She is Fierce

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by Ana Sampson


  Did not think about my roots,

  Forgot what it meant to be planted.

  A poem in which I realize they may try to cut me down,

  That I must change with the seasons,

  That I do it so well

  It looks like they are changing with me.

  A poem in which I remember I have existed for centuries,

  That centuries are far too small a unit of measurement,

  That time found itself in the forests, woods and jungles.

  Remember I have witnessed creation,

  That I am key to it.

  A poem in which some will carve their names into my skin

  In hopes the universe will know them.

  Where I am so tall I kiss the sun.

  Trees cannot hide,

  They belong to the day and to the night,

  To the past and the future.

  A poem in which I stop looking for it,

  Because I am home.

  I am habitat.

  My branches are host and shelter

  I am life-giver and fruit-bearer.

  Self-sufficient protection.

  A poem in which I remember I am a tree.

  Ruth Awolola

  ‘We’ve had a whirl and a blast, girl’ – Friendship

  Some alliances, especially when we are young, have a sharp edge of competition, as seen here in Rhian Edwards’s ‘Polly’ or Kate Tempest’s ‘Thirteen’. Friendship, as Polly Clark finds, is not always as easy as pop culture promises, though its influence on us is often immense. Throughout our lives, the relationships we forge with our friends are some of the most deep, enduring and important: ‘For this,’ writes Elizabeth Jennings, ‘all Nature slows and sings.’

  Here are poems that express the unbeatable feeling of escaping with a partner in crime, from Helen Burke’s playtime gallops to Jean Tepperman’s yell of girl-gang exhilaration:

  ‘We are screaming,

  we are flying,

  laughing, and won’t stop.’

  Here are hymns to long lifetimes of friendship from Jackie Kay and Catherine Maria Fanshawe. Hannah More immortalizes the Bluestockings, gathering in a serene tea-fuelled rebellion to discuss topics considered too challenging for women at the time. Here, too, are poems that remember a glorious shared history, and show long-distance love being sent in letters and even in a fragrant Christmas pudding.

  5th Dudley Girl Guides

  Your plain faces are lovely as bunting

  in the sunlight while you pitch your tents

  calling each other to pull guy-ropes taut

  crawling easy as lads lifting

  the silver pole inside the green canvas.

  I would like to be you again, just for a moment,

  catching another wench’s smile like a frisbee

  raising your flag in the expectant air.

  Liz Berry

  Thirteen

  The boys have football and skate ramps.

  They can ride BMX

  and play basketball in the courts by the flats until midnight.

  The girls have shame.

  One day,

  when we are grown and we have minds of our own,

  we will be kind women, with nice smiles and families and jobs.

  And we will sit,

  with the weight of our lives and our pain

  pushing our bodies down into the bus seats,

  and we will see thirteen-year-old girls for what will seem

  like the first time since we’ve been them,

  and they will be sitting in front of us, laughing

  into their hands at our shoes or our jackets,

  and rolling their eyes at each other.

  While out of the window, in the sunshine,

  the boys will be cheering each other on,

  and daring each other to jump higher and higher.

  Kate Tempest

  Lacing Boots

  They were narrow, beautiful.

  We laced them with finesse.

  At lunch hours, pretended we were skaters.

  Foreign – mystical enchantresses.

  We ran them through the long garden,

  down the cinder track, then, through

  the wildest stretch, to the tennis courts

  and back again.

  Folding them, the soft skin doubled over.

  Back into our secret locker. In bold

  brown brogues we re-appeared

  at Latin, double French and Scripture – just as we were

  to all around, our feet and hair, neat,

  fastened firmly down.

  Only ourselves aware that outside two gazelles

  were running still,

  through the long grass towards

  the tennis courts – and on.

  Helen Burke

  Witch

  They told me

  I smile prettier with my mouth closed.

  They said –

  better cut your hair –

  long, it’s all frizzy,

  looks Jewish.

  They hushed me in restaurants

  looking around them

  while the mirrors above the table

  jeered infinite reflections

  of a raw, square face.

  They questioned me

  when I sang in the street.

  They stood taller at tea

  smoothly explaining

  my eyes on the saucers,

  trying to hide the hand grenade

  in my pants pocket,

  or crouched behind the piano.

  They mocked me with magazines

  full of breasts and lace,

  published in their triumph

  when the doctor’s oldest son

  married a nice sweet girl.

  They told me tweed-suit stories

  of various careers of ladies.

  I woke up at night

  afraid of dying.

  They built screens and room dividers

  to hide unsightly desire

  sixteen years old

  raw and hopeless

  they buttoned me into dresses

  covered with pink flowers.

  They waited for me to finish

  then continued the conversation.

