Secrets of Amelia

by Andrea Anderson

  “Do you remember when we came here at Christmas and it looked all sparkly and was so beautifully covered with snow, it’s just as pretty now don’t you think?”

  “Yeah I really like how quiet and peaceful it is.”

  “I want to let you in on something Mellie. Do you know why I never kissed you before yesterday?”

  “No, I must say I did think about it, I thought maybe you wanted to be friends and didn’t see me romantically.”

  “That’s not it at all, the first time I saw you at moms, I was dating a girl named Darlene. She is a nice girl. She is an army brat and has lived in a lot of places because her family moved every time her dad was reassigned. She lived on base with her parents, we had a few dates, and she was very anxious to get serious. She wanted me to get out of the army and to settle down in one place, because she was so tired of moving around. She was unhappy that I was taking the time to visit my mom and wanted to come with me, but I wasn’t sure I was ready to get serious. Then when I met you at mom’s I knew I didn’t really love Darlene because I was so taken with you. When I returned, I wanted to explain to Darlene, but there wasn’t time my squad had to leave for an assignment. When I got back from the mission, I found out that she was dating someone else behind my back. When I asked her about it, she told me she wanted to get married, was tired of waiting, and found someone who wanted to get out of the army and get married to. So that’s what they were going to do. I was actually glad Darlene found someone though it did hurt me a little, because of the way it she did it, but I couldn’t stop thinking of you. One thing though, it made me understand how hard it is to constantly wait for someone who is away, to come back all the time. It made me very cautious about starting a relationship with you. After all here was a girl who knew and understood what the army was all about and still, she hated the waiting. I wanted to take you in my arms and hold you and kiss you so many times, yet I didn’t think it would be fair to you. The more we got to know one another, I knew you had so much stress in your life, if we did have a relationship, it would be a long distance one, and I didn’t want to place more pressure on you. I knew there was nobody special in your life or mom would have mentioned it, so I decided to wait. When we kissed for the first-time last night, I knew I couldn’t hold out any longer and I had to hold you and kiss you and tell you how much I thought of you.”

  “Chad you didn’t have to tell me all that.”

  “Yes, I did. I want to be up front with you, my mom doesn’t even know about Darlene, in a way that says a lot to me, because if I really loved her, I would have told mom.”

  “I don’t know what to say except I wondered why you never even kissed me. I did think there was somebody else.”

  “Not since that first time I saw you at moms. Let’s just relax and enjoy the meadow,” Chad said settling back.

  They talked about everything and anything and about their dreams. He looked into her eyes and soon his arms were around her and they were kissing. This time he kept the kisses light and gentle, he was keeping himself under control today, he told himself.

  “I wanted to apologize for last night” he said, “I know I came on strong and I don’t want you to get the wrong impression of me. I did get a little out of control. I had been dreaming of kissing you for a long time and your kisses are so much more than I ever envisioned, and they are so addicting. I hope you don’t think I’m a scoundrel or something or that I would ever take advantage of you.”

  “I wanted to say the same thing to you. You may not believe this, but I have no real experience kissing or even dating. I don’t know what happened last night, but it was like I was in another world or something. I wanted to kiss you too for a long time I wanted you to make the first move. I know everybody thinks that when you go to college you go to all these wild parties and all, and everybody runs around having sex. I don’t have time for all that. I’m busy studying and working. I think I was pretty wild myself last night too, I never kissed like that or been so close to a man like that before, I have to say I enjoyed every minute of it.”

  “Alright,” he said, “so we got a little carried away, no harm done, let’s go for a walk and look around. I’m going to control myself today. I’ll show you my secret spot that I discovered as a boy.”

  After they walked for a time, they came to a large outcropping of rocks. He took her hand, led her around some of the largest ones, to a hard to find crevice, between the large boulders. Chad showed her where he used to go as a boy, when he wanted to hide and be by himself.

  “Boy, this is something. It looks as if no one else had discovered my secret stash,” a surprised Chad declared. “This is the spot where I kept my precious rock collection, when I was a boy and they are still right here.” He touched them and was surprised no one had found them, or if they did, they didn’t disturb them. Amelia thought that was so neat.

  They went back to the blanket, each had a piece of pie he had packed, and some more ice-cold water. He lay down and she put her head on his chest. They dozed for a few minutes. She lay on the blanket, closed her eyes, and said, “I feel so free here, I can’t think of anywhere else in the world I would like to be.”

  “There’s no one else I would like to be with,” said Chad.

  “I feel comfortable being with you Chad, I like it, what a lazy day we’re having,” she said, “I don’t remember when I had a whole day to do nothing.”

  “I know what you mean,” he said, “I would be jumping out of a plane with my men now if I weren’t here, I’d much rather be with you.”

  Amelia turned and said, “You say the sweetest things.”

  “You’re the sweet one,” he said, looking in her eyes, “I talk about you to all my friends in the squad, about how smart you are, what a hard worker you are. How you helped my mother and the close relationship the two of you have, I don’t know of anyone else who would have done, what you did for her.”

