The Brave

by Nicholas Evans

  "Karen?"

  She turned to look at him and he saw she was close to tears.

  "I'm so sorry if that's what you think," she said.

  "I don't. Please come and sit down."

  "Because it isn't true."

  "Please."

  She walked slowly back to the table and sat down, her arms still tightly folded.

  "Shall we have some of the world's best ice cream?" he said.

  "No, thanks. I couldn't."

  "I want to tell you about Danny."

  "Please, Tom. You don't have to."

  "I want to. Honestly I do."

  He filled her glass with wine and then leaned back in his chair and began. He spoke, briefly, of his divorce and the gradual estrangement from his son. Of how jealous he'd been of Dutch. About the resentment and guilt and the shocking argument they'd had over Danny's enlisting. Then he confessed the true purpose of his visit to California and gave her Danny's account of what had happened on the night of the killings. And she listened without once interrupting and when he had finished he could see she was moved. She reached out across the table and took his hand and they sat like that for what seemed a long time, neither of them speaking. All but one of the candles had gone out.

  "Thank you," she said quietly.

  Tom nodded and smiled.

  "Does he have a good lawyer?"

  "Just the one the military gave him. I said from the start he ought to have someone independent. But Gina and Dutch won't hear of it."

  "What does Danny think?"

  "To begin with he agreed with them. But now he thinks he's being made a scapegoat, he's not so sure anymore. We've got to find him someone good."

  She was still holding his hand. Tom gently disengaged.

  "It's getting cold," he said.

  Despite his protests she insisted on clearing the table and carrying the dishes back into the kitchen. She even loaded them into the dishwasher for him.

  "The vacuum cleaner's over there in the closet when you're done," he said.

  She laughed and turned to face him and they stood for a moment looking at each other. It was only fleeting but he knew from the look in her eyes that if he were to step toward her and kiss her, there would be no rejection. What stopped him he wasn't sure. Maybe it was simply the difference in their ages or else some lingering doubt about her motives.

  "Your mom will be wondering where you are."

  It was such a crass remark he cursed himself even as he uttered it.

  "Wow, yeah. Don't want to get grounded."

  "I'm sorry. I didn't mean—"

  "No, you're right. It's time I was going."

  He walked out with her to her car and she thanked him for dinner and said she'd enjoyed herself. Makwi had come out with them and Karen O'Keefe stroked her and said goodbye then gave him a chaste kiss on the cheek. Tom stood and watched her drive away until the taillights vanished and the silence slowly reconfigured. He glanced down and saw Makwi staring despondently up at him. You blew it, the dog was telling him.

  "What are you looking at?"

  And they walked back into the house.

  Chapter Nineteen

  THE TRAIL STRETCHED away ahead of them along the flank of the ridge, a ribbon of red dust winding north among the silver green sage. There were boulders on either side, one as big as a house that jutted out over the trail so that they had to duck down beside the necks of their horses. On the slope below them was a grove of oaks whose leaves rustled and clattered in the breeze and through them every so often came a glimpse of brighter green where the valley bottomed out by a creek and turned to grass.

  It was the end of May and the weather was getting a little hotter every day. Not that there really was what you'd call weather in LA. It was always sunny and warm. The only thing you ever heard anybody complain about was the smog.

  Tommy was leading on Chester, the sure-footed little paint pony he always rode. Cal was behind him on Amigo. Tommy liked it when it was just the two of them though it was fun too when Diane rode with them, which she had been doing a lot lately. She had to know how to ride for the movie she and Ray were going to be doing and, thanks to Cal, she was already pretty good. She would have come with them this afternoon but the studio had called her in for some last-minute hair and makeup tests.

  Just three more days of school and at the weekend they would be heading off to Arizona to start filming. Tommy was so excited that for the past few days he'd hardly been able to think or talk about anything else. For two whole months they were going to be on location. Ray said they'd be able to go and see Monument Valley where all those great John Ford movies were made. And Cal was coming too, to look after the horses and be Ray's stunt double.

