Dear Dawn

by Aileen Wuornos

  Ive got ta catch upon some sleep ... I boo booed my bible to much the 1st time in noting area’s, and all this fixin up these mistakes has been strenuous. So let me close er up . . .

  Be cool Buddy, Love ya much . . .

  Love

  Aileen

  2-9-94

  (1)

  Dear Dawn,

  . . . Ive got to tell ya a story about Smart alex bar,100 a fight I got into, unexpected . . . so you’ll know how much I changed, from a teen, when it comes to fighten, This happened around 85.

  Well Toni, my first Lezzy encounter, girl I was liven with, after a year together ... Well after I bought her a pressure cleaner, and all the equipment . . . around 4 grand (or so) was spent. She up and left me . . . I was so in love with her, her leavin, rippin me off didn’t bug me. I just wanted her back. Bad. Around 4 days later, from her up and runnin I was hangin out sudzin up all the pain. Now this bar, was a regular of ours . . . Well, it was around 11 AM things still slow in the bar, not much of anyone there . . . we were all kicked back, shootin pool, listening to the Juke box. Me I was settled down at the corner bar . . . restin away with a long neck bottle of bud. Suddenly this guy wearin all this army fatigue jazz . . . walks in. Big guy, around 6'3" and around 275 decides to . . . order a brew. Around 10 minutes go by. I’m not payin any attention to him, Just nursing my memories and pain of, Toni, being gone. Suddenly . . . he turns to me and mouths off. “You Look like a lezzbian to me” . . . And I said yeah, and so what if I am? He said I’m gonna kick your lezzy fuckin ass black and blue all over this bar! . . . I slammed my beer down, and flew off the bar stool, pushing away the 3 bar stools between him and I and jumped his ass . . . I threw him over 2 pool tables that were in the bar . . . beatin him with my fist (or) standin over him, kickin the fuck out of him . . . I dragged him off by the arm, and hair, of what little he had, and dragged him to the back of the bar. Now everyone was watchin me, cheerin me on. Kick his ass Lee, and so on! I was . . . in the most violent rage you’ve ever seen ... As I dragged him out the door, and into the dirt, dust started flyin every where . . . everyone was at the back door watchin. I said, If you Ever! come back to this bar, Ill kill you! Then skip cut in, a biker dude, and he said, No! If you ever come back to this bar, (we’ll) kill you. Get outta here... Needless to say! I got royal respect . . . then I knew for certain. If I go off ! . . . I could whip anyones ass. I was shocked afterward myself in other words . . . Smart alex bar was a trip anyway. Alot of wild times I had in that bar . . .

  Be back in letter no. 2.

  Love

  Aileen

  2-23-94

  Dear Dawn,

  Congradulations Sis! Weeee hooooo !

  This is just a quick note, to let you know I recieved all the good news. Man, the Lord is lookin over ya buddy! 25000 a month.!101 WoW! I am so happy for ya right now. A farm, pear trees, Apple trees, a corn field. Geez! This is cool! . . .

  Yeeeeeeeee! Hoooooooooo!

  Ill be over to visit around March 2nd. Help ya paint an all. I use to paint houses for a livin at one time. Show ya the ropes to getting around the difficult paintin . . . Shit, I wish I could really help ya. Well! let me slide, on out . . .

  4-now

  Love

  Aileen

  2-28-94

  Dear Dawn,

  . . . Say Dawn, I came up with some interesting stuff on prayers. “How to Pray,” And I wanted to send it out to you . . . If you’ve got an extra room in the house, it would be cool turning it into . . . a prayer room . . . So you could Just commune with God in it . . . I’d of made a room . . . Kind of gypsy like. You know, how I am! Pearls, beads, oriental rug, candles, lanterns, incence, pillows to sit Indian style. etc, Ol hippy me, wouldn’t be able to resist. ō, yeah, if the trees blossom fruit, and the corn. Be careful . . . people get sick off of the fruit and jazz, because of it not being maintained . . . with pesticides, etc . . . I once ate a bad pizza with mushrooms. I believe the mushrooms were bad. Man, was I sick! . . . I was all . . . pukin and shitten at the same time . . .

