Circus of the Damned

by Laurell K. Hamilton

  "I'm on my way to the morgue now," I said.

  "I sent John ahead when I couldn't get you," Bert said.

  "How long ago?"

  "I called him after you didn't answer your beeper."

  "Call him back, tell him not to go."

  There must have been something in my voice, because he said, "What's wrong, Anita?"

  "We can't get any answer at the morgue, Bert."

  "So?"

  "The vampire may have already risen and killed everybody, and John's walking right into it."

  "I'll call him," Bert said. The connection broke, and I shoved the receiver down as we spilled out onto New Highway 21.

  "We can kill the vampire when we get there," I said.

  "That's murder," Dolph said.

  I shook my head. "Not if Calvin Rupert had a dying will."

  "Did he?"

  "Yeah."

  Zerbrowski slammed his fist into the back of the seat. "Then we'll pop the son of a bitch."

  "Yeah," I said.

  Dolph just nodded.

  Zerbrowski was grinning. He had a shotgun in his hands.

  "Does that thing have silver shot in it?" I asked.

  Zerbrowski glanced at the gun. "No."

  "Please, tell me I'm not the only one in this car with silver bullets."

  Zerbrowski grinned. Dolph said, "Silver's more expensive than gold. City doesn't have that kind of money."

  I knew that, but I was hoping I was wrong. "What do you do when you're up against vampires and lycanthropes?"

  Zerbrowski leaned over the back seat. "Same thing we do when we're up against a gang with Uzi pistols."

  "Which is?" I said.

  "Be outgunned," he said. He didn't look happy about it. I wasn't too happy about it, either. I was hoping that the morgue attendants had just run, gotten out, but I wasn't counting on it.

  15

  MY VAMPIRE KIT INCLUDED a sawed-off shotgun with silver shot, stakes, mallet, and enough crosses and holy water to drown a vampire. Unfortunately, my vampire kit was sitting in my bedroom closet. I used to carry it in the trunk, minus the sawed-off shotgun, which has always been illegal. If I was caught carrying the vampire kit without a court order of execution on me, it was an automatic jail term. The new law had kicked in only weeks before. It was to keep certain overzealous executioners from killing someone and saying, "Gee, sorry." I, by the way, am not one of the overzealous. Honest.

  Dolph had cut the sirens about a mile from the hospital. We cruised into the parking lot dark and quiet. The marked car behind us had followed our lead. There was already one marked car waiting for us. The two officers were crouched beside the car, guns in hand.

  We all spilled out of the dark cars, guns out. I felt like I'd been shanghaied into a Clint Eastwood movie. I couldn't see John Burke's car. Which meant John checked his beeper more than I did. If the vampire was safely behind metal walls, I promised to answer all beeper messages immediately. Please, just don't let me have cost lives. Amen.

  One of the uniforms who had been waiting for us duck-walked to Dolph and said, "Nothing's moved since we got here, Sergeant."

  Dolph nodded. "Good. Special forces will be here when they can get to it. We're on the list."

  "What do you mean, we're on the list?" I asked.

  Dolph looked at me. "Special forces has the silver bullets, and they'll get here as soon as they can."

  "We're going to wait for them?" I said.

  "No."

  "Sergeant, we are supposed to wait for special forces when going into a preternatural situation," the uniform said.

  "Not if you're the Regional Preternatural Investigation Team," he said.

  "You should have silver bullets," I said.

  "I've got a requisition in," Dolph said.

  "A requisition, that's real helpful."

  "You're a civvie. You get to wait outside. So don't bitch," he said.

  "I'm also the legal vampire executioner for the State of Missouri. If I'd answered my beeper instead of ignoring it to irritate Bert, the vampire would be staked already, and we wouldn't be doing this. You can't leave me out of it. It's more my job than it is yours."

  Dolph stared at me for a minute or two, then nodded very slowly.

  "You should have kept your mouth shut," Zerbrowski said. "And you'd get to wait in the car."

  "I don't want to wait in the car."

  He just looked at me. "I do."

  Dolph started walking towards the doors. Zerbrowski followed. I brought up the rear. I was the police's preternatural expert. If things went badly tonight, I'd earn my retainer.

