Bring Me to Life
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Bring Me To Life
Scarlett Parrish
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Bring Me To Life, Copyright © Scarlett Parrish, 2012
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Published by Musa Publishing, October 2012
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ISBN: 978-1-61937-409-6
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Editor: Elizabeth Silver
Cover Design: David Efaw
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Content Warning
This book contains adult language and scenes. This story is meant only for adults as defined by the laws of the country where you made your purchase. Store your books carefully where they cannot be accessed by younger readers.
Dedication
With thanks to Liz Silver for being patient, S.A. Meade for planting the seed of an idea, and Alyssa Palmer for letting me kidnap her and put her in this book.
Chapter 1
I'M NOT EVEN SUPPOSED to be here.
I don't look too bad for a man who's soon to hit three figures. Messy curls still dark brown without a drop of dye in my hair. Spine erect with no sign of the curvature that often comes with age, it still holds me to my full six feet in height. And not a line or wrinkle anywhere on my face.
But that's probably got something to do with the fact I died seventy years ago.
"Alyssa." My voice is nothing more than a whisper across the restaurant table, but despite the bustle around us, I know I'll get through to her.
Alyssa turns her head, staring at me with eyes unfocused for a second. Then she sees me more clearly, and the daydream shrouding her melts away. She smiles, which lights up her fever-paled face and warms me from the inside out with relief.
She's been ill for some time. No fault of mine. I didn't drink from her while she battled the illness which kept her bedbound for the past fortnight, although I visited. Brought her fruit baskets, fortified wine, books. Pretty ribbons for dark, curly hair that throws her complexion into stark relief. Anything to make her smile again.
"You're not fully with me tonight."
"Sorry, I---"
"No need to apologise." I wave a dismissive hand in mid-air between us, glad I don't have to bother with setting down cutlery or a wineglass before doing so. Sometimes, I do eat or drink, but as I don't need to, such occasions are rare. A number of my undead brethren drink coffee and beer, eat steak (rare, never well-done, of course) and vegetables, just to be sociable. Me? I'm not as gregarious, choosing instead to stick to a small group of friends. No--- associates. Alyssa's the only one I count as a friend, and she isn't even one of us.
"You've been ill," I continue, then nod at her plate. Smoked salmon with a green salad, something light but nutritious enough to aid her convalescence. "I want to see you eat, but don't force yourself if you can't manage it."
She pushes a rocket leaf around the plate with her fork while resting her jaw on the other, cupped, hand. A small sigh escapes her, near- silent and likely undetectable to those less attuned to her moods than I. The microscopic adjustment in her shoulders seems to me like a full-on slump.
"Okay." I clasp my hands and rest them on the tablecloth to prevent fidgeting. "Tell me."
"Tell you what?" Her dark eyes flicker with avoidance; a glance is all she can suffer before looking back down at her uneaten dinner.
"I know something's wrong, Alyssa."
"My mother blames you for this," she shoots back, surprising me with the speed of her reply.
Judging by the way the blood rushes to her cheeks, I'm not the only surprised one at the table.
"This?" I lift my eyebrows, already knowing the answer before it comes.
"Me. Being ill. She says...Oh, nothing."
"She says?" Perhaps it's cruel to goad her into talking, but Alyssa clearly has something on her mind, and voicing her concerns can't do too much harm.
I hope.
"She says it's my fault for getting mixed up with you."
Oh. Ouch. I'm not human anymore but still feel the stab of pain at the insult being passed along by someone for whom I care deeply. Some people think vampires can't be hurt.
How wrong they are.
"And what do you say?" My words come out a little sharper than I intended, and I hope Alyssa realises it's hurt speaking, not anger.
"I..."
She gives up rearranging the components of her meal and sets her fork down. It tinkles against the side of her plate, but my hypersensitive hearing is nothing supernatural. I'm on high alert. Concerned about her. "I told her she was wrong. I told her you were the one who'd diagnosed it."
"Hardly." I roll my shoulders in a gentle shrug, bashful rather than embarrassed by the compliment. "I'm not a doctor."
"No, but still, you were able to tell there was something wrong."
I had drunk from her one evening, only a few drops before detecting something wrong. A too- sweet aftertaste where there should have been a metallic tang. I advised Alyssa to see a doctor and found someone else to drink from. She's my one and only regular blood donor, but there are places I can go, people I can see in an emergency.
"When someone says to see your doctor, it's never good news," Alyssa said, worried.
"It's probably nothing more than measles or something similar." It was still a shock to me that measles could be a nothing disease, easily repelled by a vaccination in childhood. If a grown woman came into contact with the contagion, it manifested nothing more deadly than temporary nausea and the need for bed rest.
