Off To War (War Between The States)

by Sara R. Turnquist

  Table of Contents

  Title

  Copyright

  Dedication

  Chapter One - News

  Chapter Two - Shipping Out

  Chapter Three - Battle

  Chapter Four - Prisoner

  Chapter Five - Danger

  Chapter Six - Reunited

  Chapter Seven - Remembering

  Chapter Eight - Vows

  Chapter Nine - Honesty

  Chapter Ten - Wounds

  Epilogue

  Also from Sara R. Turnquist

  Acknowledgements

  Other Works

  Bio

  OFF TO WAR

  Sara R. Turnquist

  Off to War

  by Sara R. Turnquist

  This is a work of fiction. Names, places, characters, and events are fictitious in every regard. Any similarities to actual events and persons, living or dead, are purely coincidental. Any trademarks, service marks, product names, or named features are assumed to be the property of their respective owners, and are used only for reference. There is no implied endorsement if any of these terms are used. Except for review purposes, the reproduction of this book in whole or part, electronically or mechanically, constitutes a copyright violation.

  Copyright © 2016 Sara R. Turnquist

  All rights reserved.

  For my Mother, who first instilled in me a love of the written word. And who has read everything I have written.

  Chapter One

  News

  THE WAR WAS all anyone could talk about these days and Elizabeth was tired of hearing about it. Especially since the whole thing was altogether ridiculous. The South didn't have an ethical leg to stand on. Who in his right mind would think it just to own another person, to sell another person, to beat another human being, to separate someone from his or her family? It was obvious the Union had the moral high ground. And then for the Southern states to just leave? Secede from the Union indeed! Unimaginable! Yet it was happening. And now Americans were killing Americans. It was unthinkable.

  Turning to John, she hoped she might engage him in less ghastly conversation. But to her surprise, she found him rather fixed on the exchange. Strange, she had never known him to be so interested in the goings-on of war. Then again, he was always looking for stimulating conversation. So, she was consigned to be a party, albeit a silent party, to all this talk of war.

  Tucking an errant, blonde curl back into place, she noticed a loose pin in her hair. With gentle fingers, she secured it once again. A glance in her mother's direction warned her that her ministrations had been noticed. Placing her hands in her lap, she refocused her attention on her and John's fathers as they continued their discussion.

  After what seemed like hours, the dessert plates were taken and the men stood, preparing to retire to the men’s lounge. Only John remained by his seat as he rose.

  “If you will excuse me, Dr. Thompson, Father, I hoped I might take Elizabeth for a stroll.”

  Elizabeth's eyes shot to John's face. What an unexpected indulgence! How long had it been since they had taken an evening stroll? Several weeks? She forced herself to remain in her seat and keep her hands in her lap, lest she betray her excitement. One glance at her mother’s sharp gaze reinforced her need to retain a ladylike posture.

  Dr. Thompson exchanged a look with John's father, Dr. Taylor. A smile passed between them.

  Elizabeth's father nodded before stepping away from the table.

  “Please take an outer covering, Elizabeth,” her mother insisted. “It's still rather chilly out.”

  “Yes, Mother.” Elizabeth stood, careful to slow her movements.

  John offered his arm, a warm smile spread across his features.

  It did melt something in Elizabeth, perhaps the iciness of the ceremony upon which she stood. For as she took his arm, she allowed her exterior to crack and returned his grin. Maybe with her back to her mother, she hadn’t noticed.

  Moments later, draped in her cape, and without further ado, Elizabeth and John were off. They stepped out of the house and onto the sidewalk. Elizabeth took a deep breath, glad to be free of their parents and of having to stand on any form of ceremony save one. Amanda, one of the housemaids, followed along, serving as their chaperone. But it wasn't the same as having her mother looking over her shoulder. For all intents and purposes, it was just the two of them.

  Glancing over at John, she drew closer to him, wrapping her arm even tighter around his. He offered her another smile, placing his free hand on hers that captured his arm. Her heart fluttered being so close to him.

  Closing her eyes, Elizabeth clasped the cross that John had gifted her one long-ago Christmas. He was everything to her: best friend, confidante, beau, and, unofficially, fiancé. The features of his face, his dark brown eyes, square jaw, chiseled nose and brow, and brown hair, were as familiar to her as her own reflection.

  Elizabeth allowed her mind to wander back to their conversations of late. She and John had talked and dreamed about marriage, but nothing had been set in stone. This was not for fear of their parents' reactions. Quite the contrary. Their parents would be all too happy to hear of their plans. For now, it was their secret. It was, perhaps, a poorly kept secret. She would wager almost anything their parents expected their intentions to marry.

  Together they strolled down the street, Amanda trailing behind, enjoying the fine weather and beautiful scenery, making small talk. It wasn't long before John turned toward the park. As always, Elizabeth enjoyed the easiness of these moments. They covered benign topics such as the weather and the goings-on of their families and mutual friends.

