Pushing Over 40

by S M Mala

  ‘I can think of certain advantages right now,’ she said, patting his bottom.

  When they managed to sneak into his house, Tony pushed her against the wall and started kissing her passionately. Maya was quickly grappling with his trousers as he took of his jacket.

  ‘Thank you for dinner,’ she said, kissing his neck and pushing her hand into his warm boxers.

  ‘I’m fit to burst,’ he said before kissing her deeply as their tongues met and a lustful explosion took place in Maya’s body.

  ‘You only had a salad,’ she laughed, pulling at him gently.

  ‘I wasn’t talking about food,’ he laughed and kissed her again.

  Maya heard her phone ring in her pocket. She quickly looked at the number and realised it was the De Freitas landline.

  ‘I better take this,’ she said as he kissed down her body and sank to his knees, pulling up her dress. ‘Hello.’

  ‘Auntie Mimi it’s Eadie.’

  ‘Hello Eadie,’ she said, feeling him kiss her thighs and squeeze her buttocks.

  ‘I need to tell you something,’ her niece announced.

  ‘Sure, baby carry on,’ Maya gulped feeling Tony pull down her knickers and she stepped out of them, using his shoulder to lean on.

  ‘There was a boy at the party,’ she sighed on the other end of the phone.

  ‘How was the party?’

  ‘Horrid!’ she snapped.

  ‘What about the boy,’ Maya asked, feeling his tongue dip in and out then he placed one of her legs on his shoulders while she propped herself up against the wall trying hard not to gasp as his tongue managed to get to her clitoris.

  ‘His name is Marcus and he’s Madeleine’s brother.’

  ‘And?’ Maya said, closing her eyes and trying hard not to groan as Tony buried his mouth deeper into her crotch.

  ‘He flashed me his willy!’

  ‘He did what?’

  ‘He pulled down his pants and showed it to me!’

  ‘Eadie some boy flashed you his willy! Did you tell your mum?’

  At that moment she could feel Tony laughing between her legs as he continued to arouse her.

  ‘I couldn’t because she was talking to his mum. I told him, Auntie Maya, that I hoped someone would chop it off!’

  ‘Good for you. How old is this boy who obviously needs to be taught a lesson?’

  ‘Four!’

  Maya started to laugh then quickly got a shock as Tony was continuing his tongue action at high speed.

  ‘He’s only four Eadie so he probably wanted to impress you,’ Maya sighed. ‘I’ll come…’ she held on for a moment realising she was closer to ‘coming’ than she anticipated. ‘Tomorrow.’

  ‘Are you okay Auntie Maya?’ she sweetly asked.

  ‘I’ve got cramp in my leg. Have a good sleep and I’ll pop round in the morning for a chat, okay?’

  ‘Come early because I’ve got Judo at 9.30. Love you.’

  ‘Love you too baby.’

  Maya switched off the phone and dropped it as Tony licked her with such force she had to bite her hand to stop screaming the place down. His tongue was working very fast as she let her head drop back and was startled by how strong her orgasm was as his head quickly moved from side to side.

  He quickly got up and undid his fly before reaching into his back pocket, taking out his wallet to remove a condom. Maya’s knees were still trembling from her orgasm as she watched him put it on his very stiff dick. Tony then turned her around to face the wall and plunged deep inside, pulling her hips up higher so she was at a slight angle while he humped her really hard. She felt his breath on her neck and used her hand to stop her head being hit against the wall as he just grabbed onto her breasts, pulling down her bra then squeezing her nipples.

  She tried not to make any noise but found the groans coming out of her mouth were getting louder and louder until she literally screamed… mainly from relief of not getting her head knocked through the plaster.

  In minutes it was all over as he started to laugh.

  ‘What’s so funny?’ she asked, turning to face him.

  ‘You,’ he said and pushed open her top munching on her breasts. ‘Let’s take a shower and continue this upstairs before someone else calls.’

  ‘My calls are usually about willies, one way or another.’

  Now

  Every time she tried to touch the envelope she became scared and left it. How a brown A4 envelope could hurt her was incomprehensible.

