Tainted: The Complete Enemies-to-Lovers Rock Star Romance Box Set

by Carmen Jenner

  “We’re having a baby?” He is not mad or disappointed like I expected him to be, like I feared, but there is wonder in this voice, and hope. I nod. “A real baby?”

  He rolls us so that he is hovering over me with his arms outstretched, and his hands splayed either side of my head. I laugh, despite myself. “Oui. A real bébé.”

  “Holy shit, Brie, are you sure?” He glances down between us and skims one large hand over my abdomen. My insides quicken. “You don’t look—”

  “Oui, je suis sûre.”

  “I don’t speak French.”

  “Then I suggest you learn, because I’m not leaving France, and our bébé will speak his native tongue, and English too, I guess. If you choose to be involved in his life.”

  “His?”

  I slide my hand across my stomach protectively. “It is too early to tell, but I know the child I carry is a boy, and he is as stubborn as his père.”

  His mouth twists into a grimace. “Wait, why would you think I wouldn’t want to be involved in his life?”

  “I do not know what you want, Levi. Sometimes I wonder if even you know that.”

  “I want you.” He presses his lips to my forehead. “Always you, and I want this baby.”

  “Five minutes ago, you didn’t know about this baby.”

  “And now that I do, I’ve never wanted anything more.” He lowers his body over mine, careful to rest his weight on his elbows rather than risk crushing me. He cups my face in his hands. “I love you, Brie.”

  “Merde, je t'aime aussi. I don’t want to, but I love you too.”

  He peppers my face with kisses, hard and fast and then slow and sweet before capturing my mouth with his and kissing me so deeply I forget where I begin and he ends.

  He stares into my eyes as he hovers over my body. I open my legs, letting him fall into the hollow between them. His long erection is pressed against my stomach, but he doesn’t rock his hips the way he usually would. In fact, he doesn’t do anything to suggest he wants to make love, other than kiss me so deeply I cannot breathe.

  When we come up for air, Levi smiles. “I missed you so fucking much. Tell me you missed me. Tell me it’s been just as hard for you as it has for me.”

  “In France we have a saying: tu me manques. We do not merely say, ‘I miss you’ but instead say, ‘you are missing from me’.”

  “That makes sense.”

  I smile, though my throat is aching, and tears sting my eyes. He lifts my shirt over my head and throws it on the floor. Though I am barely showing, my once small breasts are more than a handful, and it looks like Levi appreciates the sheer lingerie I have on. Shame the panties do not match the bra, but something tells me he won’t be too worried. He slides his fingertips over my sides, and my nipples form two hard peaks. He takes one in his mouth and sucks gently. I moan and wrap my arms around his neck, pulling him closer. He makes love to me as if all of the hurt and angry words, betrayal and sadness had never come between us.

  LEVI NUZZLES MY BREAST. He’s been laying in the middle of the bed with his head on my stomach for the last hour, talking to our bébé about all of the adventures they’re going to have.

  “You hungry?”

  I puff out my cheeks and sigh like a horse. “I’m pregnant. I’m always hungry.”

  “What do you want?”

  “An ice-cream sundae,” I declare with gusto. Levi laughs.

  “Fuck, I love you.”

  “And frites,” I add, and roll my eyes when I remember that his not speaking French is going to be a problem I will have to endure forever. “Fries.”

  He shrugs. “Then why not just say French fries?”

  Good god. I will likely strangle the life out of this man before we can make it to the delivery room, let alone forever.

  He rings for room service and tells them he’ll pay extra to have it here in ten minutes. It comes in five. We eat, and with my belly full of overpriced processed foods, my eyes grow heavy and I settle into sleep. But it appears Levi is wide awake. He picks up his phone and dials a number. I yawn. “What are you doing?”

  “I’m calling Margaux.”

  “Why?”

  “To tell her to call in a construction crew to fix up the house. The baby needs a room.” He puts the phone on speaker so I can hear it ringing.

  “It is the middle of the night, and the baby has a room at my parents’ apartment.”

  He nods. “That he will use when we come to visit.”

  “I am not leaving Paris.” I frown and let out an exasperated sigh.

