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Gena/Finn

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by Hannah Moskowitz


  Our faculty and staff are deeply committed to the well-being of each of our students and to providing a support network that will enable you to make Oakmoor your home.

  From Healthandwellness.com

  Top Signs You’re in Love

  - You find yourself thinking about your crush all the time, even when you’re apart.

  - Work, family, and other interests suddenly take a backseat to the object of your affection.

  - You’re constantly on the alert for incoming calls, texts, or emails.

  - Though your loved one may have faults, you see them as merely endearing quirks.

  - You feel as though you could talk to your partner forever and never run out of things to say.

  - Empathy. You hurt at the thought of your love in pain.

  From spoilernews.com

  Season 4 – Evanson’s Betrayal, Jake’s Behavior, And A Mystery Guest?

  Posted by Alison K

  September 9

  As we’re all aware by now, Ben Evanson is not who he says he is. The question is, who is he?

  It looks like this question, at least, will finally be answered in the upcoming season of Up Below. Carl Casden has confirmed that he will be returning for at least seven episodes next fall, so we can look forward to a continuation of the Evanson arc and hopefully a more thorough examination of our favorite shady character.

  Meanwhile, a recurring theme throughout season 3 has been Jake behaving in untrustworthy ways. Likely there’s something up his sleeve – perhaps a semi-permanent split from Tyler? Longtime fans of the show should be excited at the prospect of the leads getting some time apart and having the opportunity to develop as characters independent of each other!

  The producers hint at an exciting guest star in an early episode of season 4.

  Could this be someone we’ve seen before – perhaps Katherine Miller (Nicola) returning as a love interest for Tyler?

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  An Excerpt from _EvenIf’s Journal Entry “Mad World," February 6th

  The problem, he begins to figure out, is that everything is too fast except for the colors. While everything else races by, repeating, a flip-book coaxed one way and the other, back and forth, the same black and white people walking across a sketched street again and again, the colors drag and stall and mush together. Purple and orange combined do not make a color. Green and red. Mustard and magenta.

  But today they do.

  “I don’t have names for the colors,” he says, because he doesn’t know how to write it down. “Why won’t someone tell me the names?”

  Train says a voice in his ear. Turkeyball. Superman. These aren’t colors.

  Whatever you want, Jacob.

  A few hours later fire starts grabbing him from both sides of his head. It snakes down his throat until it swells shut and kisses his cheeks with flames and whispers in his ear the colors of crab grass and the insides of seashells.

  It’s so hot, he is a melting popsicle, he is back and forth melting and drowning in himself, flipping back and forth, and it will never stop. He will sit on this floor and fire will shake him like a snow globe for the rest of his life.

  He wants that to be a very short time.

  Arms appear behind him, slide under his, pull him back against a chest.

  I’ll name whatever you want, Jake, the voice says, the rough hands against his t-shirt say. He feels the pressure of a chin on top of his head and knows, Tyler Tyler Tyler. He knows a word.

  “I’ll give you whatever you want,” Tyler says. “Just stay.”

  Finn: ...is she always like this? or is this for my benefit?

  Genevieve: ha, like which part

  joanne is not known for doing anything for other people’s benefit, unless it benefits them to hear techno for

  6 hours straight

  Finn: she doesn’t shut up!

  my god, I mean, I’ve seen some terrible roommates, but....

  Genevieve: you’re lucky natalie’s not here

  you want to talk about not shutting up

  Finn: who the hell is Natalie?

  Genevieve: her best friend forever!!!!!!!!!

  Finn: oh boy I must have missed the PSA!

  Genevieve: did you miss the glowing note she left on her whiteboard

  YOU CRAZY SLUT I LOVE YOUUUUU

  now i know why everyone hated alanah

  Finn: a lot of people love crazy sluts

  Genevieve: i must hope so

  Finn: hush

  Genevieve: want to borrow my headphones?

  Finn: no, cause you need those

  Genevieve: i wonder if she knows we’re messaging each other

  Finn: I wonder if she knows we’re talking ABOUT HER

  Genevieve: you know she didn’t even CARE when we didn’t have internet?

  Finn: ...that’s kind of abnormal

  Genevieve: some kind of sorcery

  Finn: I bet she plays intramural sports, doesn’t she

  Genevieve: crew

  Finn: the boat thing?

