The Wayward Bus

by John Steinbeck

  “Well, a man needs some kind of relaxation. I’m going to be at the Beverly Wilshire .5 You could call me there.”

  “I sure will,” said Ernest. “What color dame you like best?”

  “Don’t misunderstand me,” said Mr. Pritchard. “I like to sit and have a scotch and soda but I’ve got a position, you know. I don’t want you to misunderstand.”

  “Oh, I don’t,” said Ernest. “I could maybe pick up the blonde ahead here, if you want.”

  “Don’t be silly,” said Mr. Pritchard.

  Pimples had moved forward in the bus. On the underside of his jaw he felt an itching burn and he knew an eruption was forming. He sat down in the seat across from Mildred Pritchard. He didn’t want to touch the new place but he was powerless over his hands. His right hand moved upward and his forefinger rubbed the lump under the chin. It was a very sore lump. This one was going to be a devil. He knew already what it would look like. He wanted to squeeze it, to scratch it, to rip it out. His nerves were on edge. He forced his hand into his coat pocket and clenched his fist there.

  Mildred was staring vacantly out of the window.

  “I wish I could go to Mexico,” Pimples said.

  Mildred looked around at him in surprise. Her glasses caught the light from his window and glared blindly at him.

  Pimples swallowed. “I never been there,” he said weakly.

  “Neither have I,” said Mildred.

  “Yeah, but you’re going.”

  She nodded. She didn’t want to look at him because she couldn’t keep her eyes from his eczema and that embarrassed him. “Maybe you can go soon,” she said uneasily.

  “Oh, I’ll go,” said Pimples. “I’ll go everywhere. I’m a great traveler. I’d rather travel than anything. You get experience that way.”

  She nodded again and took off her glasses in protection against him. Now she couldn’t see him so clearly.

  “I thought maybe I’d be a missionary like Spencer Tracy and go to China and cure them of all those diseases.6 You ever been to China?”

  “No,” said Mildred. She was fascinated by his thinking.

  Pimples took most of his ideas from moving pictures and the rest from the radio. “It’s very poor people there in China,” he said, “some of them so poor they just starve to death right outside your window if some missionary don’t come along and help them. And if you help them, why, they love you, and let any Jap come around and make trouble and they stick a knife right in him.” He nodded solemnly. “I think they’re just as good as you and me,” he said. “Spencer Tracy just came along and he cured them up and they loved him—and you know what he done? He found his own soul. And there was this girl and he didn’t know whether he ought to marry her because she had a past. Of course, it came out it wasn’t her fault and it wasn’t even true, but this old dame told lies about her.” Pimples’ eyes glowed with pity and enthusiasm. “But Spencer Tracy didn’t believe those lies and he lived in an old palace that had secret passages and tunnels and—well, then the Japs come.”

  “I saw the picture,” Mildred said.

  The bus went into second gear for the last climb. Now it was in the gap at the top and then it emerged and turned sharp left, and below was the valley gloomy with gray clouds, and the great loop of the San Ysidro River gleamed like dark steel under the glowering light. Juan eased the bus into high gear and began the descent.

  CHAPTER 10

  The San Ysidro River runs through the San Juan valley, turning and twisting until it discharges sluggishly into Black Rock Bay under the protection of Bat Point. The valley itself is long and not very wide, and the San Ysidro River, having not very far to run, makes the most of what distance it has by moving from one side of the level stretch to the other. Here it cuts under a cliff, against a mountain, and then it spreads thinly out on sand-banks. During a good part of the year there is no surface water at all, and the sandy bed grows full of willows which stretch their roots down toward underground water.

  Rabbits and raccoons and small foxes and coyotes make their homes in the willows of the river bottom when the water is down. At the head of the valley to the north and east the river rises, not as one head, but in many little branches, so that the source on a map looks like a tree with small, leafless branches. The dry and stony hills with shoulders and gullies and canyons do not supply water to the river during all the year, but when the rains fall in the late winter and spring the rocky shoulders absorb a little of the water and cast the rest in black torrents to the little streams that tumble out of the creases, and the stream-lets combine and join larger creeks and the creeks come together at the northern end of the valley.

