Delay of Game (The Baltimore Banners Book 6)

by Lisa B. Kamps

  Not worried about keeping the contents of his stomach where they belonged, not worried about the throbbing in his head. No, he was here.

  Christ, don’t let him be a scratch.

  Because yeah, he could admit it, at least to himself: he wanted Val to watch him play tonight. And he wanted her to be proud of what she saw. A real player, the one he used to be, one who played with his heart and soul. Not a drunk, so worn out and tired and shaking from the previous night’s binge.

  He didn’t want to play like that ever again, didn’t want to let those phantom voices calling him a fuck-up get the better of him.

  Christ, what was with him? Just listen to him. One night with Val, and already she was always with him, just there in the back of his mind. Encouraging, smiling, the memory of her voice off-setting those phantom voices. One night, and he was completely bewitched.

  Justin slid across the ice, stopping next to Mat with a short spray of snow.

  “About damn time you stepped back up.”

  Justin grunted, not quite able to meet Mat’s serious green gaze. Out of everyone on the team, Mat knew more about Justin’s binges than anyone—probably because he’d saved Justin’s ass on more than one occasion, and not just by driving his ass home. But Mat’s gaze was still too serious, still saw too much. Justin wondered if his friend was just waiting to see how long this reprieve would last, if he’d start the same shit all over again tomorrow. Or the next day. Or the day after that.

  No. Hell no. Justin didn’t want to go to that dark place again, didn’t want to risk losing everything he had worked for his whole life. Coach had been serious the other day, Justin was certain of that. Between the not-so-subtle threat to his playing and the subtle encouragement he’d gotten from Val, Justin was convinced he wouldn’t sink again.

  No way. Once was enough. No, once was too much.

  The drills continued for another thirty minutes. Light, easy, just enough to get ready for tonight’s game. Justin fell in line with everyone else, heading back to the locker room to change and clean up. His steps slowed as he approached Coach, watching, wondering what the verdict would be.

  Sonny nodded. That was all, just that curt movement of his head. Justin’s breath left him in a rush and he had to bite back a smile as he continued to the locker room. If he didn’t think everyone would stare at him like he lost his mind, he’d do a little celly right there in the hallway.

  But he couldn’t. Not here, not now. Besides, he had a feeling he might get a chance to do a real celly out on the ice later tonight, where it actually counted.

  Two hours later, back in the hotel room, Justin was starting to have doubts. He should be sleeping, getting in a quick pre-game nap. Except the headache that had been plaguing him the last few hours was back, worse than before. There was a sharp throbbing in the back of his head, made a hundred times worse by Mat’s snoring.

  Justin rolled to his side and squeezed his eyes shut, trying to ignore the throbbing, trying to ignore the snoring. If he could just tune out the noise, get the headache to go away, he could finally get some rest.

  It was no use. He sat up and balled his fists then punched the pillow. Once, twice. Once more. Then he bent over and wrapped his arms around his head, digging his fingers into the base of his skull, squeezing. There, just there. That’s where the pressure was. He dug in a little harder, finally getting relief from the painful throbbing.

  He stayed that way for a few minutes, taking long deep breaths and just squeezing. Aspirin. He needed aspirin, and maybe a hot shower.

  Justin got up and stumbled to his overnight bag, his hands rummaging through it until he found his shower kit. He grabbed the bottle of aspirin, fumbling the lid off with shaking hands. Why the fuck were his hands shaking like this? Christ, he couldn’t be coming down with something. Not now, not tonight. Not when he was finally getting his shit together.

  He popped four aspirin and swallowed them dry, wincing at the bitterness. Then he stumbled to the bathroom, grabbing his phone from the dresser as he went. He reached into the shower and turned on the faucet, twisting it to the hottest setting, then sat down on the toilet.

  What the hell was Val’s number? Justin closed his eyes, trying to remember. Except there was nothing to remember because he never got her number. Shit. Why the hell hadn’t he got her number?

