My lips slipped along the underside of his shaft and then flipped over the top again before repeating the movement. He loved it when I did this one. It was like getting two for one he’d told me before. I was happy to oblige my man and give him whatever pleasure he wanted from me. He always reciprocated in one way or another.
He pulled out of my mouth and stroked himself in front of me, letting his sweet sack hang just below my lips and then pressing softly against my mouth. I took the cue and wrapped my lips around one of his large, heavy globes. The sack was smooth and tight as I sucked at him. His large member loomed over me like a sundial. I reached up and stroked it hard as I continued to suck at him. I could feel the vibrations of his stalk reverberating down the shaft and into his sack in my mouth. It made the ball wiggle ever so gently inside of my mouth.
Kip stepped away from me and quickly said, “Baby, I have to get inside of you right now.”
I crawled up on the bed and he entered me missionary, placing my legs up over his shoulders and riding me hard. It felt amazing. The second his sweet member penetrating my core I began to tingle all over my body. It even made my toes curl under tightly as I tried to hold on.
Kip kissed me lovingly, even as he pumped himself into my tightness, he was still tender and loving the whole time. His mouth massaged mine with love, his lips pushing back and forth against my own, his sweet breath mingling with the aura of my very spirit and his arms caressing y back and shoulders as he held me closely against his magnificent form.
“I love you so much,” Kip whispered in my ear. “I will never spend another day without you by my side.”
I loved hearing him whisper those sweet words about the future. Yes, we would be together, and it would last forever. Of this I had absolutely no doubts at all.
Kip pumped into me harder still, his body getting worked up as I could see he was getting closer to a sweet release that would fill me up with more joy and pleasure than I ever thought I would deserve in my life. Yes, that was all I wanted in this world.
Kip pulled out of my center and moved my leg to the side. Then he entered me from behind as we both lay on our right sides. His arms were wrapped around me tightly while he penetrated me swiftly and sweetly, pausing at the end of every single thrust to let me absorb the entirety of the movement. I leaned back into them movement, my head resting on his shoulder as he nuzzled my neck softly. My large, breasts squeezed together and draped casually over his mighty forearms as he hugged me into the warmth of his being. His stiff rod penetrated my womanhood with expert depth and precision, triggering my inner tingles that would spread throughout my entire body.
His hands caressed my shoulders. The touch of his strong fingers gliding against my smooth skin was enough to bring me to ultimate arousal. My ass cheeks parted enough for him to enter repeatedly as I encompassed his package between them creating even more body heat amongst us.
He humped into me a bit harder now as his mouth found my bare shoulder above his caress and nibbled lightly against my skin, parting between the bites was his tongue. His slick oral pleasure center slid along against my sweet skin and traced the pulse up the shoulder into my neck where it met the jugular. I loved the way it felt. I dreamt of it often, the way Kip made love to me with his entire body leaving nothing to waste. My whole body became orgasmic in his embrace.
I closed my eyes as my breath increased and the sweetness of his love entered me over and over again triggering my body to climb up the pleasure center to the very top of it all. I wanted to come now. I wanted to release all of the pent up energy that had been boiling beneath the surface for so long.
Kip tilted my head back and kissed me softly, while his aggression pummeled my core even hotter. I was getting so wet, so tight, and he was so big inside of me. How was he able to fit it all inside of my tiny zone? Even after all this time I had to wonder. But I was so happy I was able to accommodate him.
“You are so amazing to me,” Kip whispered in my ear. “I’m going to come inside of you. Do you want that?”
“Yes, oh… yes…” I moaned.
“How badly do you want it?”
“More than anything…”
“Tell me exactly what you want,” Kip said, his voice barely above a hushed whisper as he kissed against my ear in between each word. His tongue draped against my lobe, sucking a tiny bit of the bottom into his ear. His breath gushed into my ear canal reminding me of his thing probing hard and fast in my main core.
“Fill me up with all of it… I want every single drop of you inside of me… please come… make me come… I love you so much… I need you, baby…”
My breath was coming in short gasps. It would barely allow me to say the words. While saying those words, my imagination was running wild and turning me on like crazy. My whole body was moving back and forth in a concentrated effort to spring forth the mighty seed from Kip’s body. I wanted his joy to mix with mine.
“I’m gonna come, baby,” Kip said. “Oh, I’m gonna fucking come!”
“Yes!”
“Shit! AAGGHH!” Kip yelled loudly as his body tremored and a moment later an eruption happened that joined his body and mine in a totally unique way. I felt his body grow longer and stiffer inside of my tightening vise of bliss as he showered my inner core with his powerful zest. My own pleasure was climbing, growing harder and faster inside until I was ready to burst now with pleasure.
“I’m there!” I shouted.
My climax hit me like a ton of fireworks exploding in my brain, each of them bringing waves of maximum pleasure coursing through my body. I couldn’t speak or even make any sounds. The breath had been taken from my body. I was shivering from head to toe even as my body froze in a rigid like state akin to being electrocuted, but only every jolt of electricity felt like I was having orgasm after orgasm in every single cell of my being.
