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Translations from Memory

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by Fred D’Aguiar


  Ancestor bones

  Too many to count

  Road I walk

  With gills

  Lidless eyes

  George Seferis

  With seashell to ear,

  An eye for every shell

  Happened upon, sought,

  Chased, on a balcony

  Overlooking a square.

  A fountain invites

  Young and old to idle

  For a cool breeze wet

  By that artificial spring,

  Seagulls shuffle on tiled

  Roofs and wrought lamps,

  Poised to swoop for crumbs,

  If someone throws some

  Thing worthy to stir and flap,

  Beaks clawing the ground.

  GS, cold sweat flowers

  Your shirt, your noose

  Handkerchief cannot

  Stem rings that widen

  At armpits and crotch.

  Now you pick up a shell,

  Lean your heavy head,

  Press shell hard to ear

  For the sound of the sea,

  For the beat of your blood.

  Lorca

  Stands by a trench, his chest opens

  To the aim of a firing squad.

  He has no name when he falls

  Among other young men.

  His books run from him

  To shelter among library shelves,

  Where hushed tones and the odd

  Chair scrapes on the wooden floor,

  And versions of Lorca open gaps

  On shelves and fill them back up.

  Where the trench of spines

  Packed in neat rows calls for

  The steady fire of a gaze;

  The sure gaze of fire.

  Hitchcock’s Vertigo

  On their first date, after midnight,

  He insisted they climb to the roof,

  Up the rusty fire escape lashed

  To the west side of a ten-story

  Redbrick disused shed

  So that they could view the city

  As the city never wanted to be seen –

  From its dying industrial backend.

  Once there, she walked to the edge,

  Sat, legs draped over the side. He

  Stood, glued to the middle, unable

  To budge. She spotted phosphorus

  Adrift in the river, picked out by moon,

  Scattered so, sky became a current

  Steeped with stars dead long ago,

  Funeral arrangements pending.

  Aime Cesaire

  Back to skin as a suit

  Stitched by history,

  By candle and moon.

  Back to skin for a name

  For the nameless ones

  Who otherwise look

  Beautiful, who share

  One name for men,

  Women and children,

  The very old, the baby,

  King and commoner,

  The dead and unborn.

  The same skin sings

  As if held between lips,

  Or if the tongue twisted,

  Folded around air.

  The same skin called

  For freedom for all names

  Walked away from bones,

  From flesh, from blood,

  Behaving like a kite

  Cut from a long string,

  Gripped by a black child,

  A kite angling across fields.

  Calvino

  What did you mean by eponymous,

  When you described that city on the hill

  Modeled after a cloudscape, adrift,

  Whose architects wore togas and crowns?

  I’ve worn away the heels of countless

  Practical shoes trying to find out,

  My head tipped to receive the right signal,

  Eyes glued to my feet, arms ready to break

  My fall, steps without footfall, not gingerly,

  With my inner ear cooking up the interior

  Of a conch shell I need two hands to steady

  As I pour its air into mine, so gravity whispers,

  Much like turning a sock inside out and feeding

  My foot into it so that it ends up around my foot

  Right side out, no room left for air, fabric

  For skin I can peel off and change at will;

  Nothing like seeing the city from high up

  Through a wine glass that turns the whole place

  Upside down and miniaturised to grace

  A nimble wrist, not dainty, too many veins,

  Not dipped in any pond, and certainly not pale,

  A wrist that invites my lips to the point

  Where a butterfly appears trapped under skin

  That’s raceless, genderless, equal and true.

  Our King James

  C.L.R. in his rocker holding forth on Shelley

  Who put the r in radical as much as the p.

  At The Albany I raved with a master drummer,

  Ballerina and light technician before a live

  Audience of likeminded and polite souls.

  Riding home from the all night workshop

  In a city polished by sun, I opened the throttle

  Of my 250 and sang to a four-stroke engine.

  Those years lined up, hook and sinker, without end.

  Time was a pulse, an ah, and a hum, picked up

  In another’s thighs next to my seashell ears.

  I walked on air most days, and slept so sound,

  set in threes, out of harm’s way, rattled

  Me awake for my shift, on locked Ward Five.

  Martin Carter

  Peered over the rim of his spectacles.

  He knitted his brow.

  He threaded his fingers in mock prayer.

