Hawk's Choice (Infernal Sons MC Book 3)

by Carol Dawn

  I inhale a much need breath while Hawk and Bear just stare at me.

  “Did he even breathe a single breath through all of that?” Bear asks Hawk.

  “I don’t think so,” Hawk answers.

  “You two are insane. Here,” I hand my phone’s SD card and the camera to Bear. “Do with it what you will.”

  “Hey Slim, do you want a ride home?” Bella asks. “Ink is taking us home because the guys have more club stuff they need to do. Unless, of course, you want to stay?”

  I glance at Hawk. He looks tired but this event was his job and he probably would like to go over everything with Bear.

  “Yeah, thank you,” I say. “Give me just a few?”

  “We’ll be waiting by the car,” Rose says before the girls walk away.

  “You need my help?” I ask Hawk. “I can help clean up.”

  Hawk pulls me into his body. “You go on home, baby. You need to rest. I’ll be home soon.”

  He leans down and brands a claiming kiss on my mouth. Not a single soul will doubt who I belong to after seeing that.

  With a satisfied smirk, Hawk turns and walks back to Bear.

  “Hey, Hawk?” I yell.

  He stops and turns his head.

  “I love you,” I shout, just so everyone knows.

  “I love you, sweet boy,” he shouts back. “With every single breath I have.”

  It takes a lot of strength, but I turn away with my heart filled to overflowing. Tonight is the night. I’m fully healed, almost, and ready for Hawk to make love to me, and from the look in his eyes, he knows it.

  I get to the car and slide in the back with Rose.

  “Everyone, buckle up,” Ink says, starting the car. “If a single hair on any of your heads is harmed while under my watch, I’ll likely be used as target practice by three very pissed off bikers.”

  We chuckle but buckle our seatbelts. Mainly because he isn’t wrong. Our men are badass that way.

  “So, Slim,” Ink says. “I have it on good authority that you will no longer be staying in the apartment above my shop.”

  “What? On who’s authority?” I ask, shocked.

  “Just a feeling,” he admits.

  “Oh, well we haven’t really talked about me moving into Hawk’s cabin,” I tell him.

  “Honey, if it was up to Hawk, you would have moved in with him ages ago,” Rose says.

  The car is silent while we make our way to Bella’s house. Hawk told me once that he didn’t want me to leave. I assumed it was because I was still healing. But, maybe it’s something deeper? Either way, it’s definitely something we’re going to have to talk about.

  After dropping Bella off and making sure she got in and locked up safely, Ink heads toward the cabins.

  “You know,” Ink says, disturbing the silence of the car. “It’s really weird how none of my equipment has been bothered for the past week and a half.”

  The force it takes to not smile is painful.

  “Weird,” I say.

  “Yes, weird,” he agrees with a smirk.

  Ink walks Rose to her door and makes sure she locks it behind her. Then we drive the fifteen seconds to Hawk’s cabin.

  “Thank you, Ink.”

  “I’m walking you in too, Slim,” he says, getting out of the car.

  I roll my eyes but don’t argue. I unlock the door and disarm the security system.

  “Make sure you rearm that when I leave,” Ink demands.

  “Will do. Can I get you anything before you go?”

  “No thanks. Just stay inside and stay safe.”

  He pats me on the shoulder before stepping outside and shutting the door. Just like he did with Bella and Rose, he doesn’t move a single step until I lock the door.

  “Reactivate the alarm, Slim,” he says through the door.

  I do as he says and set the alarm.

  “It’s on,” I yell back.

  “Good, see ya later.”

  Before Ink is even out of the driveway, I’m rushing to Hawk’s room to grab a shirt. I need to get cleaned up before he gets home. Tonight, I’m going to fully give myself to the man I love.

  Even if I have to get on my knees and beg.

  Chapter Twelve

  Hawk

  I’m finally home. It took us five hours to get things cleaned and packed up. I’m exhausted. But it was all worth it. We raised thirty thousand for the schools. Hopefully, they’ll get some decent workbooks now.