  I have been invisible,

  weird and supernatural.

  I want my black dress.

  I want my hair

  curling wild around me.

  I want my broomstick

  from the closet where I hid it.

  Tonight I meet my sisters

  in the graveyard.

  Around midnight

  if you stop at a red light

  in the wet city traffic,

  watch for us against the moon.

  We are screaming,

  we are flying,

  laughing, and won’t stop.

  Jean Tepperman

  Polly

  The gap between your teeth became my ambition,

  as did your bias for fountain pens,

  rubbing your nose with the ball

  of your hand. That succession of clicks

  where the bone seemingly turned.

  I always wondered at the violence

  you gave your cropped hair, yanking a fistful

  of it down to your shoulder, a modest trick,

  the pretence of decrying yourself

  while delivering a lavish answer.

  I secretly warred with you in French

  and English though never destined

  to beat you. Still, we were able to share

  the teacher we loved and code-named

  Cornelius, as we watched him on Fridays,

  buy flowers at the bus station.

  We both lived for the pauses

  where we composed ghost stories

  for each other, promenading the playground,

  our arms linked and unbreakable.

  How I admired the mess you made,

  your massacre of books, the pencilled
r />   note at your bedside, toasting you

  for completing War and Peace

  by the age of eleven. What I wouldn’t

  have given for your attic scatter,

  the names of your sisters,

  your fountain pen handwriting, the turgid

  lettering I mimicked in secret

  and now pass off as my own.

  Rhian Edwards

  To D.R.

  Beyond the bars I see her move,

  A mystery of blue and green,

  As though across the prison yard

  The spirit of the spring had been.

  And as she lifts her hands to press

  The happy sunshine of her hair,

  From the grey ground the pigeons rise,

  And rustle upwards in the air,

  As though her two hands held a key

  To set the imprisoned spirits free.

  Laura Grey

  To Mrs K., On Her Sending Me an English Christmas Plum-Cake at Paris

  What crowding thoughts around me wake,

  What marvels in a Christmas-cake!

  Ah say, what strange enchantment dwells

  Enclosed within its odorous cells?

  Is there no small magician bound

  Encrusted in its snowy round?

  For magic surely lurks in this,

  A cake that tells of vanished bliss;

  A cake that conjures up to view

  The early scenes, when life was new;

  When memory knew no sorrows past,

  And hope believed in joys that last! –

  Mysterious cake, whose folds contain

  Life’s calendar of bliss and pain;

  That speaks of friends for ever fled,

  And wakes the tears I love to shed.

  Oft shall I breathe her cherished name

  From whose fair hand the offering came:

  For she recalls the artless smile

  Of nymphs that deck my native isle;

  Of beauty that we love to trace,

  Allied with tender, modest grace;

  Of those who, while abroad they roam,

  Retain each charm that gladdens home,

  And whose dear friendships can impart

  A Christmas banquet for the heart!

  Helen Maria Williams

  Friendship

  Such love I cannot analyse;

  It does not rest in lips or eyes,

  Neither in kisses nor caress.

  Partly, I know, it’s gentleness

  And understanding in one word

  Or in brief letters. It’s preserved

  By trust and by respect and awe.

  These are the words I’m feeling for.

  Two people, yes, two lasting friends.

  The giving comes, the taking ends

  There is no measure for such things.

  For this all Nature slows and sings.

  Elizabeth Jennings

  from Essay on Friendship

  To Artemisia. – ’Tis to her we sing,

  For her once more we touch the founding string.

  ’Tis not to Cythera’s reign nor Cupid’s fires,

  But sacred Friendship that our muse inspires.

  A theme that suits Aemilia’s pleasing tongue:

  So to the fair ones I devote my song.

  The wise will seldom credit all they hear,

  Though saucy wits should tell thee with a sneer,

  That women’s friendships, like a certain fly,

  Are hatched i’the morning and at ev’ning die.

  ’Tis true, our sex has been from early time

  A constant topic for satiric rhyme:

  Nor without reason – since we’re often found

  Or lost in passion, or in pleasures drowned:

  And the fierce winds that bid the ocean roll

  Are less inconstant than a woman’s soul:

  Yet some there are that keep the mod’rate way,

  Can think an hour, and be calm a day:

  Who ne’er were known to start into a flame,

  Turn pale or tremble at a losing game,

  Run Chloe’s shape or Delia’s features down,

  Or change complexion at Celinda’s gown:

  But still serene, compassionate and kind,

  Walk through life’s circuit with an equal mind.

  Of all companions I would choose to shun

  Such, whose blunt truths are like a bursting gun,

  Who in a breath count all your follies o’er,

  And close their lectures with a mirthful roar:

  But reason here will prove the safest guide,

  Extremes are dang’rous placed on either side.

