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Battersby, Joan 256
Beat Generation 2, 46, 71, 84
Beat, The 115
Becker, Ernest: The Denial of Death 232, 233, 248
Bennett, John 258–9
Bernhard, Thomas:
Gathering Evidence 129
The Loser 156
Bethune, Emma 129
Bethune, Nigel 51, 58, 59, 60, 61, 74, 128–9, 130
Betty Blue 70
Beverley, Anne 104
Big Audio Dynamite 52
Black Barn Studios, Surrey 100
Blackwood, Welsh Valleys 2, 7–8, 9, 10, 12, 13, 14, 15, 19, 20, 21, 33, 34, 35, 36, 37, 40, 41, 42, 45, 50, 52, 54, 56, 60, 61, 62, 68, 69, 70, 71, 72, 76, 78, 80, 82, 85, 86–7, 89, 98, 109, 118, 123, 133, 134, 140, 189, 192, 206, 207, 218, 226, 227, 228, 239, 247
Blake, William 247
blood sacrifice 104–5
Bluebeat 71, 73, 87
Blue Generation, The 71–2, 75, 76–7, 83, 84, 87, 88
BNP 175
Bon Jovi 120–1
Boomtown Rats 18
Bowles, Anna 259–60
Bradfield, James Dean 49, 51, 72, 81, 93, 94, 189, 208
birth and family 68
Crosskeys College 45, 70
formation of Manic Street Preachers 69, 70
Generation Terrorists and 100, 109
Gold Against the Soul and 120, 163
jaw damaged in physical assault, Newport 77
London, move with band to 97
love life 117
military uniforms, on RE inspiring Manic Street Preachers to wear 121
music industry and 112
RE, first encounters 24–5
RE’s cultural influences, on 86, 209
RE’s disappearance and 5, 200, 212, 214, 218, 219, 220, 221, 222, 233, 234, 236, 247, 253, 267, 271, 272
RE’s final tour with Manic Street Preachers and 195–6, 198
RE’s guitar playing and 110
RE’s hospitalisation and 135–7, 139–40, 146, 150, 152, 157
RE’s lyrics and 247
RE’s self-harm and 77
schooldays 24–5, 68, 69
‘Suicide Alley’ and 72
Thailand visit with Manic Street Preachers 126, 127
The Holy Bible and 164–5, 168, 170, 174, 176–7, 179, 185, 188, 198
Bradfield, Monty 68
Bradfield, Sue 68
Bradley, Angela 264, 265
Brando, Marlon 194–5
Bresler, Fenton: Who Killed John Lennon? 103
Brexit 103
Britpop 121, 195
Britannia Row 122
British Empire 21, 176, 178
Brown, James 98
Bruner, Jerome 79
Bulgakov, Mikhail: The Master and Margarita 116
Bull & Gate, Kentish Town 93
Burroughs, William 39, 46, 62, 71, 101, 235–6
Cairns, Andy 191
Calveley, Anthony 257–8
Cambodia 172–3, 193
Campbell, Joseph: The Hero with a Thousand Faces 89–90
Camus, Albert 147; A Happy Death 246
Cardiff Police 222
Channel Time 262
Chapman, Mark 103
Charles, Craig 41
Chartism 9
Churchill, Winston 58, 177, 178
Church View, Blackwood, Wales 13, 15, 16, 17, 18, 21, 22, 34–5, 56–7
CIA 103, 104, 172
Clapton, Eric 151–2
Clare, Anthony 136
Clark, Steve 193
Clash, The 2, 52, 54, 69, 86, 92, 93, 99, 100, 105, 106, 112, 121, 193
Close-Up (documentary) 117, 201
coal mining 9–11, 12, 13, 14, 33–5, 38, 39, 46, 47, 50, 69, 123–4, 126
Cobain, Kurt 109, 111, 122–3, 133, 138, 202, 259, 263–4, 274
Cole, Lily May (grandmother) 14