  We came up with the idea for the fundraiser when Bear saw the books that Chain’s nieces and nephews were using. The same exact ones we used when we went to school well over ten years ago. Shits changed since then. I don’t want my kids going to a school that’s behind in the ways of teaching.

  “Baby,” I yell as soon as I reactivate the alarm.

  I have no intention of letting anything get past me to get to him, but I’m also not taking any chances. So, the alarm stays set.

  “Phoenix, are you awake?”

  I’m not all that surprised that silence greets me. It’s nearly midnight. He must be sleeping. I open the fridge to grab something to drink and see a note leaning against a bottle.

  A bottle of beer to cool you down

  To know that I’m thinking of you.

  I’ll be waiting in bed for your return

  You know what I’m ready to do.

  I read it a second time. Then a third.

  A chuckle escapes my lips. Yeah, I know what he’s ready for. And I can’t fucking wait to sink into him.

  I walk to my room only to notice the door is closed with a note taped to the center.

  I grin and grab the paper.

  I love you.

  Three words and yet it’s the best note I’ve ever received. I tuck the paper inside my wallet before opening the door.

  The only light in the room is coming from the cracked bathroom door. But, it’s enough.

  Asleep on my bed is the most beautiful man in the world. Everything about him calls to me. It has since the day he snuck his way into my life.

  I walk over and place a light kiss on his forehead. My baby was exhausted after today.

  As tempting as it is to just lay down beside him and sleep, I need a shower first.

  After a quick shower, I lay down and pull my boy onto my chest. My favorite way to sleep. He whimpers a little fuss but falls right back to sleep.

  I follow him in seconds.

  Chapter Thirteen

  Slim

  Why am I so hot? Maybe I forgot to turn the heat down before I fell asleep. It’s not really cold outside but I was freezing last night and needed a little extra heat.

  I go to roll over onto my back only to fall off the bed.

  “Ouch,” I moan. “Why was that an extra-long fall?”

  “Are you okay?” an angel asks as it lifts me into its arms. “That was quite the fall.”

  “Maybe ask your overlord to make the fall to hell a little less painful,” I tell the angel.

  A sexy chuckle makes me open my eyes. An angel. Hawk. Both the same to me.

  “I’m not sure my overlord cares how painful a fall to hell would be,” Hawk says, teasingly. “Are you okay?”

  “Yeah,” I reassure him. “Just bonked my head and irradiated my already injured ribs. That was a long fall.”

  “That’s because you were sleeping on top of me,” Hawk says. “You always roll off right before you wake up. I usually sleep in the middle of the bed for that reason, but I was tired and must have forgotten. I’m sorry, baby.”

  Ah, that explains the heat. Since the moment my ribs healed enough to let me sleep on my stomach, Hawk has been pulling me on top of him and using me like a blanket. He said he sleeps better if I’m either on top of him or under him.

  “Not your fault,” I tell him. “What time did you get home?”

  “Midnight,” he admits. “What time is it?”

  I reach around Hawk because he’s still holding me, to grab my phone.

  “It’s t
hree in the morning. We should go back to bed.”

  Hawk shuffles us back in bed and lays me on the side away from the door.

  Overprotective man.

  Then he wraps his tree trunk of an arm around me and throws his boulder-sized legs over mine.

  I have officially been settled. I would complain but Hawk already knows this is my favorite sleeping position.

  His free hand gently messages my back, slowly moving lower.

  “Phoenix?” he says, softly.

  “Yeah?” I answer.

  “Are you naked under my shirt?” he asks.

  I’m beyond happy that the room is encased in darkness because my face is on fire.

  “Uhm, maybe.”

  He’s silent as he lowers his hand until he reaches the bottom of the shirt. Then tucking his hand under the fabric, slowly glides his fingers up against my skin.

