by Karen Deen
It’s one of the things that attracts me to him. Although you think he’s this intense lawyer, that is so far from the truth. There’s so much hiding behind that mask that no one has ever seen. I’m not sure he’s ever let himself really be who he’s meant to be in life, until now. I feel a little thrilled that it’s me that’s drawing that out of him, and he feels comfortable enough to share the real Lex with me.
I’m sitting on the side of the bed when Lex comes out of the bathroom still smiling.
“You look happy with yourself,” I say to him.
“Why wouldn’t I be? I have the hottest girl in town checking out my ass.”
“Oh my god, get over yourself Lex and go to bed.”
Now standing in front of me, he takes my hands and pulls me to my feet.
“I need to say goodnight first.” His face gets closer.
“Goodnight,” I manage in no more than a whisper.
“No, not in words,” is the last thing I hear as his delicious lips gently start touching mine. Lightly kissing me, his hands hold my face exactly where he needs me to be. I’m lost in the moment of our mouths dancing with each other. I can feel the need to escalate the kiss but both of us are holding back.
I take in a breath as he pulls back, my head spinning.
“What was that?” I murmur.
“My goodnight.” His thumb strokes my chin as he slowly pulls his hands from my face.
“Jesus, if that was goodnight, I can’t wait for good morning.” I look at him in my fuzzy haze.
“We’ve already talked about what your mornings will be like, baby. All in good time. Now try to get some sleep. I’ll see you in the morning.” He hesitates and then starts walking out of the room, about to close the door.
“Lex?”
He looks over his shoulder at me. “Yeah, baby?”
I feel a little unsure all of a sudden. “Umm, can you leave the door open, please? So I can see you.” I feel embarrassed to even ask.
“Sure thing, as long as you don’t snore.” I can always count on Lex for some humor when I need it.
“Well, you’re about to find out, aren’t you.”
Climbing into bed, I’m mesmerized, watching him slowly lift his arms up over his head and pull his shirt up his back. I’m feeling all sorts of things through my body the more skin he’s exposing. I know I’ve seen him with his shirt off before, but I wasn’t ready to really look. Tonight, though, I don’t care, and I’m pretty sure he wants me watching too.
His back to me, he undoes the button on his jeans and my heart is skipping beats because it knows what’s coming next.
His hands slide under the jeans over his ass and push them down his body.
Fuck me.
I thought his ass in jeans was hot. That is nothing compared to seeing him standing in front of me in his white briefs. Fuck, who said white underwear on a guy is like an old man? I can assure you there is nothing old man about Lex. My eyes follow his legs down as he pushes the jeans to the floor. His body is pure muscle, from his shoulders all the way to his feet. I can feel my palms getting sweaty and I’m suddenly overheating.
He turns to look at me as he starts to slide into his bed.
Bastard is grinning. He knows exactly what he’s doing to me.
Well, I hope your sleep is going to be as hard as mine. Or that something else is hard which won’t let you sleep, more like it.
The room is now dark except for the little lamp that’s left on in the living room. It puts a soft glow around the room. Enough to see just a little but not enough to keep you awake. Well, in theory, anyway. After the strip show I just received, I’m not going to sleep anytime soon. If he had taken the briefs off, I’m pretty sure I would have self-combusted. If I was in a room on my own and him not so close, I would be taking things into my own hands right now. Although, I know nothing I do to myself will be even close to the feelings Lex gives me. What I wouldn’t give to have him touching me right now.
I’m moving restlessly in the bed because I can’t get comfortable. Even though the bed is like a big fluffy pillow.
“Mia, are you okay?” I hear Lex calling to me in the dim room.
I want to say yes just so he doesn’t know, but I’m no good at lying.
If I’m being honest with myself, that’s not the answer.
“No… because I’m scared.”
“You’re safe, baby, I promise,” his voice gently echoes in the quiet.
“No, I’m scared if I don’t say this now, I’m not sure when I’ll get the courage.”
“Say what?” I can hear his sheets moving.
“That I want you in my bed, touching me like you do. I need you, Lex.” I can feel the tears I’m holding back with the emotions that I feel.
Seeing him standing at the side of the bed in the lamplight is like all my fantasies coming to life.
“Are you sure, Mia? Like, really sure? I don’t want you to do this because you’re running from your fears.” I can hear the strain in his voice.
“Can’t you see? This is me running to my fears. The fear of taking my life back, and that starts with you. I don’t know where you came from or why, but all I know is you are meant for me, Lex. I can’t stay away any longer. I want you.” I’m breathless with anticipation of what he’s thinking.
“Fuck, Mia. I have wanted you from that first night. I keep holding back because I don’t want to hurt you, after the nightmare you’ve been through.” He’s torn, but I need him to understand I don’t want him to treat me like glass.
Sliding across in the bed, I hold up the covers.
“Please, Lex, this is what I want, don’t make me beg.”
He’s in beside me before I even blink. Taking me in his arms and our bodies pressing hard against each other. I know what I want, I have to tell him, though.