  Well, let me get into this prayer info I just recieved . . . Ill start out of the book with.

  Receiving Mercy, Grace and Joy102. . .

  Prayer is the means that God has appointed for our receiving mercy and obtaining grace to help in time of need. Hebrews 4:16 is one of the simplest and sweetest verses in the Bible. Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need. These words make it very clear that God has appointed a way by which we can seek and obtain mercy and grace. That way is prayer . . .

  To be Continued.

  Love

  Aileen

  2-28-94

  Dear Dawn,

  Weeeeee Hoooooo 38 WoW! and I dont “Even” feel it nor . . . much less look it do I. Great feelin . . . Thank you for all the Birthday Wishes, and from the family. Really Appreciate it, and am relaxed here with Jesus celebrating it with comfort and great peace of mind . . .

  I cant wait to see some flicks of your new place. Man am I ever happy for ya . . . I’m still thanking Jesus continually over this . . .

  I hope now that the rents so low, that you’ll go out and get a used T.V., and stereo, and toaster,. Chuckle. Feel back to liven again. If theres no stove or frig, check out the newspapers (or) any penny saver type newspaper. Theyres good deals being offered. Rent a center and champion, places like this will ripp you off . . . Ty and I goofed up, and went through champion . . . Well, the color T.V. was 1500, but in reality of what it was sold for any where else was 99500. And the Livingroom was 2400. But sold for any where else at 120000 . . . I wouldn’t suggest them, although I know I have. Sorry! . . . We learned from it though, and then started shoppin at trift shops, pawn shops, want ads, etc for second hand used items . . .

  nic, nic . . .

  4-now

  Aileen

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  3-5-94

  Dear Dawn,

  Did you have a good Birthday!? . . . I hope so! . . . I sent out a quick letter on the Article you sent103. . . One of the main reasons I so desperately want to be heard and trusted . . . is to help 100(s) of other Women, incarcerated by merely defending themselves from a violent traumatized attack by some sick creep who wound up dead once they did. But then the sick ass system, wanted to side/with the violence the man incurred, simply because he’s the same sex “Male” . . . And here we have a women who was not only physically damaged by a rape as well as mentally, but again “Ravished” by a male chovinist sick ass court system, through deception from the real facts of what really occurred here . . .

  And so, since Nicks documentary . . . I am finally getting the break I need.

  Eyes and ears are beginning to open up . . . And the “Exposure” is now, Soon to come. So Dawn, God as you see is taking these sad trajedies, and turning them around for a righteous cause . . .

  First of all, its104 say’s a tough talking Lesbian. Wrong! Im very mellow in conversating with anyone on a normal social basis. only tough talking when it comes down to exposing all this injustice done on my cases. I’m irate, and furious over it. Who wouldn’t be . . .

  Well sadly Ive never seen Thelma and Louise, but I hear its a darn good flick referring to women needing to use self defense . . . Heard much about it, but never seen it yet. Darn.

  As for saying here is she really only using a politically savvy battered Women alibi. Well, ha ha ha, I guess not. Dawn since I left home at 16 . . . I encountered innumerable forced sex and violent rape attacks. The road can be very hard to get off it, too, when we have a Society who could care less in helping homeless, or poor individuals in the least . . . I was also abused sexually by a couple pastors, when I sought help off the road, and by other shelters where men where running its facility. So its one hard situation to deal with “ALONE” . . . and no-one else giving a dam . . .

  Ill have to start a new letter . . . So to be continued. OK. Love ya gal. Hope your Birthday was Spictacular!

&n
bsp; Love Aileen,

  3

  3-5-94

  Dear Dawn,

  Hi Im back, near to the end of this article.105 So let me roll in . . . The government winch106 continues to say. “The idea that she was provoked into total incapacity is perverse as a feminist argument.” I agree! If I was incompetent I wouldn’t of known what fight meant., in bravery to do so, nor gun, and how the trigger is pulled . . . No I was a fully grown women, drunk or hungover most of the time, but did know the difference of danger or no. Provokation had to come from the other hand. I was only a reactor of. I say if they wanna be an Animal to

  you, be an Animal back. It may save your life. Here Nick says it right “She was just paying back what had been dished out to her . . .”

  OK, end of Article.