  Maya stood by her bed and breathed in deeply trying hard to stop the tears which seemed to subside for a minute before coming back with vengeance. She closed her eyes and picked up the envelope then put her hand inside.

  There was a card.

  Opening it she remembered what was in it and saw the baby tag then the footprints. Her finger traced the little feet and she gasped before crying. She put her hand again into the envelope and pulled out a small brown envelope. Knowing what was in this one, she felt petrified to see it.

  Opening the envelope slowly, she pulled out the picture. Then she looked at it. It wasn’t how she remembered but her hands started to shake and she collapsed on the floor. The desperation she felt was vast. Her body was numbed by the pain yet the shaking was uncontrollable and she knew she was sobbing loudly but there was no stopping it.

  All she had left of her was in a brown envelope courtesy of the NHS.

  Then

  ‘He’s amazing,’ gushed Maya holding the dress in her hand while they stood in the changing room.

  ‘Do you think this looks okay?’ Shona said, examining herself in the mirror.

  ‘He’s so attentive and interested in the website. Tony has given me some good advice on the structure. Isn’t it great he knows so much about web publishing and-.’

  ‘My shoes? I’m not sure if they’ll go with this dress,’ grimaced Shona. ‘Let me try the other dress on.’

  ‘I think you look fine.’

  ‘How would you know? All you can see is everything in a rose tinted haze, at the moment, thanks to the marvellous Anthony Fulmer,’ sighed her best friend. ‘If I didn’t know any better I’d say you’ve been hit by the love bug.’

  ‘No!’ snapped Maya. ‘I like him very much.’

  ‘Is that it then? ‘Like’?’

  ‘I can’t go admitting things like that.’

  ‘So you do love him?’

  ‘He’s someone I have time for.’

  Maya looked as Shona raised her eyebrows while she took off the dress and handed it to her.

  ‘I’m not going to rain on your parade,’ said Shona, pulling the other dress over her head.

  ‘But you are going to,’ Maya knowingly replied.

  ‘He can’t give you babies.’

  ‘I know that.’

  ‘And you’re okay with that?’

  ‘I knew it before we got together.’

  ‘Oh yes, before you got into bed with him in half an hour after your first date,’ teased Shona.

  ‘Your point is what? And I have you know it was forty five minutes.’

  ‘He’s an adult with grown up daughters. Tony had a vasectomy and surely doesn’t want to be the father of any more children. You want kids. You are forty two years old with a one in four chance of conceiving or even less based on your lifestyle and alcohol consumption,’ Shona said, zipping up the dress. ‘Oh that’s much better.’

  ‘What are you getting at?’

  ‘You’re willing to throw that away for someone who you’ve only been seeing for a couple of months? What happens if it turns serious?’

  ‘I think it is serious,’ mumbled Maya.

  ‘Does he?’

  ‘I don’t know. You’re saying to take it at face value and continue the sperm clinic route?’

  ‘If you want a baby, you seriously have a ticking time bomb going on inside and time is precious. Have you spoken to Tony about what you want?’

  ‘He knows I want a baby and I told him I was giving my body a b
reak before trying again.’

  ‘So he knows you’re definitely going to try?’

  ‘That’s the dress,’ she smiled before breathing in deeply. ‘I’m sure he’ll be okay about it.’

  ‘Are you really sure about him?’

  ‘Yes. I trust him and I know he cares, I’m sure he does.’

  ‘Have you thought that maybe, deep down, you don’t really want a baby and being with Tony will mean you can’t have one so therefore the decision is made for you,’ said Shona, looking at her seriously.

  ‘That’s silly. Of course I really want one.’

  ‘Don’t you mean ‘wanted’ if you’re with Tony?’

  ‘I don’t know.’

  Tony had his arm around her shoulders as they walked through Hyde Park towards Kensington High Street.

  ‘Stop doing that,’ he said, making Maya jump.

  ‘Doing what?’

  ‘Looking at all the pregnant women.’

  ‘I don’t.’

  ‘You do!’ he laughed and kissed her forehead. ‘Are you counting them?’

  ‘No,’ she said, realising she’d been caught.