  The world map

  Turned from red to brown to black

  And blue, drained of empire.

  Across the trench in the shantytown

  Children race old tyres with sticks,

  Washing sags a line strung from

  Pillar to post, a ribbed stray dog

  Forages, a child answers to his name

  Called from a windowless frame

  By a woman who issues a threat

  About what would happen if she

  Calls again, a cut-tail, a licking,

  A curse and a blessing in disguise.

  Maybe it was Martin’s eyes, his stare,

  That made the map lose its focus.

  Mercator changed to Peter’s

  As his eyes swiveled from above

  The rim of his specs to below.

  Sargasso Sea

  Antonio

  Your sea of lentils

  Turned over afterhours at the Lord Jeffrey

  A prism at the bottom of a whisky

  Rhys peered back at us

  Beside her great house in ruins

  It would take years for this

  Stare down to dissolve

  Make peace with broken glass

  Smoothed by endless voyages

  Their thrown silk of Africans

  Forced to keep squid company

  Bones returned to sand

  Steps erased by waves

  Our glasses raised to spirits

  Islanded in attic and seabed

  For a foolproof burn

  Barefoot skip midday sun

  Mandela

  Made me believe in a salmon’s waterfall climb,

  Grizzly claws and jaws dodge, and spawn,

  Where so many salmon spawned before.

  Made me see the toot in Toots and the Maytals

  When I-and-I scene enough for two lifetimes,

  And the scales, the weighted scales, fell from my eyes.

  Made me taste the just in justice, in coconut water

  Offered lukewarm in the green nut, which his cutlass

  Cracked in two while he held it, and I scraped jelly

  Using a spoon carved by him from th
e husk of the nut;

  He touched me and I had no idea until it dawned

  On me that his bony forearm draped my shoulders,

  Radius and ulna no heavier than scentless orange sun,

  A messenger sun, chasing me on my morning run.

  Diderot, Two

  Did a row or two on Ocean

  Drive in my dreams

  Barefooted thru

  Sand from gold castaway

  By evolution

  My back to the city

  I steered – so it seemed

  As I stared at containers,

  Their neat stanzas straight

  Out of Mandalstam,

  Lined up, equidistant,

  Offshore, in orderly fashion,

  For a pew in the port,

  One ship, a destroyer,

  Whose grey camouflage

  Made the sea change it’s mind

  From accommodation

  To despair and then some,

  And gather all the zinc roofs

  Of shacks in nearby Liberty

  City into one blinding flash

  Raising water in my eye,

  Until I looked away,

  Marched away, back to

  Another day, my back

  To the sea, swell, shush,

  The sea’s reggae dance,

  One step forward,

  Two steps backward,

  Inna Babylon.

  Walter Rodney

  Land of many waters

  Flow from his pores

  Land of seven peoples

  Breathe through his skin

  Walter at Speaker’s Corner

  Sundays practicing

  All waters all peoples

  Channeled this man

  A stick bends in water

  But does not break

  A people grows as branches

  On a tree with miles of roots

  Walter not water

  I wash my face and head

  In your name

  Refresh my time with yours

  Cut short cut down

  But the roots remain

  And more trees

  Spring up in your corner

  More rivers branch out

  More people arrive to hear

  Faces open as the day

  Yours met London

  And liked what you saw

  And saw what you liked

  To take back home Including

  groundings with brothers,

  Sisters and a party to your name

  But bombs stop flesh

  While spirits branch out

  Airborne and underground

  Take root and prosper

  Passed from hand to mouth

  To heart to flesh and blood

  Trans Coda

  A boy posted on a boat at sea

  This boy is and is not me

  As his vessel dips towards

  Curved horizons so curves

  Rise and back away

  Both keep their distance

  On a table cleared of hours

  Just two parts to the water

  Days diving for coins

  Nights seeing this zinc ripple

  A dozen children in a hammock

  Sing in a yellow submarine

  Ropes creak and eat into posts

  Of a house on stilts floors swept

  By a grandmother’s floor-length dress

  Fresh bread every morning

  A curried air most evenings

  Lunchtime empty smell

  Mosquitoes scoot for shelter

  Rob that child of a prized halo

  Yes to the alligator lodged across

  Said trench and oops for bare feet

  That stepped on what they took

  For a log that shifted and reared

  Making those feet cycle in air

  I woke with all this and tried

  All morning to shake it off

  My head and still a part of me says

  No I do believe what I remember

  Yes I do not remember what I believe.

