Dear Dawn

by Aileen Wuornos

  I was also thinking of Prime-Time. There pretty level headed with a touch of class in there exposure. So if you would . . . ask them if they’d like to interview me, Topic. “Coming clean, getting the absolute truth out, so this lieing over the cases and making money via can be put to a halt. They’ll be no self-defense. Strictly the lines of 1st degree.” OK.

  Now on me exposeing actual events as to how the crimes occurred. No can do.! / Savin this up for the next gig . . .

  So if you’ll do this for me. Thank you my dearly beloved buddy. And let them know – the interview must be as soon as possible. (or) I may change my mind and Walla – they’ll miss out. So must be A.S.A.P. OK.

  . . . I just hope I get a chance to meet Peter Jennings! . . .

  I see more here on your kidney infection. Man . . . Very scarry – for shore – yet you come through . . .

  Long ago . . . ŌO around 84 I had a stomach scan . (done) Come to find out . . . sists were all inside my bladder. Doc said. you need those cut out, or down the road like 10 years from now they could turn cancerous. Well I never had anything done, and wont now. Im on my way out. But I think the gig may be from . . . uh hummmm. Masterbating! Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha. Hey got ta have it some how or another. I aint no fool now! . . .

  I know.... “Sinner”. . . . ! But I say A!? Its cleaner then, Adultery, fornication, or hooken, Chuckle, Chuckle. I know whose ever else readin this . . . has got to be fallin out. I know I am . . . and you are.! Ha Ha Ha.

  OK. 4th page. Time to close er up. Please remember to make the call. Okee doke!

  Love ya much buddy! . . .

  Love Aileen,

  4-20-97

  Dear Dawn,

  Yes . . . me again! Hello Hello Hello And I see here . . . that you wondered if I still brush my hair all the time. Like I always did in our woodstock era. Yes! All the time. All day long! So surely your wondering why! Well. Because when I was 9 and in that fire in the duck shed we as kids built for the little squirts we had, all my hair got burned off. When it grew back, it came back this (a)way and that (a) way / besides really thin now. So I began from age of 9 to train it to stay in one particular style.. “All back”. But! It doesnt do this. Never has . . . My hair hasnt been cut since 85. And as you see it doesnt grow. If it ever does, I may become some super human being, like Samson . . . Ha Ha Ha. want me to bring down the walls of this prison.! ... How’s your’s doin by the way!? I’ve got to see your hair cut.! I dont believe I’ve ever seen you in short hair. So send a flick pleeeeeese.! Dont forget. OK . . .

  Boy I sure hope you can contact Peter Jennings. If you do, and he excepts. Boy will I be thrilled.! . . . Love Aileen,

  4-30-97

  Dear Dawn,

  . . . O on peter Jennings! Well change of plans again. I guess if Linda is coming through this Summer, no need too. So I’m sorry once again my dearly beloved friend, I put you through another mix up. cringe. OK . . . Ill shut my mouth, Ill shut my mouth!!! Ha Ha . . .

  Have you ever had a bladder scan!? This may be really were your problem lies . . . I did also have a brain scan. I wanted to make sure I didnt have any tumors from all the boozing I’ve done. So . . . I took an I.Q. test the Doc wanted me to take, it came out 105. I said . . . not bad . . . for teachin myself everything. Ha Ha . . . [The scan] came out crystal clear . . .

  O yeah. You asked were’d I get the 01¢ and 05¢ stamps. Crazy Phillis wrote. Wanted to visit me. Ha Ha Ha. No way! and didnt write back! Never will! UK! . . .

  Stay Warm,

  Brrrrrrrr........

  I’m freezing!

  AHHH

  Love

  Aileen,

  5-7-97

  Dear Dawn,

  . . . Cant wait to see you! Its been so long! Forgive me buddy for only 2 hours, but in all honesty, this bladder is messed up. I think from all the boozing, Ha Ha Ha . . .

  WoW. Couldnt believe it, but 20/20 sent me a quick reply. claimin there to piled up for one. I laughed it off thinkin . . . well you certainly will miss out then. This is the Real McCoy . . . Geez! Idiots.! Only to say, you blew this one 20/20 . . .

  See ya Soon Love Aileen

  5-20-97

  Dear Dawn,

  . . . I remembered in one of your letters you mentioned drawing. Well Girl! Let me tell ya . . . We’ve been doing some heavy stress around here . . . I perceive a heavy lawsuit by many will take place. To much hatred in a hitler sense against the girls, and then always trying to cover it up . . . So anyway.! I havent the energy nor time to do drawings . . .