  “To be honest, Chad, I didn’t start doing that on my own, my father insisted I go over to help your mother, when I hit her with the truck.”

  “No, I have heard that story from my mom and she tells it a little different and she has come to think of you as if you were her daughter.”

  “I’m very proud of that, I feel the same about her,” said Amelia. He sat up and took her in his arms and again kissed her sweetly. She began responding with deep kisses and put her tongue in his mouth.

  “Oh baby,” he said, “do you know what that does to a man when you kiss like that? It makes them go insane and if you kiss the wrong one that way, you may be in trouble.”

  “I have never kissed a man like that before. They call it French kissing right? I have read about it in books though, so I want to practice on you.”

  “Yes, that’s what they call it,” he said, “and I’m volunteering for you to practice on.”

  I’m kind of choosy about men. The ones I kissed before didn’t feel like it does when I kiss you, I feel a little tingly inside and my heart races. I didn’t feel like that when Betty’s brother or Chuck kissed me. I really don’t have a lot of experience in the kissing or the sex department. I have never been with a man.”

  “You are one of the most straight forward people I know, most women want men to think they are worldly and know everything, they would never tell a man that.”

  He knew then she was a virgin and that was both maddening and wonderful at the same time. In this day and age, he thought, what a gift she and whoever she falls in love with would have, it would be wonderful.

  “You don’t have to worry about a thing, Babe, you have got a natural talent, and you are a quick learner.”

  “I don’t worry about things like being worldly or superior. I generally have much more important things to worry about, like how to pay the rent and will I have enough money to buy the books I need. Now I will think about becoming an extra good kisser for you.”

  Cha
d just smiled at her when she said that, Amelia playfully pushed him down on the blanket, she looked at him with half closed seductive eyes.

  “I want to kiss you, I want to see what an insane man looks like, I’m going to practice French kissing on you, I really like the way you taste,” and she started by nibbling on his lip then licking his lips with her tongue, and then kissing him with her mouth open and searching for his tongue with hers. After a few minutes, he said, “I think we have to get ready and go, I told mom we would be back for supper.”

  “Just a few more kisses before we go,” she pleaded, “aren’t you enjoying practice?”

  He couldn’t resist the kisses and soon they were again in a high state of passion. They rolled on the blanket and in the grass and his hands were under her sweater and moving down her body and although she still had her jeans on, she wrapped her legs around him. Their bodies were pressed together, she felt his hard penis, and she was making small sounds deep in her throat now along with him.

  “Oh God,” he moaned, “Honey we have to stop now and with trembling hands he gently pushed her a few inches away from him. They lay on the blanket, with her eyes closed she said, “I never knew how good it could feel being with a man, is it always this way when a man and woman are together?”

  “I’m no expert on sex or kissing. I know sometimes things happen, sometimes kissing or sex is only a physical need and it is pleasurable. Then when you are kissing and holding someone you like and admire very much it becomes something much more than merely physical sex, the feeling is much deeper than simply having physical sex and it gets complicated.”

  “You mean that kissing or sex is not the same with whoever you are with? Yes, I guess that’s right,” she answered herself. “Kissing is alright, but I never wanted to kiss the same men again or to kiss them the way I do you. I’ll have to think about this,” Amelia said dreamily.

  “I guess I have an advantage over you because when mom and I email she tells me all about you and all the things you are doing and what’s happening in your life, so I feel as though I know you very well, while I’m still a stranger to you.”

  “This is sort of telling secrets on each other,” she said, “because when your mom writes me all she ever talks about is you and of course she worries about you, that’s what real moms do, they care. You see I feel like I know you too and I like you so much more in person than on a computer screen.”

  “Do you think we have a friendship growing here?”

  “I do and I like it, I feel like Delilah, and I want to kiss you some more and be next to you,” Amelia said.

  Just for a little while because I’m so excited and will have to stop very soon.

  After some more kissing and touching each other he thought he would explode. “Honey, we are moving very fast here, faster than we probably should. It looks like we already have a huge physical attraction. We need more than that to know each other well.”

  “It hard for me to explain,” she said, “it’s new, it’s so different with you, it feels right, and I feel so at ease with you, I want more.”

  “I know what you mean by that,” He said, “I would rather be here kissing you than anything else I can think of, but we have got to go. He gave her three quick kisses, got up and pulled her up off the blanket. “Come on Delilah,” he said, and grinned at her, “More later, we have to go back now,” he said.

  Secret thoughts: (It was wonderful to have a whole day with nothing to do but be with Chad. I wonder if I will feel this way every time, I’m with him or if this feeling will go away.)

  [ Chapter 22 ]

  Ten days flew by for Chad and Amelia and they spent every minute they could together either at his mother’s or at the farm. They went for walks, they went into town to see a movie, and they sat on the front porch or in the living room and watched TV. They held hands, they went for ice cream, they hugged, and they never stopped kissing. Amelia had to get back and left first. He took her to the airport, held her, and kissed her and felt very empty when she had to go. Chad’s leave was almost up too.