  So it is that in the late spring, when the hills have digested as much rain as they can, a heavy storm may swell the San Ysidro River to a raging flood in a very few hours. Then the foamy yellow water cuts at the banks and great hunks of farmland cave into the river. Then the bodies of cows and sheep go tumbling and rolling in the yellow flood. It is an unstable and precocious river; dead during part of the year and deadly during another part.

  In the middle of the valley, which is on a direct line between Rebel Corners and San Juan de la Cruz, the river makes a great loop, ranging from side to side of the level valley, casting its coil against the mountain on the eastern edge and moving away to cross the fields and farmlands. In the old times the road followed the loop of the river and crawled up the side of the hill to avoid crossing. But with the coming of engineers and steel and concrete, two bridges had been thrown over the river, and these cut out twelve miles of the San Ysidro’s playfulness.

  They were wooden bridges, backed and suspended by steel rods, and each one was supported in the middle and at the ends by concrete piers. The wood was painted dark red and the iron was dark with rust. On the river side of each bridge backwaters of piles and braided, mattressed willow deflected the water toward the spans and kept the gnawing current from undermining the bridgeheads.

  These bridges were not very old, but they had been built at a time when the tax rate was not only low, but much of it uncollectable because of what was called “hard times.” The county engineer had found it necessary to build within a budget that allowed only the simplest construction. His timber should have been heavier and his struts more numerous, but he had to build a bridge within a certain cost and he did. And every year the farmers of the middle valley watched the river with cynical apprehension. They knew that some time there would be a quick and overwhelming flood that would take the bridges out. Every year they petitioned the county to replace the wooden bridges, but there weren’t enough votes in the rural section to make the petitions mandatory. The large towns, which had not only the votes but the taxable assets, got the improvements. People were not moving to the medium-rich farmlands. A good service-station corner in San Juan had a higher assessed valuation than a hundred acres of grainland in the valley. The farmers knew that it was only a question of time before the bridges were destroyed and then, they said, the county would god-damned well come to its senses.

  A hundred yards from the first bridge toward Rebel Corners there was a little general store on the highway. It stocked the groceries, the tires, the hardware a man bought on Saturday afternoon or when he didn’t have time to drive either to San Juan de la Cruz or to San Ysidro over the range. This was Breed’s General Store. And of late years it had, as did all country stores, added gas pumps and a stock of automobile accessories.

  Mr. and Mrs. Breed were unofficial custodians of the bridge, and at flood time their phone rang constantly and they supplied information about the river’s rise. They were used to this. Their one great fear was that some day the bridge would go out and the new one might be a quarter of a mile down the river, and then they would have to move their store or build a new one near the new bridge.

  At least half of their trade nowadays was in soft drinks, sandwiches, gasoline, and candy bought by travelers on the highway. Even the bus between Rebel Corners and San Juan invariably stopped
there. It brought express packages, and the passengers drank soft drinks. Juan Chicoy and the Breeds were old and good friends.

  And now the river was up, and not only up, but, as Mr. Breed said to his wife, “there’s a backwash cutting in under the piles above the bridge, and if it cuts a channel in back, there goes your ball game.” He had made half a dozen trips to the bridgehead since daylight. This was a bad one and Mr. Breed knew it. Thin-lipped and unshaven, he had stood on the bridge at eight o’clock this morning and watched the tumbling yellow water laced with yellow foam and dotted with uprooted scrub oak and cottonwood. And he had seen a few planks of planed lumber come twisting down, and then a piece of roof with shingles still on, and then the drowned, bobbing body of McElroy’s black Angus bull, square and short-legged. As it went under the bridge it rolled over on its back, and Breed could see the wild upturned eyes and the flapping tongue. It made Breed sick to his stomach.

  Everyone knew McElroy’s barn was too close to the bank and that bull cost eighteen hundred dollars. McElroy didn’t have that kind of money to throw away. He didn’t see any of the rest of the herd come down, but the bull would be enough. Mac had put a lot of faith in that bull.