  If you thought to seek book plans to help out your 50,000. Well! Go for it.! But I cannot help you . . . I am worn out. Looking only now to rest in Christ. Be it alive or dead. I rest in him.

  . . . concerning this 10 acre farm house . . . Your wasting time. Percious time. Sitting around hopeing the money will come to ya! It wont by any book of me (in time) nor by any drawing’s!. And no bank my dear is going to loan you it. Face . . . Reality! . . .

  I sure wish dark skies was on. Miss it! Man. a series I finally really got soaked in, and zip . . . Its only probably true the Government is trying to conceal U.F.O. Knowledge, and got peeved about the airing of the series . . .

  As for seeing you.! Why of-coarse!.. I want to see you.! We’ve just been facing some mental warfare. OK. And my energy is Zapped of all their evil.

  Well let me close er up Buddy ...

  Relax,

  Love

  Aileen,

  6-4-97

  Dear Dawn,

  . . . Girl! you dont read my letters properly. You think Im on your case, when Im telling it like it is about the farm and money. / But I’m not. / Only concerned. /

  On the remark about the book and 50,000 on the farm . . . You said it was a nasty one. Amazeing! You really take me wrong.... I just stated – I cant help you on a book. But then said . . . if you want to do one on your own. Well whats stoppin you. Go for it . . . Whats so dam crappy about that.?

  Anyway! Whats with you . . . I feel as if you are now starting to play games with me.! . . . Quit holding information from me, and lets cut to the chase. / Hit the breaks. Whats up.!?

  . . . Now are you still mad.? And what for!? I’m just being me. Honest, down to earth, and Rational about things all around me.

  You need to be more / Understanding.

  . . . How about chillin. I am. Wasnt hot in the first place! Was only trying to explain stuff.

  4-now

  Love

  Aileen

  6-4-97

  Dear Dawn,

  . . . They’ve been changing things around here. Like for showers and walk. / Handcuffed there and back. Then there was shake down everyday ... So as lawsuits are now in our minds . . . I feel our T.V. guides are also another contemptable bit of illegal activity.

  Linda wrote. Tells me she’s just waiting for Tallahassee to clear things through. I say! .. “Be persistant!” . . . Anyway! I cant wait. Will be glad to see you . . . and her . . .

  I’m reading about Lori and you back in our kid days. Well! give me a break! You say here . . . You and Lori didnt hang all that much around togeather. Sure you didnt . . . Lori – scooped you up and away from me. I was “pissed”. . . . and that’s when our friendship faded. Now you can say – “thats not so” – all you want. But thats how I remember it dawn . . .

  I see Perry “Beard” was the creeps last name. I had consensual sex with him up in Teds attic. He was terrible. Little pecker too on that jerk. So honey ... you sure didnt miss anything with him in the back seat that night. Ha Ha. And Now confession time. . . . . Who was it I had sex with in troy. Well! Gordon Marks – Mike Fairchild, Carl Maddox, Jack West Derek Anderson. Thats all! Jack and Derek – was just once. Mike O about 3 times. Carl Maddox – Lord he was my first, cant count them all / But good and full of fun, Gordon Marks was huge and O about 5 times. Em Em Em. . . . . Had to prime myself.! What can I say.! Teen urges.! We all had em . . . OK I’m outta here. Untill next time.

  Have a good one!

&nbs
p; Love Aileen

  6-19-97

  Dear Dawn,

  I sent out my old stuff. A box is on its way to ya. OK. Contents are. Sweater ... Watch (. . . needs a new battery put in). 3 Bandana’s, The black robe . . . a ring . . . A stone is missing from the ring. But a little shoppin around and it could be fixed . . . “Our Friendship ring – sis – handed down from me to you!” Was sent to me, from some gal in New York that I never wrote back to. She sounded to much like a creep from some gang – plus was spick. So I said to myself. OK. Ill keep the ring and someday send it to dawn ... Which would symbolize our sisterly friendship. Good and tight. Or whatever suits your fancy buddy. Anyway! . . . Get a chain and wear it around your neck, so everyone knows – your mine! Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha ō god. . . . I’m laughin now.! . . .

  Love always! The ol hippie from Troy Aileen

  7-2-97

  Dear Dawn,

  Where are you

  2 wks

  no mail.