  Suddenly Chester skittered sideways and reared and Tommy just managed to grab the horn of the saddle to save himself from falling off. Cal rode up alongside and soon had the horse calm again.

  "Why did he do that?"

  Cal pointed up the slope and Tommy saw a black-and-white snake slithering into a crack in the rocks.

  "Wow, is it a rattlesnake?"

  "California king snake."

  "Are they poisonous?"

  "No. The rattler's the only poisonous one around here. Hey, Tom, you did well to stay on board then."

  Tommy liked the way he called him Tom. In fact he liked everything about Cal. He knew the name of every plant and tree and bird and animal. Tommy pestered him with questions and tried not to forget anything he was told. He knew that in California there were seven different kinds of hawk, eight kinds of lizard and eighteen kinds of snake, though he'd seen hardly any of them. He only wished he hadn't boasted, on one of their early rides together, about shooting birds with his BB gun in Ray's garden. Cal had frowned.

  "Do you kill them to eat them?"

  "Of course not."

  "So why would you want to kill them?"

  Tommy hadn't known what to say. He nearly blamed it all on Ray who'd shown him how to do it. But that wouldn't have been fair because the truth was he enjoyed doing it, enjoyed the stalking and being a good-enough shot to hit them. Wally Freeman liked doing it too when he came back to the house after school sometimes. The two of them would dress up and pretend to be Hawkeye and Chingachgook hunting in the forest.

  Cal's question had made him feel ashamed. And later when he thought about it Tommy realized the answer was that he was simply curious. The birds were so free and quick-witted that you could never get near them. But if you shot them you could actually get to touch them and hold them and see how beautiful they were. Though when the thrill of the kill was over and he held the limp and lifeless little body in his hands and felt the warmth fading from it, he always felt a pang of remorse. After that conversation with Cal, he had vowed to himself that he would never again shoot any living creature.

  Cal said there used to be a lot more wildlife up here in the hills but the way the city was starting to spread was driving the animals away. Only last week the two of them had ridden out the other way from the ranch, up onto a hill where they'd stood the horses and looked down on the bulldozers that were stirring great clouds of dust as they cleared the land for a new freeway. Cal said Mr. Maxwell, who owned the ranch, had been offered a lot of money by a real estate company that wanted to build houses on the land. Every time he turned them down, they offered more, Cal said. It was only a matter of time.

  That same day they'd seen mule deer and gophers and a coyote. Most exciting of all, in a patch of dried mud beside a creek, they'd come across the tracks of a mountain lion. The paw marks were enormous. Cal said there were lots of mountain lions around but you rarely got to see them unless one jumped down from a tree and bit the top of your head off, which was how they liked to attack. Since then Tommy had scanned every tree they rode under. Cal said there were lots of mountain lions back home in Montana. And lots of grizzly bears as well which were even more dangerous, especially if you came across a mother with a cub. There used to be wolves too but they'd all been tr
apped or shot.

  Tommy loved to get Cal talking about growing up in Montana. His mother was full-blood Blackfeet born on the reservation near a town called Browning which Cal said was a pretty dismal place. His father was a white man and they lived on a little ranch farther south on the Front Range of the Rocky Mountains. His great-grandfather on his mother's side of the family was almost a hundred years old and could remember the days when they used to hunt buffalo. There were once enormous herds of them, Cal said. So many that the land sometimes looked black. But then the railroad came and they all got shot too. Fifty million of them in little more than ten years.

  "So, did they give you a part in the movie yet?" Cal said.

  Tommy laughed.

  "Not yet. Ray says he's working on it."

  "We'll have to figure something out. Maybe I'll just have to give you a job as a wrangler."

  The movie was called The Forsaken. Everybody said the script was brilliant. Tommy had tried reading it but all the scene numbers and camera directions—exteriors and interiors and fades and pans and tracking shots, all that sort of stuff—got in the way and he couldn't really tell what was going on. But Diane had told him the story. It wasn't exactly a western, at least not the sort of western Tommy liked. There were cars and planes in it and people talking on the telephone and not a single Indian.