  “You want our kid growing up around paparazzi?”

  “This is France, Levi, not Hollywood.”

  “Yeah, and they’re vultures,” he says, growing more and more agitated. “They go where I go.”

  I sit up and glare at him. “And that will be different at the chateau how?”

  “For one, we have a big fuck-off fence.”

  “That you crashed your car into.”

  “That I will get fixed.” He holds a finger up as if to tell me to wait. I grit my teeth. We are together five minutes and already I want to kill him. I guess it must really be true love.

  “Bonjour,” Levi says, once again hacking my native tongue to pieces with his terrible pronunciation.

  “Who is this?” a man yells in French from the other line.

  I hold my hand out. “Give me the phone.”

  “Who the hell is this?” Levi says, ignoring me.

  “C'est Gaétan, qui est à l'appareil?”

  “Where is Margaux? Put Margaux on.”

  “Je vais pas tarder à te mettre mon poing dans la gueule, mon garçon. Margaux, il y a un idiot au téléphone pour toi.”

  It takes Margaux a beat to answer, and when she does, her voice is muddled with confusion and sleep. “Levi?”

  “Who the hell was that?”

  “That,” she chuckles, “was a true gentleman.”

  “Chair guy from the flea market?”

  “Oui.”

  “Get the fuck out.” Levi slaps my arse in his enthusiasm, and I glare daggers. “You saucy little minx, Margaux.”

  “Not that it isn’t nice to hear from you in the middle of the night, monsieur, but whatever could be so urgent that it could not wait until morning?”

  “Brie and I are back together.”

  “We are?” I demand of him, but all I get in return is that cocky grin.

  “Congratulations, monsieur.”

  “And we’re having a baby.”

  I bury my face in my hands, so I won’t use them to strangle him.

  “A bébé. Oh, this is wonderful news, monsieur.”

  “Yeah, I thought so too.”

  “Congratulations, it is cause for much celebration, non?”

  “It is, but listen, we’re gonna need to fix up the house. So, I might need you to call in a crew and help me with that.”

  “I have just the man in mind.”

  “Excellent,” he crows. “Brie and I will be there tomorrow night. Can you arrange a car from the airport?”

  “I can’t fly to the country. I have three more concerts to perform in Paris.”

  “Then we’ll be there Monday.”

  “Oui, monsieur.”

  “Levi,” I demand, but apparently, he has selective hearing.

  “Adiós, Margaux.”

  “Au revoir, monsieur.”

  I groan. “Levi. I cannot pick up everything and move to your chateau.”

  “Why not?”

  “Because it’s absurd!”

  “You love Paris. I get it. We’ll visit. Or we can buy a new place and we’ll go there as often as you want. Once a week, if that’s what you want, but I have a house. I have a yard, and a pool and a place where our baby can grow. Where we can grow, away from the paparazzi, and fans, and everyone else.” He kisses my neck and wraps his arms tightly around my waist. I lean into his embrace. Though I am still angry, he has a way of melting my resolve. “Your mum can even move
in with us, if that’s what you want. We have the room, and—”

  “My mother is not moving in with us,” I warn.

  “Okay, but we’ll do up a room anyway, because I’m sure she’s going to want to come visit her grandson once in a while.”

  “Okay.” I nod. “But do not mention her moving in, ever again.”

  “Fine.” He laughs. “Just you, me, and our baby. And Margaux, furniture guy, and Dog.”

  “And Monsieur Chat.”

  He screws up his nose. “And Monsieur Chat.”

  “Then maybe when we’re settled, and our little dude is a few months old, I can put another baby in your belly.” I give him a look that says he must be crazy, and he holds up his hands to ward away my ire. “We’ll talk about the other three kids we’re having later. We have time.”

  I shake my head, pull him down on top of me, and kiss him stupid. He tastes like ice cream and fudge, but most of all, he tastes like happiness.

  My happiness.

  CHAPTER FORTY-THREE

  JUST LIKE OLD TIMES

  SIX MONTHS LATER

  LEVI

  “Heads up, fuckers!” Zed shouts as he dive bombs my pool, splashing me, Ryan, and the newest member of Taint, Kit, in the process. The women in our lives are smart enough to be lounging on sunbeds, far enough away from the water, and us idiots.