  Aileen

  7-15-97

  Dear Dawn,

  . . . My tooths screwed up again! So I battled with it for a near 50 somethin hours now.! And believe I got it beat from a near nasty infection. By the way . . . since I’m on the subject of . . . to remind you. . . . when you come down. Please remember.... you neednt get for me any munchies. Only one soda.... to keep from cotton mouth with all the rappin well be doin. OK. . . . and of-course I’ve still thee ol’ piss problem. so It can only be for 2 hours each day. Sorry! But also cant wait to see you either! Vantastic! . . .

  I see hear . . . you got a bit angry over my kidding around at name calling. Calling you pecker head. It was suppose to be funny. So laugh. Geeez! . . .

  Yes Dawn. Heard all about Korvorkian. The maniac is at it again. Or is he insane? Purhaps my friend . . . it is merciful. I’ve always been undecided with this. To ease such suffering . . . actually seems – Sane. But will it send the soul to hell. I dont really know. Its hard to determine . . .

  See ya. / Love Aileen

  7-22-97

  Dear Dawn,

  Helloooo! I know! Where have you been. Well, in my room . . . Poutin! . . . [I] had a cig in my cell. got caught smoking it, and now got a D.R. Lord . . . Needless to say. You guys may have to reschedule the visit and the interview . . .

  Just a week before this . . . B.C.i158 decided to cut our recreation down as well “from 4 hours”..! “per week” . . . to 2 hours now . . . per week. Another violation from the men. And by Law – were suppose to be out for an hour per day . . . (5) times a week. 5 / not 4 or even “2”, – – – – – – – – – – – Well . . . need I tell you!!! there about to be in big trouble?! . . .

  I also feel an aire of hindrence to the interview. Seems to me quite fishy that for 2 years I’ve snuck a pull of cigs and then suddenly – just before the interview I get caught. How!? I say . . . the Com.! Used the Com to listen in on the flick of the bic . . . (Give her a D.R. and then we can screw up her visit and this interview.) Well.... it can always be rescheduled . . .

  Well gal . . . Time to close . . . I love you very very much. I mean it with ALL my HEART good buddy! ... Love always / Aileen,

  7-24-97

  Dear Dawn,

  Whew Shew! Lucky me! The D.R.? Well I got 15 days gain time taken away. Whew! I was so relieved . . . Wheeeeeee! Boy! alright.

  Mr. Battle also informed me of clearance approval for your visit the 23rd and 24th. Butttt! Didnt seem to have anything on the interview . . . So do you know anything!? Cause I’m at a loss and in suspense here. OK. As to when Linda will be here.

  Anyway! a breath of relief. We can all calm down now. Geeeeez . . .

  Well . . . 4th page good buddy! Time to rap er up. And as I do.... Big hugs and Kisses . . . Stay fit! Love Aileen

  8-3-97

  Dear Dawn,

  Hi Buddy! I know your gettin all geared up for the Visit.

  ME TOO! Even bought curlers! So as you can see . . . I’m just as EXCITED as you! I curl my hair for no-one. Didnt even for Ty! So my friend. KNOW YOUR LOVED and very special to me. OK.!

  . . . my tooth is . . . healin up fine . . . And you!? How are you doin!? And Dave with work!?

  I dont know how you do it myself ... when your sick . . . Your tough sis. TOO THE CORE! . . . you should have been a man instead of a Women! Am I right or am I wrong.? Chuckle. I can hear ya now.! Had I never of met Dave . . . I probably would of perferred – A Man. And Tom boyed it throughout life. Ha Ha Ha. . . .

  Me! I never thought I’d ever Lezzie out myself! Another thing that blows my mind. / I played with G.I. Joe dolls Keith had and all of Keiths toys, completely avoiding Lori’s Barbie . . . Buttt! That was only!! Because guys stuff was more fun.! I had no attraction to girls or anything ... Now.... had I of never been stuck out on the road . . . being Abused and mistreated constantly by guys!!! I’d of certainly turned out like you. Married with kids and playing the Womenly Motherly role. Buttt fate wouldnt have it, and all my Tom boyish experience eventually turned me gay at the age of (28). / 28!? Ha Ha . . . Yes (28). Took a good while before I finally gave in and decided to check it out . . .

  4-now

  Love Aileen,

  8-3-97

  Dear Dawn,

  . . . Your now . . . talkin about the Zoo . . . Well by george, this is were Kitty and I went to sell drugs during our high school days and skippin classes. Do you remember Kitty Howard . . Let me tell you a story about her sister an I, all of which I cant remember her name. DARN IT.

