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Translations from Memory

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by Fred D’Aguiar


  The ones who laughed and the ones who cried.

  Cynics & Skeptics

  1

  What I see with my jaded eyes

  tells me nothing about my heart

  just as what I feel tells me nothing

  about what I profess to see

  the hand is quicker than the eye

  I do not know for sure what I think

  I think I know my mind until

  I see dew lit on morning stone

  2

  I feel what I see and try to think differently

  about both nerves and eyes,

  one hand in the hot tub, other in the snow.

  I smell my past when I glimpse cut grass.

  Or is that the other way around?

  Fill in (using a 2b)…

  I know there is a trade route

  that leads from my life now

  to my first death way back when.

  Epicureans & Stoicism

  1

  Left to hang out and dry on a clothesline,

  her separates dipped in a salt marsh, fingernails

  pared down to the quick and beyond the quick,

  2

  for that half-moon glow, that beaded blood

  look on fingertip as if metatarsal

  struck matchstick self to sprout red, wet flames.

  Romany

  Asked for an earthquake

  got a tsunami

  asked for fire and brimstone

  got water searching for a home

  asked for sun and got rain,

  for nothing begets nothing in return

  asked for a toga, a toga is not enough

  without underwear,

  nothing more than a sheet folded

  hospital corners around bony skin,

  blood rage in homeless circling

  satellite HIV body.

  Plotinus

  Three-layered wedding cake

  crowned with a couple whose lowest layer

  a miniature hand scrapes for a taste

  before that couple steps off their pedestal

  to slice that cake for houseguests

  as that child pivots hands behind back

  face covered in telltale crumbs of who me, not me.

  Catholics & Jews

  1

  Drank the blood of mine enemy,

  tasted a morsel of his flesh

  and called him Saviour, Father to me.

  What to do with his bones?

  Hollow them for a flute, eke out a tune

  for a living, made so it tugs

  purse strings of souls gathered

  under one roof with a steeple

  aimed at outer space where

  God (it’s a g-thang) hides His face.

  2

  It isn’t the hair

  It isn’t the land

  It is the hair

  On a plait of land

  It isn’t the part

  On the scalp of the sea

  It is the part

  Played by the sea

  Of obedient hair

  On a willing head

  Of an element

  Lighter than air

  It isn’t the hardship

  Of a thousand years

  It is those years

  Rock-hard shipshape

  St Benedict

  This is how we roll: in flaxen robes, hooded,

  room in the sleeves to fold our arms.

  We chant what we keep

  close to our chests: a hand dealt us

  what we must play, never mind

  our daze, bluster, grace.

  Welcome, sit, eat what we eat,

  sing if you find what we say moves you,

  whatever, you will, like yesterday, find us

  here tomorrow, and the day after that,

  all’s the same with us or without

  us, in our circle, or lost someplace

  outside it, for it cannot be named,

  help us look for a song you can sing,

  have a bite, a little something to chase it

  down, not to mention a bed for the night.

  Gregory The Great

  Axe in one hand splits heads

  text in the other hand parses syntax,

  sorts woods from trees,

  meaning in a mushroom grove,

  umbrellas

  for a picnic,

  inhale,

  nibble;

  sip, swallow,

  take notes.

  Mushrooms so big

  Greg shelters under them

  from a thin rain sweetened

  some, by falling through

  sieves of honeycombs.

  Was there ever human so torn

  between apparent opposites

  who made a reversible garment

  from the two for all seasons?

  Dark Ages

  Cupped

  candle

  flame

  wind bundles

  before armies

  invade

  bringing thunder

  without

  lightning

  dead

  flame followed

  by its after

  glow

  empty upturned

  rigormortis

  hands curl

  fingers

  harvest

  battlefield

  bones

  Islam

  1

  I used a scythe to cut a star

  from a sky full of such fruit

  found that the more I cut down

  more fruit lit up on that sky tree

  2

  de man can talk de man can think

  de man use up nuff black an blue ink

  de man spin plates balanced on rods a dozen

  plates on a dozen rods

  they can’t stop talk we won’t block ears

  just as plate-spin keeps us all eyes

  Hannibal

  Crossed the Alps.