  ‘You’re doing something and I only started noticing it a few weeks ago,’ he gently said. ‘Tell me what it is.’

  ‘I’m just trying to figure out how old they are, that’s all,’ she sighed not wanting to continue with the conversation. ‘You look lovely by the way.

  ‘And so do you,’ he replied, kissing her cheek. ‘Why do you want to know their ages?

  ‘If they look really old then it’ll give me some hope if I ever get pregnant.’

  ‘You’re still keen then?’

  ‘I don’t know to be honest,’ she said sheepishly. ‘I’m having such a good time with you. We’ve been going out for over three months.’

  ‘Not much going out, to be honest,’ Tony smirked and squeezed her bottom.

  ‘Are you ashamed of me?’

  ‘I adore making love to you.’

  ‘I’m just for sex? Okay, I’ll cope with that.’

  ‘I’m having a wonderful time,’ Tony replied, squeezing her tightly around the shoulders then sighing. ‘I promise I won’t be long at work.’

  ‘I know. You need to do something so important on a Saturday afternoon. You can’t tear yourself away from your job as you’re vital. I get it.’

  They walked into his office and there were a couple of people, busy working away.

  ‘They love their jobs too much or are you over working them?’ she laughed out.

  ‘Both! I’m going to check out the new website for ‘Pregnancy Talk’. Do you want to come and see it?’

  ‘Oh yes please. I could pick up some tips.’

  ‘Follow me.’

  The room was quite dark as a man worked on a large screen computer. Tony knocked on the door.

  ‘Drake, hi,’ Tony said, walking in. Maya followed and saw the skinny man with a mass of curly hair pull up his glasses and rub his eyes. ‘Are we ready for midnight?’

  ‘There are a few little gremlins but I think I’ve sorted them out,’ he yawned then smiled at Maya. ‘Hi.’

  ‘Hello,’ she said and hovered in the back of the room.

  ‘I’m sorry to make you come in but I didn’t want to email it over to you without showing you the repairs. It’d take too long to go through and…’

  Maya didn’t listen to him talking as she was looking at the website.

  She had to double blink thinking she was seeing things.

  ‘That looks a little familiar to my website,’ she said, squeezing her eyes hoping it was just her focus. Tony glanced over her shoulder then continued talking to Drake. ‘It does you know.’

  ‘Have you got a website?’ Drake asked, looking a bit pissed off.

  ‘‘Pushing over 40’,’ she replied and watched Drake half smile then look at Tony before looking back at her.

  ‘I’ve been looking at your website. Who designed it?’ he asked, still glancing at Tony. ‘It’s very well done.’

  Maya looked at Tony and couldn’t speak.

  ‘Why would you do that?’ she replied, seeing she was missing out on something and looked at Tony who was staring at the screen. ‘And a friend did it for me.’

  ‘Well you have a talented friend and your website is doing really well,’ Drake replied. ‘You’ve got some great stories going on in there and the whole community board makes it easy to access.’

  ‘I like to think it works well. The women can meet up if they want and…’

  Maya looked at Tony realising he was pretending not to listen to her.

  ‘If only we could generate the kind of contributors you’re getting,’ replied Drake before looking uneasy and turned to face the screen.

  She stood there for a moment then the penny dropped why Tony was so interested to help her.

  A cold shudder went through her body.

  ‘I’ll leave you to it,’ she said and smiled before walking out shaking her head furiously while mumbling under her breath. ‘That fucking wanker!’

  ‘Maya!’ Tony turned to look at her. ‘Where are you going?’

  ‘I’m going to go!’ she snapped and walked down the corridor realising she gave him as much tips or even more than he had given her. ‘I’m such a flipping idiot!’

  ‘What’s wrong?’ he said, catching her up.

  ‘What’s wrong?’ she asked, instantly getting angry. ‘Your company wants a website like mine for ‘Pregnancy Talk.’ Is that a coincidence or what?’

  ‘Copying is the highest form of flattery.’

  ‘Where does blatantly trying to rip something off come into it?’ Maya shrugged. ‘I don’t really know you, do I? You’ve come along and the next thing I know you’re copying my website.’

