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The Multiverse

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by Andrew Wynn Owen

To have another holiday,

  You’re in your ageless prime,

  And cousin Charlotte was stupendous in that play.

  And yet, there’s this incessant blankness follows you.

  It hurts your heart.

  Who put it there? When did it start?

  All of your life, a goblin in your brain

  Has heckled when you smile, and itched inside your shoe,

  And made you think such things.

  Some daisy chain

  Has snapped, and all you hear’s the nagging sound of wings.

  What Is

  Sometimes, of course, you think what could have been

  Had you done this or that,

  Pursued

  The glow that slips between each slat,

  Or delved more deeply how what you had seen

  Was viewed.

  Still, at last count, we’re wavering believers

  In what the eye accepts.

  Immense

  Estranging sadness intercepts

  Perception, makes the bloodshot sight of grievers

  Intense –

  Veins in the pebbles, bubbles in the stream!

  We weather and disperse.

  What is

  The case has never been a curse

  But rather forms a fractallating dream

  Of fizz

  And flounder, rusty tumble, heaven-hell

  Rebarbatively bound

  With twists

  Of rising pattern, staggered sound,

  A steady tide that through our mangled mell

  Persists.

  Spies

  Behind newspapers, feeding ducks in parks,

  Raising binoculars –

  All in a day’s hard work

  For spies, of whom the civil servant speaks

  In hushed respectful tones; who follow laws

  As steamer’s wake

  Will walk

  Expansively behind

  An engine’s churning hinge;

  Who aim

  To tell the whim

  Of London by a falling pin in Moscow.

  Theirs is a four-dimensional existence,

  Contracted to assume

  More outlooks than a moth-chewed

  Jacket about to hear its final sentence.

  Spies and their doings are a deep conundrum.

  The more I think of them

  The more I am reminded

  How finite we are. Even our fêted noonday

  Of knowledge, adulthood, can’t stop a thorn

  Cadging at mundane

  Commanders

  Of minor miracles:

  Map skills, telephone calls,

  Fine-tuned

  Three-point turns.

  All these are triumphs, but real challenge lies

  In knowing what predicts another’s movement,

  Sensing the one in ten

  Whose teeth will not release

  The stuff of life till purpose has its moment.

  But what is purpose? Passion? Being good?

  Is love a long hangover

  From hero-worship’s wish

  To hail a better way? Or is love God,

  The Absolute, the Tao, the Unmoved Mover?

  In time’s harsh wash

  Are wars

  The psycho-sexual horrors

  With which arch Nature harrows

  Her young

  And grates the throng

  Against itself in blueprintless refinement?

  What Is is one spymaster of our fate,

  Battling her maddening

  Nemesis, whose vehement

  What Ought To Be draws confidence from doubt.

  So doubling back, false-scented, swapping passports,

  The lives of spies seem chaos

  To casual fly-by-nights

  But, much as priests are fielded with a purpose

  Adept for mess, this zone of double-crosses

  And coded noughts

  Throws nets

  Of diplomatic order

  Over the sizzling ardour

  We call

  A world – no cell

  Or meadow but both more and less constraining:

  Pitch for the deadly-serious game of life.

  Out here, we can conceal

  Only by silence, signing

  Intent in every greeting, falter, laugh.

  The weather changes and we must change with it,

  Must speak of worlds we wished

  Would never see the light.

  Sea-levels rise now. Now the branch is withered

  Where once a dabbling April skylark washed,

  Liking to let

  The fleet

  Cascando sinews tumble

  Across its feathered tummy

  And paddle

  About a puddle

  Left by the usual unexpected rainfall.

  Hovering like the Nike of Samothrace,

  Some spy-fawn sees a petal

  Drift there as if that refill

  Might cool warm winter, quench the lost bird’s thirst.

  Here are no roads that satisfy entirely

  Yet some know underpasses

  And one day teleports

  May circumvent the slapdash of our teary

  Heartfelt guesswork. Unsympathetic places

  Often impart

  Those pert-

  -inent discoveries

  That, strange to tell, can raise

  Lost minds

  Above time’s maze

  For sorely-needed kinder views. Though sceptres

  Aren’t held by spies, they need no gung-ho navies

  With memory as their muse.