  It was more of a love story than anything. Diane was to play an Englishwoman called Helen who was married to a rich man called Dexter Dearborn. They lived on a beautiful ranch at the edge of the desert but Dexter wasn't at all nice to her or to anybody else for that matter. He owned an oil company and was always away on business or sneaking off to town to visit his girlfriend, so Helen got really sad and bored and lonely. Until Dexter's brother Harry came to stay.

  This was Ray's part. Harry had once been a famous rodeo rider but had been badly injured and forced to retire and was now broke and sad and lonely and drank too much, but was basically a really nice guy. To help him out, Dexter had given him the job of looking after the ranch. Of course, this being a movie, Helen and Harry had to fall in love and for a while everything, as Diane said, was lovey-dovey and hunky-dory. But not for long. One night Dexter arrived home unexpectedly and caught them kissing and started hitting Helen. So Harry went to the rescue and in the fight that followed killed Dexter and got sent to the electric chair, so it all ended in tears. Nobody seemed to know why the movie was called The Forsaken, but Ray said that didn't matter, it was just a good title.

  The fact that it was going ahead seemed to have made everybody happy again after all the bad things that had happened at the end of last year. Along with the wedding of course.

  Ray and Diane had married last month on the day after the Russians sent Yuri Gagarin up into space (though Ray said this hadn't actually happened and was all faked in a TV studio and that the Americans got there first when they sent Alan Shepard into space three weeks later).

  Ray had been keen to make the wedding a big event and invite lots of people but Diane hadn't wanted that so in the end it was just the three of them. They drove to Las Vegas in the open Cadillac and stayed in an enormous suite in a wonderful new hotel called the Tropicana. They were treated like royalty and were even given a chauffeur-driven Rolls-Royce to ride around in. The next morning they got up before dawn and drove for hours across the desert to see the Grand Canyon which was so vast and strange it was like being on the moon or Mars or somewhere.

  The following evening, back in Vegas, Ray and Diane got married in a little chapel that was decorated with thousands of fairy lights. Diane looked amazing. Her dress was made of white satin covered in rhinestones and she had white lilies in her hair. Tommy wore a white suit that had been made specially for him by one of the costume designers at Paramount. Ray was in a white suit too and they had matching white Stetsons and bootlace ties. The priest had black hair all slicked back like Elvis and for a moment Tommy thought that's who he actually was.

  The wedding was supposed to be a secret but somebody must have tipped off the newspapers because when they came outside there were lots of photographers and the three of them had to stand there on the steps smiling blindly at the popping flashbulbs while everybody shouted Diane! Ray! Over here! Diane! One of them even called out Tommy! It was the first time in his life he had ever felt famous. The following day they flew to Hawaii for the honeymoon and there were photographers there too and a picture of the three of them with garlands around their necks was on the front page of the local newspaper.

  "Okay, Tom, shall we let these guys have a run?"

  By now he and Cal had ridden down through the oaks and into the valley where the ground was flatter and greener and the air smelled warm and sweet. Tommy gently pressed his heels into Chester's sides the way Cal had shown him and the little paint launched himself forward. They loped along the creek and for the final few hundred yards took the horses up to a gallop. Tommy loved the thundering thump of the hooves and the rush of warm wind in his face. His hat blew off but Cal leaned out of his saddle and plucked it off the ground and handed it back to him when they slowed back to a walk. They rode up out of the valley and along the narrow dirt trail that skirted the final hill and then they saw the corrals and Cal's little house below them and Diane waiting for them beside the yellow Galaxie. She waved.

  "How's my star pupil?" Cal said as they rode up.

  "Hey, I thought I was your star pupil," Tommy said.

  They laughed.

  "That's what he tells all his pupils," Diane said. "Wish I could have come with you fellas. How was the ride?"

  "We saw a California king snake."

  "You did?"

