Iris

by Norman Crane

had one hundred years but prepare for the plucking

  The sender was @. The message appeared in each user's feed at exactly the same time and in his first language, without punctuation. Because of the date most of us thought it was a hoax, but the developers of Twitter denied this vehemently. It wasn't until a court forced them to reveal their code, which proved that a message of that length and sent by a blank user was impossible, that our doubts ceased. ##!! took bets on what the message meant. Salvador Abaroa broadcast a response into space in a language he called Bodhi Mayan, then addressed the rest of us in English, saying that in the pincers he had identified an all-powerful prehistoric fire deity, described in an old Sanskrit text as having the resemblance of mirrored black fangs, whose appearance signified the end of time. "All of us will burn," he said, "but paradise shall be known only to those who burn willingly." Two days later, The Tribe of Akna announced that in one month it would seal Xibalba from the world and set fire to everything and everyone in it. For the first time, its spokesman said, an entire nation would commit suicide as one. Jonestown was but a blip. As a gesture of goodwill, he said that Xibalba was offering free immolation visas to anyone who applied within the next week. The New Inevitability School condemned the plan as "offensively unethical" and inequalitist and urged an international Xibalban boycott. Nothing came of it. When the date arrived, we watched with rapt attention on live streams and from the vantage points of circling news planes as Salvador Abaroa struck flint against steel, creating the spark that caught the char cloth, starting a fire that blossomed bright crimson and in the next weeks consumed all 163,821 square kilometres of the former Republic of Suriname and all 2,500,000 of its estimated Xibalban inhabitants. Despite concerns that the fire would spread beyond Xibalba's borders, The Tribe of Akna had been careful. There were no accidental casualties and no unplanned property damage. No borders were crossed. Once the fire burned out, reporters competed to be first to capture the mood on the ground. Paramaribo resembled the smouldering darkness of a fire pit.

  It was a few days later while sitting on Bakshi's balcony, looking up at the pincers and rereading a reproduction of @'s message—someone had spray-painted it across the wall of a building opposite Bakshi's—that I remembered Iris. The memory was so absorbing that I didn't notice when Bakshi slid open the balcony door and sat down beside me, but I must have been smiling because he said, "I don't mean this the wrong way, but you look a little loony tonight. Seriously, man, you do not look sufficiently freaked out." I'd remembered Iris before, swirling elements of her plain face, but now I also remembered her words and her theory. I turned to Bakshi, who seemed to be waiting for an answer to his question, and said, "Let's get up on the roof of this place." He grabbed my arm and held on tightly. "I'm not going to jump, if that's what you mean." It wasn't what I meant, but I asked, "why not?" He said, "I don't know. I know we're fucked as a species and all that, but I figure if I'm still alive I might as well see what happens next, like in a bad movie you want to see through to the end." I promised him that I wasn't going to jump, either. Then I scrambled inside his apartment, grabbed my hat and jacket from the closet by the front door and put them on while speed walking down the hall, toward the fire escape. I realized I'd been spending a lot of time here. The alarm went off as soon I pushed open the door with my hip but I didn't care. When Bakshi caught up with me, I was already outside, leaping up two stairs at a time. The metal construction was rusted. The treads wobbled. On the roof, the wind nearly blew my hat off and it was so loud I could have screamed and no one would have heard me. Holding my hat in my hands, I crouched and looked out over the twinkling city spread out in front of me. It looked alive in spite of the pincers in the sky. "Let's do something crazy," I yelled. Bakshi was still catching his breath behind me. "What, like this isn't crazy enough?" The NHL may have been gone but my hat still bore the Maple Leafs logo, as quaint and obsolete by then as the Weimer Republic in the summer of 1945. "When's the last time you played ball hockey?" I asked. Bakshi crouched beside me. "You're acting weird. And I haven't played ball hockey in ages." I stood up so suddenly that Bakshi almost fell over. This time I knew I was smiling. "So call your buddies," I said. "Tell them to bring their sticks and their gear and to meet us in front of the ACC in one hour." Bakshi patted me on the back. Toronto shone like jewels scattered over black velvet. "The ACC's been closed for years, buddy. I think you're really starting to lose it." I knew it was closed. "Lose what?" I asked. "It's closed and we're going to break in."