  Breed walked farther out on the bridge. The water was only three feet below the timbers now and Breed could feel the plunging water plaguing the caissons to protest under his feet. He rubbed his unshaven chin with his fingers and walked back to the store. He didn’t tell his wife about McElroy’s black Angus. It would only make her sad.

  When Juan Chicoy called up about the bridge Breed told him the truth. The bridge was still in, but God knew for how long. The water was still rising. The bare, stony hills were still emptying their freshets into the river, and it was clouding up again.

  At nine o’clock the lower timbers cleared the flood only by eighteen inches. Once the pressure came on those struts and braces and a few uprooted trees banged into the bridge, it was only a question of time. Breed stood inside his screen door and drummed his fingers on the wire.

  “Let me fix you some breakfast,” his wife said. “You’d think you owned the bridge.”

  “I guess I do in a way,” said Breed. “If it went out they’d say it was my fault. I’ve called the supervisor’s office and I’ve called the county engineer. They’re both closed. If that channel gets back of the pier, there goes your ball game.”

  “You’d better eat some breakfast. I’ll make you some wheat cakes.”

  “All right,” Breed said. “Don’t make them too thick.”

  “I never make them thick,” said Mrs. Breed. “Want an egg on top?”

  “Sure,” said Breed. “I don’t know whether Juan is going to make it or not. He’s not due for more than an hour yet and, Jesus! how the water is coming up!”

  “No reason to swear,” said Mrs. Breed.

  Her husband looked around at her. “I’d say this was one of the times when there’s every reason to swear. I’m going to take a drink.”

  “Before breakfast?”

  “Before anything.”

  She didn’t know about the black bull, of course. He went to the wall phone and rang McElroy’s, a three-two ring, and he kept it up until Pinedale, two miles this side of McElroy’s, answered.

  “I’ve been trying to get him too,” Pinedale said. “His line’s dead. I’m going to ride up and see if he’s all right.”

  “I wish you would,” said Breed. “His new bull went under the bridge this morning.”

  Mrs. Breed raised frightened eyes. “Walter!” she cried.

  “Well, it’s true. I didn’t want you to fret.”

  “Walter! Oh, my God!” said Mrs. Breed.

  CHAPTER 11

  Alice Chicoy stood inside the screen door and watched the bus pull away. She let the tears dry on her cheeks.

  When the bus passed beyond her view from the door she went to the side window from which she could see the county road. The bus ran into a patch of sunlight and gleamed for a moment, and then she couldn’t see it any more. Alice drew a great breath and released it in a luxurious sigh. It was her day! She was alone. She felt happy and secret, and she felt sinful too. Slowly she smoothed her dress down over her hips and caressed her thighs. She looked at her nails. No, later for that.

  She looked slowly around the lunchroom. She could still smell cigarette smoke. There were things to be done, yet it was her day and she went about them slowly. First she got from the cupboard a cardboard sign that said “Closed” in large letters. She went outside and hung the sign on a nail on the edge of the screen door. Then she went inside and closed and latched the screen door. And she pulled the inner door and turned the key in it. Next she went from window to window and let down the Venetian blinds and pulled the slats downward so no one could see in.

  The lunchroom was dusky and very quiet. Alice worked deliberately. She washed and put away the dirty coffee cups and she washed the lunch counter and the tabletops. The pies she put out of sight under the counter. Then she brought a broom from the bedroom and swept the floor and put the dust and the mud and the cigarette butts in the garbage can. The counter gleamed a little in the dusky light and the tabletops looked white and clean.

  Alice came around the counter and sat on one of the stools. It was her day! She felt silly and giddy. “Well, why not?” she said aloud. “I don’t have much fun. Bring me,” she said, “bring me a double whisky and hurry it up.”

  She put her hands on the counter and looked at them carefully. “Poor work-ruined hands,” she whispered, “dear hands.” Then in a shout, “Where the hell is that whisky?” And she answered herself, “Yes, ma’am, it’s coming right up, ma’am.”