  "They're not poisonous though. The rattler's the only poisonous one around here. Chester spooked but I stayed on, didn't I, Cal?"

  "You sure did. Stuck there like glue. He did good. I'll be out of a job if he gets any better."

  They got off the horses and led them to the corral. Tommy unhitched Chester's cinch and lifted off the saddle and hung it over the rail then rubbed the horse's back where he was all sweaty. Cal said they loved this. Then Tommy led both horses to the water tank and stood watching them drink while Cal and Diane chatted by the car. Since Diane started riding, the two of them had become really good friends.

  On the way home Tommy asked her why someone as nice as Cal didn't have a wife and Diane said sometimes it took a long time to meet the right person and anyhow not everybody wanted to get married. Some people just liked it better living on their own.

  "If you'd met Cal before you met Ray, would you have wanted to marry him?"

  Diane laughed.

  "What's so funny about that?"

  "Nothing. Just you and your questions."

  * * *

  They flew to Arizona in Herb's Lockheed Lodestar, watching its shadow slide below them. The mountains were pink and corrugate and gashed with dried-out riverbeds and secret lakes that flashed the lowering sun at them. Tommy got a second chance to see the Grand Canyon and they gazed down on it trying to figure out where they'd stood the previous month but the scale was too immense to make sense of. A little later Herb told the pilot to make a detour so they could take a look at Monument Valley and they flew in low with tilted wings and circled among the towers that blazed red and vast like the fiery citadels of some wasted race of giants, their eastern walls shadowed and purple against an orange sky.

  Herb was sitting beside Tommy at the window and he kept pointing out the landmarks, places where Ford had shot famous scenes for The Searchers and Stagecoach. Tommy watched wide-eyed and even though Ray had seen the place before, he too felt a kind of childlike awe. He put his arm around Diane and she smiled and nuzzled against his neck and kissed him.

  Ray had never believed in fate or destiny or whatever else people liked to thank or blame for what befell them. If everything was preordained, etched in the sky by some invisible, almighty hand, leaving no scope for choice or change, what the hell was the point of being here? His philosophy was rather that lif
e was like a mean cop who, given half a chance, would kick you in the balls. Sometimes, though, the sonofabitch got bored and looked away and that was when you had to grab all you could, like a shoplifter, stuff your pockets full before he turned his evil eye back upon you. Survival was merely a matter of low cunning and had nothing whatsoever to do with luck. He had to concede however that during the past few months the cop seemed to have been more than usually distracted.

  Just when Ray thought he'd lost it all—career, fiancee, self-esteem, the whole damn shooting match—suddenly here he was, flying high with one of Hollywood's big-shot producers, married to the woman of his dreams and about to become what he'd always known he could be and should be: a real movie star.

  He'd never heard back from Jack Warner about what he thought of The Forsaken. The idiot had probably filed the script in the garbage the moment the meeting was over. This was, after all, the same genius who'd turned down Gone with the Wind, saying nobody would want to go see a picture about the Civil War. It gave Ray a twinge of vindictive pleasure to think that the old bastard would doubtless know by now that The Forsaken was happening without him at another studio.

  That this should be so was entirely thanks to Herb Kanter and his unwavering belief (and considerable investment) in Diane. It had been the quickest deal Ray had ever known. Once she'd flown back after Christmas and forgiven him and everything between them was okay again, Diane had at last read Steve Shelby's script. She loved it and agreed there was a great part for her. She showed it to Herb who read it that same night and said he loved it too. He got Terence Redfield on board to direct, pitched it to Paramount and bingo: the following day the suits gave them the green light.

  Almost the entire crew who'd been geared up for the Gary Cooper picture were simply going to move across to The Forsaken. Poor old Coop had finally pegged out just a couple of weeks ago. Along with the rest of the nation, Ray had mouthed all the right sentiments, of course: what a tragedy, what a terrible loss it was et cetera. But secretly he saw the great man's demise as a blessing, a useful narrowing of the competition.