I simply can’t, and I won’t be that person; not anymore. Enough sulking and hiding from my nightmares, I need to face the land of the living again. And with the help and support of the people surrounding me, I can take this step forward.
“Yes,” I tell him, my voice firm.
My sister releases a squeal and is ready to hug me but I’m glad North blocks her. Shit. So much for not hiding behind him anymore.
“Let’s get one thing clear, Vienna,” North rumbles. “Distance. Reva needs it and you should respect it. That means you do not cross the personal space barrier unless she breaks it herself. No discussing shit she’s not ready for or hinting at or trying to drag out details. Kray, make sure your woman understands.”
“Shit,” I hear my sister sigh in regret. “I’m sorry, Reva. I didn’t think.”
Stepping out from behind North’s back, I tell her, “It’s okay. I just need some time to process things. As North said, some distance would be nice.”
“No, sure, really, no explanation needed, sis. I totally understand.” Vienna nods furiously and if she keeps on doing it, I’m sure her head will snap off.
Kray chuckles and pulls my sister close. “No worries, brother. I will keep an eye on yours while I keep mine in check.”
My sister’s head spins his way and she spears him with a glare, making me smile.
But before she can say anything, Kray tells her, “Why don’t you head into our kitchen and North’s to check what we have and what we don’t have? Then I can go get what you need before North heads out.”
Her hand goes to Kray’s chest and she rises on her tiptoes to place a kiss on his cheek. I’ve never seen the loving look my sister has in her eyes when she looks at Kray. And I must say, the way he returns it is equally as fierce. My chest expands with the knowledge these two are clearly meant for each other and I’m happy my sister finally found someone to share her life with.
The two of us have always been close. We share an apartment, work at the same job in the department, and were always together every single day. Until I was kidnapped. That was the longest time we’ve ever been apart.
I have to swallow due to the memories flooding my brain. Dammit, when are they going to stop flowing freely through me at the mere thought of being taken? My fists clench as anger overtakes me from feeling helpless in this. My sister dashes out of the room, Kray follows her and I’m glad they didn’t catch the panic raging through my body.
Strong arms circle me from behind. “Breathe, cupcake. Slow breath in, and release all that fucked-up shit as you blow it out. Good. Again.”
I close my eyes and focus on my breathing. His warmth and scent holding me in a safe bubble while I concentrate on the rumble of his voice. Slowly I regain control of myself and am able to push the ugliness out of my thoughts.
“I’m okay now,” I tell him.
I’m caught by surprise when he leans in and places a kiss on my neck. The side where my face is all messed up. I’m not sure he’s doing it on purpose—who am I kidding, I’ve quickly learned this man rarely does things without knowing—but by doing this he not only brings my body alive but it also gives me a confidence boost.
The way he doesn’t shelter me and picks this side instead of the unscarred one. The part of my face where the beauty still is which has gotten me too much attention from men at any given time. Compliments, hollers out on the street, any kind of attention where men are spiked by the outer beauty of a woman.
I guess it’s all over now. Jekyll and Hyde, two faces…destruction and serenity, beauty and beast, ugly and gorgeous; the whole two sides of a story is now the story of my life. But North doesn’t ignore or shelter this part, nor has he looked at me any different.
Maybe it’s because he hasn’t seen who I was before this happened. In the end it doesn’t matter, it’s how he makes me feel in the present. Another touch of his lips on my skin makes me shiver.
His fingers dig into my hips and his voice rumbles next to my ear. “I fuckin’ hate leaving you alone.”
“I’m not alone. Kray is here and so is my sister,” I tell him and have to step away from him or I’ll never be able to.
“Did you…” He mumbles something after those two words but my damn hearing won’t let me hear the rest.
I turn to face him so I can at least read his lips. “Sorry, I must have been locked away in my head…what did you say?”
When I take in his features it’s clear he swallowed the rest of his words instead of me not catching them.
“What is it?” I ask, a hit of worry hitting me.
He starts to rub his neck with his hands and finally asks, “When you say you checked into Broken Deeds and read stuff…did you…did you check out the members?”
I start to shake my head vigorously. “No, why would I do that? I only caught a hint of the legend of you guys going around how there’s an MC that the government uses from time to time to take on cases which no one can solve. Or those that are so high priority they need to be handled quickly. It’s quite intriguing for someone like me who can have information at the tip of my fingers. And I get bored a lot of the time. I checked and I easily found the hidden information how to contact you guys and the papers showing how Broken Deeds practically are above the law. Hell, I think you might be the most powerful people in this country to get things done fast without any obstructions or consequences. I was intrigued. And I knew about some old cases no one could solve but were just sitting there and the reason they were…I just knew they wouldn’t get solved unless you guys took them. That’s why I emailed some cases to the email connected with you guys. Also erasing my tracks so no one knew where it came from but I kept an eye out…you guys took them all and solved them. My sister was the only one who I told about it. She said I had a weird obsession. I had joked a few times about how if something happened to her, she would be happy I had a way to reach people who would be able to help us, but I didn’t even give her the information to contact you guys. And I never investigated any member.”
“Thank you,” he says with such intent, it makes me blush.