  “Ladies and gentle swine,” Deb says, sliding her oversized sunglasses into place. “I give you Zed Atwood, man-child extraordinaire. Seriously, what the fuck was I thinking?”

  Ali tops up Deb’s glass of wine. Deb, Brie, Ali, and Piaf all freeze when Zed emerges from the water, dripping wet and hurtling towards them. “Zed, don’t you fucking dare!”

  He leaps onto the sunbed, squashing his girlfriend beneath him and wetting all the girl’s in the process. He dry-humps Deb’s leg, and we all laugh, except of course Deb, and Ryan. “Dude, that’s my fucking sister.”

  Despite her earlier protests, she wraps her legs around Zed’s hips and kisses him in a display of gross open-mouthed PDA as he continues to gyrate between her thighs.

  “Jesus Christ, this shit is sick,” Ryan complains.

  Deb pulls away and leans around Zed’s huge frame, glaring at her brother. “Now you know how I felt when I had to watch you and Levi fucking Ali. No offense, Brie.”

  “None taken.” Brie shrugs. “I know he had lovers before me, just like I had lovers before him.”

  “How many lovers?” I ask, point blank.

  She laughs, her exposed swollen belly contracting with the motion. The baby kicks, my baby. My woman is fucking hot, and she may complain about how swollen her feet are, how her body is no longer her own, or how she can barely fit her cello between her legs anymore to play it, but I fucking love her like this. I’m gonna put a baby in her every goddamn year until we’re sixty.

  “Don’t you just love how blasé the French are about sex?” Ali says. “I’m just taking a lover for the afternoon.”

  “We French are very upfront about what we want,” Piaf says, eyeing Kit as if he were prey. I feel sorry for the poor bastard because even if he’s not interested in the blue-haired pixie, he’s fucked either way.

  “Seriously, how many?” I ask again.

  Brie rolls her eyes. “Mon Dieu! Would you stop, already?”

  I slide out of the pool, dripping water everywhere and climb on top of my lovely angry French girl, who isn’t so angry these days. I kiss her, hard. She’s panting when I pull away. Her nipples have formed two hard peaks, and her gaze is thick with lust. “Wanna carry on this conversation in the bedroom?”

  “I really do.”

  I slide off the daybed and help Brie to her feet. Then I smack her arse and watch her little string bikini walk away from me.

  Ali chuckles, and I glance down at her. “What?”

  “Nothing,” she says, too fast, but her smile hides a secret that indicates it was something.

  “Hey, did you get my package in the mail?”

  “What package?”

  “Wedding present. Don’t worry though; in the meantime, you can take this one.” I head over to the giant Amazon box on the BBQ, grabbing one of the shiny black packages and tossing it to her.

  “Oh my God, your fucking dildo. I forgot about this.” She laughs and waves it about so Coop can see. “Hey, look, honey, it’ll be like old times.”

  Coop looks like he wants to beat my head in—what’s new, right?—and I walk towards my hot-as-fuck woman. Brie just shakes her head as she waits by our bedroom doors that open out onto the pool. I grab her hand and we disappear inside.

  SHE LEANS AGAINST OUR bedroom wall trying to catch her breath, as I pull my head out from under her dress. I stare up at her from on my knees. The flush in her cheeks, that dreamy gaze, the way she tangles her fingers in my hair makes me want to do it all again. I am one lucky bastard. I circle my fingertip around her clit, and she squeezes her thighs together with a laugh that tells me I’m fresh out of luck. I know I’m not getting inside her anytime soon, not until that baby comes out because she’s a billion months pregnant and practically runs in the other direction when I drop trou. Can’t say I blame her though. If I had a tiny human growing inside me, I wouldn’t want a huge dick poking around in there either.

  Besides, I don’t need my kid having his first concussion before birth. I’m not doing anything to screw up this child, and French women are scary as hell when they’re mad.

  I run my hand over Brie’s swollen belly, feeling the baby kick against my palm. All those endorphins in Brie’s system must create their own kind of music because this kid is dancing like he’s the second coming of Michael Jackson.