  The chains broke apart like shortbread. The electricity worked. The clouds of dust made me sneeze. We used duffel bags to mark out the goals. We raced up and down the stands and bent over, wheezing at imaginary finish lines. We got into the announcer's booth and called each other cunts through the microphone. We ran, fell and shot rubber pucks for hours. We didn't keep score. We didn't worry. "What about the police?" someone asked. The rest of us answered: "Screw the fucking police!"

  And when everybody packed up and went home, I stayed behind.

  "Are you sure you're fine?" Bakshi asked.

  "Yeah," I said.

  "Because I have to get back so that I can shower, get changed and get to work."

  "Yeah, I know," I said.

  "And you promise me you'll catch a cab?"

  "I'm not suicidal."

  He fixed his grip on his duffel bag. "I didn't say you were. I was just checking."

  "I want to see the end of the movie, too," I said.

  He saluted. I watched him leave. When he was gone, my wife walked down from the nosebleeds and took a seat beside me. "There's someone I want to tell you about," I said. She lifted her chin like she always does when something unexpected catches her interest, and scooted closer. I put my arm across the back of her beautiful shoulders. She always liked that, even though the position drives me crazy because I tend to talk a lot with my hands. "Stuck at Leafs-Wings snorefest," she said. "Game sucks but I love the man sitting beside me." (January 15, 2019. Themes: hockey, love, me. Rating: 5/5). "Her name was Iris," I said.

  Iris

   

  "What if the whole universe was a giant garden—like a hydroponics thing, like how they grow tomatoes and marijuana, so there wouldn't need to be any soil, all the nutrients would just get injected straight into the seeds or however they do it—or, even better, space itself was the soil, you know how they talk about dark matter being this invisible and mysterious thing that exists out there and we don't know what it does, if it actually affect anything, gravity..."

  She blew a cloud of pot smoke my way that made me cough and probably gave her time to think. She said, "So dark matter is like the soil, and in this space garden of course they don't grow plants but something else."

  "Galaxies?"

  "Eyes."

  "Just eyes, or body parts in general?" I asked.

  "Just eyes."

  The music from the party thumped. "But the eyes are our planets, like Mars is an eye, Neptune is an eye, and the Earth is an eye, maybe even the best eye."

  "The best for what? Who's growing them?"

  "God," she said.

  I took the joint from her and took a long drag. "I didn't know you believed in God."

  "I don't, I guess—except when I'm on dope. Anyway, you've got to understand me because when I say God I don't mean like the old man with muscles and a beard. This God, the one I'm talking about, it's more like a one-eyed monster."

  "Like a cyclops?" I asked.

  "Yeah, like that, like a cyclops. So it's growing these eyes in the dark matter in space—I mean right now, you and me, we're literally sitting on one of these eyes and we're contributing to its being grown because the nutrients the cyclops God injected into them, that's us."

  "Why does God need so many extra eyes?"

  "It's not a question of having so many of them, but more about having the right one, like growing the perfect tomato." I gave her back the joint and leaned back, looking at the stars. "Because every once in a while the cyclops Go
d goes blind, its eye stops working—not in the same way we go blind, because the cyclops God doesn't see reality in the same way we see reality—but more like we see through our brains and our eyes put together."

  "Like x-ray vision?" I asked.

  "No, not like that at all," she said.

  "A glass eye?"

  "Glass eyes are fake."

  "OK," I said, "so maybe try something else. Give me a different angle. Tell me what role we're playing in all of this because right now it seems that we're pretty insignificant. I mean, you said we're nutrients but what's the difference between, say, Mars and Earth in terms of being eyes?"

  She looked over at me. "Are you absolutely sure you want to hear about this?"

  "I am," I said.

  "You don't think it's stupid?"

  "Compared to what?"

  "I don't know, just stupid in general."

  "I don't."

  "I like you," she said.

  "Because I don't think you're stupid?" I asked.

  "That's just a bonus. I mean more that you're up here with me instead of being down there with everyone, and we're talking and even though we're not in love I know somehow we'll never forget each other for as long as we live."

  "It's hard to forget being on the surface of a giant floating eyeball."

  "You're scared that you won't find anyone to love," she said suddenly, causing me to nearly choke on my own