Poetry Collection Two: Cold Dark Difficult Truths

by Ashley Rebecca Kingston

  But I've always done this, so completely lost in the what if's, of my life.

  Life In Different Directions

  February.18.2004

  I can see

  my life going… in two… different directions

  I am not really sure… which way I should… turn

  I think I could be happy with either

  I just don't know where to go from here

  I feel like I need some help, but there are no hands of assistance

  I think they have all let go, given up on staying around

  I can see

  my life going… in two… different directions

  I just do not know, where I am supposed to go

  Torn

  October.21.2002

  my heart being torn apart

  shredded right in front of my eyes

  bleeding until I am left for dead

  dying until there is nothing left

  watching the shadows cast upon the walls

  feeling the true coldness of it all

  tears me apart to think of things now

  to know it'll never quite be the same

  I sometimes cry into my pillow at night

  thinking about certain things from my past

  pictures and memories that I always hide

  seem to come up even more bright

  it's like falling apart time and again

  when certain things happen I am reminded

  to just not open up to any one or any thing

  or trust things at all in the same innocent way

  it hurts even more in the pit of me

  when I try so hard to open up

  and things just get thrown in my face

  by friends who know nothing of me

  I hate having to figure out

  what I can say and to whom

  and I hate not knowing

  who out there really cares

  my life feels so complicated and confusing

  I can't even begin to explain

  how much anger and shame and fear I feel

  and how I just can't get over the pain

  my heart is being torn apart from the inside out

  shredded into fragments slipping from my own grasp

  bleeding so much blood until I am left for dead

  dying until there is just no more left

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  Thank you!

  Ashley Rebecca Kingston

  About the author:

  Ashley was born during a blizzard in Kingston, Ontario; and grew up in Victoria, BC with her parents and younger sibling.

  As an adult she has traveled the world and lived in Vancouver, BC, and Santiago de Cuba, Cuba.

  Ashley now makes her home again in Victoria, BC with the amazing Adrien and crazy dog Beyonce.

  Home-schooled from the beginning, Ashley still enjoys learning new things, spending her time reading, writing and researching; designing, intellectual conversations and walking down on the breakwater with Adrien and Bey.

  Discover other titles by Ashley Rebecca Kingston:

  Poetry Collection One: Shadow Self Persona

  And many more coming soon!

  Connect with Me:

  Twitter: @ashleyoutlander