When I was a lad, it had been nothing short of a death sentence.
"Are you sure?"
"Of course I'm sure. If it was anything serious, it'd taste different."
"And you wouldn't lie to me?"
"No," I lied.
"Not even to save my feelings?"
"Alyssa." I rolled my eyes, displaying a lot more exasperation than I truly felt. Unsettled, my nerve endings tingled with something akin to fear, but which I refused to name such. Vampires don't feel fear.
Sergeant Nathan Stephenson doesn't feel fear.
In the end, it wasn't measles. Chicken pox was beginning to show itself by the time Alyssa got an appointment with her doctor, who was amazed that she had known something was up during the incubation period.
"I'm friends with a vampire."
"Ah." (I'm told the doctor's face paled at the news.) "I see. Well, that makes all the difference. Your sire?"
"No." Alyssa set him straight on matters, despite the spinning sensation in her head which she later told me about. "No. I'm one hundred percent human. He drinks sometimes. He tasted it on me."
In a strange sort
of way, doctors and my kind are mortal---immortal?---enemies.
The Hippocratic Oath states their duty is to "First, do no harm." Not something vampires are famous for.
After that, they're morally bound "to preserve life." Me, on the other hand? Yes, I've killed. Less frequently since I died. I discovered how it felt to take a life during the Second World War---then had my own life taken and everything changed. I became a killer of a different type. Not trained by His Majesty's Armed Forces. Forced into it by something or some one darker still.
Alyssa's consultation ended with her assuring Doctor Simmons that she was a friend to a vampire, that was all. She voluntarily gave blood from time to time, and I never pressured her into turning. My role in the matter was nothing more than drinking and detecting something not quite right in her type-O veins. I'm no doctor, have not the discernment to drink from a willing human and diagnose, "Hmm, tastes like mumps." All I know is when something doesn't feel right.
Alyssa lives on her own, but her mother visits frequently, especially during her illness. We've crossed paths on a number of occasions, and she's made her dislike obvious. I often wonder if she'd dislike me more or less if she knew her daughter isn't my type. Is a gay vampire better or worse than one whom she suspects of keeping her daughter in sexual thrall, a hypnotic, submissive trance?
"I've told her several times." Alyssa's words break into my thoughts, and I plant myself firmly back in the room, back in the present day. There's no point thinking of things that happened decades before, of those actions which led me here, to this so-called life.
"But she still doesn't like vampires," I deadpan, and oh how that word makes me want to laugh. How ironic. Dead pan indeed.
"No."
"And this bothers you."
"Of course it does." She looks up, holding my gaze for once, upset making her emphatic.
"Because you want to defend your friend, or because you agree with her?"
"God." Her shoulders definitely slump this time, and she shakes her head slowly. "Nathan."
"I'm sorry, but you told me about your mother's blame, and you must have done so for a reason."
"I don't know. I just..." Alyssa rolls her neck, as if to rid it of a crick, but I guess she just feels uncomfortable. Scrutinised. I have no meal with which to occupy myself and observant other diners look our way occasionally. Yes, my skin is pale. Yes, there are some mortals who are good at recognising the undead if they cross paths with one of us in a public place. I don't think I advertise my vampiric state, though. Nevertheless, there occurs some pointing, some whispering, some cupped hands against companions' ears and, no doubt, plenty of speculation about my true nature.
And about the true nature of my relationship with Alyssa.
The bottom line is, she just isn't my type. Oh, her blood type suits me, and if I were going to turn, it would be for her, but no. I like men too much. A man. Liked one man in particular, but I turned my life upside-down for him and ended up losing it.
Anyway. I shrug myself back into the present, wondering why the hell tonight of all nights, it's all too easy for me to lose myself in the past.
Mind you, there's plenty of it in which to lose myself.
"I'm tired," Alyssa sighs.
"Oh. Okay. Let me pick up the bill, and we can go---"
"No. I mean tired. Of this."
If I had a heartbeat, it would race now.
"This?" I lower my voice, lean closer to her, and hiss, "Us?"
"No." Alyssa frowns, appearing shocked that I made that allegation. "No."
I nod. This was how it goes. A special human with whom I formed an intimate companionship, beginning to feel less comfortable than usual with our arrangement. That discomfort eventually expands into a need to call a halt to things. It's like being "dumped," to use modern parlance. Like that, but somehow worse. She'll be depriving me of a regular, freely-surrendered blood supply, but there are other losses to be considered too. In life, I was never a fan of the "we can still be friends" philosophy of post-relationship conduct. Likewise with humans from whom I regularly drink; I don't believe it's possible to remain friends after the breach of such intimacy. Perhaps it's a mistake to have one human friend at a time. Putting all my emotional eggs in one basket.