  All vampire victims were brought to the basement of the old St. Louis City Hospital, even those who die in a different county. There just aren't that many morgues equipped to handle freshly risen vampires. They've got a special vault room with a steel reinforced everything and crosses laid on the outside of the door. There's even a feeding tank to take the edge off that first blood lust. Rats, rabbits, guinea pigs. Just a snack to calm the newly risen.

  Under normal circumstances the man's body would have been in the vampire room, and there would have been no problem, but I had promised them that he was safe. I was their expert, the one they called to stake the dead. If I said a body was safe, they believed me. And I'd been wrong. God help me, I'd been wrong.

  16

  ST. LOUIS CITY HOSPITAL sat like a stubby brick giant in the middle of a combat zone. Walk a few blocks south and you could see Tony Award-winning musicals straight from Broadway. But here we could have been on the dark side of the moon. If the moon had slums.

  Broken windows decorated the ground like shattered teeth.

  The hospital, like a lot of inner-city hospitals, had lost money, so they had closed it down. But the morgue stayed open because they couldn't afford to move the vampire room.

  The room had been designed in the early 1900s when people still thought they could find a cure for vampirism. Lock a vampire in the vault, watch it rise and try to "cure" it. A lot of vamps cooperated because they wanted to be cured. Dr. Henry Mulligan had pioneered the search for a cure. The program was discontinued when one of the patients ate Dr. Mulligan's face.

  So much for helping the poor misunderstood vampire.

  But the vault room was still used for most vampire victims. Mostly as a precaution, because these days when a vamp rose there was a vampire counsellor waiting to guide the newly risen to civilized vampire-hood.

  I had forgotten about the vampire counsellor. It was a pioneer program that'd only been in effect a little over a month. Would an older vampire be able to control an animalistic vampire, or would it take a master vampire to control it? I didn't know. I just didn't know.

  Dolph had his gun out and ready. Without silver-plated bullets, it was better than spitting at the monster, but barely. Zerbrowski held the shotgun like he knew how to use it. There were four uniformed officers at my back. All with guns, all ready to blast undead ass. So why wasn't I comforted? Because nobody else had any freaking silver bullets, except me.

  The double glass doors swooshed open automatically. Seven guns were trained on the door as it moved. My fingers were all cramped up trying not to shoot the damn door.

  One of the uniforms swallowed a laugh. Nervous, who us?

  "Alright," Dolph said, "there are civilians in here. Don't shoot any of them."

  One of the uniforms was blond. His partner was black and much older. The other two uniforms were in their twenties: one skinny and tall with a prominent Adam's apple; the other short with pale skin and eyes nearly glassy with fear.

  Each policeman had a cross-shaped tie tack. They were the latest style and standard issue for the St. Louis police. The crosses would help, maybe even keep them alive.

  I hadn't had time to get my crucifix's chain replaced. I was wearing a charm bracelet that dangled with tiny crosses. I was also wearing an anklet chain, not just because it matched the bracelet, but if anything unusual happened tonight, I wanted to have a ba
ckup.

  It's sort of a tossup which I'd least like to live without, cross or gun. Better to have both.

  "You got any suggestions about how we should do this, Anita?" Dolph asked.

  It wasn't too long ago that the police wouldn't have been called in at all. The good ol' days when vampires were left to a handful of dedicated experts. Back when you could just stake a vamp and be done with it. I had been one of the few, the proud, the brave, the Executioner.

  "We could form a circle, guns pointing out. It would up our chances of not getting snuck up on."

  The blond cop said, "Won't we hear it coming?"

  "The undead make no noise," I said.

  His eyes widened.

  "I'm kidding, officer," I said.

  "Hey," he said softly. He sounded offended. I guess I didn't blame him.

  "Sorry," I said.

  Dolph frowned at me.

  "I said I was sorry."

  "Don't tease the rookies," Zerbrowski said. "I bet this is his first vampire."

  The black cop made a sound between a laugh and a snort. "His first day, period."

  "Jesus," I said. "Can he wait out in the car?"

  "I can handle myself," the blond said.