Conrad, Joseph 247; Heart of Darkness 4, 194–5
Conservative Party 33, 100–1, 171
Cooper, Milton William 101
Copeland, Stewart 86
Counter Language 148
Crane, Hart: The Bridge 245
Crawford, Joan 190, 195
Cross, David Anthony 224–5, 226, 228
Crosskeys College, Wales 36–47, 61, 70
Cross, Simon 49–50, 51–3, 54, 55, 56, 61, 68, 71–2
Cummins, Kevin 126, 127–8
Cure, The 111
Curtis, Ian 3, 49, 53, 112, 140, 185, 200, 214, 276
Daily Mail 222
Dark Star (band) 18
Davies, Christopher Shane (uncle) 15, 20, 267, 269
Davies, Horace (grandfather) 14
Davies, Robin Lorne (uncle) 15, 33
Davis, Bette 190, 195
Debord, Guy 46, 105–6, 170; The Society of Spectacle 83–4
DeLillo, Don: White Noise 54
détournement 102
Doane, Michael: Six Miles to Roadside Business 246
Donne, John: ‘An Anatomie of the World’ 147
Dub War 189–90
Dunn, Rosie 142–4, 151, 155, 158–9, 160, 187, 201, 229–30
Ecclesiastes 23, 149, 188
Echo & the Bunnymen 18, 30, 37, 41, 121, 204
Eddie and the Cruisers (film) 113–14
Edwards, Ceridwen (aunt) 16
Edwards, Clifford (uncle) 16, 18
Edwards, Graham (cousin) 16
Edwards, Graham James (father) x, xi, 13–14, 15, 16, 17, 19, 21, 22, 49, 50, 51, 56, 57, 82, 118, 128, 130, 133, 144, 157, 222, 223, 224, 269, 270, 273
Edwards, Ivor (great-grandfather) 13
Edwards, Nick (cousin) 16, 18, 48
Edwards, Paul (cousin) 16
Edwards, Rachel (sister) 77
Apocalypse Now, on RE’s love of 194
Asperger’s, on possibility of RE having 207, 211
Bethune suicide, on RE’s reaction to 128–9
birth 16
childhood/RE’s childhood and 17–25, 28–9, 30, 33, 34–5, 33, 36, 37, 40, 41, 42
Christmas before RE’s disappearance and 202, 203
‘4 Real’ incident, on 98
Manic Street Preachers and 45, 67, 73, 82, 84, 91, 94, 96, 98, 106, 117, 120, 140, 164, 168, 170, 175, 185, 186, 190, 198, 199, 201, 272–5
RE’s Cardiff flat, on 124
RE’s degree, on 79–80
RE’s disappearance and ix–xi, 4, 6, 218, 220, 221, 222, 223, 224, 237, 239, 243, 244, 246–7, 249–50, 251–77
RE’s drinking, on 74–5
RE’s interest in religion, on 188–9
RE’s job with Islwyn Borough Council, on 81
RE’s relationship with family, on x, xi, 8, 12, 13, 14, 15, 57, 211
RE’s suicide attempt, hospitalisation and 132, 134, 135, 136, 137, 138, 139, 140, 147, 148, 149, 155–6, 157
RE’s tattoos, on 199
Snoopy (RE’s dog) death, on RE’s reaction to 204, 206
Edwards, Richey:
academia, love of 2, 25, 42, 48, 54, 79, 209
acne 32, 36, 60
address books 36–7, 131–2, 142, 222
alcohol and 4, 56, 60–1, 74–5, 93, 123, 126, 142, 145–6, 152, 153, 156, 160, 187,
203, 206–7, 265
Alcoholics Anonymous Twelve Steps programme and 142, 145–6, 156
ambition 2, 5, 90, 94, 96
androgyny 30, 39, 62, 145
animals, love of 21, 60, 158, 202, 204–5, 206
anorexia 4, 30, 141, 150, 162, 264
anti-love credo 64–6, 75–6, 129, 168, 217
anxiety first creeps into behaviour 32–3
Asperger’s syndrome (AS) and 207–11