My head felt like it was about to fall off my body and I wasn’t so sure that would have been a bad thing. My body was quaking now, rocking back and forth on Kip’s still hard stalk probing deeply inside of my sex and taking me on a journey that would last a lifetime in my memories.
And then it was soon over. Our bodies stopped shivering, and Kip stopped coming inside of me. Nothing left but the remnants of his mighty climax that had ripped in me and tore my threshold of reality. I was somewhere else in my mind now. I was just right with the world.
I laid there in peace now. It was all so peaceful. The quiet of the air conditioning even though it was cool outside, the hum of the air moving around us, the sound of Kip’s breathing on me and his heartbeat thudding in my chest as he held onto me.
He was still inside of me. His hug was soft and warm, a sweet embrace, interspersed with small moments of his movements inside and out of my body. Each one was slowly revving up my engine for another round, but my body was too spent. I didn’t think I could handle it if I tried again. I just needed some rest.
After several minutes of silence, I finally spoke. “So, how does it feel to know that you are going to be a father.”
“It feels great. It really does. And it’s funny, I never expected that I would ever want to be a father. But knowing that it’s happened now, I am not sure how I’m going to do it. I imagine there is a learning curve involved.”
I laughed. “Yeah, we’ll figure it out. But we are going to make mistakes. I just hope that they are mistakes that the kid is able to recover from. I mean, I don’t want the kid to end up warped or something because of something we did or didn’t do. So, yeah, I’m scared too.”
“It’s normal, I think. To be scared. I would ask my dad how he felt, but knowing him he probably didn’t feel anything. That’s just the way he is. And my mother is so vain and self-centered that I’m surprised if she even remembers my birthday.”
“That’s sad,” I said. “I have a good relationship with my parents.”
“Good, but what about your brother?”
“He is another story,” I said. “As far as I ‘m concerned h
e is dead to me and I am going to do everything I can to convince my parents to have him kicked out of the house.”
“Good, because I never want that man around our child.”
I wasn’t sure how that would play out. He was my brother and as much as I would try to keep him out of my life, if my parents didn’t kick him to the curb, then he would be there when I wanted to see them. But I didn’t want him around our kid either.
“I know. I feel the same way,” I said. “We will do everything we can to make that happen.”
“I wouldn’t put it past him to try to hurt the baby to get back at us somehow.”
“Right,” I said.
Would Billy really do that? He would do a lot of awful things and he had done many horrible things, but I wasn’t sure he would go that far. Yet, it did raise that concern in my mind as well.
I would never let that bastard near my kid if I could help it.
Chapter Nineteen
Kip
Two Weeks Later
I’d heard that a pro scout wanted to meet with me. This was the biggest news of my life. I’d been waiting to hear about this for years, ever since I was a kid and I decided that it was what I wanted to do with my life. I couldn’t believe all of the changes happening in my life.
But I wasn’t happy about all of them.
Alexa was pregnant. She was really having my baby. This changed things. I kept telling myself it was great news. I wanted to believe it. And I did… for a while. But once I heard this news, I began to realize how much I had been neglecting my dream, neglecting who I was and what I had been trying to accomplish in my life before I met Alexa.
I loved Alexa, and I wasn’t sure I could ever live life without her, but she was taking me on a journey to a place that I wasn’t sure I was ready to go to. I was only twenty-two years old. And now I was going to be with Alexa and a baby. I was too young to be a father. I’d never wanted to be a father, especially not right now, and now here it was. What was I going to do?
I would be expected to marry her. I wanted to marry Alexa…one day. I figured we’d have a long, lengthy engagement and then get married a few years from now. I was going to be in a position that I would be busy all the time with traveling and training. I wasn’t sure it was feasible to have that kind of a long distance relationship when I was on the road all the time. That’s why I wanted us to try a long engagement and see how that handled the new rules of the life I was now going to be leading. And if the relationship worked through that, then we could think about getting married and having kids one day. I didn’t want kids that I hardly saw. The hours were brutal. A lot of people had no idea how much work went into being a professional athlete. It was nonstop training, it was practice, it was studying films and other athletes, and it was a lot of traveling a big part of the year. There was a reason so many athletes got divorced.
But I was sure we could handle it. I just wanted to wait and see how things went. But with the baby coming, that changed things. That drastically amped up the timeline and now I was going to have the added stress of making this work to the stress of impressing everybody on my new team.
I’d almost forgotten that achieving NFL status was something that was actually going to happen for me. I wasn’t sure when, but I was determined to make it happen. I had to do it. I had no choice in the matter as far as I could see.
But that meant, I might have to break things off with Alexa. Was I really thinking about this?
“You sure that’s what you want to do? I thought you loved this girl,” Chance asked me. We were hanging out having a few beers. He was one of the few guys I actually trusted about talking to when it concerned real emotions and real, life drama. The guy had a great head on his shoulders. He’d even started dating a great woman, giving up that stupid celibacy thing that he had been instrumental in starting with Derek. It wasn’t panning out for either of them. I tried to warn them. The suckers…
“I do,” I said. “But, I just don’t think I’m ready for all of this. I… it’s getting too…”
“Real?”