“Undress me, Lex, I want you to touch me, naked. I need to know I’m more than the nightmare. I want to feel again.”
“So much I want to do with you, I just don’t know where to start.” Oh god, how much I love that sexy voice. The one he saves just for me.
“Kiss me…all over.” My voice is all breathy. Lordy, where is this coming from? I never asked for anything, or even known what I want. Yet with Lex I know I can, and I feel in the safest place I’ve ever been in my life, right here between the sheets. It goes against all logic, but I don’t care, I’m taking what I want.
“When I’m finished with you, baby, you won’t remember anything from before this night. Tonight, you’re mine, and I intend to worship every single part of your body. But if you need to stop, say the word and everything stops, and I won’t care one bit. This is all at your pace. You make the rules. If it doesn’t feel good, then you need to tell me. Promise me.” Rolling me onto my back, he’s above me, and I know he’s testing how I react. I should be freaking out, but I’m not, and I know it’s because it’s him. My world is different with him in it.
“Thank you. For letting me take control of my body, but fuck, Lex, if you don’t touch me soon, I’m going to explode in anticipation. Please don’t treat me like a victim. I want to be the strong woman you make me feel I can be.”
Hearing him groan and feeling it vibrating through his chest, I know he’s as sexually frustrated as I am.
“You are the most beautiful and the strongest woman I’ve ever met. I have never seen you any other way.” His mouth touches my lips and the world around me disappears. Tonight, I’m not a mom, or a sister, not even a wife or the poor little orphan girl. Finally, I’m just Mia.
Our lips unleash the heat that has been simmering just under the surface in both of us for days.
His hand is now sliding up under my tank top, lifting it finally so we’re skin to skin. He breaks our kiss quickly to take it over my head. My nerves escalate at him seeing me naked.
“So sexy, you have no idea how fucking sexy you are.” Before I can even argue, his mouth is kissing down my breast until he reaches my nipple. His tongue taking the
first swipe has me lifting off the bed. But he doesn’t wait for me to settle. He takes me in his mouth and sucks while I feel his hand on my other breast.
Oh, I can’t breathe.
In the best fucking way possible.
I’m surrendering to him and his touch.
And I feel my heart breaking wide open.
“Oh…Lex…oh…”
Chapter Twenty-Four
LEX
Her moaning my name is the most incredible feeling.
I’m just getting started and don’t plan on stopping until there is no breath left and my name is a mere whisper.
Her skin tastes like the forbidden fruit, the one I’ve been able to see and almost touch. But never really taste. Just hints of her on her lips but nothing like this.
The more I feast on her breast, the more her body moves under me. I know she wants more from me, and fuck, do I want to give it to her. But she deserves more than a quick fuck.
This is the woman I plan on making love to for the rest of my life, so she deserves that from the beginning. I need to show her the stars.
Moving to take the other breast in my mouth, my right hand now slides down her body. Making sure she feels every single tingle as I move from the side of her waist to swiping my fingers across her stomach and around her navel. Finally running a finger slowly across the top of her shorts’ waistband.
Over and over again.
Teasing her as I suck her harder and taking her nipple between my teeth and gently tugging on it.
“Lex, please take them off…I can’t…I don’t…fuck, I can’t take it much longer.” Her pleading is the sweetest way of her trying to tell me she’s ready to orgasm any moment.
Releasing her breast, I sit up straddled over her body. Trying to stop myself for coming just at the sight of her half naked and baring more than her body for me.
“This is just the beginning, Mia. We have all night, and I’m going to make sure you can take it over and over again until you can’t scream my name anymore.” Her mouth drops open as I slide her shorts and panties down her legs.
My cock is throbbing so hard, and I can feel the pre-cum leaking, I just need to hold on, but the sight of her pussy right there for me to touch is making it near impossible. I know her breasts were like the forbidden fruit, but this is going to be like tasting the whole goddamn tree.
Moving my legs to between hers, she bends her knees and lets her legs fall to the side. Like an invitation. But I don’t care what her body is telling me, I need her head to be telling me the same thing.
“Are you okay, Mia? I need you to say it.”
There’s a disgruntled moan which almost makes me laugh.
“If you stop now, I will kill you, Lex. Fuck, do something!” She’s demanding now and I fucking love it.
“Oh, you want me to touch you, do you?” Playing with her a little, slowly dragging my finger up her inside leg but not quite reaching where she wants.
“Yes!” Her body rises off the bed where my finger goes.
“Lex, higher.” Seeing the pure fire in her eyes for the first time has me wanting to fuck her. She is so primed and ready to let her body come to life.
I’m aching to be inside her.
Playing with her is the perfect way to take her out of her head. She can’t think of anything except the frustration I’m giving her, but that will only last so long.
“Higher, like this?” My finger lightly swiping through her sex for the first time.
“Oh fuck…” She moans at the same time those same words leave my lips too.
“Oh fuck, baby, you are so wet for me.”
She’s biting her bottom lip trying to hold on as I slowly do it again, but this time stopping on her hard clit that is desperately waiting to be touched.
“This is what you need, isn’t it, beautiful.”