Bangkok, time in with Manic Street Preachers 12, 125–8, 130, 175, 237, 239
bangs head against brick wall 198, 234
Bethune suicide and 128–9, 130
birth 16
body, embarrassment about 32, 49–50
Borderline Personality Disorder, diagnosed with 152–6
Cardiff, buys flat i
n 123–4, 130
charisma 5–6
childhood 2, 7–8, 9–10, 16–35, 37
class consciousness 9–10, 33–5, 38, 46–7, 50–1, 52, 169, 177–8, 237, 238
Cobain suicide and 122–3, 201
collages 39, 49, 61, 73, 84, 87, 113, 171, 192, 221
comic books, love of 20–1
conspiracy theories and 94, 101–5
Crosskeys College 36–47
‘Cult of Richey’ 6, 190
current affairs/politics, interest in 41–2, 46–7
depression 134, 136, 138, 152, 153, 156, 190–1, 233, 249
diaries 21, 48, 202–3, 204, 241, 255
disappearance
ATM cash withdrawals and 217–18, 223–4
CCTV and ix, 260–2
childhood writing on escape over the Severn Bridge and 28–9
Cobain suicide and 122–3, 133, 138, 202, 259, 263–4, 274
copy-cat suicides and 256–7, 260
conspiracy theories surrounding 259–68
declared dead 269–70
Embassy Hotel stay and 218, 219, 220–1, 225, 237, 242, 251, 253, 262–3
gift box addressed to girlfriend, Jo left in Embassy Hotel 221–2, 225, 237–47
immortality, exile and disappearance, fascination with heroic ideas and narratives of 3–4, 7–8, 13, 15, 89–91, 113–14, 115, 158, 172–3, 184,
193–5, 199, 214, 232–49
Israel, wish to visit and 243, 244–5
Jim Morrison myth and 114–15, 202, 265
last documented week 217–19
Manic Street Preachers and see Manic Street Preachers and individual band member name
Messiah complex/hearing voices/loss of sense of reality possibility 243–4
missing person report 222, 256
murder/foul play hypothesis 125, 249–50, 263–8
passport and 223, 239, 253, 259, 261
personal mythology, attempt to re-imagine and 232–5
planning of, possible 3–4, 5, 7–8, 48, 85, 86, 89–91, 95, 166, 172–3, 185, 193–5, 199, 214, 217–18, 222, 223–31, 232–50, 267, 274
police and xi, 6, 18, 221, 222–4, 225, 229, 249–50, 251–64, 268
practice run for, possible 48
Rachel Edwards’ search for 251–77 see also Edwards, Rachel
Severn Bridge toll receipt 223, 262
sightings of 224–31, 241
suicide hypothesis 122–3, 128–9, 147, 154, 185, 200, 234, 245, 246, 263, 264, 267, 274, 276
timeline of disappearance, mistakes in original xi, 220–4, 252–3, 262–3
Vauxhall Cavalier and 1, 218–19, 222, 223, 225, 227, 261, 262, 265
Vivian and 221, 239, 253
‘withdrawn traces’ lyric and 173
dole, signs on to 81
doubt, descent into 146
drugs and 122–5, 133, 142, 168, 187
family see individual family member name
‘4 REAL’ self-harm incident 26, 97–8, 102, 105, 127–8, 138
girlfriends 4, 37, 43–4, 54–6, 58, 61–5, 74, 75, 107, 117–18, 128, 129–30, 140, 141, 147, 152, 161–2, 174, 187, 192–3, 199–200, 202, 203, 206–7, 211, 213–14, 217, 221–2, 225, 238, 239, 240, 241, 243–4, 271, 274, 275, 276–7 see also individual girlfriend name
