So the pest couldn’t resist – Ā!? “Toni.” Well he wrote me wanting me to write to him I’ve let him go. And I’m not going to. The verbal message was good enough . . . Later . . . Dude!
. . . Montels on about Police Brutality. For once a good one on a talk show. Montels all over the Cops with Corruption. Love it.
Let me close er up here. I’m gonna watch the rest of this. The audience is pissed at the cops. Right On . . .
Love
Always
Aileen
8-5-96
Dear Dawn,
. . . When I explained very brief like to the Superintendent my desire.151 She merely said she’ll get back with me on. OK. . . . So Ill wait. Wait and see ... I had to explain so quickly – busy Women – so had to rapp fast – that I may need to write her a letter, so she’ll get a clear cut understanding as to why I need to pursue this. The thought has my wrist hurting. Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha . . .
Yoooo! . . . The Women in thee olympic games sold out more attendance at thee events then the men. Isnt that Cool ! . . . Its about time Women were
respected like this. My beliefs on this is – there sick of aggressive sports were as “Fighting” is always involved. Like Hockey, Baseball, Soccer, as a few examples. Sports is suppose to be enjoyable to watch . . . I feel the Society is getting fed up with this senseless violence over a Sport event. 4-Sure.! . . .
Untill next time
Love Always Aileen,
9-4-96
Dear Dawn,
. . . I’ve been so depressed lately, I’ve just been moppin through sleep, and doin nothin. No Bible reading, No T.V. not even hardly listenin to the radio. The place is so full of hatred and stress it brought me down.! But I’m going to try and force myself to a spiritual uplift, and get back to my Bible . . . I feel I’m being tugged in by the devil . . . It also has me too depressed to write . . . So forgive me buddy for delays OK. Thanks
. . . So much saddness in the world. Everything looks sad to me . . . But although all is – to me – anyway.! The thought of God and all of his Power – does uplift the complete depression . . .
How about. finding a new place! Hows that going? Are you going to live together.152 I myself hope you do. Ā You’ll all save in a big way. Plus! livin together you’d never have a lonely moment.! Loneliness can become so unhealthy. For a while its nice. But perpetually and it can be very depressing. I’m grateful your family is as tight as it is. AMEN.! . . .
Stay Cool, As Usual,
Ha Ha Love
Aileen,
9-12-96
Dear Dawn,
. . . I sure hope all of you are doing fine.! . . . You know I’m starting to finally feel for the men I killed. I’ve been so beat and raped by guys, I couldn’t feel anything over there deaths . . . I literally cry perpetually within by ALL that I see now, as ALL that I’ve done myself in wrong. Be it not of my own willingness or that it was. ALL has me utterly crushed in sorrow . . .
You asked on my teeth. Alls Well . . . My tooth may be OK now. But Lord not my bones! There falling apart.! Long ago back in 79 when I shot myself over Mick. Well nearly having gone paralyzed. The Doc said – later in life . . . you may. / I dont believe Ill ever go as far as paralyzed. But Woe! The back pain is tremendous . . . Otherwise – besides Wrist and fingers and my darn back, I’m doing OK. Because of Jesus. If I didnt have Him in my life – I would be empty and utterly dead within this box ...
Love Always
Aileen,
10-1-96
Dear Dawn,
. . . my wrist is a mess, I couldn’t even write Kim about her birthday. She may need to settle with your saying I’m Sorry . . .
And now to answer up your recent kites. Yesssss Yesssss Yessssss! I got the first 6 flicks . . . THANKS SO VERY MUCH FOR HAVING DONE THIS. Em Em Em. Thank-you!!!!!!!!
From the looks of my old house in this photo, I stand in Awe! Totally amazed! The front door – “look at it closely!” it seems to be like some 20/30 inches from the screen door. Which has me believe they re-converted the Living room . . .
The tree in the front yard is new. Some 23 years old, but wasnt my moms doin. She planted 2 trees in back, close to the house and I see there still there. Barry engraved his name at the top of the tree, one facing west – from back yard – (left hand one.) So if anyone ever cuts it down, they’ll see his name and date on the bark . . .
