Little Pills

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by Melody Dodds

your phone away.

  Rupert talked me

  out of that.

  She crosses her arms.

  When someone looks up to you,

  you have a responsibility.

  What she doesn’t say:

  Mia could have died.

  Not with her voice,

  she doesn’t say it.

  But her whole body tells me.

  Planted feet, crossed arms, tense shoulders,

  deep frown, furrowed brow

  and those angry, disappointed eyes.

  Mom takes a deep breath.

  Then her whole body

  screams at me:

  YOU could have died.

  You could have DIED!

  What she doesn’t say:

  First Rupert, then Leo,

  now you.

  Not to me,

  she doesn’t say it.

  But I heard her crying on the phone.

  Standing in my doorway,

  Mom’s whole body sighs.

  Goes from rigid to limp.

  Like she’s giving up.

  Giving up on me?

  But she doesn’t say,

  I’m giving up on you.

  She does say,

  So you know,

  no one is telling Leo.

  He’s got enough trouble

  of his own.

  My body tells her, screams it at her:

  I’m sorry

  I’m SORRY

  I’M SO SORRY!!!

  That’s cool, Mom. That’s fair.

  I don’t want to go anywhere.

  CHRISTMAS EVE DAY

  Gramma

  is not angry.

  But thinks she should be,

  maybe.

  Mad or maybe

  guilty.

  (They were

  my pills,

  after all.)

  I go help her

  with the baking.

  (For real this time.)

  The topic comes up.

  I change the subject.

  Comes up again.

  Gramma changes the subject.

  Finally,

  she makes us tea.

  (She’s never been

  a coffee drinker.)

  We drink tea

  and eat still-warm

  butter cookies.

  And she tells me:

  Every generation

  has its war

  and sends its boys,

  and now its girls, too.

  Sends them home

  with a habit.

  World War One

  was coffee and cigarettes.

  Army handed out

  those cancer sticks

  like candy.

  World War Two

  was liquor and speed.

  Both sides.

  Vietnam,

  your great-uncle Seth.

  Heroin.

  And Afghanistan,

  well, that’s where

  those poppies grow.

  Some of those kids come home

  addicted to pills.

  Painkillers

  are the army’s

  new candy.

  I’VE KNOWN NO WAR

  I’m an addict for no

  reason

  trigger

  war

  excuse.

  But Gramma says,

  It doesn’t matter.

  The habit

  is a thing

  that can find

  any of us.

  It comes home to roost.

  And I understand

  that there’s probably a reason

  Gramma didn’t take

  those pain pills.

  Even though

  some days

  her back hurt

  so badly

  she couldn’t get

  out of bed.

  I hug her.

  Hard.

  And we both feel

  forgiven.

  CHRISTMAS DAY

  We

  are all

  here. Well, those of us

  not in the army. But Leo

  Skyped! We all got to talk to

  and see him. There’s a tree and a turkey

  and some presents. A lot of presents, actually.

  Even one to me from Isabella. Mom does have to work

  tonight, but not until midnight shift. By which time, she says,

  You should be in bed anyway. Everything seems kind of perfect.

  All is calm,

  all is bright.

  Until…

  HANG TEN

  My phone

  buzzes.

  It’s a text.

  From Johnnie C.

  Who I haven’t

  heard from

  in more than

  a week.

  It’s two words:

  Surf’s up!

  I don’t think,

  don’t think,

  don’t think.

  Just type

  Hang ten!

  Thinking now,

  though.

  Thinking twice

  and three times,

  as my thumb

  hovers over

 

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  Tío Jorge lifts his cap

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  ABOUT THE AUTHOR

  Melody Dodds is a chemist and former substitute teacher. She currently volunteers at a local youth center as a mentor and tutor, and also writes novels and plays. Addiction can shatter the happiest, cleverest, most amazing people we know. Melody wrote this particular book for anyone who has become addicted, or loved someone who did.

 

 

 


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