by Wood, Lauren
“It’s not as far as mine goes.”
More words to make it harder to breathe. Did he know that he bothered me in such a way?
“I know.”
“Then what are we supposed to do with all of this tension between us?”
“Ignore it. That’s what I have been doing.”
“How is that working out for you?”
Glenn shrugged and his chest jumped with the action. I don’t think he knew how hot he was, but then again, maybe he did. That knowing smile was back on his lips and I was finding it hard to deny the smile back.
“Not very well. I don’t think I am going to be able to stop thinking about it, when you’re running around half-dressed and saying such sweet and sexy things to me. It makes me think that you’re trying to play with my head.”
“I am not, but you seem very uptight.”
“You seem pretty uptight yourself. Maybe you need some release, so that you can relax. Maybe that’s what we both need.”
“This sounds like a trick.”
“It’s not, I promise. I want to help you. That’s all.”
“You can’t touch me. I won’t let you.”
“Why, it would make you feel better? Just because you don’t want to have sex, doesn’t mean that we can’t do other things that will make you feel good, give you the release that you need.”
“Because I don’t do that sort of thing, Glenn, no matter how benign you make it sound.”
His brow went up. “You don’t, huh? You haven’t ever let a man touch you? Please you?”
I shook my head that I hadn’t. I know that he didn’t believe me, but that didn’t matter. I knew what the truth was. I had never let someone touch me in such a way, but I didn’t have to explain myself. I knew that as well, even if I still wanted to, knowing be damned.
“No, I haven’t.”
“Do you touch yourself?”
I wasn’t ready for that question, so I tried my best not to meet the greedy eyes in front of me. It was almost impossible to deny them entry into my mind. It was like he could read it just that quickly. No matter what was going on, I knew that I was going to have to keep my wits about me, especially around him.
“Why would you ask me such a question?”
“I really want to envision you touching yourself. It would really put a smile on my face.”
I don’t know why, but the answer was a bit more than I was prepared to handle. I had not saw this coming, even if there had been something between us, simmering just beneath the surface.
“What good would that do?”
“It would give me many nights of pleasure.”
I snorted, because it was so unexpected, and I knew that I must have ruined the moment.
“Yes, I do on occasion.”
“Why don’t you do it now?”
That was another request I didn’t see coming and I tried not to see the hungry eyes leveled at me. I wanted to pretend like I didn’t see how much he needed me.
“Are you serious?”
“So dead serious right now Liz.”
I finally snuck a glance at his face, and I couldn’t believe that I was even thinking about it. How had I gotten myself in this situation?
“I am not going to sit here and play with myself, while you watch.”
“Do you want me to do something? I would be more than happy to help you.”
I knew that the last thing I needed was his hands on me, helping me in anyway. That would be a slippery slope and before long, I would want more. I knew what more would lead to and I hadn’t been saying no all of this time for no reason. There certainly was a reason, even if it was hard to explain at the present moment, when my whole body was alive.
“If you want me to touch myself, I want you to as well.”
His grin got wide and he was quick to agree. He started to unbutton his pants, but I stopped him. “No, you can’t show anything. Just slip your hand in.”
“And you will as well?”
I bit my lip, knowing that is as going to be damned for it, but I agreed. I wanted to touch myself badly, would have done it as soon as I was away from him, if that would have been an option. This idea was kind of hot and I actually liked the thought of it. If he wanted to play these games, then I was going to play along as well.
“You want me to touch myself?”
“It’s for your own good Liz. You are wound up so badly. You need a release and I know that I can give it to you.”
“I thought you weren’t going to touch me?”
“I won’t. Just close your eyes.”
Chapter 15
Liz
When someone like Glenn says to close your eyes, my first thought was nothing good was going to come of it. He wasn’t the type that good things came from. He was taking me down a road that I knew was going to end with heartbreak, but I told myself, rationalized, that it wasn’t going to be like that. We wouldn’t really do it, so there was nothing that would come from it. I was going to be safe, or so I thought.
I closed my eyes and listened to the sound of Glenn’s voice. He was telling me I was beautiful and that he wanted to see all of me, but I wasn’t going down that road. It didn’t seem like it would be a good one for me to go down, not when it was so hard for me to tell him no., I knew that there was something about Glenn that I wasn’t going to be able to refuse. He’d always been a lady’s man and that was something that was hard to fight off. The experience he had, was catching up with me quickly.
“Now, put your hand into your pants and tell me if it’s nice and warm?”
His words were deep and gravely and they sure the hell did something to me. The way he sounded was hot as hell and I wasn’t able to stop myself. I did as he suggested or commanded, however I wanted to see it.
I wasn’t warm, I was hot, and I didn’t want to have to tell him that, but I did. I was glad that I did, because the reaction on his face was priceless. He was not waiting for that answer. I then watched him put his own hands in his pants. It was my turn to say something, to cheer him on, but I knew that I shouldn’t.
“Are you hard?”
“Every time I am around you.”