The flowers! all gone. My mom worked for 33 years on all her flower beds., and rose bushes that use to line the house and the aluminum chain fencing (that now gone) use to be around the front yard.
... I’m very happy to see my house having been so cared for and (creatively kept up with) as it has. Whoever lives there. “Thank-You” . . .
The middle section of the house we called the backroom. I feel was remodeled inside . . . They either built in another fire-place – (or) this new grey smoke stack deal above the house is for the suana in the garage (they kept and didnt tear down). The suana was a steam room – “finnish style” my Dad built along with the house . . .
Say did you notice if the names on the mail boxes were still our ol’ kid friends. Like there parents still live there, or kids took over after purhaps there deaths. Like Kerrs or Maddox’s or Farwells.
. . . 4-now Love Aileen
10-2-96
Dear Dawn,
Hellooo! And Thank you for the greatest gift you could’ve ever given this gal locked up ... I love ya Buddy! . . . Last night I went to the 70(s) and just was flooded with the good ol days ... Im curious if the woods next to my house is still there . . . So – is there woods there? These woods we would galavant through to reach the pits . . .
I remember savin Lori’s but from some bee’s in those woods next to Randalls ... me probably 9 or 10 / her 11 or 12. There was this abandoned car., chevy looken. We were goofin around by it . . . We lifted the wood near the vehicle and out came the bee’s., swarming everywhere, we ran, yet they kept comin . . . She was stung about 5 times only! Should have been more . . . Did I get any thanks for it. HA HA . . . hell no! Only! It was your fault, your fault, your fault. Chuckle, chuckle.
. . . [Always] trying to be a Hero to my sis. Carl Maddox . . . had this bow and arrow set. Always was over our house trying to shoot bats with it . . . I watched the arrow coming down zeroing on Lori . . . The arrow hit her in the back. It wasnt in far. About a 1/2 inch or less but still had to be removed. So I removed it ... she didnt want mom + Dad to know . . . So I put peroxide and iodine on it, stuck a bandaide accrost it. And Walla! Some 4 days later she was OK. Was I credited. Heck no! not this time either. It was – you and Carl’s fault, you and Carl’s, you and Carl’s. Ha Ha . . . Boy ō Boy! Memories! . . .
I really am grateful for these flicks. I wish I could see the back trees in the backyard. Those 2 my mom planted when the house was built. Lot of tree climbin we did in those babies . . . Love ya Forever! Aileen
10-3-96
Dear Dawn,
. . . I’ve got to tell you something thatll blow your mind, like it has mine. I mean this is awesome.! When I was a kid my mom + I would talk about God and life after death, and besides hundreds of other things – also the house being fixed up . . . She died then when I was 14.
Well I was around 9 or 10 when Dad finally decided to get aluminum sideing for the house . . . Mom was in big hopes to also get shutters for all the Windows. White ones at that! But Dad could only afford the sideing and that’s all . . . she kept her hopes up high for someday – getting those shutters for the house. Well she died before this could ever be fulfilled . . . Yet! LOOK! Today there’s white shutters. As if the people who moved in were influenced by my mom’s spirit ...
Well theres more.!
My mom was gettin interested in planting more Tree’s. She had 2 planted in the back ... But here in the early 70(s) she wanted to plant more.
. . . these people who now live here . . . have done percisely again – another gig – exactly as my mom had planned but never fulfilled . . . Woe!
Awesome A! . . .
I say its a sign from my mom. Because when we were little and talks on God would come up. she often mentioned that if she was to die, she’d love to be able to leave “Signs” somehow that / regardless out of the body / she’s still alive. She even thought of one idea, that . . . was to clip a rose off of one of her many rose bushes . . . , place it in a vase without water on the fire place mantel. If the rose didnt wilt in a weeks time, but stayed fresh as if just clipped off the bush, it was done by her, as proof, she is still alive “In Spirit”. Well Lori and Dad did do this, and the rose stayed good for not only a week. But a week and a 1/2. At least this is what Lori told me. Awesome Ā! . . .
Aileen
10-9-96
Dear Dawn,
Hi there Buddy!