  Yeats, Eliot, Pound

  I roll up long sleeves

  Dare to eat a kumquat

  Tell myself, convert

  Eyes to bifocals

  Store other I in a briefcase

  Limbo lower

  Palms swing chariots

  Stilts hoisted blueward

  Brushes rinse sun

  Catch rain

  Bring beach sound

  Marrow for my bones

  Yesterday, I sent you

  On an errand.

  Eyes thrown over shoulders

  For any trace of your return.

  Tomorrow, promise me

  You will not do the same

  Thing before today runs out.

  Handful of water I try to grab

  But come up hands empty

  Every time. Light I swipe my hat

  To fill, only to pillow air.

  Should I wait for the current

  To smooth broken glass

  On the beach or take a chance

  And sprint, b-line, for the water?

  He rolled. We shared a smoke

  And a private joke. One about

  Snake and mongoose. Both sly.

  We went back and forth

  In a calypso, he took up where

  I trailed off in a singsong

  That as we smoked grew

  Raucous, tickled deep,

  We must have seemed (to that group

  Of clubbers dressed too sparse

  For the climate and who hushed as

  They sauntered past) a couple

  Of giggling old queens.

  DW

  Channel Derek thus –

  The bivalves of my heart

  Jump for joy at the sight

  Of lemurs crossing a jungle parapet

  Baked with dew as they hold

  Limbs, joined for upright balance

  Weighed by light that scales

  This jungle in a steeplechase

  Without end, if the annals

  Crafted by the ancients hold water

  Rising from lemur instep

  As if exhaled by a tired earth

  Too long in a giving frame

  Too much with hope that takers

  Learn from breathing in

  And might seek to even out

  Things some, hand-in-hand,

  Back scratch for back scratch,

  Just as that light operates its trowel

  So that what the earth gives

  We gratefully receive and return

  With interest in our children.

  KB

  Mike up Kamau so –

  Bow to gods behind

  Bulletproof glass

  Sun breaks stones

  Dashed at skin

  Peeled from flesh

  Shaken off bone,

  Bow to oil tankers

  Parked offshore

  Beside bank account,

  That part seawater

  Erase international datelines

  Pull umbilical chords from

  Newborn countries

  Till they snap

  Back strap IMF

  World Bank debt

  Think oil tanker

  Snap-chat or Instgram

  Cut vocal chords

  Now how, bowwow?

  Uniformed guards trail me

  At boutique malls

  I breathe shallow

  Square my shoulders

  Against their hunch

  Align my spine

  With history lived below

  Deck as much as above

  The now in, now out, navel

  Ready for cotton bud

  Wielded by love.

  About the Author

  Fred D’Aguiar was born in London in 1960 to Guyanese parents. He grew up in Guyana, returning to England in his teens. He trained as a psychiatric nurse before reading African and Caribbean Studies at the
University of Kent, Canterbury. He was Judith E. Wilson Fellow at Cambridge University and has been shortlisted for the T.S. Eliot Prize. He is also the author of four novels, the first of which, The Longest Memory (Pantheon, 1994), won both the David Higham Prize for Fiction and the Whitbread First Novel Award. His plays include High Life (1987) and A Jamaican Airman Foresees His Death (1991), which was performed at the Royal Court Theatre, London. Mr Reasonable was broadcast on BBC Radio 4 in 2015.

  Fred D’Aguiar was Judith E. Wilson Fellow at Cambridge University from 1989-90 and has taught in the United States since 1992, where he has been Visiting Writer at Amherst, Massachusetts (1992-4), Assistant Professor of English at Bates College in Lewiston, Maine (1994-5), and Professor of English and Creative Writing at the University of Miami. He was Professor of English and Gloria D. Smith Professor of Africana Studies at Virginia Tech State University. In 2015 he became a Professor of English and Director of Creative Writing at UCLA.

  By the Same Author

  Fred D’Aguiar’s poetry books include

  Mama Dot (1985)

  Airy Hall (1989; winner of the Guyana Poetry Prize)

  British Subjects (1993)

  Bill of Rights (1998; shortlisted for the T.S. Eliot Prize)

  An English Sampler: New and Selected Poems (2001)

 

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