  The Greek is ‘kataskopos’,

  Sharp overlookers, choosing what to notice:

  How eggs hatch, how fire licks the final cinder,

  How chemicals can guide

  Behaviour; who will thrive,

  Who slump in failure. But, like sane Cassandra,

  Their gift discredits them. Yes, even God,

  Whose prophets rove

  And rave

  Freely, is irked by spies,

  For they command a space

  Of limit,

  Which He laments

  Because it is the only gift He lacks,

  All-powerful, -knowing, -marvellous, but unable

  To flitter like the linnet

  Through luscious swathes of flax

  Or thin His will to any private fable.

  And so it goes. These agents in the field

  Of seeing every side

  And bringing understanding

  To sundered parties, saviours of the failed,

  Galled vanquishers of category, the sad

  And subtle tenders,

  Tremendous

  For cloak and sidelong quote,

  For intricate disquiet,

  Compel.

  Their psychic spell

  Persists because they speak of that pragmatic

  Prayerful approach so many fear to foster.

  Still, still, their lives appeal,

  Still stir – as revving motor

  Of armoured sports car, swerving, ever faster.

  Rain or Shine

  News in: potential life in our backyard.

  Don’t feel alone.

  Alpha Centauri, triple-starred,

  With gentle habitable zone,

  Is floated as a could-be paradise,

  Not fire or ice.

  Imagine it: the roses tall as trees,

  And radiation

  Dimpling a lake where swathes of fleas,

  After a dormant generation,

  Erupt. Come rain or shine, life finds a lair,

  Stubborn though rare.

  Time is like this: an hourglass on a hill,

  Releasing sand

  From waist to gulf. Its granules fill

  A waiting bowl, their journey planned

  Before the blower even thought to take

  Up pipe and make
.

  All mishmash feeds the meshing scheme of things,

  An undistracted

  Continuum of all that sings,

  By gravity’s force-field attracted.

  All life is like one clockwork carousel,

  A swirling gel.

  Come rain or shine, the process will continue.

  Constructive hope

  Is exercised in every sinew.

  It heaves us up the muddy slope

  Of shapelessness. It shows us who we are.

  It takes us far.

  It gave conjecture and it gave objectives;

  Gave starts and ends.

  It gave our energies correctives,

  As light inside a prism bends.

  It fosters patterning. It feeds our vine.

  Come rain or shine.

  Epistemic Communities

  The ogres like all trinkets that can crush.

  A gleaming sword

  Or gilded hammer, weighted well to mush

  The massing horde

  Of all who hate their granite citadels.

  They love a broad

  Unblemished vista: dingles, rills, and dells

  In which an old

  Ogre austerely lugs the logs he sells

  Through winter’s cold

  To market. Other things they like are tales

  Of how the bold

  Grand ogre lords first spread their blood-red sails

  To stem the rush

  Of gnomes, who went extinct inside their gaols.

  The trolls, meanwhile, have little trust in art

  Except when it’s

  An instrument designed to tear apart

  The ogre pits

  Where guns are made. They tend to scepticism

  On all the glitz

  Of progress, and their partial rationalism

  Omits emotion.

  Though steeped in fierce utilitarianism,

  They sail the ocean

  Of time not caring if their ship survives

  To spread the notion

  Of good. They love it when their freedom thrives

  But will deny

  The duty that we have to future lives.

  Most rare, the elves are marvellers and makers.

  Their crystal-craft

  Is intricate, immaculate. As breakers

  Of all the daft

  And morally untenable positions

  That fashions graft

  On our internal world of inhibitions

  And tentative

  Susceptibilities, their precognitions

  Of how to live

  Enthral the present for the future’s sake.

  They let us dive

  Below the liquid surface of life’s lake

  To view the acres

  Of love and pattern that made Plato ache.

  Ramblers

  ‘What silver-wheeled machinery, beyond –’

  I lose it as I think.

  I goggled noonlong in a muddy pond

  And, though I blink

  Away now, frantic scamperings of frogs

  Still flash by, wiring, scintillant as drugs.

  ‘What beauty been –’ a friend began, and stopped to sing

  Breathtakingly. Irradiance encased

  Tree stump, loose foliage, a line

  Of poplars. Sunlight flared. I felt displaced

  And swathed in what? A wine.

  A window. Disconnect. You could say anything.

  ‘A metal caterpillar riding high

  On fortune’s wheel.’ ‘Or no, a grounded shooting star

  Still billiarding through countryside

  From when it fell here first, when summer sky

  Was thick with suns.’ ‘Let slide:

  It was a train.’ So there we were. Now here we are.

  The Ladder

  It is the hour when come-and-go

  Carouse around the riverbank,

  Collect in wish and wing,

  And tickle blank

  Expanses of the woodland dank.

