doing with my life.
I was a fuck-up. Cheating on my best friend with his boyfriend only days after promising that I would never do such a thing – and at the time I’d truly believed that I would be able to keep my promise. Seriously – what the actual fuck did I think I was doing?
How the hell was this going to work out? There really was no happy ending, was there?
Jake wasn’t about to thank me for stealing the man he loved – and he wasn’t gonna want to share either – and for that matter, neither was I. I wanted all of Jodie – his body, his mind and most of all, his heart. I was truly in love with him.
But he was in love with Jake. I could see that from the way he looked this morning, sat on the sofa. He was distraught that he’d cheated.
I sighed and lay back against my pillows and then turned over. I couldn’t get comfortable at all. As I turned towards my bedside table, I saw the letter my mum had given me.
I was suddenly overwhelmed with curiosity. Aunt Hilary had said Dad was proud of my achievements... So what the hell could he have written in that letter?
There was only one way to find out...
I grabbed the envelope and ran down the stairs. Shoving my feet into my Vans, I grabbed my hoody and my keys.
I stepped outside the front door and took a right turn. I needed peace and quiet... I headed for the allotments.
I had a shed on my allotment. It was so much more than a shed, though. I had a small sofa in there. I’d had it insulated and it was more like a summerhouse than anything. I was very proud of my little home-from-home. Actually it was more homely in there than it was at home...
I flicked the kettle on and rummaged about for a clean cup. I checked the date on the milk in my mini fridge and pulled a face. Damn it. I’d have to use the dried milk powder...
Finally I’d made myself a passable cup of coffee and with slightly shaky hands, found that I actually couldn’t find anything more to do to put off reading the damned letter and sat down and opened the envelope.
Dear River
Where do I start to try to apologise?
I suppose going back to the beginning would be a good place to start. I was so very wrong with the way I handled everything.
You were so very brave to come out – and just after that terrible attack on you by your so-called friends. I didn’t want to believe anyone would want to try to kill my boy just for being homosexual.
I was a complete fool for my utter ignorance and in my pathetic attempt to keep you safe, I thought you should try your best to be heterosexual instead...
I realise now that it isn’t a choice to make. I just didn’t want to believe that my son was anything less than perfect – what I failed to understand was that you were perfect just the way you were – and I was just too stupid to see that and I’ve missed out on watching you grow and learn and become the wonderful young man you are today.
You are the one thing in my life that I’m proud to say I helped to create – I wouldn’t be so crass as to try to claim anything else. You are your own person and you’ve managed to make a much better life for yourself without my intervention.
You are so much more accomplished in your life than I ever was in my own.
I follow your Twitter feed and your Instagram every day and I watch your dancing with fascination.
You are truly a wonderful young man and I love you, River.
I was a terrible father and I don’t want to make your life any harder by clumsily trying to wheedle my way back in now that you’re successful.
I just want you to know that I am very proud of you.
I hope you find happiness in your life, I hope you find a nice young man to share that happiness with and I hope you live a long and fulfilled life.
With all my love and sincere apologies,
Dad
I put the letter down with shaking hands. He could put that all of that emotion into a letter but he couldn’t just come to see me and tell me in person? Jeez. He was even more of a fuck up than I was...
I shook my head. I wasn’t entirely convinced. He was just salving his own conscience before he died...
Chapter 21 – AWOL
Jodie
Where the actual fuck was River? I’d been waiting for him to come back for hours. Was having sex with me so bad that he’d left?
I put my head in my hands and groaned. I was going to have to look for him – but I had absolutely no idea where to even start looking.
Seth would undoubtedly know but I didn’t have his phone number. Maybe he’d gone to talk to Seth about it. Fuck. I was going to have to go to Studs to find out... and if he wasn’t there I was going to have to ask Seth – and that was going to be a fun conversation... Shit. This was beginning to get complicated.
I checked my pocket for my door key and then I grabbed River’s car key too. Since he’d gone out without it, I knew he wasn’t heading for his place of work. Right. It was a pretty long walk to Studs and Steel nightclub – but the chances of anyone being there for the next hour were slim anyway – and I could do with the fresh air to clear my head. I set off...
*
I walked through the car park. There was River’s little car – at least I’d be able to drive that back for him, then.
Seth’s car was parked up next to Rob’s massive Range Rover and Buzz’s motorbike was there too. Great. I was in for a lecture, no doubt...
I pushed the door open. Seth looked up immediately, he frowned when he saw that I was alone, “Where’s River?” he asked.
I shrugged, “I have no idea – I came to ask you where I might find him.”
Seth looked at Buzz who looked back at him and nodded, “His shed.” They said in unison.
I frowned, “He doesn’t have a shed.” I said, picturing his rather regimented garden. There was the chicken run and the great big pond at the end of the g
arden – the rest of it was filled with vegetables and herbs as far as I could tell – but I was pretty damned certain that there wasn’t a shed...
Seth nodded, “At his allotment – don’t ask me why he had an allotment as well as that massive park of a garden – but he does. Our boy likes growing stuff.”
I nodded, “Yeah, I guess he must.” I said.
Seth sighed, “he’s probably sitting there, getting drunk on whisky and beating himself up for getting down and dirty with you on the sofas last night – did you sleep with him?”
I blushed, “No I didn’t,” I replied hotly, “not that it’s really any of your business if I did or I didn’t.”
Seth narrowed his eyes at me, “He’s one of my best friends, dude – that makes it my business – particularly when you show up with the one person he calls his best friend – and immediately start flirting with River the minute his back’s turned. If it gets out of hand and the shit hits the fan, all you lose is a boyfriend – big deal,” his frown turned into a full on menacing scowl, “– but River loses the one person he values above all others. That’ll kill him.”
I swallowed. Fuck. He was right, “It won’t happen again.”
Seth shook his head, “Well, you say that now. River’s pretty damned irresistible and you two are alone far too much.”
I frowned, “You resist him well enough.”
Seth chuckled, “That’s because I’m straight – how many times do I have to tell you?”
I shot him an apologetic smile, “Yeah, course. Right – I’m sorry.”
Buzz chuckled, “I take it you have no idea where his allotment is?”
I shook my head, “Not a clue, mate.”
He nodded, “Right – it’s on the first street you turn into off the main high road.”
I nodded, “Okay.”
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