  "It's not that," I said, "but isn't there some kind of union rule against vampires on the first day?"

  "I can take it," he said.

  I shook my head. His first fucking day. He should have been out directing traffic somewhere, not playing tag with the walking dead.

  "I'll take point," Dolph said. "Anita to my right." He pointed two fingers at the black cop and the blond. "You two on my left." He pointed at the last two uniforms. "Behind Ms. Blake. Zerbrowski, take the back."

  "Gee, thanks, Sarge," he muttered.

  I almost let it go, but I couldn't. "I'm the only one with silver ammo. I should have point," I said.

  "You're a civvie, Anita," Dolph said.

  "I haven't been a civvie for years and you know it."

  He looked at me for a long second, then nodded. "Take point, but if you get killed, my ass is grass."

  I smiled. "I'll try to remember that."

  I stepped out in front, a little ahead of the others. They formed a rough circle behind me. Zerbrowski gave me a thumbs-up sign. It made me smile. Dolph gave the barest of nods. It was time to go inside. Time to stalk the monster.

  17

  THE WALLS WERE TWO-TONE green. Dark khaki on the bottom, puke green on top. Institutional green, as charming as a sore tooth. Huge steam pipes, higher than my head, covered the walls. The pipes were painted green, too. They narrowed the hallway to a thin passageway.

  Electrical conduit pipes were a thinner silver shadow to the steam pipes. Hard to put electricity in a building never designed for it.

  The walls were lumpy where they'd been painted over without being scraped first. If you dug at the walls, layer after layer of different color would come up, like the strata in an archaeological dig. Each color had its own history, its own memories of pain.

  It was like being in the belly of a great ship. Except instead of the roar of engines, you had the beat of nearly perfect silence. There are some places where silence hangs in heavy folds. St. Louis City Hospital was one of those places.

  If I'd been superstitious, which I am not, I would have said the hospital was the perfect place for ghosts. There are different kinds of ghosts. The regular kind are spirits of the dead left behind when they should have gone to Heaven or Hell. Theologians had been arguing over what the existence of ghosts meant for God and the church for centuries. I don't think God is particularly bothered by it, but the church is.

  Enough people had died in this place to make it thick with real ghosts, but I'd never seen any personally. Until a ghost wraps its cold arms around me, I'd just as soon not believe in it.

  But there is another kind of ghost. Psychic impressions, strong emotions, soak into the walls and floors of a building. It's like an emotional tape recorder. Sometimes with video images, sometimes just sound, sometimes just a shiver down your spine when you walk over a certain spot.

  The old hospital was thick with shivery places. I personally had never seen or heard anything, but walking down the hallway you knew somewhere, near at hand, there was something. Something waiting just out of sight, just out of hearing, just out of reach. Tonight it was probably a vampire.

  The only sounds were the scrape of feet, the brush of cloth, us moving. There was no other sound. When it's really quiet you start hearing things even if it's just the buzz of your own blood pounding in your ears.

  The first corner loomed before me. I was point. I'd volunteered to be point. I had to go around the corner first. Whatever lay around the bend, it was mine. I hate it when I play hero.

  I went down on one knee, gun held in both hands, pointing up. It didn't do any good to stick my gun around the corner first. I couldn't shoot what I couldn't see. There are a variety of ways to go around blind corners, none of them foolproof. It mostly matters whether you're more afraid of getting shot or getting grabbed. Since this was a vampire, I was more worried about being grabbed and having my throat ripped out.

  I pressed my right shoulder against the wall, took a deep breath, and threw myself forward. I didn't do a neat shoulder roll into the hallway. I just sort of fell on my left side with the gun held two-handed out in front of me. Trust me, this is the fastest way to be able to aim around a corner. I wouldn't necessarily advise it if the monsters were shooting back.

  I lay in the hallway, heart pounding in my ears. The good news was there was no vampire. The bad news was that there was a body.

  I came up to one knee, still searching the shadowed hallway for hints of movement. Sometimes with a vampire you don't see anything, you don't even hear it, you feel it in your shoulders and back, the fine hairs on the back of your neck. Your body responds to rhythms older than thought. In fact, thinking instead of doing can get you dead.