  And the bottom line is. All cases where corruptly tainted in, so by law, the system, should it go by “The Law” which we all knew, “Will not!” should therefore be thrown out. Regardless that 7 were killed There is no way I could ever even begin to prove any form of innocence by all the damage in deception done in all cases. Everything is falsified, tampered, and full of police misconduct, with court house injustice. Knowing how they are, and wouldnt go “by the law in tainted cases” of what the out come demands because of. I am as it was stated by Steve Glazer. The chair, “its written in Stone”. A life sentence would only be further injustice and unnecessary further torment of which I neednt deserve. Its clemency (or) the Chair . . . For me, there is “NO” inbetween . . .

  Well Dawn . . . Finally gave ya my feelings on this one clippen ya sent. it wasnt to bad . . .

  Hope your enjoying your new Happy Home with your Birthday.!

  Love

  Aileen

  Sunny & breezy/80(s) here!

  Don’t rub it in, Aileen

  gulp, Sorry!

  3-14-94

  (1)

  Dear Dawn,

  . . . I Love you to Buddy! Very dearly! All the memories of our teenage days continually flow through this memrable panarama of time. We had so much fun . . . Remember the house I was cleaning up on Harturg . . . That’s the time you and Lori came back from Washington hitch hiken . . . The black attack deal107. . . I still care about her. Had I of been with you. The nig would of died. I would of attacked and you 2 would of finally got the message to . . . strangle him to death . . . Then I would have had to of tried makin you 2 realize, this death here . . . is not to be cared about. This is such “maggot scum”.

  Thank ya Dawn

  . . . Anyway, you’re my dearest friend too! There is no-one . . . But you! Your the only one Dawn. I deeply care about, (or) think of every day as I do . . .

  Say Dawn, when you paint, if you put a shower cap on your head . . . itll be less messy for ya in the shower. Also sun-glass’s or safty glass’s . . . A Bandana is what most professional printers use for manifolds of paint reasons . . . Use maskin tape for Windows, to keep paint from going on to the glass plates. Works good. So theres some helpful hints . . . Hope it helps. I know some you already knew of . . .

  Well, let me slide outta here . . . Okee do Kee! . . .

  4-now

  Love

  Aileen

  Keith always called me this (eye-Lee)

  3-20-94

  (3)

  Dear Dawn,

  ō ō ō By the way Buddy Another dick bites the dust. A gal in California was Acquitted of cutting off her husbands balls, with a pair of scissors. Excellent! Way to go! ... Women are basically . . . “Good!” And men treat em like shit. Such a sad world. And if God is female, Im really gonna loose it, with joy . . .

  Say by the way. If I ever croak, have them do an autopsy on my female parts. Cause down in this region, is all messed up. It would help on the cases. And I could just see them trying to cover up. Vaginal Cancer (or) somethin. See what Im sayin?! . . .

  Stay Warm, eat well, get well, sleep well, And all of that good jazz . . .

  4-now Love

  Aileen

  3-29-94

  Dear Dawn,

  . . . Thank you for the “Beautiful” Easter cards . . . I sure wish my butt could cruise to some gift shop and get you some friendly notes too. Shoot! I’d be buyin the dang store out.

  Yes mame! And! Ill take that over there/and this over here, and that huge painting of Jesus over there. My buddy Dawn will just love it . . . Got the 42500 right here! Zip Zip, and out I go! Later, thank-you.

  U Aileen! you’re a nut.

  me shoot, its nothing, you should see me now, in real life. Im a royal kicker alright. Head out to the grocery store with me. Whew! “I love to clown,!” Basketball /with lettece. Baseball/with tomatoes. Ha. Ha, Ha. Flower salesman in the isle’s. I, (Pick up a bundle) (Whistle to someone) Yo! excuse me, but my cat died, and I’m trying to get these flowers for her. I’ve got 250 but need a buck more. Would you be willing to assist this hour of need. Ha, Ha, Ha . . . Grab fruit eat it and see how long I could get away with it. Never, did get busted . . .