  Did he hypnotize

  elephants to believe

  they were mountain

  goats on a mission?

  They say elephants

  remember everything.

  They say from that day

  all elephants nose

  their way across,

  from this world

  to the next, from

  this flesh to that nether

  body, akin to phantom

  limb memory.

  The Alps should have

  Known better than

  To cross Hannibal.

  St Thomas Aquinas

  Is there a pig more beautiful

  than the lucky swine complimented

  by Aquinas as godly, equal in said eyes to every

  living thing, great and small, upright or on all fours,

  on land, in sea or air, whispered so that the pig

  must have felt Aquinas’ breath on her

  sow’s ear, warm, urgent, incontestable exhaled truth

  independent of understanding, immediately after that

  compliment, seeped in one ear and out the other,

  shipped off to market, to market?

  Franciscans

  If I sing unevenly

  If I draw friendly fire

  Draw blood from a friend

  Take my hand

  Think of my tongue

  As doing no more

  Than the following

  Daily pull bucket from well

  For one watersong

  After another

  For I will be one

  With my split tongue

  Bucket tied to well

  Renaissance

  Give me a pig-foot, a cockspur, a bell,

  three cockleshells, and a bottle of your finest.

  No bread, no water. Give me a drum,

  a scrum, a song and dance, a rap, tap, rat-tat-tat.

  No vaccines, no antibiotics. Give me life.

  Me, no self, not I, just exploded lil’
ole me

  and mistress, Mrs. Jones.

  Galileo’s Snowflake

  Burst from a pillow fight, high up out of sight, earshot.

  Jar we’re in, air so still, for this flotilla in straight lines,

  No curlicues, no twirls in front a mirror, just up down,

  But so very slow, it might as well be a sideways thing,

  To stack imperceptibly, hand-over-ears muffle

  In a library of powder, onion layers, skin on skin,

  Keeping the world tucked in, underground,

  Buried without bearings, we listen hard

  For the start of this brittle splinter of glass

  Strands on a head of hair made entirely of glass

  Sprinkling almost-notes, more than halfway there,

  Plastic crinkle mixed in whispers, sand-coated wood,

  Until these bubbles we cannot see form an orchestra

  For bubbles born and bubbles dying, us humans extra.

  Machiavelli

  The enemy of my enemy is my friend,

  the friend of my friend is no good to me if he is not the friend of my enemy

  The deal is, you take this beating heart and make of it what you will;

  in return, when you give it back to me

  at the end of your long and prosperous

  journey – what length, what prosperity – I do with it as I please. What’s not to like?

  Erasmus

  Now you see me, now you

  choose not to and so don’t.

  Why do you still search?

  I have told you everything

  I know you need to know,

  about me, what I do not

  know, you do not need, if you find

  what you seek your life will turn

  sour like milk left out too long,

  you cannot see it turn bad,

  unless you take my mood

  for milk, as something you

  should not stare at, but glimpse,

  unless you are me.

  More

  Or less with less as more,

  he is blessed who sees the score

  etched on tablets in the sky,

  light as cirrus tiptoeing by,

  able to ride lightning

  down to earth, full of thunder,

  replete with dirt.

  More is less without a home

  More is ash in fire and brimstone.

  Need I say, need less, is more.

