Evermore

by Jason Wallace Poetry

Remember who still loved you

  And if you had

  He just might

  When you wake up

  In the dead of night

  Feeling so empty

  And full of fright

  Remember who still loved you

  And if you had

  He just might

  He just might

  Broken Angel

  You're too far away

  You're too much for me to take

  You torture me

  You take away

  Any peace I prayed to save

  Every time I hear your voice

  Or I even hear your name...

  I go insane

  I feel the same

  Creeping feelings of regret

  And I forget to hold my head high

  I begin to bear the blame

  I give into the temptation

  That contemplation has erased

  Confusion, constant oblation

  For anything more than this serious situation

  That I wish I did not have to face

  You were once

  The angel of my dreams

  I forgot to let myself see

  What you really did to me

  We're broken in different ways

  I'm broken down

  Looking all around

  For any sense of salvation

  I wish you could find the same

  Because in your brain

  You seem to think that it's ok

  To leave someone hurting in such a way

  Breaking hearts, tearing apart

  All inclination

  To move past sentimental sensation

  Broken angel, maybe of my own creation

  We were walking wearily

  Into a snare we could not see

  We almost let ourselves

  Be tied together for life

  And that's not right

  Because the truth about me

  Is I was never anything

  That you really wanted

  With your halo burning bright

  Really an illusion

  If you say so, I just might

  End all of my confusion

  By cursing you by name

  By bursting out of all my seams, all the same

  You were once

  The angel of my dreams

  I forgot to let myself see

  What you really did to me

  We're broken in different ways

  I'm broken down

  Looking all around

  For any sense of salvation

  I wish you could find the same

  Because in your brain

  You seem to think that it's ok

  To leave someone hurting in such a way

  Breaking hearts, tearing apart

  All inclination

  To move past sentimental sensation

  Broken angel, maybe of my own creation

  You really were everything

  I ever wanted

  You were my all, my serenity

  But now right in front of me

  Is the realization

  That there is no meant to be

  There is no pre-planned one to set you free

  And I rushed and put off all chance of patience

  My life, to my disappointment

  Is a life without you

  Nothing more or less will ever do

  I simply cannot avoid it

  I cannot spend another day wasting

  Waiting for a rescue, your invitation

  You were once

  The angel of my dreams

  But no my nightmare become flesh

  I forgot to let myself see

  What you really did to me

  We're broken in different ways

  I'm broken down

  Beaten, defeated, denied, your utmost regret

  Looking all around

  For any sense of salvation

  I wish you could find the same

  Because in your brain

  You seem to think that it's ok

  To leave someone hurting in such a way

  Breaking hearts, tearing apart

  All inclination, all hope, all absence of hesitation

  To move past sentimental sensation

  Broken angel, maybe of my own creation

  My darkest creation

  Touch Your Face

  Baby, I...

  Never meant to hurt you

  I never...

  Meant to make you cry

  I can't understand how

  You could stay with me now

  I just can't see why

  You would be so forgiving

  To someone

  Who abused your love

  And took you for granted

  I never gave you enough

 

  What did I ever do

  To keep you here

  To earn the right

  To still love you

  Love is all about

  The ability to forgive and forget

  I swear I'll try harder, Baby

  Please don't give up on me just yet

  I can't believe

  I could allow myself

  To treat you this way

  I never realized

  What I had

  I really played

  The villain in the play

 

  Lookin in your eyes tonight

  I can't see how

  I ever lost my sight

  Of what you really meant

  And all the good and bad

  That came and went

  I always let you let me go

  To do what I wanted but didn't know

  Was so wrong to do

  And all along

  I was never really true

  Did I ever force your hand

  Or place on you demands

  I am so sorry

  For my selfish ways

  I am such a disgrace

  Please just let me...

  Touch your face

  Something That I Told You

  I don't think I told you

  But I would give my life

  To hold you

  If only once

  Could you ever allow it

  Since I can't do it...

  Now that...

  The miles we have between us

  Aren't any shorter

  But only seem to keep us

  Wishing so much it's hurting

  And can we get through the next few months

  Til it could happen

  Before I lose my mind

  And I find

  It's not somethin I could have and

  It's not somethin open

  But so difficult that all this pain

  And all this hoping

  Is all in vain

  And I don't think I can take it

  Because my heart is so slowly breaking

  And I need so badly to hold you

  Is that something that I told you

  If everyone stays out of our business

  And only accepts it like meant it

  Maybe it won't be so bad

  But the time it is taking

  Is making me so lonely that I'm aching

  And all the waiting

  Is worth it all the while but I'm

  Too sad right now to smile

  Because the loneliness I'm hating

  And I know that we'll be together

  Whether it makes sense to them or not

  But time seems it's standing still

  And if I don't hold you soon

  I'm afraid it will seem I never will

  I would give anything in this world to hold you

  Is that something that I told you

  Why is waiting so damn painful

  Dragging on and on

  Until I feel

  My mind is gone

  Will it all come back and remain,

  All... I could ever do


  Is spend a while

  Missing you

  In denial

  That wishing you

  Were here right now isn't killin me

  Waiting so unwillingly

  Because not that I don't want you now

  But knowing the wait is way too long somehow

  We have to make time for us some day soon

  Forget how hard that is

  So I can give in to give in to you

  I would give anything it takes to hold you

  Is that something that I told you

  You worry I might not accept your past

  Like you haven't tried to forget it fast

  But you don't get that I know that

  That's the old you

  I would do anything just to hold you

  Is that something that I told you

  Is it anything I ever told you

  I'll say it from a mountain top

  If I could hold you

  If that's not something that I told you

  I'll still shout it out from every place

  Just so maybe I could see your face

  And maybe I can have one taste

  Of the lips I long to know, you

  Know I would give the world to hold you

  But if that's something I haven't told you

  You will know it soon

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