This whole thing has my stomach in knots. I never had any bad intentions when I dove into the background of the club. It’s just…I ran into a few cases where I suspected there was someone involved who was connected to the case and prevented the law from bringing the right person to justice.
I knew once I brought it to their attention Broken Deeds would make sure justice prevailed. And my hope was they also exposed the person who obstructed the investigation. That’s why I kept a file on my computer to keep up with the open and closed cases. I could hardly shove one after the other at them.
“Can I ask you another question?”
I smile and nod for him to let me know what’s on his mind.
“If I give you a burner, one that no one knows the existence of and only I have the number…would you take and use it?” There’s something vulnerable shimmering in his gaze as he holds me captive with his eyes. “You could reach out to me if something’s up. And I can text you to make sure I know you’re okay.”
Everything in me wants to say no. I don’t want anything to do with getting online or communicating through technology. Everything I loved to do repulses me now. But the thought of North leaving without having a way to reach out to him myself triggers a sense of unease.
“You would be the only one who knows that number?” I double check to make sure.
“Yeah, just me. Well, unless someone punches in the number by accident,” he tells me, and I can’t help but smile. He’s such a realist with his brain zeroing in on all possibilities.
“Obviously,” I tell him and roll my eyes, feeling less itchy about taking him up on his offer.
He steps even closer and leans in until our noses touch. “So, that’s a yes?”
Everything is on hold when he’s this close. It’s as if I’m being absorbed by his presence and I can’t control myself as I close the distance to connect our lips. Soft. H
is lips are so very soft until I can feel his chest rumble underneath the hand I placed on his chest.
One of his hands cups my neck, the other grips my hip as he roughly pulls me flush against his body. His tongue stabs between my lips, demanding entrance I freely give. His taste mingles with mine and I moan from the pleasure it unleashes inside me.
I probably imagine the growl ripping from him or it was really loud because I could feel it all the way to my pussy. Pleasure. Finally, something good I can draw energy from. Maybe it’s North or the lack of sex over the last couple of years. Who knows, but I’m seizing the moment. My fingers sneak up and slide into his hair.
I let my nails trail over his scalp and this time I can taste the rumble of his growl through our kiss instead of hearing it. I wish I could hear everything in this moment but on the other hand I can lock myself away completely to only focus on touch, taste, and the way my body reacts to his.
Both of his hands slide to my ass and he easily lifts me, allowing me to wrap my legs around him. I don’t want this moment to end, I want to be consumed. By him, by pleasure, by the way this man can swoop me off my feet and take away every single bit of worry taunting my brain.
Chapter 05
***North***
You know the feeling of doing something for the first time and relishing in the adrenaline high it gives you? Fuckin’ euphoria sizzling through my fingertips when they hit Reva’s bare skin. I’ve fucked, had sex, put my cock inside a cunt lots of times and in many different ways but the reason why my cock is practically digging a tunnel through my jeans to get to her is new.
New, because I feel the need to claim every damn inch of her body. With my tongue, fingers, cock, cum, teeth, my damn handprint in a red flush covering her ass. Raw lust is burning underneath my skin and even if I wanted to hold back, I’m sure it would be a lost cause.
I rip my mouth away from her addictive lips. “I need inside you and it will be rough and fast. I won’t hold back, I can’t,” I growl in a dark tone I hardly recognize as my own.
I back her up against the door and it falls shut behind her. I balance her weight as I reach in between us to free my cock. She’s wearing one of my old Broken Deeds shirts and the only thing preventing my cock from entering her is her damn panties. A scrap of silk I grip and with one rough pull the fabric gives way. I fist my cock and place it at her entrance before I palm her ass to balance ourselves.
“Yes or no, Reva?” I grunt, my cock already covered with her juices as the tip is starting to get sucked in by her sweet, hot pussy.
Not much of a choice but the way her body lights up underneath my touch and her nails clawing at my skin, I’d say we’re on the same page but I need to hear the words.
“Reva,” I snap, harder this time.
Her eyes open and she might as well be holding up a mirror to show me my own damn sea of desire I’m holding back for her. Her hands grip my shoulders and at the same time her heels press against my ass as her hips rotate allowing my cock to plunge deep.
Fuck.
Her head tips forward, nestling against my neck and the moan tumbling from her mouth, entering my ears…as if it’s flowing through my body and finding its way to my balls. They start to tighten already. Dammit, I’m close to blowing my load. My hips are moving frantically back and forth to plunge into her tight heat.
She bites down hard on the curve where my neck meets my shoulder and when she starts to suck? Man, it’s like the promise of a blow job; the effort to suck the cum right out. Her pussy starts to clamp down on me and I know she’s close but I’m seconds away from exploding myself.
I reach between our moving bodies, find that bundle of nerves and press hard while rubbing it simultaneously. And simultaneously is the keyword here because we both take the plunge into all-consuming pleasure. Bright white lights, electricity fueled by fire bursting through your veins, that kind of shit…the kind of shit I’ve never had.
Believe me, blowing a nut is great, but this? No. Fucking. Words. None. You know what else I don’t have? Strength. I’m absolutely drained and my knees buckle with Reva still impaled on my cock.