  He could worry about that later. She was probably at the restaurant anyway, so he hit the number for information, gave the automated voice the name and address of the number he was requesting, and waited.

  It seemed like an hour passed by before the call was automatically connected, before he heard ringing on the other end. Once, twice.

  “The Maypole, this is Richard. May I help you?” The masculine voice was slightly raised, just enough to be heard over the background din.

  “Uh, yeah. Yes. I’m trying to reach Val.”

  “Hold on.”

  Justin squeezed his eyes shut and leaned forward, his free hand massaging the back of his scalp as instrumental pop music filled the silence. And then, finally, a voice came on the other end.

  Light, laughing, musical in its own way. “This is Val, may I help you?”

  “Hey. It’s me. Uh, Justin.”

  There was a slight pause, just long enough to make him wince. “Hey.”

  Another pause. Shit. Did she sound annoyed, or happy to hear from him? He couldn’t tell. What the hell should he say now? “So, uh, how’s your day going?”

  And Christ, could he sound any lamer? He shook his head and wondered if he should just pretend to lose reception. The longer the silence stretched out, the more he was convinced calling her was a bad idea. He should have called her yesterday. Why the hell didn’t he call her yesterday?

  Then he heard laughter, soft and mellow. The sound warmed him, pushed away some of his awkwardness. “It’s been going, same as usual. How about you? Are you in Buffalo?”

  “Yeah. Got here yesterday afternoon. I, uh, I’m sorry. I should have called you—”

  “Why?”

  Justin opened his mouth, then snapped it closed. Why? Did she really just ask him that? “Because—well, you know, because—”

  “Justin, it’s okay. I didn’t expect you to call me yesterday. Or today. I know you’re busy and that you have a lot going on.”

  “Oh.” He hadn’t expected her to say that and didn’t know how to respond, not without sounding like an even bigger idiot. He searched his mind, trying to figure out what to say next. Why was he having such a hard time just having a conversation? It shouldn’t be this hard, no matter how much his head was pounding.

  “How did practice go today?”

  Justin breathed a sigh of relief, grabbing the conversational lifeline with both hands. “Good, really good. I’m playing tonight.”

  “That’s great news, Justin. I’ll be watching for you. How about…everything else?”

  He didn’t miss the slight pause, knew exactly what she was trying to ask him. He cleared his throat, winced, let out a breath. “That’s good, too. Nothing to drink since the other night. I think I might be coming down with something. I hope to hell not, though. But my head’s pounding, feels like it’s going to fall off.”

  There was a pause, not unbearably long, but still there. Then he heard a sigh, just a soft one, barely audible over the sound of running water from the shower. “Justin, it’s probably from the alcohol. From not having any.”

  “What? No.” He shook his head even though Val couldn’t see him. Then he groaned when a spasm viciously tore through the base of his skull. He clenched his jaw, took a deep breath, pushed away the brief spurt of anger and annoyance. “I’m not an alcoholic going through withdrawal, Val.”

  “I didn’t mean—”

  “I’m not, okay?”

  Another sigh, a little louder. “Aspirin. Lots of water. A long shower. Time.” Was it his imagination, or was Val’s voice just a little sharper?

  Justin closed his eyes and tightened his hand around the p
hone. Shit. He shouldn’t have snapped at her like that, no matter how her words had surprised him. No, not surprised. Upset. He didn’t want to think too hard about why. “Val, I’m sorry—”

  “It’s okay. Listen, I have to get going. Good luck tonight, okay?”

  Justin straightened, something close to panic seizing him. He didn’t want her to hang up, not just yet. Not like this. “Val, wait.”

  For a terrifying second, he thought he was too late, that she had already disconnected the call. But then he heard her breathing. Not exactly a sigh, not really. He took a deep breath and let it out. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean—”

  “I know.”