With Alyssa, all that post-relationship nonsense will be too...too...
I don't know what. But I spend enough time living in the past. I won't do it with her. Can't allow myself. I've always been a fan of clean breaks. Walking away.
She may have looked shocked, may have denied that she was tired of us, but the possibility has been mooted, and I just want this evening to be over with. That is to say, the part of the evening I am to spend with her.
I call for the bill, and a waiter flashes a glance at Alyssa's plate, noting her food is all but untouched.
"Was everything all right with your meal?" he begins, his speech slowing as, I suspect, enlightenment tickles at the back of his mind. When his eyes meet mine again, he gulps. My pallor, my own lack of meal in front of me, will give the game away. If he was the same waiter who served us earlier, he'd already know. But he's just a member of staff I signalled to as he passed and is yet to familiarise himself with Alyssa's eating habits and my drinking preferences.
"Yes, it was fine. My companion has just been ill recently, and we've decided to go home."
"Oh." Panic flares in the waiter's widened eyes.
Nothing to do with food poisoning, I want to say. No need to fear a lawsuit. "Sorry to cut the meal short, but if we could just have the bill?"
"Of course." He nods and scurries off with a readiness to please that positively screams fear of what he just figured out I am and a determination that he not be my next victim.
Honestly. Some people think a gay man will try to fuck every other bloke given half the chance.
Similarly, some idiots think a vampire will try to drink from every human they meet. If that was the case, I'd end up sprawled in a gutter somewhere, stomach roiling and distended with the proceeds of my overindulgence.
I have some self-control.
Unlike certain others I could mention.
Hell, maybe he's just being solicitous because he wants a big tip, I reason.
"Are you all right?" Alyssa asks as we leave the restaurant.
I slip my arm around her waist and laugh quietly to myself. "You're asking me that?"
"Yeah. You look pale. Was it what I said about Mum?"
"Of course I'm pale. I've been dead for decades."
"You know what I mean." She zips up her jacket, reminding me of how cold a human would find the evening. I feel the light wind, but no temperature registers, only the sensation of air moving. "Okay, maybe not pale exactly, but frowny. As if there's something on your mind."
"I've been worried about you, that's all. A few times tonight, you were miles away."
"Likewise," she retorts, looking up at me as we walk before linking her arm through mine. Her heels click on the near-deserted street's pavement.
Everyone else is indoors tonight, with very few people outdoors.
"Alyssa, you're the convalescent."
"True enough, but you looked lost in your thoughts on a number of occasions." Her sideways glance, the one-sided smile, makes her look teasing rather than scolding. "Wanna tell me what that was all about?"
"No." I roll my shoulders in a slow shrug.
"Nothing. It was nothing."
"Hmm." She bites her lip, and for a moment, I wonder if she's going to pursue it. She obviously doesn't believe me. I wouldn't believe me. "Oh well."
The shrug Alyssa uses to mirror my own sets my mind at rest. If she presses me and I try to articulate my thoughts to her, I'll mess up---not have a clue how to express whatever's on my mind. Truth be told, I don't know where it came from, this ease with which I keep falling into the past.
"Hey."
She nudges me, and as if choreographed, we draw to a stop near the street corner. "Do you want to, you know?"
"And earlier, you thought I was the one who was getting tired of us?"
I want to shrug again, but it would make me look uncomfortable, and I'm the one who's supposed to be setting Alyssa at ease. I'm the one who's supposed to look after her. We're friends, yes, and look out for each other, but I'm decades older, in theory a lot more worldly-wise. "No, not tonight."
"Got a headache?" she teases, winking.
We start walking again, this resumption of movement like pressing the play button on a video after a long pause. No, Nathan. DVDs. People watch DVDs these days. Move with the times, you dinosaur. "I don't want to rush you. You've been ill."
"I'm getting better."
"You hardly ate a thing. That's not the way to keep your strength up."
"And you must need a drink."
Fuck it; I gulp anyway. Slowly, with as much control as I can muster. I don't need to breathe, so it's not oxygen I take in, but the imaginary scent, the fantasy taste of thick, warm, vibrant blood. I know what Alyssa's tastes like but haven't experienced it for a while, so the memory's all I have to experience at this moment. Too, I have other people I could go see.
"No, Alyssa."
"No, you don't need a drink?"
"No, I won't be drinking from you just yet."
"So you're going to continue cheating on me."
She pouts but can't keep the smile out of her eyes.
"Only until you're well again." I try to sound scolding and fail miserably.
"You'd better go find someone then, hadn't you, eh? I can get myself home from here."
"I'll see you home."
"Come on, Nathan. I'm a big girl. I hit my quarter century on my last birthday."