  Reformation

  All things

  polished

  prismatic

  creatures

  caged

  or free range

  all things

  cracked

  turned dingy

  history

  ours

  made them small

  Burton’s Anatomy

  The hipbone connected to the thighbone

  The thigh connected to the knee

  The kneecap connected to the shinbone

  The shin connected to the foot

  The sole peeled from the foot

  The hipbone connected to the backbone

  The back connected to shoulders

  The shoulders connected to the arms

  The arms connected to the hands

  The lifelines peeled from the hands

  The hip connected to the back

  The back connected to the neck

  The neck connected to the skull

  The scalp peeled from the skull

  With a blunted instrument

  Slavery Intro

  Cup candle against a shower of arrows

  carry that flame by eating the wick

  with a lick and a spit from parched lips

  coddle a flame burgeoned by a candle

  waxed by the smelt by the melt of the dead

  My skin for a lamp skin pores for eyes,

  tremble fine hairs on skin cupped by eyes,

  singed from staring down fire too long

  from standing too near flame salt lick

  for smell for heat as my eyes burst

  butterflies their flung bedspread

  far double wide, no pink slip nor moon glide

  oh me, oh my, exploded long gone,

  no soul, but two nailed to my feet,

  no spirit, fermented blood, wafer flesh.

  Come again, on a train I hold together

  welded carriage to carriage,

  on two sleeperless tracks, unparalleled,

  who cups a candle against, not for,

  always against, some thing or other.

  Tidal

  1. After The Duchess of Malfi

  Long before I meet my end in that Robert Browning poem

  As that creepy Duke’s last wife, her laugh is mine, her gaze

  Too, eager to take in all things. The artist who worked on me

  Saved what the Duke threw away. I dodge him by going back

  In time to earlier and earlier examples where people like me,

  Who left this world without proper names find our lives

  Footnoted in ruminations on their greatness by others

  In church registers, court records, witness accounts back,

  Back to Gilgamesh whose cuneiform mimic our bones.

  Our bodies in that story, our breath a chorus of readers,

  Touch of their touch, eyes laid on us, picked up by sight.

  Us two joined, taken out of time, place, flung into space.

  2. (Gravesend, Kent, 19 February 1603. Frances, the mulatto, was buried.)

  Man, woman, or child,

  The record says you died

  That you lie in Gravesend,

  Literally, your grave, your end.

  I feel rude to do it but I must

  Call on you, call you up

  To help me in my need

  To know more about you.

  Man, woman or child,

  You must stand now for all three:

  Man and woman and child.

  I need all of you to help me

  Come to grips with a time

  That had you cut out for labour,

  Until you dropped dead

  And your soul flew up

  Above Gravesend,

  Kent, Dover,

  For Africa

  Where your story

  Begins.

  Your cradle.

  Our civilization.

  Us burning the candle at both ends.

  3. Dear Mary Shelley

  I scramble your Frankenstein. Lift him from the

  Of his science lab. He had a heart before he was born,

  Switched off the moment he rolled me from that stone slab.

  He tilts towards me and I catch him as he tips forward.

  We dance like this, me grappling with his weight.

  He holds on, looks tipsy he’s so awkward, and we move

  Back earlier, two of us now, not just me, another version

  Of what happens to someone like me, this time black man,

  Black woman, black child in a court record, a church register

  Someone’s will, if not Pepys’ Diary. Ever been to the doctor

  And have someone answer all the doc’s questions for you,

  Telling the doc where, what, and how you feel, tongue-tied?

  4. Mayday, Liverpool.

  A good day for a parade: sun and cloud

  Taking turns to sweep the sky.

  I march to drums, walk in dance steps

  All the way from Toxteth Library

  Down to the docks where I dipped

  My feet in the Mersey to school them.

  Limbo dancer limbo for me

  Under the deck and over the sea

  The drums shipped me back to Africa

  The dance held me in its sway

  I dipped my feet in the Pleiades,

  Swam among the Atlantic drowned

  Thrown overboard off seventeen thousand

  Voyages in the Middle Passage.

  L
imbo dancer limbo for me

  Under the deck and over the sea

  5. Dreamboat

  My friend Julian built a boat in his living room.

  Said he would sail it on the river.

  Took months of coming home from work

  To launch his project. Saw it take shape

  As if moulded from water, mini Ark, budding belly.

  At last he applied the finishing touches.

  Found he could not navigate it through

  That front room window. So he removed

  Said window. Friends helped him

 

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