  ‘We’re not hitting the same markets.’

  ‘Don’t tell me you don’t want the people that contribute on my site! I know you want their stories for your crappy real life story magazines you sell on the side. If you tell me otherwise I’ll know you’re lying. I thought I could trust you!’

  ‘You can trust me,’ he grinned and stepped forward.

  ‘You could have told me you were copying my website,’ she said, feeling her cheeks burn with anger.

  ‘I’ve told you a hundred times your website is good and you could make a living out of it, if you wanted to.’

  ‘I don’t want pop ups or any sort of advertising on it. It’s a board where people can talk confidentially and get help, advice and support. You know that. How many times have I told you this?’

  ‘We’re the best pregnancy publication in the UK and we know the changing markets. If you combined your website with ours it’d be amazing,’ he quietly said, trying to touch her but Maya pulled away. ‘Let’s talk in private.’

  ‘Did you know I ran the website before you asked me out? Because this is an even bigger bloody coincidence then, isn’t it?’

  She watched as he put his hands over his face and looked back at her full of anguish. Maya felt her heart sink to her stomach and couldn’t actually believe what was going on.

  ‘Oh shit! I’ve been used to boot!’ she said, trying not to look as devastated as she felt. ‘Thanks a lot!’

  Maya turned to walk out as Tony stepped in front of her grabbing her arm gently.

  ‘It’s not what you think,’ he said but she knew the glare she was giving was very threatening.

  ‘Leave me alone.’

  ‘I don’t want to leave you alone,’ he said and looked straight at her. ‘Just five minutes in private, okay.’

  ‘You’ve used me Tony.’

  ‘Don’t even say that, let alone think it,’ he pleaded. ‘You know that’s not true. Five minutes that’s all I ask.’

  She stood there and looked at him feeling a fool but knowing she liked him more than she should even though this revelation was shaking all her own self-belief.

  ‘Five minutes,’ she said under her breath. ‘Let go of my arm now!’

  ‘Of co
urse I will,’ he quietly replied and they walked back to his office as he shut the door and pulled the blinds down.

  ‘The only reason you asked me out was because of my website wasn’t it?’ she snapped. ‘I think it’s time to go straight to the crux of it, don’t you?’

  ‘Yes and no,’ he replied, standing in front of her. ‘I wanted to meet you after Dee mentioned it so we could talk about possibilities.’

  ‘That’s why you asked me out for a drink? Shit, why didn’t I see it?’

  ‘I asked you out because I fancied you.’

  ‘Which one did you fancy more, me or the website?’

  ‘Don’t be silly.’

  ‘Can you answer the question?’ she said, putting her hands on her hips knowing he’d lie.

  ‘You of course.’

  Maya could have laughed at the predictability of the answer but continued to frown.

  ‘I’m not going to collaborate with ‘Pregnancy Talk’ and it’s as simple as that. Let’s just call it a day.’

  Maya turned feeling totally hurt and humiliated as she walked to the door.

  ‘I don’t want to end it,’ Tony said loudly. ‘You think this is all about your website?’

  ‘Sex,’ she said, forcing a laugh and turning to look at him. ‘Desperate, middle aged sex. And I’m talking about me not you!’

  ‘It’s more than that and you know it,’ he said, stepping closer. ‘Okay I can live without your website but I can’t live without you.’

  ‘You don’t mean that,’ she said, feeling her stomach lurch.

  ‘If I didn’t want you to know what was going on then why would I bring you here?’

  ‘For insider tips? Please leave my website alone. It’s my baby.’

  ‘Stop looking at old pregnant women and be happy with me,’ he whispered. ‘You’re not using me are you?’

  ‘If I was, I wouldn’t admit it would I? But then again, if you’re after my website, neither would you.’

  He put his arm around her waist and pulled her closer. Maya was really mad with him but she was also feeling very confused as he kissed her gently before holding her tightly in his arms. There was no way he was letting her come up for air then Tony pulled away.

  ‘Maya,’ he said, kissing her face. ‘I really, really like you. You do know that, don’t you?’