  Darn, Darn, Darn, Sure wish you and I could go shoppin together . . . Ty and I had alot of fun. No doubt . . . She’s got some good memories for sure. I loved also helping out vagrants, and down right nasty lookin homeless people. I’d pull bills out all the time and Just, be, charity to em. Ty didn’t like this, to much. Because I’d give 5(s) (or) 10(s) sometimes. And it could be when we spent most of our money already, and just a little bit left for the end of the day to party on. But I’d always look at her and say. Ty. what comes around goes around. Someday! We could be rewarded by God with a fortune for doing this. Like winnin the lotto.

  And you know, We almost won. I missed by (1) number . . .

  We won 34500 bucks for 4 numbers right. And hair missed $275,995, big Ones.

  And as we came this close, I’d then always say to her. See See See! You never know! God will repay you for your charity . . . Ty would say, Yeah! but what if they just buy drugs (or) booze with it. “Then, Id always say!” So, thats between them and God. I’m only doing my part between God and I. What they do afterward, is there buisness between themselves and Him. Besides! They very well may not be either . . . And ty finally started seein what I was sayin and would give too . . .

  Have a Super Easter too Buddy!

  Love ya . . .

  4-now

  from the Kiddo!

  gone Mad.

  4-2-94

  Dear Dawn,

  . . . You want to hear a sucky situation! . . . OK, I get this letter . . . written to director Bobbie Glover108 . . . freezing A.W.109 inmate account. I continue reading and its about the Nick Broomfield Documentary. They now think. I made money off of the interviews. When you know as well as I know. I only kept 2,000 . . . Well, Im sittin here going. freeze my account! I’ve only 18300 left in it! . . .

  I’m going right back to the media, and explain the whole situation . . . how the cops and Lawyers are the “actual Ones” whove made more Book and Movie money And how they froze my account . . . And that if they’d investigate their own dam kind in there “Just-us” system, they’ll find there the ones profiting. And this is all why I was sold down – to the chair in a gross miscarriage of Justice for the rake in of the mother load.

  . . . I finally wrote Nick, who did the Documentary/back. To thank him in the greatest way. And also if he’d ever like to interview me again. He could. 4 – free.

  Now Steve lied to me big time. You see! He told me. the Son of Sam law was ousted in New York and (a) Supreme Court ruling which applied all over. So he had me believing I could “collect” if I desired interviews. Which as you know, he was settin up for the bucks from me. But the real gig is this. I just learned. The Son of Sam law, was overruled to be out – for federal prisoners . . . “not state.” That any federal prisoners could write about there crimes (or) whatever and profit, once they were released, possibly while there (in) too. I’m not to sure in this. But anyway. The state, did a gig where, still Florida prisoners cant by law (Yet) get paid for interviews etc. One day the whole Son o
f Sam law will be completely thrown out the window. But as for now. This is how it stands, here.110 So Steve was telling me. No! Its OK. It doesnt effect you! The Supreme

  court ruled it out. You can collect. Well, he’s been flat out lying to me. As Arlene and Steve were pocketing the cash. Pretty sick Ā .

  Steve hasn’t written me . . .

  There’s only 2 letters, I’m waiting to write to [Arlene] and Steve. One is “Steve your fired.” The Other is Arlene, “get bent.” As I’m so elated now, as to how Nick “Exposed” em . . .

  Well, let me slide on outta here. Lunch is being served. Its dildo’s. Polish Sausage . . .

  4-now

  Love

  Aileen

  4-7-94

  Dear Dawn,

  Hi gal, by the way, you know, I recall... long ago, you said that Dave agreed to allow me to stay at your place if I ever was set free . . . Gee, thanks you guys! . . . My dream, upon release. A cabin in the mountains of Cannada. Screw America, to corrupt. And 2 german shepards as my companions. A Jeep to get through ruff turrain in. A Bronco for other sporty events, and lots of R+R in Jesus With all the Beauty surrounded . . . Ahhhhh . . . If you wanted to move up with me. I’d give you the bread for a cabin of your dreams to do it with. 4-Sure!

  You know if I ever was miraculously released, I would have to have an address to go to. Cant be released unless you have one. Otherwise they send ya to other prison like joints called, Work releases (or) halfway houses, stuff like this. So I appreciate the support, should I miraculously ever need it . . .

  4-now

  Love

  Aileen

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