I sighed. “Yeah, actually. It’s getting too real. I know that makes me sound like the biggest jerk in the world, but that is how I feel. I can’t marry someone and pretend everything is ok, just because it feels like the right thing to do. I know it isn’t. If I marry Alexa, then everything will blow up in our faces. It will cause hardship for her and for the baby.”
“Well, I’m not trying to tell anyone how to live, but I do see both sides there. Yet, I’m not sure you’ve looked at the other side.”
“What side?”
“Are you just afraid?”
I looked at him and shrugged. I took a sip off my beer. “I am afraid. What of it? I’ve got too much else going on right now. I need to think about my career.”
“Yeah, but if you’ve got a family, you have to think about what’s most important there, too. You have a decision to make.”
“But, I don’t want a family right now. I’m just not at that place in my life.”
“That’s what you are scared of. Twenty-two is too young to grow up that much. Hell, you’ve just started to live for you, right?”
“Right. That’s what I’m saying. I’m about to experience the wildest ride of my life if this contract comes through. I don’t want to be held back with a wife and kid, or even a serious relationship and child. That’s just something I don’t think I can handle right now.”
“Well, it’s ultimately your decision. It’s not an easy one, but you’ve got to decide what it is that is right for you. Even if it hurts, you can’t live for other people.”
“Yeah, but isn’t that the point?” I asked. “When a man is in this situation he does right by his woman and child?”
“True, but if he doesn’t want to be there, it’s not going to do right by them. It will just create a bitter, toxic environment for them. That’s not right either.”
I listened to what Chance was saying and I had to realize that he was right. There was no easy way out of this, but I had to end it with Alexa before things got too serious. I would absolutely support her and the baby financially but I could not be there for her emotionally anymore. I knew it was for the best. If I was to do that, she would soon grow to hate me and it would create resentment and negativity for her and the baby. Hell, for me too. This was not the environment that we wanted to raise a child in.
I went home that night and I called Alexa for her to come over. She was surprised to hear from me, since I told her I was hanging with the boys tonight. Really, it was just Chance and me having a few beers and a heartfelt conversation. He gave great advice.
I sighed heavily as I made the phone call and asked her to come over. I tried to keep my voice as steady as possible, but I was shaking like a leaf for the first time in my life. I’d never been this scared. I was afraid because of how I knew this would hurt Alexa. I was afraid of how it would scare her to death to be left alone with a baby. Ugh, could I really do this? What if I was just jumping the gun here? What was I really doing?
No. I’d been thinking about this for days now. Every time Alexa was with me, I couldn’t help thinking about how much pain she would soon be in if I chose to do this to her. Could I do this? I wasn’t sure. I never wanted to do anything to hurt her. I loved her so much. Could I actually go through with it? Would I be able to stand not having her in my life? I would miss her terribly. She was about all I thought about. And now I was about to throw all of that away. Had I really thought everything through? I just didn’t know. I was going to have to wing it and see what happened.
When I answered the door to Alexa’s arrival, I knew that it was going to be a short, painful evening.
I welcomed her in and led her to the couch. She noticed right away in my demeanor that something was not quite right. She had always been so smart, so easy to catch things that others might overlook. I wanted her so badly, but I had to remind myself why I was doing this. I was not ready to be a father and I was not ready t
o be in a relationship this serous. I’d been kidding myself before, allowing my heart and mind to get caught up in the whirlwind of it. It was like a drug, and I was hooked on it. I could not give it up easily. But I had to. This was the best thing for the both of us. Given time, Alexa would also see this.
“What’s wrong? Something’s been on your mind all week,” Alexa said. “I can tell.”
“You’re right,” I said. “There has been something. I should have talked to you sooner about it and I’m sorry that I didn’t. But this is very hard.”
Her face grew concerned. “What’s going on?”
“This isn’t easy to say, so I’m going to have to be blunt. It’s the best way.”
“Kip…you’re scaring me… what is going on?”
I took a deep breath and ran my fingers through my hair. I felt like I needed some fresh air and several drinks, but I sat there and powered through this. “I need to break up with you. This isn’t right for either of us.”
Alexa’s face turned the color of snow. Her cheeks sunk in and her eyes looked like they might roll up inside of her skull. I thought she might be ready to faint.
She cleared her throat as she held back the tears. “What are you saying?”
“I’m saying that it’s over. It has to be. This… this isn’t going to work out.”
“You are ending things with us? For real? You…no… you can’t be serious…”
She bent her head as if she was going to puke. Then looked up at me with tears in her eyes. This was breaking my heart. I couldn’t stand to see her this way. I wanted to stop and take it all back, to tell her I was sorry. I was just scared and this was a horrible mistake. I did not want to do this.
But I didn’t say anything. I just waited for a moment, waited for her to calm down slightly and for me to get the nerve to continue. “I am serious. I’m sorry. This is the way it has to be. I can’t be a father right now. I’ve got too many things on my plate. It wouldn’t be fair to the baby. It wouldn’t be fair to you. Surely, you can understand that, right?”
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