  Once they entered the park, John found a bench for them to settle on. Amanda chose one far enough away to afford them some level of privacy, yet close enough to maintain a proper chaperonage. John helped Elizabeth arrange her cape so she was covered and warm. It was an unnecessary worry. With him beside her, the coolness of the evening was the last thing on her mind.

  A silence fell between them.

  “How were your rounds today?” she offered into the quiet that had befallen them.

  John had just completed medical school and was interning at the nearby hospital.

  “Fine,” he replied, not offering anything further.

  Such a simple response was quite unusual. He always had a couple of cases to discuss with her. When they were younger, they poured over their fathers' textbooks together. And she had done her share of helping him study during his tenure in medical school. It had become a game of sorts for him to detail the cases he had seen that day and let her attempt to diagnose the patients. Yet this evening he remained silent. Why? Whatever was on his mind weighed heavily.

  “Do you want to talk about it?” She tested the waters.

  He stared off into the distance. “We visited a wing of the hospital that cares for wounded soldiers.”

  “Oh.” Her voice was just above a whisper. How horrible.

  “It was unlike anything I had ever seen before…bodies mangled…” He shook his head. She knew he didn't want to impress any more imagery on her.

  “I can't imagine what that must have been like for…” She reached out to touch his arm.

  He interrupted her, his words rushing from him. “And so today I enlisted in the Northern regiment.” His eyes held hers. They were serious.

  Her heart dropped. What could she say? How could he make such a decision without talking to her first?

  He stood and stepped away from her before turning back to face her. “I know. I know. I should have said something to you first. It was terrible, Lizzie, the pain, the death. What those men needed was more help on the front lines. That could ha
ve saved limbs. That could have saved lives. How could I not offer my skills to help so many?”

  “I understand.” How could she be so calm? It seemed as if she watched herself from outside her body. Then her voice began to break. “But I can't…I don't…that is…I…”

  “It's all right.” He sat down and pulled her into his embrace.

  “What of our plans?” she managed through tears.

  “I still want to marry you.” He pulled back and cupped her face. “So much.”

  “Then let's get married now, before you go.” The words fell out of her mouth almost before she thought them. A tingle shot through her. What did she just say? Get married in the next few days?

  John cocked his head as he studied her features.

  Elizabeth knew that look. She couldn't hide her trepidation from him. He would know she didn't want to throw a wedding together in a few days any more than he did, rush through a honeymoon, and then spend their first married year separated for who knew how long.

  “That would make me happy. Truly happy,” he said. “But I won't make you a war bride. And I won't risk making you a young widow.”

  Why would he say that? She reached up, placing her fingertips on his lips. “Don't talk like that.”

  He captured her hand in his. “It's a real possibility.”

  There seemed to be a hole forming in her chest where her heart had dropped. It ached. She threw herself into his arms. “I won't think like that. I can't!”

  Elizabeth remained in his embrace for a few moments. What must Amanda think? It didn’t matter. After some moments, John pulled back only far enough to look at her. He hooked his finger under her chin to tilt her head toward him.

  “Remember, I love you,” his voice was firm and confident.

  “Always and forever?” She sniffed.

  “Always and forever.” He pressed a kiss to her lips.

  * * *

  Abigail Thompson sat in her favorite chair in the family parlor, working a cross-stitch that would become a decorative pillow. She enjoyed this craft as it gave her ample time to work things out in her mind as she worked the thread with her hands. If only everything could work out as easy and clean as her designs did! Her mind wandered amidst the ornate décor of her parlor, but her thoughts dwelt on how weary she had grown of watching her daughter mope around the house these last few days.

  Since the night of John's big announcement, Elizabeth moved about her days as if she were thousands of miles away. Always sad, always downhearted. Abigail could only imagine the pain her daughter went through knowing her best friend and beau would soon be off to the war, perhaps never to return. It could not be an easy prospect to face. Indeed, they were all shaken by the news.

  She admired John's decision to fight for his country, to stand for the principles for which the Union stood. Still, she couldn't agree with his decision to leave. As he neared the end of his internship, the prospect of his future lay before him. There was so much good he could do right here in Boston. So many people here needed him. Including Elizabeth.

  Gentle footfalls neared the parlor. Abigail paused her work. Whoever dared disturb her solitude stopped just behind her chair. She turned as Amanda came around to face her.

  “Excuse me, ma'am. I have the menu for this evening.”

  Abigail set her cross-stitch in her lap and, smiling up at the girl, encouraged her to continue. “All right.”

  “Roast, potatoes, carrots, green beans, yeast rolls, and custard dessert,” Amanda recited.

  “Everything sounds fine indeed.”

  Amanda curtsied and took her leave.

  Every night since John made known his intentions to join the Northern army, the Thompsons and Taylors had dined together. John insisted on spending every available moment with Elizabeth. Even now, she was due back from the hospital. She spent her midday there to take lunch with him. Of late, their lunches had become more drawn out. It was doubtful that any of John's supervisors minded, considering the circumstances.

  But no matter how long they were together, Elizabeth always returned in a sullen mood. Whatever did they talk about? What did one talk about when you were off to war in a handful of days?