  “Did you get my notes?” I bravely ask. “I had a plan.”

  Chuckling, he says, “I did. What was your plan?”

  I tuck my face against his chest.

  “I was trying to woo you,” I admit.

  “Woo me?”

  “Yeah, you know, romance stuff.”

  I’m pretty sure actual flames are coming off my face. That’s how embarrassed I am.

  “I see! Consider me wooed,” he whispers.

  His caressing is getting more intense. He’s moved from his fingertips to his whole hand.

  “Your skin is so soft,” he says, quietly. “How are your ribs?”

  “Uhm…They…With the…What?”

  Does he really expect me to have a coherent thought with the way he’s rubbing my body?

  I’m rolled until I’m on my back and Hawk is leaning over me.

  “Ribs, baby,” he says, kissing his way down my neck. “Do they hurt?”

  “If you want to have a conversation with me,” I say, trying to focus. “You really need to stop touching me. But, to answer your question. They ache, but my ribs don’t hurt. However, another part of my body is starting to.”

  With a chuckle, he kisses his way down my chest. Before I have a chance to take a breath, my shirt is ripped open and torn from my body.

  “Woah,” I whisper, amazed. “Intense.”

  “Mine,” Hawk growls, licking my shaft from base to tip.

  “Yesss,” I moan.

  He spends a couple of minutes licking and kissing my dick. But not once does he take me into his mouth. When he starts licking the tip, I thrust my hips up in the hope of speeding him along.

  Chuckling, he says, “Impatient, naughty boy. I can feel how close you are. You won’t be coming until I’m inside you.”

  He rises up and reaches for the drawer on the bedside table. He pulls out a bottle of lube and some condoms.

  “Let’s get you ready for me,” he says.

  My heart starts pounding knowing he’s about to see the little surprise I’ve been hiding.

  “Our first time will be like this,” he informs me. “You on your back so I can witness every single emotion that passes your face. Knees to your chest, baby.”

  Doing as he says, I lift my legs and hold them against my chest.

  And wait.

  “Your cock looks beautiful like this,” he says, back to licking my cock. “I could lay here all day and just feast.”

  “My dick is nothing special,” I admit, slightly embarrassed. “It’s small.”

  Without moving his face from my center, he swats one side of my ass.

  “Hey,” I say, swinging my legs back down on either side of his body. “What was that for?”

  “Don’t ever say negative things about yourself,” he admonishes me. “Everything about you is just perfect for me. If you don’t feel beautiful about every single inch of your body than I need to do a better job at making you feel it. There isn’t a single bit of you that I don’t crave. Now, legs back up and this time, don’t move them,” he warns.

  Well, okay then.

  I reposition myself back the way he wants. He kisses and nips at my thighs before sitting up on his knees and grabbing the lube and condoms and pulling them by his side.

  “I’m going to taste you first, sweet boy,” he warns me. “Then I’m going to fuck you. This is your last chance to back out. It won’t be easy, but if you need more time, I’ll give it to you.”

  “I’m ready,” I say without hesitation. “I’m one-hundred percent ready to be completely yours.”

  Seeing the truth in my eyes, he grabs my lower back and lifts my ass up.

  “Fuuuuuck,” he growls.

  I grin.

  Seems he likes his surprise.

  Chapter Fourteen

  Hawk

  Holy shit. His hole is being covered by a purple jewel. He’s wearing a plug.

  “Baby, are you wearing a plug?”

  I just need to hear confirmation.

  “Yes,” he says, nervously. “I’ve seen the size of you, Hawk. You’re massive. I wanted to make sure I was ready for you when the time came. So, for the past few days, I’ve been wearing a plug for a few hours at a time. I’m wearing the largest size I have now. It still isn’t as big as you thought.”

  Fuck.

  “You mean to tell me,” I say, holding him up with one hand and tapping on the jewel with the other. “That you have had this in all fucking day?”