guitar playing 46, 66, 73, 74, 80, 91, 98–9, 100, 110, 152, 157, 158, 165, 193, 233
health farm visits 119, 120
Holocaust/Jews and 175–8, 216, 259
humour 29, 31, 159, 203, 242
idealistic character 3, 43, 65, 86, 137, 156, 208–9, 211–12, 233
interview, last 166, 216–17
‘The Intruder’ (short story) 41
Islwyn Borough Council, works for 81
jealousy, romantic 64, 117, 130, 141
letters ix, 5, 25, 37, 38, 39, 43–4, 46, 55, 62, 63–5, 71, 74, 75–7, 78, 82, 83, 92, 96,
107, 112, 113, 120, 128, 129–30, 137, 162, 187, 205, 206, 237
literary influences see individual author name
lyrics see Manic Street Preachers
Manic Street Preachers and see Manic Street Preachers
manipulation/deception 82, 214–15, 238
Marvel Superheroes Datebook 202–3, 241–2
medication, prescription 138, 140, 141, 142, 143, 223
mental collapse 129–30, 131–60
miners’ strike and 34–5, 46, 47
music business and 4, 96, 104, 112, 116, 125–7, 170, 174, 175, 180–2, 217, 249, 267, 275
musical influences see individual artist name
name changes 83
Nicky Wire, love for 117
Priory, time at 26, 137, 141–60, 161, 186, 188, 201, 203, 204–5, 208, 229, 265
proposes to girlfriend, Jo 206–7, 211
religion and 23, 57, 145–6, 149, 177–8, 188–9, 243, 255
rock myth, ambition to forge a new and unprecedented 90
sceptical theory and 148–9
schooldays 11, 13, 19–20, 21, 22, 25–47, 61, 70
self-harm 4, 26, 57–8, 77, 97–8, 102, 105, 127–8, 138, 142, 153, 159, 191, 197, 207,
255
shaves head 79, 205, 206, 225, 226, 262
shyness 32, 37, 43, 46, 49–50, 51, 54–5, 59–60, 62, 79, 118
slippers and pyjamas, walks around London in 216, 234
suicide attempt and hospitalisation 131–60, 161, 186, 188, 192, 201, 203, 204–5, 208,
229, 233–5, 238, 265
Swansea University 4, 18, 22, 37, 45, 46, 48–80, 82, 83, 84, 91, 99, 109, 118, 128,
153, 170, 177–8, 201, 266
tattoos 81, 103, 199, 244–5, 255
televised interview, first 95
televised interview, last 210–11
weight/eating disorder 39, 77, 119, 142, 151, 157, 191, 203
Whitchurch Hospital, time at 134–41, 142, 152
Edwards (née Davies), Sherry (mother) ix, x, xi, 14, 15, 16, 17, 19, 22, 23, 28, 33, 37, 49, 50, 75, 80, 81, 98, 118, 133, 202, 218, 220, 224, 269, 270
Edwards, Thomas (grandfather) 13, 14
Ellen, Barbara 125, 126, 127, 175
Ellis, Bret Easton: American Psycho 179
Embassy Hotel, London 218, 219, 220–1, 225, 237, 242, 251, 253, 262–3
EP 235
Epic Records 99
Esquire 75
Eugenides, Jeffrey: The Virgin Suicides 154
European Union 103
Eye on Wales (radio programme) 260
Face, The 175, 208
Factory Records 71, 191
Fall and Rise of Reginald Perrin, The (TV series) 158
Farrakhan, Louis 101, 172, 173
Faustian mythology 105, 116, 247
Fidler, Lori 224, 225
First World War (1914–18) 12–13, 14, 173
Fitchett, Alistair 78, 92, 137, 184
Fleming, Mervyn 254
Flynn, Sean 193–4