  Amelia was back at the apartment and called Chuck. He asked if he could come over to talk about work. Chuck came to the apartment and asked her if she wanted to work full time for the summer.

  “I need the money Chuck so I will do it, I don’t want to start until next week. I have a lot of things to catch up on, so I’ll see you bright and early next Monday morning.”

  Chuck said, “I missed you when you were gone.” Took her in his arms and kissed her.” Amelia did not respond to the kiss.

  “Is something the matter?” He asked.

  “No, what do you mean?”

  “Well when I kissed you the last time you seemed to enjoy it, now I’m not so sure.”

  “If you recall I was really upset that day, and you sort of took me by surprise. I’m not interested in have a romantic relationship with you Chuck. I know you didn’t give me a job because you thought we would.”

  “No, never would I think that, I, I’m not like that.”

  “OK, that’s good because I would have to look for something else to do if that was the case. I’ll see you on Monday.”

  Later that day Chad called Amelia, he told her he had four more days of leave and could stop over in Philadelphia if she would like him to before he had to go back.

  Without any hesitation, she said, “are you coming by train or plane, and when should I come to pick you up?”

  The next day she picked him up from airport and brought him back to the apartment. “I missed you even though it’s only been 2 days since I saw you,” she said.

  “I missed you too,” he said, taking her in his arms. “I almost didn’t call because I didn’t want you to think I was being pushy, I’m sure glad I did. Do you want to go out for dinner?” He asked.

  “No let’s get carry out and watch some TV, then tomorrow I will show you the city.”

  “Does your mom know you were stopping to see me?” asked Amelia.

  “No, I didn’t mention it, I think she knows we like each other, she’s the one who encouraged me to take you on a picnic.”

  “Do you think she would mind if we like each other?”

  “No, I think she would like it, a whole lot.”

  They ate their food and settled down on the sofa to watch a movie. She began nuzzling his neck and whispered, “Delilah’s here.” He didn’t move for a few seconds and then took her hand and brought it up to his mouth and kissed the inside of her wrist, she sighed.

  “Chad, honey,” she said, whispering in his ear, “You may be addicted, but I think you created a kissing monster because I want some more of those sweet tender kisses first and then the hot searing ones, that only you know how to give. I say that because I just proved it to myself again yesterday.”

  “How did you do that?”

  “Chuck the guy I told you about, who is giving me the job with the construction company, came over so we could talk about my hours and work out the details. When he left, he kissed me. He kissed me before when he drove me to the airport when I came home. It was nothing like I feel when I kiss you. I told him I wasn’t interested in have a romantic relationship with him.”

  “What about with me?” Asked Chad.

  “You’re different,” said Amelia, snuggling up to him. “I know all about you, like when I was so upset about not going to college, you were so sympathetic and compassionate. You never looked down on me and you knew I was sleeping in a barn, and you treat me with so much respect. Taking me on our picnic, making me feel so relaxed and deserving of time off, all of that was a real ego boost for me. You make me think I can fly. So, yes, I want a romantic relationship with you and your delicious kisses, you are so sexy and your kisses mmmm!”

  “Jesus, Amelia you have my blood boiling and I haven’t even touched you yet, you just whispered in my ear. I see I’m going to have t
o take a cold shower tonight.”

  “Why is that she went on, do you like kissing me the way I like kissing you?”

  “I love doing everything to you, kissing you, talking to you, holding your hand, touching your body, I like all of it, way too much for comfort.”

  “Why is that honey?” She said.

  “Because in 48 hours I will be on a plane and going very far away from you. If you get too used to kissing and like it so much, you might want to find someone else to practice on when I’m not around. That would not make me happy, so to prevent that we have to be careful not to get too emotional involved with one another because we are so far away from each other. I know we have known about each other and what we were doing in our lives, but we are new to each other in romance.”

  “There’s always email.”

  “There are some things that technology will never replace, Babe, and the things I want to do to you can’t be emailed.”

  “Could we kiss a little bit?” She asked, in a childlike voice.

  “Yes, my darling, I’m not that strong that I can resist that, but go easy on me, will you?”

  “Let’s try and watch a like bit of this movie and just cuddle,” said Chad. That lasted about exactly ten seconds and then they were back where they were the first night, only in worse shape. Her body was hot and tingling, he was soaked with perspiration, his shirt was off, her blouse was open, and her bra undone, her skirt was on the floor, only her panties were still on. He kissed, caressed, and fondled her breasts. She responded with moans of pleasure and moved her hands over his chest and back, pulling herself close to him and pressing her breasts into his chest and putting her leg up on his hip. He ran his hand down her hips and legs, caressing, kissing, and gently stroking, his erection was throbbing, and as he put his hand between her legs, he felt the moisture and knew if they were going to stop, he had to do it now.

  “Honey,” he said in a hoarse, barely audible voice, “we have to stop now or we both might detonate.”