This has got to be quick due to the seriousness of situations here . . . I need to write to you of in this state of emergency – is that I need you to call Toni . . . please tell him I need him back in, and for my apologies of having misunderstood him the first time, Ill go ahead and give him the book and all proceeds ... Tell him I’m going through major problems here at this prison ... “coming from the staff” . . . There all out for the kill. Coming straight from the top of the tree here, throughout the branches. So if you would, do this for me. Let me know when this reaches you – and Ill keep mentioning in my letters – To make sure your receiving the message. Okee doke . . . Love ya . . . . . , Always + Forever, babā ! nic nic
4-now / Love Aileen
10-12-96
Dear Dawn,
Healing. The confussion you have of. Well Dawn, my beloved sis. Its all so very simple, if you follow these steps . . . Healing comes through Faith. As you believe his Power can enwrap you and heal you wheather you feel anything or not . . . Kneel down in your home somewhere – and stretch your arms skyward. Ask God in Jesus Name. . . . to forgive you for all your sins in life you’ve done, whether aware (or) unaware. Then.... ask him to come into your life and save you from the curse of this world and all of its fallen state filled in sin . . .
If you dont feel anything the first try, keep trying, and trying and trying. Even if it takes days or even months before a miracle is performed . . . dont give up. / Ever. /
. . . The phones ringin Dawn. Its Jesus, he wants to talk to you. So Ill let ya go. Untill next kite._______________
Love Always
Stay Cool,
Aileen
11-5-96
Saturday
Dear Dawn,
These pictures are the greatest.! I need to Thank you over and over again! . . . see the little window up in the attic area of the house, above to the left over on the roof area of the backroom. Well that little window is were Keith, Lori, and I use to skip outta . . . This was so we could head out to the pits – when parties were going on out there . . .
Randalls house.153
Well, I bet Lori wished there house was like this one instead of what the Randalls did exist as. There house was a shample with all them kids. All boys at that.! I never could understand how Lori could live with them . . . Although I guess it was tolerable because Keith also lived with em. Me. . . . I was able too to. In the abandoned car. on the cinder blocks in the yard. Remember! Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha. There was no room any where in the house to sleep, so the car was the only option. I think I slept there for about 3 months or more. Once winter came, I couldn’t take it anymore, so I headed to Florida . . .
Dawn Botkins.
Botkins and Wuornos during a prison visit in 2001.
The day before the execution.
Botkins and the walnut tree she planted in Wuornos’s memory.
The Eagle Has Landed. Ink drawing by Aileen Wuornos. Image courtesy of Amber Hogue.
Moon Eagle Valley Ranch. Ink drawing by Aileen Wuornos. Image courtesy of Dave Botkins.
Beam Me Up, Scotty. Ink drawing by Aileen Wuornos. Image courtesy of Amber Hogue.
Midnight Blue.Ink drawing by Aileen Wuornos. Image courtesy of Dave Botkins.
Shadows Pine Ridge Resort. Ink drawing by Aileen Wuornos. Image courtesy of Dave Botkins.
Lisa Kester.
Daphne Gottlieb.
The Clark gas-station.! . . . Boy look at it now! Jet set A!? Ha Ha Ha. And I bet the bathrooms are thoroughly in order, as in our days they were as crappy as a shit house in the back woods somewhere! Ha Ha Ha.
Today to drink in the bathroom before headin out somewhere to raise hell, we’d need “Champagne” to go with the flow of this jet set! Ha Ha Ha. WoW. . . . plush isn’t it.? ...
The Alibi. Ō man, they really decked it up didnt they. Super! And yes there pizza’s were so juicey – just the right pepperoni greese taste and cheese on. I loved taken you there and getting some with that hooker money I made. HA HA HA HA HA A now dont feel bad. It was good sex and good food too. So cant complain. Only the bad and hairy times I had with men, do I . . . I wasnt always hooken though. I also won the bread and butter pool husselin. I remember trying to teach you how to shoot. Good Memories. 4-Sure. I’ve got to close here... Love/Aileen
11-17-96
Dear Dawn,
Hi Sis! . . . Yoooo man, saw Elton John on Rosie O’Donnels show. He made a jerk out of himself. Was wearing a super flacky funky lookin flannel styled suit coat outfit. Whipppped! . . . Then after he sang he went and started bowing on the floor to Rosie. As if desperate He to me seemed out of control from past drug + booze abuse . . . Geeeeez! ...