  We hitch hiked out to Detriot to look for some mesc. [Kitty’s sister] decided she was gonna take the guitar out there, and dance in the street for attention, to get hippies crowded around, and then seek any drugs we could once the stage was set and the lights on us.

  Well eventually lights came! . . . Her dancing was so terrible, she apparently attracted thee attention of more then just hippies. Here came the Cops! They proceeded to ask us who we were, our ages . . . and here I was a run away . . . Well, suddenly up pulls a plain wrapper (regular Vehicle) with 4 white coats chargeing out and grabbing “Sara” . .

  When everything quited down . . . the Cop finally explained the situation. Sara had been institutionalized by her parents and ran from the place . . . Anyway!!! Any time I ever hear that ol’ song from the 60s/ “Dancin in the street.” It always brings me back to mind of Sara . . . Man. . . . that day . . .

  We’ve all done wild things in our prime while partying. This is what she was all about. Just getting crazy while being stoned, solely for laughs. Her parents thought she was literally crazy . . . Ive met alot of crazies in my 18 years off an on of the road. She couldnt compare. The ones I met were definetly dangerous.

  Today I hope her life is straightened out and doing fine. The parents. Straight Jacket there ass too hell. Evil FK’s/ . . .

  4 now Love Aileen

  8-14-97

  Dear Dawn,

  Well . . . alls approved ... See ya in one week. And I hope your just as excited as I am. AS I AM.! . . .

  You also asked what the interview was going to be about. Well on paper . . . I really cant discuss “Details” with you sis. You’ll just have to wait for the tape . . . But I can tell you . . . its based on breaking the Silence. The World has heard the Cops and “only” of Mallory. Its my turn now.... With ALL cases . . . honestly revealed . . . What Sound offs / based on. These area’s. So . . . surely you’ve got the idea now. OK.

  Man . . . back to tooth problems ... I guess what it is, is that the road is catchin up to me NOW here on the Row. I never ever . . . Never went to the Docs much at all. Except with Ty once. for cat scratch fever! . . .

  It all came about..! once upon a time.. ! loooong Aaaago aaaand faaaar Aaaaway! . . . thar was a kitty Caught in the trees. A big Maple one. Being a good productive hooker that I was – off for the day. I decided to save the little fury critter from further harm. So I put on me courage and climbed the big Maple. Once I reached the little four legs. I tried to grab the creature . . .

  We
ll the munchkin didnt want it that a way, as it shook and shivered in frieght . . . Then suddenly out lashed a paw in me eye, just upon the lid. Blood POURED OUT . . .

  Since the blood was now a flowin . . . I CAST the critter down! When he hit the ground., he shot out of sight like a bolt of lightening.

  I sprawled down, with blood drippin a top me shirt an all. / a red mess. The next day! Lumps appeared around the side me neck an face. Scaaaared! I went to the Doc. And “Cat Scratch Fever” was the diognosis. Plenty pissed I was. Lost a good weeks work and some 700 shellings in the makeings . . .

  See ya Soon.

  Literally!

  Until then,

  Stay Cool

  as always

  Love Aileen,

  8-14-97

  Dear Dawn,

  THANK YOU GOOD BUDDY FOR COMEING DOWN! Weeeee hooooo! I am extremely glad you did! Again sorry for only 2 hours at a time, but! at least we saw one another once again! GREAT! Everytime I retract in mind our visit.... a huge smile forms on my face. THANKS DAWN. It was really good to see you. 4-Shore.

  I feel wonderful now! / Gave it away! To linda the truth, and got to see you! COOL.! I am very much complete now. God Thank you Buddy.! THANK YOU BOTH.! . . .

  Since our visit and the interview, I’ve noticed an aire of contempt. Obviously jealous about the tapeing and who it went to. Awwww. poor babies. Anyway! I’m as happy as a lark. Weeeeeeeee hoooooooooooo . . .

  Anyway!!! really sorry for any inconviences or hassels you had to endure.. sis. Just really elated to the fact we got to see one another . . .

  I will admit!!! I was shy with it.! Because of my Boo Boo on my face. Ha Ha. What a time to get that darn thing A!? My shyness may of made you think I didnt give two hoots about our visit. But.... by all means. NO WAY! (And do hope I’m wrong on even thinking this.) I Love you DEARLY ...