  Genevieve: yup

  Finn: people still DO that?

  Genevieve: she tried to get me to join and be cockswain or whatever

  cockswains have to be little

  that’s my only value here so far

  hey gena, you’re short

  Finn: hahahahaha

  COCKSWAIN

  Genevieve: you’re twelve

  Finn: oh jesus she’s staring at me

  Genevieve: NO SUDDEN MOVEMENTS

  Finn: what’s for dinner around here?

  Genevieve: you can check the diner menu online

  Finn: okay

  hey, boeuf bourguignon

  Genevieve: sounds about right

  Finn: I have no idea what that is

  want to go check it out?

  Genevieve: i can’t

  Finn: why?

  Genevieve: i have four psych chapters to read

  and i’m not even done with this write up

  Finn: you’ve been studying for three hours kid, you can take a break

  Genevieve: it doesn’t work that way

  they don’t care how long it takes me

  Sent at 5:50 PM on Thursday

  Finn: are you crying?

  Genevieve: i don’t know

  Finn: oh kid...

  you’re taking a break. let’s go take a walk or something. look at the city

  Genevieve: everyone else here is FINE, they go out every night and they come back all loud and they’re acing everything, how the fuck did i even get in here someone must have thought i was still famous or some shit.

  fuck, i’m sorry, i’m being an awful host

  let me find you the train schedule and you can go to the art school and look at their galleries

  Finn: no, hey, that’s not what I meant

  I’m staying with you

  Genevieve: consider what you’re saying

  you just said you’re staying with JOANNE

  Finn: fuck Joanne

  Genevieve: are you prepared to make that sacrifice

  Finn: yes

  Genevieve: i’m sorry. i’ll take you somewhere tomorrow i promise

  maybe i should skip all my classes

  Finn: I had no idea it was this bad

  Genevieve: yeah i’m gonna skip everything tomorrow.

  Okay.

  Finn: that’s what you want?

  Genevieve: i don’t know

  i can’t go

  i’m not ready

  Finn: don’t do it because of me. I think you could use the break, personally, but you don’t have to entertain me

  we’ll just stay here and relax and Joanne won’t be h
ere and you can talk it all out

  Genevieve: okay, but i have to do my psych280 paper too

  but i can do that while we talk. Yeah.

  Finn: Evie, god, don’t cry...

  Genevieve: i’m sorry i’ll stop

  god, i wish she’d leave.

  oh look, here’s natalie

  Finn: cuddle me. maybe we can scare ̉em off

  Genevieve: coming

  from: Finn Bartlett

  to: Charlie Thomas

  date: Saturday, September 13 2:03 AM

  subject: I’m sorry

  Hi.

  I really fucked up.

  I’m so sorry. I don’t know what to say. I don’t even know where to start.

  I’m sorry I came to Providence when things were bad between us instead of staying to try and fix it.

  I’m sorry I let myself get attached to someone else. You were right, it’s not simple, we’re not just friends and I feel horrible and I never ever fucking wanted to do that to you. I promise nothing happened between us, I don’t even know if it’s like that, but it’s big and intense and all these feelings, I’m in love with this fucking girl, holy shit, Charlie, I love you so much and I’m so sorry.

  I’m sorry for not making you the center of my life every damn day.

  I’m sorry for moving to California without knowing whether I was taking you seriously or not, because you deserve better and I should know after three years and I do take you seriously. I don’t know what I’m hiding from. I don’t know what I’m waiting for.

  Please, please, please tell me you got this.

  Please tell me you don’t hate me.

  Please tell me I haven’t ruined everything.

  I love you.

  -me

  from: Charlie Thomas

  to: Finn Bartlett

  date: Friday, September 12 11:12 PM

  subject: RE: I’m sorry

  Are you still with her?

  from: Finn Bartlett

  to: Charlie Thomas

  date: None. Saved to Drafts.

  subject: RE: I’m sorry

  Yeah. She’s sleeping. I can’t.

  I keep thinking of this time on Up Below when Jake was

  from: Finn Bartlett

  to: Charlie Thomas

  date: Saturday, September 13 2:26 AM

  subject: RE: I’m sorry

  Yeah. She’s sleeping. I can’t.