  A friend too soft will hardly prove sincere;

  The wit’s inconstant, and the learn’d severe.

  Good breeding, wit, and learning, all conspire

  To charm mankind and make the world admire,

  Yet in a friend but serve an under part:

  The main ingredient is an honest heart.

  Mary Leapor

  Friends

  It showed how friendship

  doesn’t end (like when

  Emma and I watched

  eight episodes in one go)

  though outside my window

  the climate was changing

  and in my experience

  people found each other

  quite easy to take or leave.

  The day after the last episode

  they ran them all again,

  protecting me, it seems.

  I keep just one from

  two-hundred-and-thirty-six.

  It’s the one where Ross says,

  but this can’t be it,

  and Rachel says,

  then how come it is?

  and he sinks to his knees with his arms

  around her legs and the camera

  moves slowly back

  and they hold the shot

  for a long time

  before the theme tune begins.

  Polly Clark

  from The Bas Bleu

  Hail, Conversation, soothing power,

  Sweet goddess of the social hour!

  O may thy worship long prevail,

  And thy true votaries never fail!

  Long may thy polished altars blaze

  With wax-lights’ undiminished rays!

  Still be thy nightly offerings paid,

  Libations large of lemonade!

  In silver vases, loaded, rise

  The biscuits’ ample sacrifice!

  Nor be the milk-white streams forgot

  Of thirst-assuaging, cool orgeat;

  Rise, incense pure from fragrant tea,

  Delicious incense, worthy thee!

  Hannah More

  Introductions

  Some of what we love

  we stumble upon –

  a purse of gold thrown on the road,

  a poem, a friend, a great song.

  And more

  discloses itself to us –

  a well among green hazels,

  a nut thicket –

  when we are worn out searching

  for something quite different.

  And more

  comes to us, carried

  as carefully

  as a bright cup of water,

  as new bread.

  Moya Cannon

  When Last We Parted

  When last we parted, thou wert young and fair,

  How beautiful let fond remembrance say!

  Alas! since then old time has stolen away

  Full thirty years, leaving my temples bare. –

  So has it perished like a thing of air,

  The dream of love and youth! – now both are grey

  Yet still remembering that delightful day,

  Though time with his cold touch has blanched my hair,

  Though I have suffered many years of pain

  Since then, though I did never think to live

  To he
ar that voice or see those eyes again,

  I can a sad but cordial greeting give,

  And for thy welfare breathe as warm a prayer –

  As when I loved thee young and fair.

  Catherine Maria Fanshawe

  Long Departure

  Then I said to the elegant ladies:

  ‘How you will remember when you are old

  the glorious things we did in our youth!

  We did many pure and beautiful things.

  Now that you are leaving the city,

  love’s sharp pain encircles my heart.’

  Sappho

  Fiere

  If ye went tae the tapmost hill, Fiere

  Whaur we used tae clamb as girls,

  Ye’d see the snow the day, Fiere,

  Settling on the hills.

  You’d mind o’ anither day, mibbe,

  We ran doon the hill in the snow,

  Sliding and singing oor way tae the foot,

  Lassies laughing thegither – how braw.

  The years slipping awa; oot in the weather.

  And noo we’re suddenly auld, Fiere,

  Oor friendship’s ne’er been weary.

  We’ve aye seen the wurld differently.

  Whaur would I hae been weyoot my jo,

  My fiere, my fiercy, my dearie O?

  Oor hair micht be silver noo,

  Oor walk a wee bit doddery,

  But we’ve had a whirl and a blast, girl,

  Thru’ the cauld blast winter, thru spring, summer.

  O’er a lifetime, my fiere, my bonnie lassie,

  I’d defend you – you, me; blithe and blatter,

  Here we gang doon the hill, nae matter,

  Past the bracken, bothy, bonny braes, barley.

  Oot by the roaring Sea, still havin a blether.

  We who loved sincerely; we who loved sae fiercely.

  The snow ne’er looked sae barrie,

  Nor the winter trees sae pretty.

  C’mon, c’mon my dearie – tak my hand, my fiere!

  Jackie Kay

  ‘My heart has made its mind up’ – Love

  Love has always preoccupied poets. Most anthologies are stuffed with goddesses. Glimpsed but not grasped, they are the idealized objects of breathless infatuation immortalized by, usually, male writers. Christina Rossetti and Elizabeth Siddal answer that stereotype sharply here. The artist – in this case, Dante Gabriel Rossetti, brother to one and husband to the other – feeds on his misunderstood muse, worshipping her face while ignoring her feelings.

 

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