  “Oh god,” he moans when I press on the plugs head. “Not this one. I only put it in when I got out of the shower earlier this evening.”

  No wonder he was trying to shove his cock down my throat. My baby is on the edge.

  “I’m beyond fucking happy you thought to do this, baby,” I tell him. “I don’t think I would have had the patience to go slow with you tonight. I want you too damn bad.”

  I pinch the ring of the plug and slowly pull it out. Tossing it aside I lean down to get my first taste of my man’s ass.

  “Fuck, Hawk,” he moans. “God that feels so good.”

  I stiffen my tongue and push inside his aching hole. My cock leaks at the sound of his pleasurable cries.

  “I can’t wait another fucking second,” I growl. “I need to be inside of you.”

  I squeeze some lube on my fingers and work them inside his warm body. Even with the plug stretching him for hours tonight, he’s still so damn tight around my fingers. There’s a good chance he’s going to snap my dick in half.

  I can’t fucking wait.

  I scissor my fingers, trying to stretch him a little more. Not much longer and I can finally connect with Phoenix in a way that no one ever will.

  I go to grab a condom when Phoenix’s hand gently grabs my wrist.

  “What is it, baby?” I ask. “Do you want me to stop?”

  Please say no. Dear God, please say no.

  “No, it’s not that.”

  “Thank fuck,” I sigh. “Then what’s wrong?”

  He moves his hand back on the bed.

  “Am I yours?” he asks.

  “Yes baby,” I reassure him quickly. “Every single inch of you is mine.”

  “Then does that mean that you’re mine?”

  He’s lowered his legs on either side of my body while waiting for his answer. He looks so fucking beautiful in all his vulnerability.

  “God yes,” I say. “You’ve owned me for far longer than you think.”

  “Then I don’t want to use those,” he nods toward the condoms. “I’ve never been with anyone. I promise I’m clean. The doctor’s tested for everything when I was in the hospital. So, if you want, we can just throw those away.”

  Fuck. To be inside of my man with no barriers. I have to squeeze my eyes closed and think of death just to keep from coming in my damn boxers.

  “We don’t have to,” he rushes to say. “I don’t want to do anything that you’re uncomfortable with.”

  I open my eyes and lean down to kiss his perfect lips.

  “I want that very much,” I inform him. “I’m clean. I would never do anything to harm you. Do yo
u trust me?”

  “Yes,” he says before I can even finish the question.

  Chuckling, I toss the condoms on the floor. Right along with my boxers.

  “Like what you see?” I ask a wide-eyed Phoenix.

  “Very much so,” he pants. “Let me play a little before we…”

  “Next time, baby,” I interrupt. “You put that mouth anywhere near my cock and this is over before we even start. And that just won’t do.”

  I squeeze some more lube on my hands and coat my dick. This is going to be a tight fucking squeeze.

  “You ready, sweet boy?”

  His eyes answer before his mouth does. He’s looking at me with complete trust.

  “I love you, baby,” I whisper.

  A single tear falls down the side of his face.

  “I love you, back, Hawk.”

  With a smile on my lips, I grab a pillow and slide it under his hips before helping him move his knees back to his chest.

  “Let me know if I need to stop,” I tell him.

  I gently push my aching cock against his hole until it gives, and I slide in.

  “Oh, God,” Phoenix says.

  Making sure to pay close attention to his facial expressions, I pull back and push in a little further. It takes a few minutes, but my baby finally relaxes enough for me to push myself all the way in.

  “Holy fuck,” I groan when I get balls deep. “You feel so fucking good, baby. So good.”

  I hold myself as still as I can while Phoenix’s body adjusts to my girth. The moment he starts softly moaning and moving his hips, I know he’s ready.

  Thank fuck.

  “I’m going to fuck you now, sweet boy,” I tell him. “You ready for me?”

  “God, please,” he cried.

  “Grab ahold of the headboard and don’t let go,” I warn him. “I’m going to make sure you feel me for days after tonight.”