  "It's clear," I said. I was still kneeling in the middle of the hallway, gun out, ready for bear.

  "You through rolling around on the floor?" Dolph asked.

  I glanced at him, then back to the hallway. There was nothing there. It was alright. Really.

  The body was wearing a pale blue uniform. A gold and black patch on the sleeve said "Security." The man's hair was white. Heavy jowls, a thick nose, his eyelashes like grey lace against his pale cheeks. His throat was just so much raw meat. The spine glistened wetly in the overhead lights. Blood splashed the green walls like a macabre Christmas card.

  There was a gun in the man's right hand. I put my back to the left-hand wall and watched the corridor to either side until the corners cut my view. Let the police investigate the body. My job tonight was to keep us alive.

  Dolph crouched beside the body. He leaned forward, doing a sort of push-up to bring his face close to the gun. "It's been fired."

  "I don't smell any powder near the body," I said. I didn't look at Dolph when I said it. I was too busy watching the corridor for movement.

  "The gun's been fired," he said. His voice sounded rough, clogged.

  I glanced down at him. His shoulders were stiff, his body rigid with some kind of pain.

  "You know him, don't you?" I said.

  Dolph nodded. "Jimmy Dugan. He was my partner for a few months when I was younger than you are. He retired and couldn't make it on the pension, so he got a job here." Dolph shook his head. "Shit."

  What could I say? "I'm sorry" didn't cut it. "I'm sorry as hell" was a little better but it still wasn't enough. Nothing I could think of to say was adequate. Nothing I could do would make it better. So I stood there in the blood-spattered hall and did nothing, said nothing.

  Zerbrowski knelt beside Dolph. He put a hand on his arm. Dolph looked up. There was a flash of some strong emotion in his eyes; anger, pain, sadness. All the above, none of the above. I stared down at the dead man, gun still clasped tight in his hand, and thought of something useful to say.

  "Do they give
the guards here silver bullets?"

  Dolph glanced up at me. No guessing this time; it was anger. "Why?"

  "The guards should have silver bullets. One of you take it, and we'll have two guns with silver bullets."

  Dolph just stared at the gun. "Zerbrowski."

  Zerbrowski took the gun gently, as if afraid of waking the man. But this vampire victim wasn't going to rise. His head lolled to one side, muscles and tendons snapped. It looked like somebody had scooped out the meat and skin around his spine with a big spoon.

  Zerbrowski checked the cylinder. "Silver." He rolled the cylinder into the revolver and stood up, gun in his right hand. The shotgun he held loosely in his left hand.

  "Extra ammo?" I asked.

  Zerbrowski started to kneel back down, but Dolph shook his head. He searched the dead man. His hands were candy-coated in blood when he was done. He tried to wipe the drying blood onto a white handkerchief but the blood stained the lines in his hands, gathered around his fingernails. Only soap and scrubbing would get it off.

  He said, softly, "Sorry, Jimmy." He still didn't cry. I would have cried. But then, women have more chemicals in their tear ducts. It makes us tear up easier than men. Honest.

  "No extra ammo. Guess Jimmy thought five'd be enough for some dumb-ass security job." His voice was warm with anger. Anger was better than crying. If you can manage it.

  I kept checking the corridor, but my eyes kept going to the dead man. He was dead because I hadn't done my job. If I hadn't told the ambulance drivers that the body was safe, they'd have put him in the vault, and Jimmy Dugan wouldn't have died.

  I hate it when things are my fault.

  "Go," Dolph said.

  I took the lead. There was another corner. I did my little kneel-and-roll routine again. I lay half on my side, gun pointed two-handed down the hallway. Nothing moved in the long, green hallway. There was something lying on the floor. I saw the lower part of the guard first. Legs in pale blue, blood-drenched pants. A head with a long brown ponytail lay to one side of the body like a forgotten lump of meat.

  I got to my feet, gun still hovering, looking for something to aim at. Nothing moved except the blood that was still dripping down the walls. The blood dripped slowly like rain at the end of the day, thickening, congealing as it moved.

  "Jesus!" I wasn't sure which uniform said it, but I agreed.