  Light descants on the fields I know

  And makes their outline sing

  An interplay

  Of night and day.

  Ivy and trellis, cloud-encumbered light

  Conglomerates, then mottles out of sight.

  Fierce solace. Loom. Release. Good loss.

  A mumble. Mellowness?

  No words. A luge within a larger way

  I thought I’d lost. Did not

  We all? It turns and is a stay,

  Convening marvels known and not.

  Loosed, these impressionistic phrases,

  Because, alone, I am at last

  Released from hectic talk,

  Resolved to cast

  The shaky scaffold of what’s past

  Outward, away, and watch the phases

  Of fascination walk

  Under the eaves

  Of stars and leaves

  As sunset’s ladder tumbles through the sky:

  Soleil couchant with rungs of purple dye.

  Despondency turns daring love.

  Reluctancy turns lift.

  Sight turns ekstasis. Stand-still turns to play.

  All thoughts are turning, and

  The turns themselves turn to a stay,

  Unplaceable but close at hand.

  The Borderline

  I watch the shadows spread

  Like petri-dish bacteria across

  The new-mown lawn, as sunbeams toss

  Their tawny mane and all the red

  Corona-rays immerse

  Thick light in cloud, which descants when

  Penumbra run their regimen

  Of self-dissociations, and disperse.

  No borderline between

  The pinkish heights and blood-red sun is clear.

  It is familiar but a scene

  That baffles still, where colours veer

  And coruscate around

  I can’t think what. The evening sky

  Is skeptical of any ground

  For saying what’s divisible, or why.

  And maybe all our task

  (Or much of it) is differentiation.

  The world comes integrated. Ask

  That oak, which with sheer concentration

  Collects a crown of air

  And angles for the windy light.

  To be surviving is to care

  For joins and ruptures. Evening, day and night.

  No nuance that I know

  Can capture all the subtleties of light.

  It is the most effusive show

  World-fabric has: sun’s dynamite,

  Which loves us. Is requited.

  As shadows pass and leave no sign

  Of passing, so I stand, delighted,

  And watch these borders of the borderline.

  How and Why

  Who knows the rules that underlie the reasons?

  Philosophers of mathematics

  Admit

  That plotting out quadratics

  Can’t vindicate tornadoes or why seasons

  Must flit.

  ‘How’ is a word I love, and like to say

  At any opportunity,

  But ‘How’

  Is not enough for me.

  Why do they sing and dance in Camagüey?

  Why now?

  What inference can hope to justify

  The tumult of the whole shebang?

  Thought darts

  Back like a boomerang,

  Touching equations that transmogrify

  To hearts.

  When avalanches shake the Alps, a skier

  Can swerve away. Unlike the trees,

  Which stick

  And let snow’s barrage seize

  Their precious branches. Surely then we’re freer?

  We pick,

  Willingly, where to walk and when to run.

  If health and happiness agree,

  We duck

  Unwished-for o
utcomes, free

  To tack across the winds of what is done

  By luck.

  A synthesis of love and mathematics

  Conspires to shape us as we are.

  We wend

  Within their repertoire,

  Singing the score on which our wild ecstatics

  Depend.

  The Traces

  A shipwreck found off Antikythera

  Yielded this artefact,

  Which we can now identify:

  A Greek computer. With an eye

  For effort, look. It stands. A stubborn fact,

  A fallen star.

  It dazzles. So does this: a figurine

  From stone-age Switzerland,

  A paragon of handiwork.

  Our parents’ parents didn’t shirk

  Where care was called for. Obdurate, it spanned

  The holocene.

  Now cut to this: a catalogue they penned

  At Herculaneum.

  It lists some works you’d recognise

  And others lost to human eyes

  Time out of mind, a tome that you could thumb

  For days on end.

  Consider all the whirring databanks,

  The servers and their web

  Where money pools and people meet,

  Where ‘Save’ is pressed and not ‘Delete’.

  Imagine information’s constant ebb,

  And then give thanks.

  Give thanks for every tool of innovation:

  For libraries and labs,

  For rolling stacks and reading rooms,

  For Haydn fugues and Habsburg tombs,

  For pyramids contrived from limestone slabs

  And computation.

  It lasts. It thrives. It forms a cloud composed

  Of knowledge: early, late,

  Linked up so you and I can say,

  ‘I’ll Google it.’ It shows the way

  From index to infinity, a gate

  That can’t be closed.

  The Quantum Mechanic

  Nonlocalness, entanglement, and tunnelling

  Were primed to keep the processor on track.

 

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