  I keep thinking of junior year, when you decided to move to California and we didn’t know if we were going to make it. I was so scared you’d meet someone else and fall in love and forget all about me. And you never did. You called every night, and you visited, and you were there for me all through senior year when classes were insane and I didn’t have anybody. You were the best friend I could have asked for.

  You’ve always been the best everything I could ask for.

  I hate myself for coming out here. I feel so sick. All I can say in my defense is that I love you too. I’ve never forgotten that. I may be scared of the future, I may be pathetic and distant and unable to give you what you need, but I have never not loved you.

  from: Charlie Thomas

  to: Finn Bartlett

  date: Friday, September 12 11:32 PM

  subject: RE: I’m sorry

  I don’t hate you.

  from: Finn Bartlett

  to: Charlie Thomas

  date: Saturday, September 13 2:33 AM

  subject: RE: I’m sorry

  Yeah??

  from: Charlie Thomas

  to: Finn Bartlett

  date: Friday, September 12 11:35 PM

  subject: RE: I’m sorry

  I love you.

  from: Finn Bartlett

  to: Charlie Thomas

  date: Saturday, September 13 2:36 AM

  subject: RE: I’m sorry

  Oh my god, baby, I love you too.

  from: Charlie Thomas

  to: Finn Bartlett

  date: Friday, September 12 11:39 PM

  subject: RE: I’m sorry

  You just took off. I had to find out from a fucking text message. Did you even tell them at your work?

  from: Finn Bartlett

  to: Charlie Thomas

  date: Saturday, September 13 2:45 AM

  subject: RE: I’m sorry

  I’ve been burning sick days. It’s really fucking terrifying, actually. I’m calling them every morning faking sick and hoping they don’t

  tell me I need to get my ass back into the office or I’m fired.

  ...This is really irresponsible. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Things have been so nuts lately. Shit, I hope they’re not mad. I hope you’re not mad. I can’t even look at myself. I can’t even believe I’m this person. I have EVERYTHING anybody could want and I’m being SO SELFISH. How do you not hate me?

  I’m ruining everything.

  Tell me how to make this right.

  from: Charlie Thomas

  to: Finn Bartlett

  date: Friday, September 12 11:51 PM

  subject: RE: I’m sorry

  You know how.

  I’m not proud of myself for this, and the last thing I want is to keep you from making friends, but you said yourself that this wasn’t just friendship. Ever since you went to Chicago, she’s all you talk about. You’re blowing off work. You’re walking out on me. I don’t know what happened there, and I don’t know what’s happening between you now, but whatever it is, it isn’t “nothing.”

  I’m really not accusing you of anything but what you already admitted. You’re too attached. There’s no room for me when you’re that tied to someone else. So I’m sorry, and I never wanted to put you in this situation, but you have to make a choice.

  Come home. Come home to work and to me and don’t go back. Let me be your best friend, the way we were back in Iowa. If you can do that, we’ll be all right.

  from: Finn Bartlett

  to: Charlie Thomas

  date: Saturday, September 13 2:56 AM

  subject: RE: I’m sorry

  Are you saying I can’t talk to her anymore?

  She’s lonely. She’s my friend and she’s alone and having a hell of a time adjusting to college. I can’t just cut her loose.

  God, she’s sleeping and she has no idea. This is really going to wreck her, I’m her only friend and she’ll think I don’t want her...

  from: Charlie Thomas

  to: Finn Bartlett

  date: Saturday, September 13 12:03 AM

  subject: RE: I’m sorry

 
I can’t tell you who you can and can’t talk to, Finn. I’m not that guy. But I need you to keep your distance emotionally. You decide if you can do that and still be friends.

  And, I mean, you can choose her over me if that’s really where you are. I didn’t ask you to make a choice without knowing I might not be it. I just need you to be honest with me about where I stand. I love you, and I don’t want to keep doing that if I’m always going to come second.

  God, I can’t believe this is happening.

  I hope you come home. I really miss you, Finn, I miss us.

  from: Finn Bartlett

  to: Charlie Thomas

  date: None. Saved to Drafts.

  subject: RE: I’m sorry

  I can’t. I love her. She needs me. Don’t make me choose. I don’t want to

  from: Finn Bartlett

  to: Charlie Thomas

  date: None. Saved to Drafts.

  subject: RE: I’m sorry

  You’re being really unreasonable. There’s nothing wrong with me having a

  from: Finn Bartlett

  to: Charlie Thomas

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