I’m reading on your cats. Right on! There so precious ... I felt like the beast master with my critters . . . Dusty one day was watchin me flush the toilet. Well as the water was swirling away going down / he jumped on the seat to watch in amazement. Then to “my amazement” he started pawing the flusher untill it worked. It flushed, he watched again it swirl down. From then on, he’d go in there and do it now an then. Flush the toilet.! God I loved that cat. And all my kids (critters) . . . It breaks my heart flashin back in memory and seeing how I “did” neglect there health. Then I didnt know it! But now I do . . . I was carrying on one blind wild life.
The pictures! Yes Dawn! You do not have a moon face in your shots of yourself. Your attractive and you are quite photogetic . . . You could of done modeling easily . . .
Untill next time
Love always
Aileen,
11-17-96
Dear Dawn,
Finally looked up the word to spell it right.
Lets “Reminisce”. . . . (“Discuss or think of the past”) Ha Ha Ha Ha . . . Whats this C in it. The way I spelt it wrong looked better! As I spelt it “Reminess” . . . OK OK OK so the C is silent. Then what the hell did they even put it in there for. Man! . . . So lets go back to the 70(s) buddy. There we are smokin a doobie out of a 4 finger $5 dolla bag of black gungi I copped through some guys from clawson. Where at the pits and waiting for the rest of the gang to arrive, from there were going cruising in Lori’s New port. Remember that black tank.!? . . . Were all getting stoned, and as the radio plays those good ol’ tunes, we rap on places to go and were to eat and cop some mesc or anything . . . We try woodland area, we head then out to stoney creek. / Notta. / Then to some parks. Still notta. / Last resort the mall. 15 mile and Jimmy E. The Bizzarr shop! ... We finally cop. Then off we go for more cruising. For the store and booze and then were to settle and enjoy our high. Where else but back at the pits.
Later boredom strokes and we’ve got to head out again. So we do at the pool hall. Not everyone has the quarters to play the game. But I do! She works hard for the money! Bo do do do. Ba Ba. . . . Bingo! Here’s a little chink for you Keith, you Lori, and of-course my friends in need. No biggy! The bucks are “Easy” to achieve. Ha Ha Ha. . . . We shoot pool . . .
Alright man . . . What were we 13 14 . . . 12. Cant remember our age! Do you!?
. . . Memory loss! End of ditty too! . . .
Do you remember “Window acid” LSD/25 Was so small, thin little crystal like deal. Super hard to cut 4 way.
Did you ever go with me t
o the Amboy Dukes house on 20 and Rochester.? They lived right next to the Clark gas station . . . Yes good Buddy. The Amboy Dukes – the group lived there and I use to always head over to cop drugs and party. Plus spend the night over from the cold as a run-away! I hope you were introduced to them, and remember. They were the ones who sang “Journey to the center of your mind.” I use to go over and watch them practice. This song was my favorite. Bob Seager used to live 2 streets down South or 20 mile from Hartwig. Vince Lawsons street ...
Well, I’ve got to close again ... Happy Thanksgiving. Buddy Enjoy the deer.! Ha Ha.
4-now
Love
Aileen
11-17-96
Dear Dawn,
Man, either mail room is playin with my T.V. guide or it ran out. And didnt you tell me it was subscribed for 3 years. So if you would, would you please call the T.V. guide people and find out for me whats going on . . . If there is tampering. I want Toni to get on this one . . . This is a Federal Offense . . .
Man you blow my mind sis! Still watch the Wizard of Oz. your a trip! And It is one darn good flick . . . I just received a letter from . And it contained that the U.S. Supreme Court has denied any write of certiorari. / Appeal denied. / This gives me some 2 years left . . . So we will never know what tomorrow may bring. The chair could very well be around the corner. But Am I concerned.! Big no. You know how I feel. Ill be were ever Jesus is . . .
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