  “Oh. Okay, good. Uh, listen, I was wondering, tomorrow night. Did you want to get together, have dinner or something?” Smooth, real smooth. Why was he having such a hard time with this whole conversation? From the second Val answered the phone, every remaining intelligent brain cell had completely succumbed to the pounding in his head.

  “Tomorrow’s Friday, we’re usually pretty busy—”

  “Yeah, no, that’s okay. I didn’t realize—”

  “No, I want to. Maybe a late one? You could pick me up here.”

  “Yeah, perfect. That’ll be great.” Justin winced at the words, wondering again why he couldn’t seem to form intelligent sentences.

  “Sounds good. See you tomorrow night then?”

  “Absolutely. Yes.”

  “Great.” A few seconds of dead air, then he heard Val clearing her voice. Maybe he wasn’t the only one having trouble talking tonight. “I have to go. Good luck tonight, Justin. I’ll be watching.”

  He opened his mouth to say something, to tell her to watch for something special when he scored, but he waited too long. The call disconnected, leaving nothing but silence.

  Shit.

  He stood and tossed the phone onto the counter then stripped out of his clothes. As far as conversations went, it definitely could have been better. But maybe it wasn’t as bad as he first thought, now that he had something to look forward to tomorrow night.

  Yes, he was definitely looking forward to tomorrow night. And maybe, just maybe, he’d have something to celebrate after tonight’s game.

  Chapter Six

  Val leaned against the hostess podium, her head turned back to the bar, squinting to see the large television along the back wall. The volume was turned down, not that that meant anything, not with the noise of the late evening crowd. And for once, just once, she wished the bar and restaurant wasn’t quite so busy, that she had the leisurely option of just staying home and watching a game in the quiet comfort of her own place.

  That’s when she knew she was in trouble. Because yes, she may occasionally wish she had more time to herself, but that’s all it was—empty wishes. She loved working, loved the crazy hours and constant bustle of running—of owning—a successful business. That’s why she rarely took off. This is where she belonged, what she wanted to do. What she had worked for all those years of school and long hours of working for someone else. This was the payoff.

  Except for tonight. Tonight, for the first time since before The Maypole opened, she didn’t want to be here.

  A discreet cough from behind her jerked her attention from the television and she turned, surprised to the see the group of four women standing there, waiting. From the impatient glare of two of them, Val had no doubt they had been waiting for more than just a few minutes. She pasted a bright smile on her face and muttered an apology, then grabbed four menus and led them to a table.

  She didn’t miss the rude comment about guest service from one of the women, someone she recognized as a semi-regular. Val bit the inside of her cheek and forced her smile to grown even wider as she handed the woman her menu.

  “Your waiter will be over in a few minutes to go over the specials. Hockey players won’t be featured tonight, since the Banners are on the road.” Val ignored the outraged gasp and turned away, mentally berating herself for the comment. What was wrong with her? She knew better, should have never let the woman get to her, especially not to that point.

  Especially not when she knew part of their success was because The Maypole had become a hang-out for a lot of the team, in part because her brother, Randy, had been their major investor.

  Major investor? Try only investor, especially after all the banks had turned them down. Nobody had wanted to take a chance on a sports bar geared for women, no matter how solid their business plan, no matter how untapped the market they were targeting.

  Oh well, their loss. The Maypole had opened just over two years ago, a strong success from the first night they opened the doors. And yes, having her brother’s teammates hang out here had certainly helped, especially at first. But even without them, the place was a success. If Val’s comment upset the woman and she decided never to return, then oh well. Val wouldn’t miss her.

  But she couldn’t afford to make a habit out of insulting the patrons, no matter what her reasons were.

  If she even understood her reasons.

  Val returned to the podium and the new arrivals waiting there, managing to get them seated without any more insults. But her attention kept drifting back to the television, her focus more on the game than anything else.

  No, not the game. On Justin, and his unexpected phone call earlier.

  She hadn’t expected him to call. Almost didn’t want him to call because she had no idea what to say to him, not after the other night.