  “Well, that’s better,” said Alice. “I just want you to know who you’re talking to. Don’t put on any lip because you can’t get away with it. I’ve got my eye on you.”

  “Yes, ma’am,” she answered herself. And she got up and went in back of the counter.

  At the far end and low to the floor there was a small cabinet. Alice bent over, opened the door, and reached blindly in and brought out a fifth of Old Grandad bourbon. She picked a water glass from the rack and carried the bottle and the glass to the counter in front of the stool where she had been sitting.

  “Here you are, ma’am.”

  “Take it over to that table. Do you think I look like someone that stands up at bars?”

  “No, ma’am.”

  “And bring another glass. And a bottle of cold beer.”

  “Yes, ma’am.”

  She carried all these things to the table beside the door and laid them out. “You can go now,” she said, and answered, “Yes, ma’am.”

  “But don’t go far, I might want something.”

  As she poured out the beer she giggled to herself. If anybody heard me they’d think I was crazy. Well, maybe I am. She poured out a fine shot in the other glass. “Alice,” she said, “ready, set, go!” She waved the glass and drank slowly. She did not toss it. She let the hot, straight whisky ease and burn and flow over her tongue and in back of her tongue, and she swallowed slowly and felt the bite on her palate, and the warmth of the whisky went into her chest and into her stomach. Even after she had emptied the glass she still held it to her lips. She put down the glass and she said, “Ah!” and breathed outward harshly.

  She could taste the sweet whisky again on her returning breath. Now she reached for the tumbler of beer. She crossed her legs and drank very slowly until the glass was empty.

  “God!” she said.

  It seemed to Alice she had never realized how utterly comfortable and charming the lunchroom was, the light glimmering down between the slanting blinds. She heard a truck go by on the highway and it disturbed her. Suppose something happened to interfere with her day? Well, they’d have to break the door down. She wouldn’t let anyone in. She poured two fingers of whisky in one glass and four fingers of beer in the other glass.

  “There’s more than one way to skin a drink,” she said, and she tossed the whisky in a
nd tossed the beer right in after it. Now, there’s an idea. It doesn’t taste the same. The way you drink changes the taste. Why had no one else ever found that out, only Alice. Somebody should write that down—“The way you drink makes the taste.” There was a little tension in her right eyelid, and a curious but pleasant pain ran down the veins of her arms.

  “Nobody has time to find out things,” she said solemnly. “No time.” She poured half a glass of beer and filled the glass with whisky. “I wonder if anybody ever tried this before?”

  The metal paper-napkin holder was in front of her and she could see her face in it. “Hello, kid,” she said. She waved the glass, and it was as distorted in the shining metal as her face. “Here’s a go, kid. Your health, kid.” And she drank the beer and the whisky the way a thirsty man drinks milk. “Ah,” she said, “that’s not so god-damned bad. No sir. I think I’ve got something there. That’s good.”

  She adjusted the paper-napkin holder so that she could see herself better. But a bend in the metal surface made her nose look broken at the top and fat and bulbous at the bottom. She got up and went around the counter and into the bedroom, and she brought a round hand mirror back to the table and propped it against the sugar dispenser. She settled herself and crossed her legs. “Now there! I’d like to invite you for a drink.” She poured whisky in each glass. “No beer,” she said. “All out of beer. Well, we’ll fix that.”

  She went to the icebox and brought another bottle of beer. “Now, you see,” she said to the mirror, “we first put a little whisky—not too much—not too little—and we add just the right amount of beer. And there you are.” She pushed one glass toward the mirror and drained the other one. “Some people are afraid to take a drink,” she said. “They can’t handle it.”

  “Oh, you don’t want it? Well, that’s your privilege. I’m not going to make you take it. I’m not going to let it go to waste, either.” And she drank off the other glass. Her cheeks were tingling now as though a frost were stinging the surface. She brought the mirror close and inspected herself. Her eyes were damp and shiny. She whipped back a strand of loose hair.