I moved my fingers a little bit more and moaned softly. I wanted it to be his hands on me, but if I looked at him while I was doing it, it was almost like it was. His green eyes were deep and dark. They were more emerald than the sea now and I liked how his face changed when mine did. He was getting more off of my expression, then he was touching himself. I think I was feeling the same way. Having him here, next to me, was really messing with me and it made it feel more intimate than I could have imagined.
“Start rubbing yourself Liz, nice and slow. I wish it was me. I would press down onto your little button harder and harder each time, picking up the pace when your breath started to hitch in your throat. I would make you teeter on the edge for so long, until you were begging me to finish you off.”
I did as he suggested, and my eyes closed. He was already all over me and I couldn’t take it. Seeing him watching me, was too much. I couldn’t help but run from him. When I closed my eyes, I couldn’t see his hard body and eyes that called to me. It helped some, but there was nothing to stop the sound of his voice.
There were also other sounds coming from him, a low groan really threw me off and I had to open my eyes to see. I wanted to see what all of the ruckus was about, and I wasn’t disappointed. He had his pants open now and I could see his hard length. It filled up my mind and my hand stalled.
“Don’t stop now Liz. It’s almost time.”
I didn’t know what he was talking about. My mind was too much on what was in front of me. The hard, smooth member that was in his hand. The way he stroked it, making it change, was fascinating to watch and made me throb between my legs even more. It was hard for me to take my eyes away, but it was impossible for me to continue what I was doing, watching this.
Glenn didn’t miss a beat. He kept telling me to move my hand, rub on myself, but I
was frozen in place. I’d never seen anything like this up close and it was taking away all of my attention.
“I can’t.”
“Yes, you can Liz. I want to watch you come. Show me.”
His words didn’t help at all. I was frozen in place, overwhelmed with how hard and fierce it looked. This wasn’t at all what I had expected, if anything at all. The night was taking a turn that scared me down to my core. The things I wanted to do were wrong and unlike anything that I’d ever felt before.
Finally, he touched his hand on my arm and then he covered my hand with his. I didn’t know what he was doing at first, until he started to move my hand for me, rubbing against me in such a way, that I was starting to jerk when it brushed over certain places. He still wasn’t touching me, not technically, but it was even more intimate.
I managed to follow my gaze to his face and the desire there left me trembling. He picked up the pace, plying more pressure, making me gasp as I started to squirm away from my own touch.
“Show me Liz.”
He was closer now. I could feel his breath on me. I knew that he wouldn’t do anything that I didn’t want him to do, but he was so close. He could move a few feet and be right inside of me. It felt like it was where he belonged, and I throbbed more.
Glenn was moving both arms quickly, bringing us both to pleasure, but I was the one that was moaning and calling out his name. I couldn’t help it. I needed it badly, far worse than I realized. The sound shocked me it was so loud, but I couldn’t stop. It felt so good.
I managed to push his hand away and was able to breathe again. I moved away from him, giving us a little room, because it was all too much. I think he knew that too, because he started to move faster on his own desire.
“Let me see Liz. Let me see how wet you are.”
This wasn’t what I had expected. I was barely able to move, my whole body relaxed, but he wanted more. Needed more by the looks of it and I couldn’t say no to him, not after what he had done to me, it was impossible.
I stood up, my eyes on his movement and I pressed my legs together. I was so wet.
“Please?”
He sounded desperate, so I pulled my pants off a little quicker. I let my panties fall to the floor as well.
“Touch it, if you want to see.”
Now it was Glenn’s turn to pause. Something darkened his eyes and I knew what was about to happen. I wanted him to feel it before he did, to be the reason his world exploded like mine had. I grabbed the stray hand that had helped me, and I pressed it between my legs. “Do you feel that?”
He groaned loudly and I saw white stuff spew out and hit him on the chest. It was a lot and I couldn’t help looking at it. I was transfixed.
Glenn started to move his fingers on me, strumming me quickly and I tried to move away, but he grabbed onto me, pulling me closer. The way he touched me, felt so different than what he had done before. It wasn’t my hand anymore, it was his, thick, hard and calloused.
I came quickly and I held onto him as I came. There was nothing else to do and only when I was pushing back, harder than I was calling out to him, did he finally let me go. Glenn helped me back down to the couch and I started to say something, when the phone started to ring.
My mind was numb, and I couldn’t think. I certainly couldn’t do anything at the moment. It took me a minute to get my feet back underneath me and I saw him moving towards the phone. He was back dressed, with his stained shirt off.
“I will get it. You just relax. A bath would feel good.”
I nodded, because it did sound good, but it was the moving part that sounded pretty damn tricky. What had he done to me? What had I allowed him to do?
Chapter 16
Glenn
When I got back from the phone call, I didn’t find Liz in the tub like I’d imagined. I thought that it would be a good time to give her what it was that she desired most. I could see it in her eyes. There was a moment when she’d wanted everything and be damned, I’d wanted her badly.