  When she pretty much tackled him then threw herself at him. In her office. Here. At work.

  Even now, the memory brought heat to her face, and it wasn’t just from embarrassment, either. No, definitely not just embarrassment. How was she supposed to act after doing something so…so…so completely out of character? It had been a blessing in disguise that he’d left for Buffalo the next day, that he wouldn’t be here at the restaurant and she wouldn’t have to figure out what to say or how to act or what to do.

  And then he called. And he had sounded…different, somehow. Not quite as lonely, not quite as lost and desolate. And then she had to make that whole stupid comment about his headache. No, he hadn’t been happy to hear that, not at all. Why couldn’t she have just kept her big mouth shut? She was twenty-eight years old, she knew better than to just blurt out whatever was on her mind. She’d been dealing with that flaw her entire life, she should know better by now.

  Except maybe it didn’t really matter, because he had asked her out for dinner anyway. And he was playing tonight, too, not that that had anything to do with running her mouth. But he wasn’t a scratch, and from what she could see, he was playing better than he had been the last few games.

  From what she could see, which really wasn’t much, not when she had to squint to see the television since she was all the way over here—

  “Go. Sit. Watch the game.”

  Val whirled around, nearly jumping at the voice just behind her. Jodi Randall, her friend and business partner, stood there, making shooing motions with her hands.

  “What? No, don’t be ridiculous. I’m fine.”

  “No you’re not. You’ve been standing over here all night, squinting at the television. Go watch the game.”

  Val didn’t want to comment, not when she knew Jodi was right. It was better to change the conversation. “If you’re here, who’s going to be behind the bar with Darrin if he needs help?”

  Jodi was a master mixologist, the brains behind their bar operation. And the question was obviously the wrong one to ask, if the scowl on Jodi’s face meant anything. She shook her head, frowned in the direction of the bar, then pulled her blonde hair behind her, twisting it at her neck. Val had the impression that Jodi wanted to twist Darrin’s neck instead.

  “Darrin can manage perfectly well on his own.”

  “Uh-oh. Does that mean there’s trouble in paradise?”

  “Sweetie, paradise came to an end a few weeks ago. Where have you been?”

  Val didn’t know what to say, hadn�
��t known what to say when the pair first started dating a few months ago. It was a never a good idea to date a co-worker. Never. Too much chance of something going wrong.

  But really, who was she to judge or criticize? Not three days ago, she jumped one of her brother’s teammates, one her brother’s friends, right here. In the restaurant. In her office. While people were on the other side of the door eating and drinking.

  Val shook her head to clear the memory and tried to smile at Jodi. “Really, I’m fine. You don’t have to take over—”

  “If you can’t admit you’re more interested in the game, that’s fine. Just tell yourself you’re doing it for me. I need the break. Now go.” Jodi nudged her out of the way, literally. Val stood there for a few seconds, not sure what to do. Then she just turned and headed to the bar, to the empty stool near the end so she’d be out of everyone’s way and still have a clear view of the television.

  It would be better if she could watch from the comfort of her own home, curled up on the sofa in her loose lounge pants with a nice glass of wine. That way, nobody would notice if she started paying too much attention to one player in particular. Or worse, started talking to the television. But she couldn’t do that, so this was the next best thing.

  Darrin gave her a nod of acknowledgement when she climbed onto the barstool then turned to grab the remote. He pointed it at the set, nudging the volume up just a bit. It still wasn’t loud enough to clearly hear but if she concentrated hard enough, she could make out enough.

  They were showing a replay, the announcers using their magic digital red pen to circle first one player then another. To Val’s surprise, Justin was one of the players being circled. She leaned closer, her eyes focused on the screen, her ears attuned to the faint voices of the announcers.

  “You can see the set-up right here, when Tome takes the puck behind the net. He sees Herron wide open, right there.”

  “That’s right, Joe. Tome makes a clean pass and Herron wings it, sending the biscuit straight to the back of that net. Great play. Great play by both of them.”