Her body is now matching the rhythm of my fingers as I leave my thumb on her clit and the others are rubbing her up and down just like she wants.
Suddenly her hand comes from her side and grabs my cock. I almost come instantly just having her touch me through my briefs.
“Off, take them off. I want to touch you. I’m choosing to touch you.” This dominant Mia is such a fucking turn-on. Having her take control of her own body is more than I hoped for.
“No, you get to take them off. It’s yours to unwrap.”
I stand next to the bed for her, as she moves as fast as she can in her totally heightened state.
“Are you my reward?” she says with tears in her eyes.
“I’m your star, baby,” I whisper as she drags my underwear down, and I kick them off for her. I don’t move, to give her time to take what she wants from me. Her eyes look up at me and never leave me. Her hands exploring my cock, I feel like I’m in heaven. Her hands are so small and delicate, her touch so soft. Nothing like I’m used to but my new favorite thing. She’s had tears running down her cheeks slowly ever since I said I’m her star, and I know they’re happy tears, so I leave her be. She’s reaching the pinnacle of claiming her life back and this is a massive thing for her.
Ownership and control of her body.
Lowering herself to the floor on her knees, she takes me in her mouth and I’m hanging by a thread.
“Fuck, Mia, that feels so good…that’s it, baby, just like that.” I can’t help but start rocking gently in and out of her mouth. I don’t grab her head because I won’t trap her in any way.
But I need to stop this, the moment she grabs my balls that are so sensitive and sore from being blue for days.
“Mia, stop, I need you to stop. I’m going to come, and I can’t go first, it needs to be you. I need to be inside you right now. Oh god, I’m desperate to feel you.” Reaching down with my hands under her arms, I pull her up to me.
“You are my world. I need to show you just how much you mean to me.” I kiss her as I pick her up and lay her down on the bed and crawl on top of her.
Both of us completely naked, pressed together for the first time.
As soon as I’m on top of her, the grinding of our bodies starts.
“Please tell me you’re on the pill? I don’t have a condom. I wasn’t expecting this.”
Her head nods as she’s struggling to say yes.
“I’m clean, I promise. I’ve never gone without.” It’s me who’s begging now.
“I trust you.”
The three words that kill me.
Her eyes tell me everything I need to know. She’s not only saying the three words, she feels it deep in her soul.
Taking my cock and running it up and down her pussy a few times to prepare her, I stop at the entrance. I need her to look at me. To really look at me and tell me she wants this. Not because she’s fighting demons or proving anything to herself.
But because she wants me.
“I will never take this for granted. It will always be like this.”
As I slide inside her, my world finally shifts to where it belongs.
Inside her.
Deep inside her.
“You own me, Mia. I’m yours forever.”
Her mouth open and head back, we dance our own form of sex.
The perfect kind.
The one that comes from a place of two souls joining, never to be parted again.
Both of us come together, and the high of the orgasm is such a rush that neither of us can say a word because there’s no air left between us.
Making love with a soul mate.
I can never go back from this.
MIA
Lying in his arms, the words ‘I’m your star’ keep playing over and over again in my head.
It’s all I ever wanted in my life. Someone who just wants me. Believes in me but gives me the space to be who I’m meant to be. They are the person I look to for guidance when times are tough. Just like I looked to the stars every night and wished for a better place.
Right here in his arms. This is my better place.
No doubt in my
mind.
His hand rubbing up and down my arm feels so reassuring. My head on his chest and hearing his heart beating. I’ve never felt such peace.
“Are you okay, Mia?” The words vibrate through his chest as he’s speaking.
“Perfect.” One word sums it up.
“Then I can’t improve on that.” His hand lifts my chin up to look at him.
“But are you really okay? I know that was a massive step for you, and I understand if you need to talk about it.” This man is incredible.
“Lex, you’re amazing. Constantly checking in on me.” I reach up to kiss him.
“That’s what boyfriends do. We take care of our girlfriends.”
“Well, it’s new territory for me.” Thinking a bit about what he said, I need to ask. “I know this is going to sound weird, but is that what it’s always like for you? Sex, I mean. Is that what it’s supposed to feel like?” How ridiculous at the age of thirty-eight and I’m asking about sex.
“Mia, firstly, you need to know you can ask me anything. Never worry about that. And secondly. Damn, I hope so. I’m going to be honest. What I just felt between us is nothing like my previous times. With you, it is as you said, perfect. So perfect I think I need to check to make sure I wasn’t dreaming. I mean, if we try again and it’s the same, then we know for sure. What do you think?” That rogue smile gets me every time.
“Nah, I think that’s enough. You only get one crack at perfection, so we don’t need to do it again.” Trying to keep a straight face isn’t working.
“You had me for about two seconds until your body shivered at the thought of me touching you again. Like this.” His hand moves from my arm and grabs my breast. “See that electricity that’s running through your body? You can’t turn that off. And I hope we never lose it.”
His lips take mine again, and I’m totally lost in the world we’re creating together. The one where I feel safe, treasured, and never have to share with the outside world.