  Just then, the front door creaked. Had she returned finally?

  “Elizabeth!” Abigail called out.

  “Yes, Mother?” she heard from the direction of the foyer.

  “Would you join me in the parlor?”

  “Of course.” Elizabeth let out a deep sigh. She sounded so tired. No — weary, fatigued.

  Moments later, Elizabeth came into the parlor, countenance as downcast as ever.

  Abigail's heart broke for her daughter. “Please, sit with me for a while.”

  Elizabeth nodded, taking a seat on the settee near her mother's chair. Folding her hands in her lap, Elizabeth looked at the floor. Was she truly as disinterested in her mother’s words as she seemed? It was clear all she wanted to do was escape to her room.

  Abigail put her cross-stitch to the side. “Tell me. How was he today?”

  Elizabeth’s gaze wandered toward the window. “Just as he always is…excited about the difference he's going to make.” Was it Abigail’s imagination, or was there a hint of exasperation in Elizabeth’s voice?

  “Perhaps he will make a difference. I'm sure he will save lives.”

  Elizabeth became quiet and turned her attention to her hands, still in her lap.

  “But it doesn't help your heart to hear that, does it, darling?”

  Elizabeth shook her head and fresh tears appeared at the corners of her eyes.

  Abigail reached out and took her daughter's hand. “Do not fear for him so, Lizzie. I understand that the doctors are kept far from the front lines in the camps where they can do the most good. He will be out of harm's way.” She watched for even a glimmer of hope that she had assuaged Elizabeth’s fears in the slightest.

  “John said as much, too. But I don't know if I can take it. Not knowing day to day if he is well. If he is alive, or…” The sentence was choked off by Elizabeth’s sniffles.

  “I know, darling, I know.” Was her voice tender enough? Or was she still the distant mother she had become with Elizabeth?

  “If only I could go with him…” Elizabeth started.

  “Shhh!” Abigail patted her hand. “Darling, you know that's not possible. Women of our station do not say such things. We will support him in the ways we can. You can join a booster or write letters.”

  Elizabeth nodded, but said nothing further.

  Did Elizabeth think that Abigail didn’t understand? She did. Elizabeth wanted to go with him. But that wasn't possible. Taking another long look at her daughter, she confirmed that Elizabeth's tears had dried, replaced by a look of determination. There now, they would work together to support the cause. And that would be the end of it.

  * * *

  Henry Moore stood in his family's parlor, hanging his head, not able to brace himself against the tidings he had just received. It couldn't be so. He looked over at his wife, Martha. She had shut her eyes against the news their seventeen-year-old son brought. The color drained from her face and she reached for the arm of the closest chair. Was she going to faint?

  Reaching out, he helped ease her into the chair and left his hand on her shoulder. Perhaps that would give her some comfort.

  If only time would stop so they did not have to endure the pain of what lay ahead. The parlor whirled for several seconds. This room, filled with happy memories of family times spent together, would now forever be scarred with the memory of this exchange.

  Their son, his bright-eyed boy Jacob, barely a man, had enlisted to go to war. Oh, he was old enough to be recognized by the state as a man, old enough to serve. So they could do nothing but let the fears come, and Martha, it seemed, did nothing to stop them.

  How could he do this to his hapless parents? He was too young to understand the ramifications of what he had done. But, of course, the Union army didn't see things that way. No, he
was nothing more than one more soldier added to their roster today. That was the price of war.

  Henry and Martha’s older son, Benjamin, had already gone off to war months ago. At that time, they had been proud of his bravery and respected that he wanted to fight for his country. But he was a grown man! And they had been naïve to the burden of having a son at war. Every day after had been a lesson. Since the last time Henry saw his face, he feared for Benjamin’s safety every minute of every day. But at least he'd had Jacob at home. Until now.

  “Mother, I promise, I'll make you proud. Just like Benjamin!”

  Martha shook her head.

  So that was it. He had seen how pleased they were when Benjamin signed on. Had he been counting down the days until his enlist date? Did he think this was what they hoped for? This was the last thing Henry wanted.

  “You don't understand, Jacob, I can't…”

  Henry’s grip tightened on Martha’s shoulder, cutting her off. This was not the way to handle things.

  “We are proud of you, son. You've done us both proud,” Henry said, doing his best to keep his voice steady. “I think your mother is just surprised. We both are.”

  “I know I should have said something first, but I wanted to surprise you,” Jacob said.

  “You certainly did that.” Henry smiled at Jacob.

  Underneath it all, he hoped Martha would understand. He did not want to sound cold and heartless to her pain. No, he understood what she was going through. But the deed was done. And now Jacob needed their support.

  How could she give that? One look in his wife’s face and he knew. All she wanted to do was scream. But she would have to lean on her husband's wisdom no matter how her heart cried out against it. At this point, there was no going back.

  “Do you think they'll put me in Benjamin's regiment?” Jacob asked, his voice hopeful.

  “No. Not likely,” Henry said, his voice even.

  Jacob's features dropped. Had that not occurred to him?