Forrest, Emma 58
Forward, Alice 63
Forward, Claire 43–4, 61–4, 75, 118, 130, 137, 206, 217
Foucault, Michel 138, 162, 183–4, 275
Freemasons 51, 103
Friedman, Kinky 16
Fry, Richard 30–2, 44–5, 54, 58, 82, 118–19
Fuerteventura 229–30
Fulcher, Detective Superintendent Stephen 252–3, 263
Funeral in Berlin 76, 94, 203
Gatehouse, Stephen 40, 61, 76–7, 203–4
Geary, David see Gatehouse, David
Geberth, Vernon 264
General Election (1974) 9
Gilmour, David 111
Goa, India 228–9, 246
Godden, Rebecca 252
Goodall, Christopher 256–7, 258
Gould, Lizzy 131
Gourmont, Remy de 62
Graham’s Hair Fashions, Blackwood 15
Griff, Professor 104
grunge 109, 111, 122
Guevara, Che 172
Guns N’ Roses 84, 101, 105, 109, 271
Gwent Police 2
24, 257
Haberdasher’s Monmouth School for Boys, Wales 19–20
Hall, Martin 96, 119, 141, 213, 215, 216, 222
Hall, Michael 96
Hall or Nothing 96, 97, 131, 169, 189, 222
Hall, Philip 96–7, 99, 102, 119–20, 130
Hall, Terri 96, 97, 117
Halperin, Ian: Love and Death: The Murder of Kurt Cobain 263–4
Hambridge, Mark 8, 10, 36, 37–8, 39–40, 41, 46, 51, 54–5, 61, 64–5, 66, 70, 71, 73, 74, 76–7, 83, 84, 87–9, 93, 194, 205–6
Happy Mondays 38, 82, 146, 152
Harris, Byron 40, 61, 192
Harris, John 113
Harry, Debbie 49
Hatherall, Anthony Edward 225–8
Haywood, Joanna 41, 76, 79, 192
Heath, Edward 9
Heavenly Records 96–7, 99
Hendrix, Jimi 202
Hibbs, Chris 258
Hine, Jemma 58, 59, 60, 66, 79
Hippo Club, Cardiff 124
Hitler, Adolf 173, 178
Hogarth, Steve 110
Hogg, James: The Private Memoirs and Confessions of a Justified Sinner 245
Hook End Manor, Oxfordshire 110–11
Hopper, Dennis 86, 193–4
Horse and Groom, London 92, 93
House in the Woods Studios, Surrey 212–14, 218, 220
How Green Was My Valley (film) 10
Hungry Beat 78
Huyssen, Andreas 94
Illuminati 103, 104
Impact 72, 76–7, 203
Independent 256, 271
India 178, 228–9
IRA 41
Island Sun 229
Jam, The 40, 70
James, Andrew 17, 20
Jameson, Fredric 38
James, Richard 17–18, 20
Jesus and Mary Chain, The 45
Jim’ll Fix It (TV series) 21
Jo (girlfriend of RE) 132, 217
appearance 107
box left by RE for 221–2, 225, 238, 239, 240, 241, 242, 243–4
letters from RE to 107, 128, 129–30, 161–2, 187
letters to Rachel Edwards 147, 174, 192–3, 213, 214–15, 243–4, 271, 274, 275, 276–7
Manic Street Preachers and 174, 213, 271, 273, 274, 275
manipulated by RE, on possibility of being 214–15, 217
RE before disappearance, time spent with 192–3, 199–200, 202, 203
RE proposes marriage to 206–7, 211
RE as psychotic or schizophrenic, on possibility of 243–4
RE’s fascination with suicide, on 147
RE’s fear of being caught out for lack of musical talent, on 157
RE’s hospitalisation and 140, 141
RE’s jealousy and insecurity, on 117–18, 128, 129–30
RE’s love for Nicky Wire, on 117
RE’s tattoos and 255
John, Bethones (great aunt Bessie) 7–8, 12, 13, 154–5, 211