  I bury my head beneath her dress again—you know, to get closer to the baby—at least that will be my excuse if she tries to push me away. Since she hasn’t already, I take that as a green light and shove her legs further apart, burying my face in her sweet, hot cunt.

  “Holy shit!”

  I slide out from under Brie’s dress and wipe her juices from my stubble with the back of my hand, climbing to my feet. “What the fuck, Ryan?”

  He covers his eyes. “Sorry, shit. I’m sorry, Brie.”

  “I told you not to come in here unannounced,” Ali says, whacking Coop in the chest. She doesn’t bother covering her eyes though. If I didn’t know any better, I’d say my ex wanted to get all up in my Angry French Girl’s snatch.

  “Mon Dieu!” Brie sighs. “Is nothing sacred around your band?”

  “Not really. Welcome to loving a rock star,” I say, tucking her panties in my back pocket.

  “You get used to it,” Ali says.

  Brie lips twist into a smirk, directing her playfulness at me. “Hmm, I’m not entirely sure he’s worth it.”

  “Hey,” I say. “I’m worth every annoying word that comes out of Coop and Zed’s mouths.” And because I can’t help it, I pull her close and kiss her stupid.

  “Mmm. Tu sens comme moi,” Brie says. “You taste like me.”

  “And that’s our cue to leave,” Coop says.

  “Well perhaps if you’d listened to me in the first place, dumbarse, we wouldn’t have interrupted them.”

  “Yes, Ali-cat, I should never doubt your sage wisdom again. Brie, you’re wanted in the studio. Kit’s just laid his bass down for the track.”

  “He go okay?” I ask.

  “Yeah, he was good.” Ryan shrugs. “He’s no Ash, but then who is, right?”

  “Hey, my client is fucking awesome,” Ali says.

  “Still can’t believe my own wife hustled me.”

  “Hey, Ali, maybe when you grow up and become a real manager, you can have more than one client.” I wink. She gives me the finger.

  “I don’t need more than one client. You just wait until you arseholes start touring. Kit’s going to be all they talk about.”

  “Kit’s going to get eaten alive. The kid will have more pussy than he knows what to do with,” I say, ignoring Coop and Ali, and kissing the most b
eautiful woman in the world. Her eyes are glassy as she comes up for air. I wish these arseholes would fuck off because Brie needs to be in the studio to record the songs we wrote in this house all those months ago, and just like then, I haven’t had my fill yet. I’m not done with her, and I doubt I ever will be.

  “And speaking of pussy, get the fuck out. My woman needs to play, and I promised to make her come on my hand while she blows me.”

  “Right, well, you two have fun with that. Coop and I will be ... not here.” Ali grabs her husband’s shirt and pulls him from the room. His reply is lost on me, because my everything moans as I gently push her back against the wall and kiss her again as if I’m dying, and she’s the oxygen to my lungs.

  EPILOGUE

  TWO MONTHS ON

  LEVI

  I glance at my baby boy in his little bassinet and stroke his head.

  “Levi, what are you doing?” Brie comes in from having her make-up done. She looks amazing. “You need to be out on stage already.”

  “I don’t wanna leave him,” I say, biting my bottom lip. “What if the headphones don’t actually cancel out the noise?”

  “They will. Now go! Cooper and Zed will not wait forever, and Ash will still be here when you get back. He’s not going anywhere. His legs are far too short.” She stares down at the baby in question and wrinkles her nose.

  I pull her into my arms. “I didn’t know I was marrying a comedian.”

  “You haven’t married me yet. There’s still time for me to fall in love with Cooper or Zed,” she shrugs. “Though Kit, he seems pretty cute too.”

  “Funny.” I bury my face in her neck and breathe her in.

  “Jesus, you two need a room,” Deb says, glancing up from her phone.

  “Deb, you have got this, right? I mean, Ash is not some little lap dog you can shove in a corner and ignore while you scroll your Instagram feed,” I say slowly, as if I’m talking to a kid. “He’s an actual human child, who might cry, and need affection. You do remember what that is, don’t you?”