I imagined getting back to her, playing with her in the tub and pushing Liz to her limits, where she begged me to take her. That’s how it played out in my head, but that wasn’t the case at all. Instead, she was asleep on the couch. She hadn’t even put on any bottoms, so I could see all of her. It was all it took, for me to cover her up and walk away, then I cared to admit. It wasn’t what I wanted, but it was going to have to do for now.
Laying down, I tossed and turned, even though I’d been satisfied. It felt good, released a hell of a lot of pressure, but I needed more. It wasn’t enough. I don’t know if any one moment with Liz was ever going to be enough. My concept of that idea was drastically changing with every encounter of her. She was worried about getting hurt, while I was falling down a rabbit hole I had never been down before. These feelings were foreign and hard to adapt to.
I was almost asleep, when I heard my name being called lightly. I thought it was a dream.
“Glenn, can I please lay with you? I sleep so much better when you’re next to me.”
It wasn’t a dream. She was standing by the end of the bed, in one of those damn robe things I warned her about before. Liz looked delicious enough to eat and that was all I could think about. I could literally eat her right now.
I wanted to tell her no. If she laid down next to me, I was going to have another night of no sleep. I knew that I was a comfort to her, but she wasn’t a comfort to me, certainly not in the same way. I wanted to think that everything would be fine, that I was strong enough, but I wasn’t sure.
“Sure, come on.”
I was hesitant and that made her hesitant as well. I didn’t know how to be any other way. She was driving me crazy and I don’t know what I was going to do with her. She was already making me hard again. The sight of her was usually enough. I had been telling the truth when I said that.
“Are you sure? You don’t sound like it?”
I sighed and told her that it was fine. I wanted her to believe me, but it was hard when I knew I was lying. She would be fine, but I was going to be in torture again. That is what happened when I was with her, but not in the way that I wanted. She made me think about things that I shouldn’t, like how little I would have to push, to get my way. I know that it wouldn’t be all that much. She was ripe for the taking and she didn’t even know it.
Liz settled down next to me and she moved around a few times, before I heard her soft voice.
“Will you hold me, like before?”
I think that was the moment that I knew I was in trouble, real trouble. I pulled her in and didn’t say a word, I couldn’t. For once, I was speechless.
I was also hard though, so holding her was a lot more complicated. I didn’t want to scare her. I had seen the way she eyed me before. Liz wasn’t ready, no matter how much I was.
“Doctor, I was hoping that we could talk?”
I was glad to see that it wasn’t Claudia. I had been avoiding her like the plague. Dr. Wallace was an old colleague and it looked like he had something that was bothering him. Since I was thinking about Liz nonstop, it would be good to get my mind out of the gutter and back to work.
“What can I do for you Benny?”
“It’s this patient. I was wondering if you could talk to her. She needs to have surgery, but she doesn’t want to. It’s scary, you know, all of that.”
“Well, it’s brain surgery Benny, no one wants to have it.”
“I know, but she’s young and I was hoping that you would help me convince her that it’s for the best. She needs to have it done.”
“What am I supposed to do Benny?”
“You know, wave that magic wand of yours. I have seen you do it before. No woman can deny you.”
“You want me to date her?”
I wasn’t getting his point.
“No, but I know that you can convince her. Just talk to her, that’s all I ask.”
“When is she coming in?”
“She’s here now.”
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br /> I wasn’t prepared, but I got her file in my hand as we were walking to the door. She did need surgery, but Benny wasn’t very authoritative. He had a mind of a genius, but it left out a lot of room for people skills. He was a bit pudgy, acne-scarred and that didn’t help people to have much faith in him. I would go to him if I ever needed a surgeon. While it may be right to come to me, I wondered if I would have been able to eat my ego as well as he had. I wanted to believe that I could have, but I don’t really know if I would have or not. Benny was always looking out for his patients.
Moving into the room, I introduced myself, taking a seat next to his patient. The woman was in her early twenties and I could see fear all over her freckled face. I also noticed that she didn’t have anyone else with her. A parent should be here, but it wasn’t my place to judge. I couldn’t.
“I know this is hard for you, but I promise you that this is what is best. You’re young and that makes it scary, but it also makes your healing time less. You’re going to get through this Julie.”
The woman in front of me, was still scared, but she felt better. I could see it in the tension of her forehead. I was probably telling her the exact same thing that Benny had been telling her, but she related almost immediately. Whether he was right or wrong, Benny knew how to get the best result. I thought again how I could learn from him. I needed to pick up some of his patience, because I had a lot of that going on right now. It was not near as easy as I thought it would be.
When we left, everyone was feeling better and the nurse was going through the tests needed before surgery. I hated to see someone so young, needing such an extensive surgery, but I knew that she was going to be in good hands.
“You always remind me why I do this Benny.”
“I do it because I thought it would be a good career. I like to help people and it’s interesting work.”
I shook my head. Genius, but his people skills were still heavily in need of improvement.
“You want to get a drink? I’ve had one of those days.”