I take her with me to the floor and lie flat on my back as her legs fall beside my body while I brace mine up on the door. Fuck. Even this feels magnificent with her weight pressing on my chest as my cock softens and slides out.
Fluids start to drip and I suddenly realize, “Shit. I didn’t use a condom.”
She doesn’t move but mumbles, “I know you just said something because I felt your chest rumble…but I didn’t hear anything and I’m too tired to focus. We’ll talk later, okay? Give me a moment, I’m still enjoying this.”
Fuck it. Who cares about aftereffects when this feels so damn right? And her reaction makes me chuckle as well as ecstatic because I feel the exact same way. I still have my hands on her ass and can’t help myself when I knead her cheeks. She feels too damn good underneath my touch.
Her breath is flowing in short pants over the skin of my neck and the little groans of pleasure slipping out every now and then. They automatically draw the fingers of one of my hands down to her pussy. So. Damn. Wet. Allowing me to push two fingers inside her, slowly pumping as she writhes above me.
“So good,” she groans in a throaty voice that jerks my cock to full attention.
My fingers leave her and a sound rips from her body, telling me she’s not happy I’m withholding her the pleasure she was taking. I wrap my fingers—slick with her juices—around my cock and let it slide through her pussy.
I make sure to raise my voice when I say, “Lean back and ride me.”
She doesn’t have to be told twice and slides down my cock, taking every inch of me inside her as she raises above me. Fuck. She’s gorgeous. I start to tug at the shirt she’s still wearing.
“I need to see your tits, sweetness,” I croak, sliding my hands over her thighs, up her waist and they still as she pulls the fabric over her head.
The air is ripped from me by the sight of her breasts. Nipples sharp enough to poke right at me and… “I can already imagine these full tits being cupped by my hands, having them snug together while my cock slides through until my cum compliments their perfection,” I mumble to myself and lick my lips.
Reva leans forward, bringing my newfound toys closer to my mouth as she says, “Are you going to make good on your thoughts the next time?”
I can’t even muster a fucking answer because she takes them along with her as she leans back and starts to tug her own fucking nipples. A growl rips from my chest and I grip her hips hard, bouncing her with force up and down my cock.
Moans, pants, the slapping of sweat covered skin on skin fills the room right before Reva throws her head back and screams my name. When she does, she’s utterly captivating and triggers my own orgasm as wave after wave squeezes the fuck out of my cock. Damn. Who knew sex could be this damn good when you have a deep, sizzling connection with a person?
Our mutual high is cut short when loud knocking hits the door and Vienna’s voice fills the air, “Is everything okay? I heard yelling.”
She opens the fucking door and it’s a good thing my feet are still against it because I can barely kick it shut and keep it that way. Reva’s eyes widen and I’m not sure if she heard or knows it’s her sister standing on the other side of the door so I tell her without voicing the words; it’s your sister, trying to get inside because she heard screaming.
Reva’s head tips back and a full-blown laugh rips from her throat and fuck…the way she clenches her pussy around my cock because of it is making me groan. I already came twice, I bet this woman will be the death of me if she keeps this up because I can feel my cock wanting to get hard for her again.
The door handle moves again and this time I use my voice to keep Vienna out when I bellow, “My cock is still inside your sister, I’d say everything is more than o-fucking-kay.”
I can hear Vienna’s shock all the way through the door. Even if Reva is still laughing and I’m
pretty damn sure with me bellowing out my words Reva heard what I just told her sister. Fuck me. Carefree shit is the best damn thing life can give you.
In this moment there’s only good feelings wrapping around us. No haunting looks, no uncertainties of what’s to come or darkness that pulls us in. I take a few breaths to brand this into my brain, locking it into a memory I can regain strength from when I need it.
And when Reva’s giggles softly ebb as she glances at me through hooded eyes…I know I’m a slave, chained to her heart without a will to break free. “So fucking mine,” I croak and reach out to slide my fingers behind her neck and pull her down for a kiss.
I swallow her moan and can’t get enough of her taste. The way her tongue swirls around mine, dancing in a taunting way to take hold of my every thought. Like I said, if I’m not careful I’ll shoot some more cum inside her and she already received two loads, which reminds me; no damn condom. Shit.
“I don’t care if you two are doing the whole sex thing in there, Kray is on his way back and he told me you need to leave,” Vienna grumbles from the hallway.
The whole sex thing? Weird choice of words, ‘cause how does one even do half a sex thing? Reluctantly I drag my mouth away from Reva and raise my upper body. “I have to go. And your sister is fucking annoying.”
Reva releases a sound of frustration and it lightens my heart to know she didn’t want this to end either. She gets up and strolls right into the bathroom. Getting to my feet, I tuck my cock back in my jeans and straighten my clothes. I open the door and come face to face with Vienna.
Before I can say anything, she jabs a finger against my chest. “I hope you didn’t clean out the cobwebs between her legs as a pity fuck or a one-night stand because I will kick your ass if you hurt her.”
I lean into her face, my anger skyrocketing. “Shut your fucking mouth. If I ever hear you talk about her that way again, I will make Kray put you back in line. Under-fucking-stood?”
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